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Raise Your Vibration to Make it to the 4th Dimension 

Whenever I learn something of value, I aim to share it with as many people as possible.  Recently, I have read Handbook for the New Paradigm by George Green.  I love metaphysical books and proceeded to read his other two books, Becoming and Embracing the Rainbow.  All three books have been highly inspirational to me and have helped me think about life and the horrors of 2020 in a more enlightened and transcendent way.  So, I wrote this blog quoting a lot of Handbook for the New Paradigm with a lot of my own thoughts and insights mixed in.  Anything with quotes is from George Green’s book other than figures of speech I’ve used in this blog.  

“The ethnic and racial differences between individuals and groups are being stressed and agitated while at the same time you are being forced into a ‘one world government.  It is for the purpose of creating chaos and confusion within the psyche.”  It is ever more important to stay out of “controlled opposition” as much as possible.  Don’t decry those of a different political stance, spiritual belief set, ideology, ethnicity or form of identification.  Try to see our shared humanity and the truth that we are actually all one.  The dark powers that be don’t want us to be united have been too successful at their attempts to divide and conquer.  We now have several different ways to identify ourselves sexually and with regards to gender.  We now have several boxes to choose between when filling out forms that have questions asking about our ethnic or racial identity.  We now have several denominations of even one type of religion such as Christianity.  If we aren’t identifying as “liberal” or a “conservative” or a “Republican” or a “Democrat”, we are labelled as “lukewarm” or “noncommittal” and we don’t have a chance in hell of getting a politician elected that has not bought into the controlled opposition.  

“When a weak link or defection is found or manufactured within the members of their groups, there is almost a feeding frenzy upon that departing energy.  It is far more satisfying to them than the same event happening to one of the uninvolved human beings.”  This reminds me of “conspiracy theories” I have heard about certain celebrities being sacrificed within their own Luciferian or Satanic circles.  Examples include Kobe Bryant, Princess Diana, River Phoenix and a lot of first-born sons of many celebrities.  I don’t think sacrificial offerings are a thing of the past in certain “religions.”  I find it interesting that a lot of celebrities or their family members are dying since the “quarantine” related to Corona Virus started.  It’s almost as if they are upping their offerings and grasping at straws in desperation.  

“Remember they are creating what is not in accordance with the laws of God.  Their concentration is toward containment while your focus is toward rippling outward.”  

“What is wanted here is action, not reaction.  The resort to the use of arms against the plan for overwhelming mankind is doomed from the start.”  “It is imperative that it be understood that armed resistance is futile.” 

“Thought released to act upon itself will return in manifestation glorified and in a form more magnificent than the limited focused mind can imagine.”  “Purity of intent to harmonize as the motive is the primary prerequisite.” 

“Cooperation is a natural phenomenon as long as the need to control is absent.  The need to control is a learned activity that becomes habitual through the experience of it.” 

“Do not allow yourself to dwell upon the horrors of what is planned for you, but turn your thought to what it is that you would prefer to experience.”  

Practice the 4 basic Universal Laws with purity of thought.  They are: 

1.  The Law of Attraction – Like energy attracts more like energy.  Whatever experiences you create for others, you will have to experience.  If you desire something, adding strong emotion to the desire can increase the potential and speed of your desire manifesting.  “There must be an emotional desire to provide the fuel for the movement or change of energy from thought into expression.”  “The vision must be simple to be powerful.”  If you add too much detail to what you are desiring or envisioning, you blocking thousands of avenues of manifestation.  “The Law of Attraction is at the foundation of all other Laws.”  

2.  The Law of Intentional Creation – This is also called the Law of Purposeful Intention and the Law of Intentional Focus.  Hold a desired outcome within an emotional field of energy.  When attempting to create or manifest anything, it is wise to add “of highest and best good for all concerned” to your prayer or manifestation process.  “Requests that include ‘for the highest and best good of all concerned’ invokes a greater wisdom with extraordinary results.” “Using the qualifier ‘help us to help ourselves’ allows the helpers to help from a greater understanding that brings forth results undreamed of by those requesting it.”  A thought held within purposeful intent allows for manifestation.  “The intended thought through vibratory stimulation of it through emotion held firmly in place by commitment brings manifestation.” How to manifest:  “In order to come up with a statement of purpose, the parenting groups must spend personal time visualizing (dreaming) what each can conceive through imagination (going within the mind of God) and then attempting to put it into concise wording.  The process can begin with words, then mental movies, then words again, etc.”  “…begin formulating and dreaming scenarios within your own personal awareness.  This triggers the resonance of the law of attraction. ‘In the beginning there was the thought and the thought became flesh.’” 

3.  The Law of Allowance – Rather than trying to control a person, a situation or an outcome, let it go and allow it to become whenever it was meant to become.  According to George Green, this is the most difficult universal law to practice because of our tendency to want to control things, especially other people.  But we have to realize that everyone is on their own spiritual path.  Some people go in circles and having to learn and relearn the same lessons, sort of like repeating a grade in school over and over again.  We have to accept where people are on their own paths even if that means that we grow apart from them or they hurt themselves in the process.  Practicing the law of allowance involves the discernment of letting go of emotion to see logic.  Once we use emotion to practice the first two universal laws, we have to then let go of that emotion which is very hard for most of us to do.  If we can’t or won’t or don’t do this, the spiritual law of paradoxical intent kicks in and we push away that which we want too desperately.  “Application of the laws of allowance opens the door to experience the flow of creative energy.”  “It is within the law of allowance that it is appropriate to discuss abundance and luxury.”  “Abundance is living within the law of allowance for it allows all to also live in abundance.”  “It is not within the laws to take another’s abundance to add to your own.”  “Cooperation is the keynote and competition is the death knell of progress.”  The Law of Allowance speaks to personal responsibility.  “…one is concerned with the choosing of his/her own experience and is not responsible for the experience of others.”  “Allowance is the most difficult of the laws to be learned at the 3rd dimensional level because of the deeply ingrained need to control.  Control is transcended through the practice of the Law of Allowance.”  

4.  The Law of Harmony and Balance – This is the law that the evil planners and doers of this planet and throughout the universe are forgetting about in their “plot to enslave every man, woman and child in this country” quoting JFK.  JFK reportedly included this comment in one of his speeches 7 days before he was assassinated.  Of course, if you google this quote, it will say that the quote has been “fabricated” by “conspiracy theorists.”  But all major forms of media are owned by the evil planners.  The term “conspiracy theorist” was born out of the JFK assassination to quiet any dissenters of the official story that one man, Lee Harvey Oswald, killed JFK.  According to, the term “conspiracy” is defined as “an evil, unlawful, treacherous, or surreptitious plan formulated in secret by two or more person.”  By this definition, most of us are conspiracy theorists.  Anyone I know who was alive at the time of the JFK assassination, does not believe that only one man killed him.  Because the evil planners’ plans to lower our vibration do not fall within this law of harmony and balance, their plans are doomed to fail.  “…the critical mass point needed for evil intent is different than it is for intent of upliftment.”  “Lowering the vibratory rate is much more difficult than raising it.”  There are many who wonder why “God” allows evil to exist and the answer is “freewill.”  We are allowed to choose to act out of good or evil.  We are allowed to learn our spiritual lessons in our own time.  We were not made to be robots.  Robots are what the evil planners want us to be.  According to Edgar Cayce, we have all had an evil incarnation.  “You are programmed to think that the negative pole is always ‘bad.’ Within the context of the whole this is not true.  There is no electricity (energy moving) without both poles.”  “Within the two foci of positive/negative energy lies the center point of harmony.  This is the goal of all manifested energy, to exist within this harmonious point.”  “Unfortunately some of the predictions that have been made reflecting the plans of the dark side will manifest.  Though they seem to indicate that the situation is irreversible, it certainly is not.” 

