tag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:/blogs/blog?p=19Blog2024-01-02T10:35:05-08:00nicolemariemusic.comfalsetag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/73272162024-01-02T10:35:05-08:002024-01-02T10:35:05-08:002024: A Volatile and Intense Year<p><o:p></o:p>2024 promises to be an intense and volatile year, especially for those who are still not awake to the corruption of our current power structures.<span> </span>In 2024, we will start to see the fall of those power structures including that of government, banking and finance.<span> </span>There may be upheaval and mass protests as a result of these changes.<span> </span>Depending on what timeline you are on, there may be a mass event in March/April which could cause disruptions in the power grid, communication and travel, to say the least.<span> </span>Although, some say that this event will occur across all timelines.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>Despite all this, it doesn’t mean that it will be a bad year.<span> </span>In fact, it will be an abundant year for many because these old structures need to fall so new structures can rise up.<span> </span>The Epstein list, people who visited Epstein Island and were part of the global Satanic pedophiliac ring of sex trafficking (including children) and child sacrifice, will reportedly be released today (1/2/24).<span> Let's hope that it is the true list and not an edited one. </span>Not only will these people be exposed but so will anybody involved in SRA (Satanic Ritual Abuse) going forward.<span> </span>This process of exposure will be massive and explosive in 2024.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>Sometimes intensity and volatility is needed for the old to fall away and for the new to be ushered in.<span> </span>It can be a painful process and steep learning curve for those who have not been open to doing their own shadow work or not open to believing the dark underbelly of this world we live in.<span> </span>But for those truthtellers and lightworkers who incarnated at this time for the very purpose of exposing these things and helping people heal from related traumas, it will be a sigh of relief and a breath of fresh air, especially because many of us have been shunned, ostracized, and called “crazy” for trying to expose these things.<o:p></o:p></p><p>The silenced voices of the past will finally be heard on a grander scale.<span> </span>Since this is a presidential election year in the USA, I think it’s important to talk about the upcoming presidential election.<span> </span>Will there even be an election?<span> </span>Will Trump win despite being kicked off the ballot in two states thus far?<span> </span>Does Biden have a chance despite what appears to be cognitive decline at best and a possible upcoming impeachment?<span> </span>Will Michelle Obama step in to be the frontrunner nominee for the democratic party at the last minute as some, such as Sloan Bella, are predicting?<span> </span>As with any election year (remember 2020?), this election year promises to bring some upheaval to the world, not just the USA.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>Whatever upheavals, intensities or tragedies we are faced with in 2024, we can and will get through it with unity and grace as a human race.<span> </span>And we will be the stronger, braver and more abundant for it.<span> </span>It is a year for facing fears, releasing tears and celebrating all that we have gained by losing what has stood in our way of living our best lives, even if we didn’t see what was standing in our way before 2024.<span> </span>Blessing to all of us who are on the right side of this spiritual war where love and goodness always wins.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/73084772023-11-23T11:54:26-08:002023-11-23T11:54:26-08:00The Devil's Tone and the Frequency of Love<p>Recently, I reached out to a producer on LinkedIn to see if he would be willing to record music in 528 Kilohertz (kHz). His response was “lol.” He either thought I was joking or was making fun of my inquiry since the current industry standard for recording music is 440 Kilohertz (kHz). What does this mean?<span> </span>This means that most digital audio workstations for recording, editing, creating, producing and mastering music (such as Pro Tools) are set to 440 kHz by the manufacturers who make them and by the producers and musicians who use them since they want a chance for their creations and music to be accepted by the mainstream.<span> </span>Additionally, all electronic instruments are generally set to 440 kHz and all acoustic instruments are generally tuned to 440 kHz.<span> </span></p><p>When working with a producer recently, I tried to get him to record in 432 kHz but he said “no” so I had to record in 440 kHz.<span> The universe is run by sacred geometry and math. And music is a universal language. I had heard that “</span><span style="color:#4D5156;"><span>according to music theory, A=432 Hz is mathematically consistent with the universe. This is known as Verdi's 'A' – named after Giuseppe Verdi, a famous Italian composer. Music tuned to 432 Hz is </span></span><span style="color:#040C28;">softer and brighter, and is said to provide greater clarity and is easier on the ears</span><span style="color:#4D5156;"><span>.