Other ways to raise your vibration: 

- Transcend victim consciousness.  “The victim cannot be rescued, but must pull himself up by his own boot straps and rescue himself by being responsible for his own rescue.”  You are complicit in enabling victim consciousness with your sympathy.  “Your sympathy will not solve their misery.”  Instead, choose to “place your intent beyond the play perceived by the 5 senses, and place it instead into the creation of a new experience…”  When you do this, you are “withdrawing your consent and support of the experience in which you no longer wish to participate.”  “The victim attitude is deeply ingrained within humanity as a whole.  It shuts down the light of each child as soon as it is absorbed from the parental attitude.”  “…the moment you are born, you are taught to begin swimming upstream against the flow of creative expansion.”  Instead, “…begin swimming within the expansive flow.” 

- Focus on gratitude.  “God loves a grateful heart.”  

- Ask for assistance from your higher power.  Given that we have freewill, we must ask for help.  It is best to ask for help using the “affirmative prayer” which means “entering into the creative mode that is your pattern.”  

- Focus on planetary gain rather than personal gain.  When you are making an important decision, think about how your decision affects all parties involved and how your decisions, choices, actions and words ripple out to affect everyone in your community, in your country, on your planet and really, in the universe.  “It is the pursuit of the creation of your personal fiefdoms and in the competition to create one of greater opulence and grander physical pleasures that have you trapped.  These are empty promises to fill the void of imbalance that you feel within.” 

- Look for answers within yourself and honor your intuition rather than trying to bypass its wisdom with over analysis.  Don’t look to any kind of authority, whether celebrity, military or government, to tell you what to do with your life.  Don’t give up your own personal volition and sense of responsibility in following “orders” of superiors whether in the family, personal circles, church, workplace, community, country, or world.  You can certainly listen to the suggestions and advice of those who you look up to, but then decide for yourself how to proceed.  In this age of Aquarius, we pay homage to the brain and the mind.  We don’t see how the heart is way more powerful than the brain.  We bypass our intuition with our over analysis.  We prefer to think through a problem than feel our way through a problem.  Those who are sensitive or emotional are seen as “unhinged” or lacking in intelligence.  We revere those who seem cool, rational, logical and unmoved by emotion.  They, therefore, become our leaders, our government officials, and our CEO’s.  We are easily mind controlled by subliminal messages in our media and other forms of manipulation and persuasion.  “The oppressors must work with the levels of the mind while it might be said that we have available the levels of the ‘heart.’  The heart feels.  A feeling can transform the beliefs held by the mind.  When the feeling vibrates within the being at a certain level, it overrides the belief and the being simply tosses it out and follows the feeling to a new conclusion.”  

- Spend time in nature or “off the grid” of the electronic, media and technological forms of influence, mind control and brain washing.  “…there is the moment of now that you experience that is not either past or future.  That is your balance point.  It is your place of rest.”  This can be reached through deep abdominal breathing, meditation, mindfulness, being in nature, or getting away or unplugging from technology and electronic devices.  “In order to live the new paradigm of experience those participating will be required to focus within present time.”  “There was a time as the planet revolved in the cycle of light and darkness, all were active or resting in unison which brought greater balance to the whole.  With the advent of artificial lighting, this balancing pattern is no longer present.”  “Balance is reached through the understanding and practice of the three basic laws of the universe:  attraction, deliberate creation and allowance.”  “When the time arrives for what could be termed the crash of all your systems of communications, utilities and supplies, there will be turmoil and confusion of massive proportions.”  “As our arrogant planners flaunt their methodology before your eyes assuming that sleeping minds have little discernment between programming and entertainment, there is not reason we cannot use this information to our advantage.”  “Movies and television have been their tools of deception.  However, the pictures that are brought forth by the imagination are far more powerful.”  “The current cartoons for children and movies have been provided to repress the inner imagination and stifle the creative instinct.”  “Pictures program the subconscious.” 

- Pray: “I am a human becoming, help me to become.”  “…you give away your power to an ego that does not exist.  Denial is the shield of the empowered Ego that fosters victimhood as a result.  This prayer will end the deification of the ego.”  “The higher the degree of self awareness implies a higher vibratory rate or dimension of experience.”  

- Find ways to unite and recognize the truth:  that we are all one.  “Meet in 3s, 7s and 12s.” “Know that all help possible will be given upon request.”  Do not fall into the “controlled opposition” that is aimed to divide us and get us to argue and debate with each other.  

- Learn the pathology of narcissism, psychopathy and sociopathy.  Learning about those who fall within the “dark triad” of personality will help you recognize who to not enable, listen to or allow yourself to be influenced by.  Often, those in the dark triad, enlist unsuspecting assistants into their plans to control, destroy and smear others.  Of course, even people who seem to be “of the light” may be deceiving you so always consult your intuition if you are not sure of one’s intent.  

- Follow what gives you joy into greater expression.  A lot of people are working their lives away in jobs that do not give them joy or jobs that are, whether knowingly or not, are serving the dark forces of this world or are stifling the creativity or spiritual growth of others.  A lot of people are in traumatic work situations or are working just to pay off debts, put their kids into college, pay the bills or just survive.  But their occupation gives them no joy and in fact, may rob them of their joy or life force.  Many teenagers and young adults are being pressured by their education systems and families to get good grades and get into good colleges and get degrees in order to get high paying jobs and to choose a profession even though they don’t know what they want to do with their lives yet.  They are being sold on the myth that this pathway is what makes one happy in life.  This pathway is:  do good in school, go to a good college, get a degree, get a high paying job, get a house and car, get married and have kids, retire and travel and/or spend time with your grandchildren.  While this route may be part of the spiritual path of some, it is not the spiritual path of others.  If what you truly love to do doesn’t fall within societal or family expectations, do it anyway as long as it brings no true spiritual harm to others.  

We are caught in a rat race, on a hamster wheel.  In our frenzied busyness, we are distracted from evil intent and actions.  We are oppressed with debt in our attempts to survive in ever more expensive world.  This leads some to hopelessness, a feeling of despair that we cannot even afford to live.  Some of us become dependent on the government, whether we have aimed to do so or not.  George Green says, “You have your addictive paycheck system to depend upon, along with Social Security.”  Those who try to be independent of the government, such as the self-employed or owners of small businesses, are made to suffer and penalized in various insidious ways for their attempts to dare to be free of the oppression.  “The accumulation of wealth is motivated by the desire for protection which is based in fear of what the future may hold and fed by the empowered ego through competition.” 

More Advice and Insights from Benevolence: 

“… stand forth in determination to detach from emotion of overwhelm and to observe from a space that is beyond the reach of the control techniques.”  

“It might be appropriate to define mantra.  It is a short series of sounds or words that brings about balance within what you call the subconscious awareness.  Often the sounds are from ancient languages that are not consciously understood, but resonate at the DNA/RNA level of the body bringing about change in an outward flowing manner.”  

Regarding those of evil intent, “…they have studied you well.  Every weakness is known and is being exploited for their purposes.  However, their focus was upon inducing your cooperation rather than resisting them until it is too late for you to do so.  They carefully laid plans to overwhelm you both sensually and physically.”  

We are programmed to idolize fame and fortune.  “Your heroes are all well paid sports or movie stars.”  “Your movie star heroes are drugged and adulterous in open display along with your presidential movie star.”  

“Remember if you can be held at the lowest level of your dimension, you cannot take advantage of the dimensional leap at the shift of the cycles, but can instead be taken to an even lower level of vibration.  At that point it is their intention to separate the soul energy from the body.”  

“Thought provides the mobility that allows Creation to flow into manifestation.  Thought has the potential of thinking within and upon itself.  This is another way of describing Freewill.”  

“Through long planted misinformation by the religions on your planet, you think of the focused assistance as coming to you from the outside.”  “…the flow of creation is from the inside out.  It is an expansive process.”  

“The normal vibratory rate of a human body has been determined to be between 62 and 68 MHz.  The brain functions optimally between 72 and 90 MHz.  When the body vibration lowers to 58 MHz, it can ‘catch a cold’; at 57 MHz the flu; 55 MHz candida; 52 MHz Epstein Barr; 42 MHz cancer and at 25 MHz death begins.”  “Allopathic medicine (a misnomer), chemical prescriptions, lower the MHz of the body.  Radiation from TV and computer screens lower the MHz, and consuming processed and canned foods, which have 0 MHz to support the body, continue the process.”  “When your brain wave is 90 MHz or less, you are unable to tune your radio like brain to universal flow and receive the keys to the mysteries of galactic intentional focus.”  

Therefore, one should aim to eat whole foods, have a plan to get off prescription drugs if able or don’t get on them in the first place, disengage as much as possible from electronic devices, and seek out naturopathic doctors or other healers that don’t rely mostly on prescription drugs to treat various ailments and conditions.  If you are going to partake of the allopathic medicine model, balance it with alternative medicine, healing methods that have been suppressed from the indigenous healers, and adjunct therapy modalities.  

With regards to food, Mr. Green recommends that one try to cut out caffeine, carbonation, over cooked foods and consider more raw foods or foods cooked over shorter periods of time.  He further states, “Over eating causes the body to use its energy digesting rather than using it for more productive modes.  Smaller amounts of nourishing foods allow the body to use its available energy in other activities and to possibly require shorter sleep periods.”  “Also, the use of the sugar substitute […] is slowly destroying the ability of the brain to function as it destroys the nerve endings.”  “Further, low fat/high sugar bearing carbohydrate diets are starving the brain cells.  All of this is part of the plan, remember they understand the functions of the physical body well enough to be able to develop techniques to weaken the connection of the being to its vibratory source in hopes it can be broken at their moment of choosing.”  

“Within the holographic process is the element of maintaining the focus to enable manifestation to complete its intended cycle.  The focus of thought is maintained for long periods of time (…) by setting the vibratory oscillations within a range that emanates sound.  This is duplicated in crude form by your music.  In purity it can be grasped as being of a crystalline bell like quality.  Tibetan bells give you an inkling of the reverberations that continue for long periods of time, beyond what the human ear can hear.”  “There is present within each galaxy a continuous melody of bell like sounds which is perceived in part by some and referred to as ‘the music of the spheres’ which is a perfect description.”  “Earth is at the moment quite out of tune.  Contemplate the resonance of the crystalline music of the spheres and then think of punk rock.  That might be thought of as the resonant sound of the planned new galaxy.”  “This is the reason that rock music is so destructive to the balance of the young people.  It is designed to be unbalanced and discordant in its basic construction.  It reflects outward the inner imbalance of its composers and it enhances chaotic tendencies with in the psyche of those spending long and frequent time listening to it.  The bridge for this phase from romantic sexually stimulating music was the Beatles.  Their early music contained melodies with a lessor amount of distortion as is demonstrated by the orchestral versions.  It did however open the door for the more destructive distortions that inevitably followed.  Again all part of the plan to slow and hold down the human vibration.”  

George Green talks about the “volunteers” as has Dolores Cannon and other metaphysical speakers and authors.  “These are souls that are volunteering to be here for the benefit of this planet and these beings have incarnated here for the purpose of experiencing the next rising or at the least to assure its success.” Dolores has referred to the “three waves of volunteers” in her writings.  The volunteers are sometimes referred to as “lightworkers.”  Mr. Green writes:  “These volunteers are numerous and await the triggers planted within their awareness to remember their roles.  The time has come for this to begin!”  If you are a healer, speaker, writer, psychic, creative or educator in any way, you might be one of these volunteers or lightworkers.  We came here to help out humanity, to help as many as possible transcend to the 4th dimension.  However, we came to Earth at a cost, at a risk and some of us have succumbed to the lower vibrational states here on Earth, also called “the prison planet.”  

“Each of you has programmed within the deep levels of your awareness the memory of the purpose you came into this lifetime to accomplish.”  “When the focus is on reacting to what is perceived as imminent danger, then momentum is lost.”  

“Even people who have heard and consciously rejected the information reflect a degree of light and it remains waiting to fully reflect.”  

You may have heard that there is spiritual war going on right now.  There has been lots of talk about this.  It is important to realize that the old must be released in order for the new to be ushered in.  And the process of releasing the old can look like chaos and confusion.  Have faith and have hope.  Things happen on the astral plane a year or so before we see it on the earth’s 3rd dimensional stage.  And remember, “…God’s plans cannot be thwarted.”  

“This is the mission you have literally trained yourself to take part in, so don’t drop the ball now.  There is nothing more important in your current realm of experience.”  

Again, everything that in quotes is from George Green’s book Handbook for the New Paradigm, other than euphemisms and figures of speech.  Though I have shared a lot here from George Green’s book, Handbook for the New Paradigm, I don’t think he will mind because my intent is to get the message out, not to claim any glory for myself.  Besides, Mr. Green writes, “Egos must be in their observer states for the credit of writing will go to no one individual.”  Additionally, I highly suggest reading George Green’s other two books, Becoming and Embracing the Rainbow.  These books have been life changing for me.  I thought my chance to go to the “New Earth” had been missed and I had other existential and spiritual questions and concerns.  These three books by George Green answered all my existential questions and inspired me to remain transcendent at this very difficult time in Earth’s history.  May you be inspired as well… 

“Sometimes it is necessary for darkness to descend before people can become aware of a light that has been shining all along.” 

Celebrate Your Eternal Freedom this Fourth of July 

Fourth of July is my favorite holiday.  For one, it takes place in the summer which is beautiful and much appreciated here in the northwest where it rains so often.  Secondly, I treasure the concept of freedom.  However, our collective and individual freedoms have been hindered this Fourth of July as we are no longer allowed to: 

- Go in public without a mask on – which is certainly challenging for anyone with a lung or breathing issue but on a basic level, is a way to cover and suppress our throat chakra which represents our ability to speak up or speak out against anything whether that be mandatory vaccinations or anything that is not considered politically correct.  In fact, isn’t it interesting that censorship is on the rise and freedom of speech is being threatened?  David Icke was banned from Facebook and YouTube.  Most of the truthtellers I follow on YouTube are either being demonetized or their streams are being messed with or their videos are being deleted or they’re being threatened with being kicked off YouTube or their subscribers are not being notified of their new videos or live streams.  For those who have suffered trauma around the mouth, such as dental trauma or being gagged or being orally raped, having to wear a mask certainly activates a lot of trauma.  However, if you dare to go around not wearing a mask, not only are you facing possible legal ramifications but you will also experience people giving you the evil eye, on a mild level, and screaming or talking down to you, on a more severe level.  Sloan Bella, a truthteller I follow on YouTube, says that it’s going to be a civil war between the masks and the unmasks, between those who fight against and those who submit to the agenda of the sociopaths and psychopaths that rule this prison planet. 
- Praise and worship in the physical presence of our spiritual communities which affects our spiritual health which in turn affects our mental and physical health and also strengthens the ability of the Satanists and Luciferian sects of the world to attack us, especially those they despise the most:  Christians.  “For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.”  Matthew 18:20 NIV 
Be with our older adults, who are already at risk of suffering from depression due to the marginalization and isolation inherent in that population.  Older adults are more susceptible to the COVID19 virus.  They are being quarantined in assisted living facilities, nursing homes, and hospitals where they may be forced to die alone.  
- Celebrate with our friends and family whether that be celebrations of life (memorials, funerals, etc), holidays, birthdays, anniversaries, graduations, births and other opportunities to get together without fear of judgment from the strict rule followers that attack others on behalf of the establishment.  Never mind the fact that we are social beings who, no matter how introverted we are, need social interaction for our survival.  In fact, there were studies done where infant monkeys chose a wire mom monkey covered with terrycloth over a wire mom monkey with a bottle.  There was also that very unethical study done by Holy Roman Emperor Frederick II in the 13th Century where infants were neglected to determine if they might develop a natural language on their own.  Instead, those infants died from the lack of social interaction.  
- Attend to our mental health, which affects physical health.  Part of mental health is social interaction and I don’t mean through social media.  In fact, there are studies that link increased screen time to increased depression and anxiety.  Since the quarantine started, domestic violence is on the rise, drug and alcohol abuse is on the rise and so is depression and anxiety.  Mental health professionals, such as myself, are booked up.  More people are depressed to the point of being suicidal.  Therefore, for some people, being isolated and quarantined isn’t keeping them alive, it’s literally killing their spirits.  And a body without a spirit is a zombie, a narcissist or a sociopath, or a host to demonic entities.  I suppose that is what some of us in power want us to be:  any or all of those things. f