</span>” Is is also supposed to be more meditative and healing to listen to. For more information about 432 kHz, check out the following website:<span> </span><o:p></o:p></span></p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://repetitionsfitness.ca/healing-benefits-music-tuned-432-hz/#:~:text=According%20to%20music%20theory%2C%20A,is%20easier%20on%20the%20ears" data-link-type="url"><span style="color:#4D5156;">https://repetitionsfitness.ca/healing-benefits-music-tuned-432-hz/#:~:text=According%20to%20music%20theory%2C%20A,is%20easier%20on%20the%20ears</span></a><span><o:p></o:p></span></p><p>I became inspired to write a blog on the “devil’s tone” and the love frequency after reading Salini’s book <i>Emerging from the Matrix. </i><span> </span>While I favored 432 kHz over 440 kHz prior to reading this book, Salini’s wisdom and knowledge led me to favor another frequency:<span> </span>528 kHz also called “the love frequency.”<span> </span>Much of the information in this blog comes from Salini’s book and you will see quotations where I have quoted the book word for word.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>Music became standardized to 440 Kilohertz (kHz) in 1939, just before WWII, by Josef Goebbels and the global elite.<span> </span>It was discovered, by the elite, that 440 kHz can create fear, chaos, and disharmony.<span> </span>Therefore, it's been called “the devil’s tone.”<span> </span>Music has become a form of mind control ever since and the standard use of this tone started in large part with the ushering in of rock and roll music in the 1950’s.<span> </span>This is why some people called rock and roll “the devil’s music.”<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>The Devil’s Tone is “the one dissonant tone on the musical scale, F# (741), which brings chaos into consciousness.<span> </span>The frequency associated with this tone is 440 kHz.<span> </span>This tone suppresses the heart chakra and keeps consciousness stuck at low levels.”<span> </span>When piped out to the masses, this frequency creates an atmosphere of chaos and fear, making it easier to control people.<span> </span>The movie, <i>Yellow Submarine,</i> is the story of how healing music was suppressed in this way.<span> </span>“In the movie, the Blue meanies covered the vibrational love tone of 528 kHz, the C note on the musical scale, with fog so they couldn’t play it anymore.<span> </span>It was the Beatles’ parable about musical tyranny to the world.”<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>“A Kilohertz, abbreviated kHz or KHz, is a unit of alternating current (AC) or electromagnetic (EM) wave frequency equal to one thousand hertz (1000 Hz).<span> </span>The unit is also used in measurements or statements of signal bandwidth.”<span> </span>It is considered the measurement of the minimum required electromagnetic frequency of the human body required to maintain optimal health.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>“The vibration of love is 528 kHz.”<span> </span>“It heals and repairs the body and restores DNA.”<span> </span>“Music played at 528 kHz will open and heal your heart chakra sending the love vibration throughout your body.”<span> </span>Whereas as 440 kHz focuses on the head and mind (therefore, making one more susceptible to mind control) and suppresses the heart chakra, 528 kHz is the vibration of love and is the same vibration of green plants in nature, of the center of the sun and of your heart chakra.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>John Lennon’s masterpiece, <i>Imagine,</i> was written in 528 kHz and it was the first major song written in this key.<span> </span>Lennon’s <i>Working Class Hero</i> was also written in this key of love.<span> </span>It wasn’t long after this that Lennon was killed.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>We have been controlled and suppressed and divided by being forced to record and listen to music in 440 kHz for too long now.<span> </span>This is a call to all musicians and healers to record, produce and perform in 528 kHz.<span> </span>If your tuning device does not go up to 528 kHz, at the very least tune to 432 kHz which is superior to 440 kHz.<span> </span>It is time for a renaissance, a new golden age, to be ushered in.<span> </span><o:p></o:p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/72732482023-09-14T04:02:37-07:002023-11-23T10:47:13-08:00Soul Transformation and Ego Death<p>I had a reading with a spiritual advisor in July of 2022.<span> </span>She told me that I would be going through an ego death at some point in the near future.<span> </span>At the time, the thought of an ego death sounded somewhat scary.<span> </span>However, up to that point in my life, I had already gone through various dark nights of the soul which can also be little ego deaths.<span> </span>Having cancer at the age of 28, I had to face my own mortality, <span> </span>Losing my hearing in my 30’s was devastating and made me question my career choice of listening to others as a social worker and mental health therapist and threatened my passion, my joy of being able to create, perform and listen to music.