Some of my favorite memories in life are from the Fourth of July.  I grew up in Tacoma, Washington and my siblings and I would ride our bikes down to the firework stand and buy as many fireworks as we could to save up for Independence Day.  In those days, you couldn’t buy matches as a kid but you could buy fireworks.  On the third of July, we’d go to Cheney Stadium where we would watch the local baseball team, the Tacoma Tigers who later became the Tacoma Rainiers, and then watch the fireworks show following the game.  The next day, we would go to my grandmother’s house, who lived in Old Town Tacoma by the waterfront, every 4th of July.  There would be a lot of food there to eat but we would also walk down to the Freedom Fair on the Tacoma Waterfront and buy food like elephant ears from the food vendors, buy goods from the artists and other vendors and enjoy the air show which consisted of the Blue Angels and supersonic jets that travelled faster than the speed of sound.  After that, we’d walk back up to my grandmother’s house until it was dark at which time, we’d walk down to a hilly street called Carr Street, where we’d put down our blankets and watch the fireworks show.  

So, for me, other than representing freedom, the Fourth of July also represented a chance to be around friends and family and have fun together.  Now both freedom and celebrating with friends and family is being threatened.  However, I’m a big believer in seeing the silver lining in everything.  I am reminded of the scripture:  “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.” – Genesis 50:20 NIV 

As a Pisces, I tend to look at everything from a spiritual perspective.  I just got done reading the book “Charmed by Darkness” by Roger Morneau, a Satanist turned Christian and spiritual warrior.  I was struck by one passage in the book which inspired me to a write a song called “Eternal Freedom” in celebration of this Fourth of July.  You can find the song at:

And here’s the passage that inspired me from Mr. Morneau’s book: 

“Like a bird released from the snare of the fowler, springing forth in the direction of the sun with a sense of liberty that a freed captive alone could understand, so was my joy in the Lord and my realization of the fact that Jesus had put an end to my captivity to the spirits, and opened the way for my visiting many of His beautiful worlds in the galaxies, through the eternal age.”  






Why You Don't Want to be "Discovered" 

Most independent musicians, bands and singers want to be "discovered" by a music mogul, record company or A&R person.  What they don't realize is that being discovered is the start of being indoctrinated in the music business and losing your creative freedom.  From the time you are signed, you have basically sold your soul to the devil.  If you used to make inspiring and uplifting music, that will soon change.  

When you sign a contract with a major label or any of their subsidiaries, you are signing away your freedom to say and do whatever you like, make the kind of music you want to make and often times, you are signing away your creative works, the ability to choose what your creative works will be, your ability to profit from those works and your likeness and image into "all of perpetuity."  

Those who stray from the script they are given or the role that are made to play, such as John Lennon when he started writing and releasing songs like "Imagine", may be killed off by a mind-controlled assassin.  Those that try to backpedal or get out of the contract that they have signed, start getting bad publicity usually around mental health, and start losing their income and their fan base.  If you don't get back in line, you are either replaced, blackballed or ostracized and publicly scored, or all of the above.  If you try to change the system from within or leave the system, such as Kurt Cobain tried to do, you are killed off and it is made to look like a suicide, an overdose, an accident, a stroke or a heart attack.  Or you simply disappear into obscurity by design.

It is only those that are willing to follow orders, or those that are of the same ilk as the powers that be, that are promoted or get the most fame, followers, fortune, promotion or backing from the system.  What you are then left with in today's music business is a bunch of talentless hacks and writers that are releasing meaningless music, or even worse, mass grabs into the dark energies and forces or subliminal messages that make us afraid, lustful, angry or subdued into submission. 

In his book, Charmed by Darkness, Roger Morneau, demon worshiper turned Christian prayer warrior, writes about meeting the man, a successful band leader at the time, who introduced him to the world of demon worship so prevalent among those who “make it” in the music or film industry or any facet of life.  That man, called George, tells the author:

”Recognition came to us overnight; without any effort on our part, we were discovered (though we had been there all along) and recognized as one of the great bands in our field. Somehow, the news media got all excited over us. We became the talk of the town. We were spoken of by the great people of the radio world, and in no time we were pushed to the top.”

The days of finding spiritual unity at music concerts is a thing of the past.  Today's concerts are designed to serve the agenda of materialism, mind control and devolvement.  In today's reality, a person's image or body may have been replaced with a hologram or with today's science, even a clone.  At worst, there’s the possibility of the artist being forced out of their body while some other entity is enjoying the adoration of the fans and the fruits of your labor.  So, you don't really know what you are going to get.  We are fighting a spiritual war between the forces of darkness and the forces of light.  And the forces of darkness feed off of our fear and negative emotions.  Which side are you going to fight for?  

I still have hope that we can find our way back to spiritual unity and togetherness and human touch.  I have hope that we can free ourselves from the agendas of this prison planet.  I have hope that we can have the highest expressions of truth and love and have the freedom to say what we want to say without fear of endangerment or public humiliation.  My vote is for spiritual freedom and freedom in all ways that serve the good, the truth, the light, the love in the world that so threatens the dark.  We can free ourselves and we can stay free by refusing to be indoctrinated and following our intuition.  

Managing Perception 

The desire to manage the perception of others is a normal desire.  What we post on Facebook, Instagram and other social media outlets is typically showing off our best sides only.  The human race, at this time in history, is turning to movies, television, drugs and alcohol, gaming and other forms of addiction, entertainment and distraction in order to cope with the stark reality of what is going on in the world, and in order to keep believing in the hopes and dreams that we are being fed from those in positions of power around the world.   Some of us are okay with not knowing and not seeing these dark truths and some of us are in outright denial of these dark truths to the point of attacking anyone who tries to expose them or dismissing them as crazy or conspiracy theorists. 

While the need to manage the perception of others is not usually done with malicious intent, this need to manage other's perception goes to a pathological extreme when we are talking about narcissists, psychopaths, sociopaths or anyone in the dark triad of the human personality spectrum.  Unfortunately, many people in positions of power fall into this category because the people in the dark triad tend to seek out positions of power, don't get their feathers ruffled under pressure due to their low empathy and desire for high stakes and high risks situations (adrenaline junkies), and due to their ability to be very self-promoting and tendencies to deny or discount any flaws or weaknesses while playing up their strengths.  In other words, they are experts at manipulation and managing perception.  

However, the management of perception doesn't stop with how they want others to view them but extends to how others view others, view the world and view themselves.  And why do we believe them?  Because we, who are children of God, follow the Golden Rule - treat others the way you would want to be treated.  Because we give people the benefit of the doubt.  Because we assume everyone thinks and acts like us, with some sort of moral code.  Because we believe everyone is basically good.  Because we can't bring ourselves to believe the horrors that are going on in the world.  Because we can't bring ourselves to even look or listen to the horrors that are going on in the world even when they have been proven to be true.  It is simply too overwhelming to do for too long if one is an empathetic soul because we hurt when others hurt and we don't want to hurt.  

Looking for a Savior 

The search for a savior goes back eons.  While I think it is important to rely on a higher power and lean not on your own understand and I think it's important to be connected to the divine source of good, I think this need for a savior has to be balanced with the need to take responsibility for your own life, your own choices and that of your brother, children especially.  I do consider myself a Christian and as such, I do consider myself saved by the blood of Christ.  Some, such as David Icke, whom I actually follow and respect, say that a man named Jesus never existed.  Icke is entitled to his opinion.  In fact, I enjoy listening to him speak and reading his books more than I enjoy listening to some judgmental, holier-than-thou Christians speak. 

I have never been more judged in this life than I have by any group of people more than I have by Christians.  In a very narcissistic way, the hardcore ones, the "fundamentals", dismiss those of other beliefs and religions with more disdain than any other group of people other than, perhaps, new agers, Satanists and Luciferians.  It's no surprise, then, that a lot of Christians look at Trump at the second coming of Christ and as their Savior.  They are hoping that Trump saves them from the COVID-19 virus, from the Satanists and Luciferians, from war, death and destruction.  They are worshiping Trump as if he is a God ,as if he is Jesus Christ and that sickens me.  Some also worship someone they call Q, who some believe is actually Trump, and hope that Q saves them from all of these things.  They worship Trump and Q the same way Satanists worship Satan and demons, the same way that some of the Luciferians, the Hollywood elite, worship Tom Hanks.  The Luciferians are always trying to get Hanks' attention so they can climb the glamour ladder and be saved from whatever dilema they are facing.  I'm seeing 2 sides of one coin here with the hardcore Christians and new agers and the Satanists and Luciferians.

Am I being a "lukewarm" Christian?  According to some Christians, absolutely.  They have told me what to believe, to believe as they do, to not think or decide for myself and to deride other people, especially gay people and those of other beliefs and religions.  Like everyone else, they interpret the bible in a way that suits their agenda and life.  They are apparently closer to God than I am, better Christians than I am and more wise, intelligent, faithful and smart than I am.  But isn't that being just as narcissistic as the Hollywood elite and the "powerful" people in international finance and government? I'm not say that these Christians engage in pedophiliic, cannibalistic or other downright depraved behaviors, but the judgement and the narcissism and the rigid thinking and the fixed mindset and the need to worship someone other than God or Jesus, someone in a power of position or influence in this world, is pretty much the same.  

And then, there's the new agers who believe that everybody should take a chill pill and be at one with everything in the world and transcend all the negativity by only focusing on the positive and turning a blind eye to all of the abuse, neglect and terrorism, especially to children, that is taking place in the world.  After all, many of these new agers believe that they are going to the "new earth", just like some luciferians believe they are the "enlightened ones" and are going to go colonize another planet, and don't give a rat's ass about those who are apparently going to be left behind on this prison planet.  There are some in the new age and/or occult world, like Sloan Bella, who I do follow because they are willing to talk about the dark side too instead of turning a blind eye to all the debauchery and darkness that exists on this planet.  Isn't wanting everything to be roses just like the Luciferians wanting everything and everyone, especially themselves, to look good just like the narcissists?  The Satanists, as well, want to everything to go their way and don't care who suffers, as long as it's not them, as a result.  

Trump is a narcissist in my humble opinion.  He fits all the DSM 5 criteria for narcissistic personality disorder (NPD), loves the sound of his own voice and only sees things from his own perspective and therefore, gaslights others.  As a survivor of 25 years of narcissistic abuse, I can spot a narcissist from a distance just like those who have been sexually abused in childhood can easily spot a pedophile.  From a spiritual perspective, narcissists are hollow and empty inside.  They are soulless, if you will.  There's a body but no soul.  The soul already left the body or there was no soul in the first place.  Therefore, they feed off the energy of others and operate mostly from or only from the reptilian part of the triune brain.  As a hollow shell, any disembodied soul, hungry ghost or demonic entity can enter.  This is true, as well, for those who dare to ingest mind-altering substances - they open themselves for other entities to come on in and take over either temporarily or for good.  

Donald Trump comes from a narcissistic and corrupt family.  Do your own research on his ancestry and you will see this.  You will know good fruit or bad fruit by the seeds they produce and we all have to pay for the sins of our fathers.  People with NPD rarely change.  They typically get worse, more paranoid and more abusive and manipulative of others, with age.  However, I do believe that God can change anyone's heart.  But such a person has to ask for God to change their heart because God gave us all freewill.  Perhaps, Donald Trump did just that.  Perhaps, an angelic being walked into his body to direct things in a way that lightens up the dark.  With more fluidity of thought being one of my spiritual lessons in this life, I'm certainly willing to consider that possibility.  After all, Trump apparently did more to stop child trafficking than any other U.S. president before him and more importantly, the children that have been kept underground, in the tunnels that go from Mexico to the northern borders of the U.S., are currently being rescued under Trump's watch. 

Some say that he is "dropping hints" to the public.  Apparently, he isn't willing to go fully out on a limb to tell us the entire truth of what's really going on if he's only dropping hints.  Is that saving the world or saving your own ass?  Is that acting in the best interests of the people or acting for self interests such as, oh I don't know, getting elected for another 4 years.  Additionally, he is part of the cogwheel that is keeping us imprisoned in our houses, covering up the deeper truth of what those in power around him, other than the democrats, of course, or anyone else who personally offends him, is really doing or has been really doing, and continues to talk himself and his own perspective up.  And those who follow him and disdain others of different beliefs, only enable and reflect his narcissism.  Everyone deserves to have a voice.  Everyone's opinion deserves to be heard.  No one deserves to be scapegoated or have someone else's shadow projected on to them.  I understand that there is a spiritual war going on right now and that people have to "pick a side" - good or evil.  As a victim of narcissistic abuse, I have seen that evil truly does exist and understand that not every man is good.  However, the children of God need unity, not division and separation.  We need to respect others' experiences, perspectives and beliefs, not try to control them or push our beliefs on to others.  Otherwise, we are gaslighting others and being narcissistic as well.  

As for myself, I do not belief Trump is going to "save" me.  I do not believe Q is going to save me.  I do not believe Tom Hanks is going to save me.  I get that Trump is a position of power that doesn't mean that he is savior and that doesn't mean that we should give away our power to him.  I made the mistake of giving my power away to my narcissistic ex and idealizing him as well.  I vow not to make that mistake again with anyone.  I understand the need to have a savior, to look for a savior and to want to be rescued and saved by someone outside of ourselves.  Some of us, especially children, do need an advocate to speak on their behalf and to rescue them from the horrors of this world.  However, the majority of us need to step into our own power while respecting the power that others want to have.  It doesn't have to be a dog-eat-dog world.  I'm all for repsecting others' beliefs as long as you aren't hurting anyone, children especially, in the process of believing what you believe and saying what you want to say and doing what you want to do.  