<span> </span>My divorce in 2017 to someone I had been with for 25 years was even more devastating. This person had provided me with a life of physical comforts for the most part but a barrage of mental, psychological and emotional abuse.<span> </span>Discovering that you don’t really know someone and had been tricked for all that time is an ego death of sorts.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>So, when I was told in 2022 that I would be going through another ego death, my initial reaction was, haven’t I been through enough already for now?<span> </span>However, just like getting the death card or the tower card in tarot, an ego death doesn’t necessarily need to be something to be feared.<span> </span>An ego death is transformative, it is your soul transforming.<span> </span>And you can either go through that process as calmly and willingly as possible or screaming and kicking.<span> </span>The more you accept the process and open yourself up to how an ego death can enrich your life, the less pain and suffering you will perceive.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>I’ve been assuming that my next ego death will involve some sort of public humiliation and shaming because this is something that I fear.<span> </span>This is something that leads to my having performance anxiety and social anxiety in general.<span> </span>And I know that part of our journey here on this plane of existence involves facing our fears.<span> </span>I have already faced some public humiliation in my life but could there be more to come and on a grander scale?<span> </span>I’ve never necessarily been afraid to be different or rejected because I always was on some level.<span> </span>In this way, being different can be a blessing because you don’t always strive to belong because you never really did anyway.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>But we are social creatures and we need social interaction, even the most introverted among us such as myself.<span> </span>And we all need spiritual leaders, teachers, shamans, sages, healers, and gurus, when the time is right to learn that next lesson in life, to take the next step towards our true spiritual path, to seek healing of some sort, and/or to let go of the ego comforts and things that block us from moving forward, and <span> </span>to guide and comfort us as we experience the next ego death or soul transformation. <span> </span>Sometimes, these are people you meet physically and other times they are people who you follow on social media or come to know through books that they have written.<span> </span>Perhaps, they are souls that you can attune to in a spiritual way.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>At this time, one of those people for me is a woman who calls herself Salini.<span> </span>I learned of her by listening to one of Michael Jaco’s podcasts.<span> </span>She is a survivor of MKUltra mind control but had no memory of this until later in life.<span> </span>I am currently reading her book, <i>Emerging from the Matrix</i>, and it is excellent.<span> </span>In this book, she writes about soul transformation and ego death, something that she experienced many times as well.<span> </span>She writes so beautifully and in such an elevated way, that I decided to share an excerpt from her book on this topic of soul transformation and ego death, as what she writes is way more powerful than anything I could write on the topic right now.<span> </span>What follows is excerpts from her book, <i>Emerging from the Matrix</i>:<o:p></o:p></p><p><i>“If you have entered a crisis of some kind, it’s likely you have begun a soul transformation.<span> </span>Whenever dramatic change is upon you, the Universe is asking you to change direction.<span> </span>You are off course of your life’s Dharmic purpose.<span> </span>You are being redirected to the correct path for you.<span> </span>This is where all criticism begins.<span> </span>People who have not begun a Soul Transformation will not understand what is happening to you.<span> </span>If their lives, their jobs, and their finances are stable and comfortable, they will not be interested in your suffering or your journey.<span> </span>They are enjoying their lives.<span> </span>Their egos are in a comfortable place.<span> </span>They will find your actions and experiences to be odd, and sometimes frightening to them.<span> </span>Perhaps even threatening.<span> </span>They may judge you for even going through what you are going through.<span> </span>They will give tons of advice cached in standard cultural wisdom and clichés, most of which comes from the perspective of their comfort, and usually won’t be helpful.<span> </span>They may even be arrogant about it.<span> </span>If you can, forgive them.<span> </span>They cannot see that you have begun a Soul Transformation because they have not yet begun one.<span> </span>You will enter into this journey largely alone.<span> </span>There will be a few beautiful souls along the way who will stand by you.<span> </span>They may stay a long time, or it may be brief. <span> </span>But treasure them.<span> </span>Like an oasis along an endless, dry, desert caravan, they are great gifts along the way.<span> </span>Know that they have been sent by the Holy Spirit to help you endure the transformation and awakening of your soul.<span> </span>Nevertheless, prepare yourself for rejection at this stage.<span> </span>Many will abandon you.<span> </span>Your old life will fall away.<span> </span>A chasm of the unknown now faces you.<span> </span>You have entered the Garden of Gethsemane.<span> </span>For those of you keen to have a spiritual awakening, I caution you.<span> </span>Awakening is very traumatic. Change requires sacrifice, and the death of the ego is the price you’ll pay.<span> </span>It won’t be comfortable, but it will be incredible.”<span> </span></i><o:p></o:p></p><p>So, if you are experiencing or about to experience an ego death, blessings be with you.<span> </span>Embrace the experience and know that many have come before you and many are walking beside you.<span> </span>Even when we feel truly alone, we can always ask for assistance from our spirit guides, from Jesus, or whomever or whatever you call your higher power.<span> Let the fear fall away and look to the light that overwhelms the darkness. Blessings…</span><o:p></o:p></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/72537332023-08-07T16:56:55-07:002023-08-07T19:21:35-07:00What is Project Blue Beam?<p><span style="color:#1A1A1A;">I have been wanting to do a blog on Project Beam for several months.<span> </span>I first heard about it 2-3 years ago.<span> </span>In the past week or so, news outlets such as Fox News have been reporting on the recent congressional hearings on UAP’s (Unidentified Aerial Phenomena), once called UFO’s (Unidentified Flying Objects).<span> </span>Here is a link I found Twitter about the congressional hearings:<span> </span></span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://twitter.com/girliwhirl/status/1685878254232887296?s=51&t=DOA5uBr1d3lB-75BLgrrpQ" data-link-type="url"><span>https://twitter.com/girliwhirl/status/1685878254232887296?s=51&t=DOA5uBr1d3lB-75BLgrrpQ</span><span style="color:#1A1A1A;"><span> </span></span></a><o:p></o:p></p><p><span style="color:#1A1A1A;">While it's possible that these UFO's might be piloted by humans (or clones, cyborgs or synthetics) or by remote control and/or may just be evidence of secret military programs and such, UFO's have historically been associated with aliens, aka extra-terrestrials or non-terrestrials. Is it now safe to talk about UFO’s now that congress is taking it seriously?<span> </span>Will one still get mocked and ridiculed if one dares to breach the subject? <span> </span>What is the connection between UFO’s, aliens and Project Blue Beam?<span> </span>When I first learned of Project Blue Beam, I often heard about it in reference to the “fake alien invasion” that the cabal or deep state would use as their last stab at keeping their control over the populace in place.<span> </span></span><o:p></o:p></p><p><span style="color:#1A1A1A;">According to an online article written by Kuldeep Kumar for The Times of India, “Project Blue Beam is a conspiracy theory about a supposed project whose purpose is to create an artificial Second Coming, </span><br><span style="color:#1A1A1A;">in order to control people.”<span> </span>One of the purposes of this Project, per the article, is to replace all Christian and traditional religions with a one-world religion based on the cult of man.<span> </span>Read more at:</span><br><a class="no-pjax" href="http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/articleshow/3371815.cms?utm_source=contentofinterest&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=cppst"><span style="color:#0050B3;">http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/articleshow/3371815.cmsutm_source=contentofinterest&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=cppst</span></a></p><p><span style="color:#1A1A1A;">Another article states, “</span><span style="color:black;">Project Blue Beam (NASA) is reported to be a conspiracy theory introduced by Canadian investigative journalist Serge Monast in the mid-1990s. The theory claims that members of the Pentagon, NASA, and the United Nations were collaborating on a plan to simulate a fake alien invasion and staged ‘Second Coming’ using hologram projections.”</span><span style="color:#1A1A1A;"> This article was written by</span><span style="color:black;"> </span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.yourtango.com/users/deauna-roane"><span style="color:black;">Deauna Roane</span></a><span style="color:black;"> on Feb 13, 2023.<span> </span>Here is the link: </span><span style="color:#1A1A1A;"><span> </span></span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.yourtango.com/self/project-blue-beam-alien-invasion-new-world-order-conspiracy-theory" data-link-type="url"><span style="color:#4472C4;">https://www.yourtango.com/self/project-blue-beam-alien-invasion-new-world-order-conspiracy-theory</span></a></p><p><span style="color:#444444;">According to another online article on Myth Detector by </span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://mythdetector.ge/en/authors/author/mariam-dangadze-2/"><span style="color:black;">Mariam Dangadze</span></a><span style="color:black;"> published on April 7, 2021</span><span style="color:#656565;">, </span><span style="color:#444444;">“Blue Beam is a conspiracy theory about the New World Order that has been around since 1994. It is noteworthy that during the pandemic caused by the spread of the coronavirus, the Blue Beam theory once again came to the fore as the scenario described by Serge Monast the Antichrist uses the method of epidemics for establishing control over humans in the third, final phase. Conspiracy theorists believe that this process has already begun.”