My Inheritance on Celebrating Motherhood Series 

Thank you to Bree Noble and everyone at WOS (Women of Substance) Radio for featuring my song, My Inheritance, on their upcoming Celebrating Motherhood Series May 4-10, 2020.  My Inheritance, a song I wrote for my mother, will be featured on Friday 5/8/20 on the #1 New & Noteworthy and Award Winning Women of Substance Music Podcast.  Listen in at:

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COVID-19 Conspiracies 

There are many COVID-19 conspiracies out there and I don't disagree with some of them.  I think it is important to validate peoples' feelings about being socially isolated which incites depression or anxiety in anyone with an empathetic soul.  According to the Oxford dictionary, the definition of "conspiracy" is "a secret plan by a group to do something unlawful or harmful."  By that definition, conspiracies do exist and exist plentifully in this age of narcissism, selfishness, greed and psychopathy.  It is a spiritual war that we are ultimately fighting.  We are fighting for our very freedom and our souls as God's children.  I wanted to document some of the conspiracies despite the possibility of being called "crazy" as most people who are willing and brave enough to speak up are called.  Calling someone a "conspiracy theorist" is a way of discrediting and silencing anyone with a different point of view.  Our very freedom of speech and our diversity of thought, beliefs and ideas is being threatened as a result.  It took me a long time to write about the Corona Virus conspiracies because I wanted to actually listen to all them, that I know of up to this point, before formulating my own ideas in a way that I could manage writing about. 

When I heard about "the tunnel kids", my heart hurt and I felt deeply disturbed.  Being a social worker and mental health professional for 20 years, I'm not new to stories of sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse and neglect.  I'm not new to hearing about and knowing about the underbelly of human society where people are raped and tortured.  Being a survivor of 25 years of narcissistic abuse, I understand the dual nature of some "people" who walk this earth.  However, when I heard that children, some who have never seen the light of day, who are malnourished and deformed, are being rescued from the tunnels, used to transport drugs but also to traffic children, that span from Mexico to the northern border of the United States, I was almost incredulous about it.  You certainly won't hear about the tunnel kids on mainstream media but you will hear about it on alternative media, most notably YouTube and Twitter.

I've heard about these kids from many different sources but I first heard about it from Sloan Bella, a metaphysician, on YouTube, who is able to channel dead celebrities like LeRoi Moore, Chris Cornell, Chester Bennington, Isaac Kappy, and Brittany Murphy, who were all trying to expose the truth behind the fact that 800,000 children go missing every year.  These celebrities are "suicided" or died under suspicious circumstances before they had the chance to get the word out.  According to Sloan and other truth tellers I follow on social media, such as Jamie DLux, there are many tunnels under Washington DC and Hollywood in particular.  And according to Sloan, some of the "earthquakes" we have been hearing about happening in the United States since the social distancing mandates began, are really the tunnels being blown up.  It is unclear to me who is blowing up those tunnels.  Is it the government?  Is it the "cabal" that David Icke speaks of that is trying to hide their tracks?  The government is part of the cabal according to David Icke.  If you don't know who David Icke is by now, you should certainly watch the recent video he did on London Real that went viral where he talks about the "psychopaths" that are in charge of this world.  Icke is the author of many books that expose pedophiles and psychopaths in powerful positions in this world.  He's been talking about "conspiracy theories" for 30 years and people used to dismiss him as "crazy" but now people are actually listening to him and turning to him for information.  

According to Icke, COVID-19 is a "scam" and people who are supposedly dying of COVID-19 are really dying from other conditions but COVID-19 is being put down as the cause of death on their death certificates to inflate the numbers.  He says that this is all heading towards mandatory vaccination, something Bill Gates is obviously pushing, which is a way of injecting the population with microchips in order to track us and control us.  He adds that the tests that test for COVID-19 actually test for any strain of the Corona Virus and not specifically for COVID-19.  He further talks about the connection between the roll out of 5G technology and the symptoms that sound like COVID-19 - trouble breathing being a big one.  He feels that the social distancing mandates related to COVID-19 are really a way of keeping people off the streets and distracted while these 5G towers are being built up everywhere.

Sloan talks about the COVID-19 social distancing mandates being about a way to distract people and keep them from seeing things as well.  Some of what we aren't seeing is that all of these children are being brought up from the tunnels they have been trafficked and some of them, living in.  However, she doesn't disagree with a lot of what David Icke is saying as well.  Both say that COVID-19 was developed in a lab.  If you look at Event 201 and the simulations for a high level pandemic that took place on October 18, 2019 in New York, NY at John Hopkins Center for Health Security in partnership with the World Economic Forum and none other than the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation, you could see how this whole thing that we are dealing with now with COVID-19 has been planned.  

Still others follow QANON, an individual or group of individuals that purport to have classified information that they have been leaking to the public in attempt to expose the "deep state" plot against President Donald J Trump and his supporters.  Some people believe "Q", as their followers call them, is a government insider and others, especially a lot of hardcore Christians, follow Q and listen to their every word because they believe Trump to be a savior of sorts.  They point to Trump's outstanding record of convicting child abusers.  Others believe Trump is dropping hints to the public about what's really going on.  David Wilcock, who seems to love the sound of his own voice and is dismissive of anyone with a different view point, seems just as narcissistic as Trump so it's not surprising that he is among these Trump supporters who view Trump as a savior of sorts.  Being that Trump is an obvious narcissist, I find it naive to believe that he is a savior.  However, I also believe that a narcissist cannot change who they are unless they ask God for a new heart and perhaps Trump did just that.  

David Wilcock has talked about these three days of darkness where the world will be without power.  He and others point to the bible verses Exodus 22 and Ezekiel 34:11-12.  Others point to mystics and saints such as Marie Julie Jahenny who was born in 1850 and was a Third Order Franciscan mystic who reported having visions about the three days of darkness covering the whole earth.  Also, Anna-Maria Taigi (1769-1837) was a mystic who claimed to receive prophecy about the "last days."  Some also quote Padre Pio who seemed to describe the three days of darkness.  Some believe that the three days of darkness will begin on Good Friday which is this Friday, April 10th.  

It is interesting that social distancing mandates have not only affected our ability to connect with each other and benefit from physical and energetic affection and connection.  It also affects our ability to pray in numbers in close contact with each other - something that makes prayer especially powerful.  In his book, Out of the Devil's Cauldron, author John Ramirez talks about how he turned from being a Satanist to being a Christian.  He says that he enjoyed attacking Christians especially energetically during his days in Santeria.  However, he found that he could not attack the people or neighborhoods that had been praying.  Pray is always most effective where 2 or more are gathered.  We have been scattered and separated from each other during this time of social distancing.  But nothing can stop us from praying.   

Black Sunday 

I was going to write a blog on Sunday 1/26/20 called “modern day devil worship.” However, then I heard the news about the death of Kobe Bryant and I decided I would do a blog about him and the events surrounding his death instead. Being an intuitive, I think it’s interesting that I was going to do a blog about modern day devil worship and I also find it interesting that a few days before his death, I had a vision of an open grave knowing that some someone close to me or meaningful to me was going to die. Sometimes I have this kind of an image or feeling or dream when someone famous dies. For instance right before prince died, I had a dream that my sister died. This may be because my psyche associates Prince with my sister as my sister is the one who got us tickets to the Prince concert at The Gorge in George, Washington.   

But back to Kobe, I find it interesting that he died in an “accident“ that involved children, that occurred on a Sunday, the day after LeBron James passed him on the NBA scoring list, and the morning of the day a big event such as The Grammy’s is about to be held in the same event center where Kobe’s team, the Lakers, play.  There is just too many coincidences here.  Isn’t it interesting how extra attention was given to the Grammy’s because of Kobe's death just like extra attention was given to The Grammy’s when Whitney Houston died and when Jennifer Hudson’s family was murdered and that involved children too.  I wasn’t planning on watching The Grammy’s for the first time since my whole view of the music business has changed in the past year.  I now see the music industry, and film industry for that matter, as modern forms of devil worship.  One only has to look to at the strange, possessed, demonic behavior of those that find success in the music business in general.  Just check out my metamorphosis playlist on YouTube and check out the history of ritualistic murders as forms of sacrifice that involve famous people:

I also find it interesting that a cartoon called Chamberlain Heights predicted Kobe Bryant's death in a helicopter crash.  There has been lot of predictive programming lately, especially in cartoons such as The Simpsons.  Some might say that certain people are able to access the collective unconscious or the akashic records the way psychic medium Edgar Cayce did.  Other may take a more "scientific" approach and say that people can time travel to the future and be able to "predict" events in this way.  After all, the invention of time travel was supposedly perfected in 1975.  However, still others claim his death was an illuminati hit.  I think any or all of the above are possible.  

I had a dream the night before he died that I was working as a social worker doing an intake with a Black man and his daughter who were seeking my assistance.  In the dream, I was lacking in confidence about doing the intake right so I was seeking out a supervisor but could not find one.  However, I was able to find a supervisor's paperwork to use as an example.  However, I woke up from the dream before I could find my way back to the man and his daughter.  I wasn't sure what the dream symbol of a "Black man and his daughter" meant until I heard about the death of Kobe.  

Though it seems that Kobe started his NBA career with a lot of arrogance, I really feel that he was working towards enlightenment before he died.  No matter what darkness he was involved in during his life, I pray and he and his daughter, as well the others that died in the crash, will find their way to the light.  

Cloaked in Craziness 

There's something meaningful in being dismissed as "crazy."  It gives you a sort of freedom, a creative freedom and freedom of speech that is disappearing these days in all the political correctness.  The dark powers of this world aren't as threatened by you spreading the dark truths that most aren't brave enough, privy enough or open enough to speak of, acknowledge or receive.  The dark powers of this world know that you will be dismissed as "paranoid" or as a "conspiracy theorist" by the mass populace who want to enjoy the comforts of whatever freedoms or perception of freedoms exist while the spiritual warriors are the ones willing to go into the trenches and stand on the frontlines of this spiritual war.  

David Icke talks about how he was mocked, ridiculed and laughed at early on in his career of being a speaker, writer and educator of dark truths.  Because of this experience, the dark powers that be aren't as threatened by him because they know that most will dismiss him as crazy.  Rather than let this bring him down, he has been able to find the silver lining in being seen as crazy.  

Sloan Bella is a metaphysician who practices astrology, works with healing crystals and channels spirits as a psychic medium.  She isn't afraid to tell the truth about how certain celebrities really died and how other celebrities, while awed by the public at large, are involved in the Illuminati, Luciferianism and have been connected to Jeffrey Epstein's rings of sex trafficking involving children and possible blood sacrifice.  Most people will turn their eyes and ears away from such talk and dismiss someone like Sloan as a "witch" or worse.  

But there is purpose and meaning in being dismissed and/or attacked by the narcissists and sociopaths of the world or even by the people who want to only worry about their own little corners of the world, turning a blind eye and deaf ear to whatever evil lurks in the dark corners of the world.  

It's as if the dark truth tellers are "cloaked in craziness" or what appears to be craziness to those whose eyes have yet to be opened or who have been fortunate enough to not have experienced narcissistic or sociopathic abuse, though I would argue that we all have whether we realize it or not, or any of a number of different traumas that lead one to see beneath the surface of the superficial lifestyle. 

There is a documentary called Healing Voices about mental health care, the over reliance on psychiatric medications and the stigma attached to anyone labelled as anything from Schizophrenia to depressed.  The movie poses an important question about seeing the positive side of something like psychosis.  In some Native American cultures, for instance, a psychotic person may be elevated to the status of shaman.  

A person who is a psychic medium may be diagnosed with Schizophrenia or any number of anxiety disorders or a "witch" by many different religions, especially those of the Christian variety.  While most Christians denounce astrology, they ignore bible verse that point to the meaning in the stars such as Genesis 1:14 and the fact that the wise men used the stars to find baby Jesus.  Most Christians will also denounce the term "psychic" but are okay with the term "prophet."  While I do believe it's true that one can get their information from light or dark sources, who are we to judge that?  Jesus was all about love, not judgement.  Even Jesus was labelled as "crazy" by the people in power at that time.  He was tortured, mocked and ultimately put to death for what others saw as "crazy."  Why should we, as Christians, treat others the way Jesus was mistreated?  It doesn't make any spiritual sense.  A lot of the harsh judgement in the old testament was reversed by Jesus anyhow.  Just look how he blew Leviticus 20:10 out of the water in John 7:53-8:11.  

So, to the people who have been dismissed as "crazy" or "unhinged" or "paranoid" or a "witch" or as a "conspiracy theorist", just know that you are in good company.  Jesus always walks before us in whatever pain we face.  And the next time someone calls you any version of "crazy", simply reply with a "thank you."  Take up your cross and follow Him.  Put on your cloak of craziness and wear it proudly and then... find and speak your truth, no matter how dark and uninvited that truth may be...

Shapeshifters: Episode 1 

PRINCESS STEPHANIE is adoring the beauty of her reflection in her vanity mirror.  As she brushes her long blonde hair, she notices a patch of skin on her right cheek turn scaly green.  A sense of alarm adorns her face as she stops brushing her hair and feels the normal cheek skin with her hand and notices that when she removes her hand, her reflection appears to return to normal.  She SIGHS and continues to brush her hair but then a patch of scaly, green skin appears once again on her cheek.  She screams and drops her brush. 


The Manager, MS. STREICH, of an orphanage for Native American Children, is showing the orphans how to bow and curtsy. 

MS. STREICH:  And when King Elias and Princess Stephanie arrive and you are selected to go on an outing with them, you must first address him as...? 

THE ORPHANS:  Your Majesty. 

MS. STREICH: And then...? 


MS. STREICH:  And you will first address the princess as...? 

THE ORPHANS:  Your Royal Highness. 

Ms. Streich then notices two eight year old twins, MARK and MATT, goofing around in the back.  The rest of the orphans look back at the boys and the boys realize that everyone is watching them and look at Ms. Streich. 

MS. STREICH:  I want you boys to come with me.  Ms. Horner, will you please take over for me. 

Ms. Streich walks to the back of the class and grabs the collars of both boys and leads them out of the room. 


Princess Stephanie and King Elias are in the back of a limousine.  Princess Stephanie brings a handheld mirror to her face which reveals the square bandage on her cheek.   

PRINCESS STEPHANIE:  Oh, I look hideous, father. 

KING ELIAS:  It'll be alright, sweetie.  We're almost there.  

King Elias pats her on the thigh and Princess Stephanie gasps. 


She pulls up her dress to reveal the thigh that has patches of scaly, green skin on it. 

PRINCESS STEPHANIE:  Oh!  I can't hold form.  I need blood now. 

KING ELIAS: We mustn't panic.  We'll look for the frightened ones.  Their blood will be more highly charged. 

PRINCESS STEPHANIE:  Why must we drink tainted blood? 

KING ELIAS:  Our consumption of Aryan blood must be limited.  If too many Aryan children go missing, it would be noticed.   


Ms. Streich is at her desk in her office and Matt and Mark are sitting in chairs opposite her. 

MS.  STREICH:  Perhaps, the two of you aren't ready to meet royalty. 

MARK:  We'll be good ma'am, we promise.   

MS. STREICH:  Hmmm.  Perhaps the two of you need to be separated.  You seem to get into mischief whenever you're together. 

MATT:  Please don't separate us. 

MARK:  We're always together.  We're sorry ma'am. 

MS. STREICH:  Hmmm, we shall see.  The King and Princess should be here soon.  Go and join the rest in the hall. 

The boys get up and leave her office.   

They enter the hall where the rest of the orphans are.  They join a brother and sister, IGGY (age 6) and JESSICA (age 8), who are their friends.   

IGGY:  Ooh, you guys got in trouble. 

JESSICA:  Did Ms. Streich paddle you? 

MARK:  Not this time.   

An older child, CLAY, of 13 years, comes up to the group of friends. 

CLAY:  You dopes hope they pick you? 

MARK:  Only if they pick me and Matt together. 

JESSICA:  Yeah, me and Ig too. 

CLAY:  You know what happened the last time the king and princess came? 

JESSICA:  No, that was three years ago.  I was only five. 

Mark gestures to himself and Matt. 

MARK:  We weren't here then. 

CLAY:  Well, I remember and I DO NOT want to get chosen for an outing with them.  

MATT:  What happened, Clay? 

CLAY:  The kids that were chosen... never... came back. 

JESSICA:  Were they adopted by families? 

Clay chuckles. 

CLAY:  That what Streaker said but I don't believe it.  Two of my friends, Tommy and Jason, were chosen.  I heard that Jason got away but he told people what happened to Tommy.  Nobody believed him. 

JESSICA:  You're just trying to scare us. 

MARK:  No, Clay's just jealous because he's too old and ugly.  No King or Princess would ever choose him. 

Mark, Matt, Jessica and Iggy all start laughing.   

CLAY:  Listen you idiots!  They will kill you and drink your blood if you are lucky and if you aren't lucky, they will... 

Ms. Horner stands right by Clay. 

MS. HORNER:  Clay, are you scaring these children again with your horror stories. 

Clay look down. 

CLAY:  No, Ma'am. 

Ms. Horner then walks  away and claps to get all of the kids attention. 

MS. HORNER:  Fall in line, children.  Ms. Streich is about to bring the King in. 

The children get into lines and get quiet. 

Mrs. Streich enters the hall with King Elias.  The females curtsy and the males bow and all say:  your majesty. 

KING ELIAS:  I'm sorry that the Princess is not well enough to meet all of you today.  But she will be able to meet a selected few among you assuming she is feeling better soon.  

MS. STREICH:  We hope she is feeling better soon, sir. 

KING ELIAS:  Thank you.  Now, to get back to the reason for my visit to this lovely orphanage.  I am here to select a lucky group of children to go to lunch with myself and Princess Stephanie.  I have met with Ms. Streich about which children might be appropriately prepared for the occasion and have reviewed your information.  The children I have chosen are:  Rebecca Quinn. 

A shy, seven year old girl, REBECCA, raises her hand.  Ms. Horner goes over to her. 

MS. HORNER:  You mustn't be afraid, Rebecca.  This is an honor and a privilege.  

Ms. Horner takes Rebecca's hand and leads her to the King's side.  Rebecca starts to cry.  Another little girl, TAMARA, raises her hand as she begins to talk. 

TAMARA:  Ms. Streich, can I go in Becky's place if she doesn't want to go. 

MS. STREICH:  Mind your matters, Tamara. 

The King pats Rebecca on the head and gives her a sucker from his pocket.  Rebecca looks at Ms. Streich who nods at her.  Rebecca opens the wrapping and begins to suck on the sucker.  King Elias looks at his index card of names. 

KING ELIAS:  Now, back to business.  I would also like to invite Ignatius Jessup.   

Matt, Mark and Jessica look at Iggy whose mouth is opened wide in shock.  Iggy looks at his sister. 

JESSICA:  Go ahead, Ig.  It's okay. 

Iggy stands next to Rebecca. 

KING ELIAS:  David Cross, Alicia Vickson and Kenna McKay. 

Three more children go up to stand by the king. 

KING ELIAS:  And perhaps, one more... Matthew McKnight. 

Matt looks at his brother, Mark, and at Clay who looks away. 

MARK:  It'll be okay.  You know Clay lies... 

Matt nods. 

MARK:  Tell me everything when you get back. 


King Elias and the chosen orphans get into the back of the limo where Princess Stephanie is sitting. 

PRINCESS STEPHANIE:  Thank God.  I'm so thirsty. 

IGGY:  Wow, it's so big in this car. 

He looks at the Princess. 

IGGY:  What happened to your face? 

Iggy points to the bandage on Princess Stephanie's face.   

ALICIA:  Iggy, don't be so rude.  I'll apologize for him, your royal highness. 

PRINCESS STEPHANIE:  Well, at least somebody has some manners. 

One by one, the rest of the kids address her as "your royal highness." 

Once the King has entered the limo and everyone is seated, the car starts to move.   

Matt looks around. 

MATT:  It's dark in here. 

KING ELIAS:  They're called tinted windows. 

ALICIA:  Where are we going for lunch, sir?   

KING ELIAS:  It's a surprise. 

REBECCA:  I don't like surprises. 

Alicia glares at Rebecca. 

ALICIA:  Don't be such a scaredy cat, Becky. 

A moment of silence ensues and Matt looks at the Princess and she looks back at him.  He sees the shape of her pupils change and he recoils. 

PRINCESS STEPHANIE:  Is something wrong, child? 

Matt shakes his head. 

KING ELIAS:  You know, it isn't polite to stare.   

MATT:  I'm sorry.   

King Elias touches a button and all the doors lock.  Becky and Matt shudder. 

ALICIA:  This is a really nice car, your majesty, your royal highness. 

Princess Stephanie manages a smile. 

PRINCESS STEPHANIE:  Why, thank you dear.  Perhaps, you shall be first. 

KING ELIAS:  Go for the jugular, Sweetie. 

Princess Stephanie and King Elias then shapeshift into reptiles and bite into the necks of the children who begin to scream in horror. 


Clay, Jessica and Mark are at a dinner table in the hall along with all the other kids. 

MARK:  I thought they'd be home before dinner. 

JESSICA:  I'm worried.  I told Ig to go. 

Jessica starts to cry. 

Ms. Streich sits down at their table next to Jessica. 

MS. STREICH:  You mustn't cry, dear.  I have some good news.  The King was able to find families to adopt Iggy and the other children. 

MARK:  But Matt and I were supposed to be adopted together. 

MS. STREICH:  You don't get to decide that. 

JESSICA:  So, I'll never get to see Iggy again? 

MS. STREICH:  You mustn't be selfish, dear.  You must be happy for your brother.  He has parents now... unlike the rest of you lot. 

Ms. Streich gets up and walks away. 

CLAY:  She's such a bitch.  

MARK:  Were you lying earlier? 

CLAY:  Um... yeah... I was just pulling your chain.  The kids that are chosen are really set up to be adopted by rich White folks.  That's why they change our names. 

JESSICA:  My name isn't Jessica? 

CLAY:  You don't remember your real name? 

JESSICA:  Do you remember yours? 

CLAY:  Yes, but I'm forbidden to speak it here. 


The children are in their bed in the sleeping quarters.  Jessica and Mark have beds that are next to each other. 

Mark is laying wide awake and Jessica is crying with eyes closed. 

Mark whispers Jessica's name. 

MARK:  Jess? 

Jessica opens her eyes. 

MARK:  Something's wrong. 

JESSICA:  What do you mean? 

MARK:  Something happened to Matt.  I feel it. 

JESSICA:  You mean, he was adopted by bad parents. 

MARK:  No, I don't think he was adopted at all.  I think something bad happened to him like Clay said... 

JESSICA:  I can't believe that.  I won't believe that.   

MARK:  Jess, we need to get out of here.  We need to find out what really happened to Matt and Iggy. 

JESSICA: They were adopted by nice families and we should be happy for them. 

MARK  You can't tell me that you really believe that BS! 

Jessica turns her back to Mark.