</span><o:p></o:p></p><p><span style="color:#444444;">The author goes on to write:<span> </span>“</span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://alittlebithuman.com/project-blue-beam-conspiracy-theory-explained/" target="_blank"><span style="color:black;">According to</span></a><span style="color:black;"> </span><span style="color:#333333;">the Blue Beam theorists, NASA and the UN have begun to produce highly advanced technology. Using this technology, the entire Earth will see a simulation in the sky that would be created using satellites, located at different locations on the Earth. As the conspiracy goes, using this method, and in cooperation with the Antichrist, a simulation of the Second Coming will be created and all humans on the Earth will be united under a single religion under the framework of the Blue Beam. This way, establishing the total control will become easier and other stages necessary for establishing the ‘New World Order’ will not take too long either.”</span><span style="color:#2F5496;"> <span> </span></span><span style="color:#0D0D0D;">Here is the link to that article:<span> </span></span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://mythdetector.ge/en/where-does-the-blue-beam-conspiracy-originate/" data-link-type="url">https://mythdetector.ge/en/where-does-the-blue-beam-conspiracy-originate/</a><o:p></o:p></p><p><span style="color:#0D0D0D;">However, according to another article entitled “What is Project Blue Beam?:<span> </span>Inside the Universal Religion Conspiracy Theory” by Joseph Sherwood published on September 21, 2022, another origin for Project Blue Beam is suggested:<span> “</span>Some theorists claim that Project Blue Beam developed out of the Philadelphia </span><span style="color:#333333;">experiments, an alleged series of experiments carried out by the U.S. military. These experiments apparently involved the U.S. military developing technology to make a U.S. naval ship invisible to enemy ships.”<span> </span>Here is the link to that article:<span> </span></span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.alittlebithuman.com/project-blue-beam-conspiracy-explained/" data-link-type="url"><span style="color:#4472C4;">https://www.alittlebithuman.com/project-blue-beam-conspiracy-explained/</span></a><o:p></o:p></p><p><span>So, it could be that Project Blue Beam is just another conspiracy theory like COVID-19 coming out of a lab in Wuhan instead of originating from a wet market. Oh wait, that’s no longer a conspiracy theory. Well, maybe Project Blue Beam will happen and maybe it won’t. According to “conspiracy” theorists and ufologists, if the deep state proceeds with Project Blue Beam, it’s because it’s the last card they’ve got to play in their never-ending attempts, so far proven to be successful, to control us through fear. </span><o:p></o:p></p><p><span>I guess, a lot depends on which timeline you’re on too per Gene Decode. But should Project Blue Beam prove to happen, one should be prepared to acknowledge, if they haven’t already, that a lot of what we see with our eyes in this world is an optical illusion, a movie, a deception whether done with masks, simulations, virtual reality, false reporting, framing the narrative, propaganda, and many other mind control and manipulation tactics. These are done to keep us in fear, to hold us down, to keep us enslaved and entrapped. </span><o:p></o:p></p><p><span>All it takes to wake up, is the ability to question what you are perceiving, feeling or thinking at any given moment and/or to listen with an open mind to those who may have something to say or write that is different than what you believe or how you think or feel. Most people won’t do so due to fearing a social death, being ostracized from their inner circles, families, groups or communities. Most people don’t want to be rejected or mocked or ridiculed. Some people are so comfortable in their complacency or in their energetic cages or maybe just used to the familiar, that they don’t dare to dream of more or to spread their wings and fly for fear that they may crash because they’ve been brainwashed to believe that they will indeed crash if they attempt to rise. They fear embarrassing their families or bringing shame to their communities. They may even fear physical harm being brought to those they love. So, the few of us that are willing to write or speak about such things are very brave. </span><o:p></o:p></p><p><span>When it comes to Project Blue Beam, the fear of aliens has been instilled in us through the media – the CIA Project Mockingbird films and TV shows and other forms of media that are designed to associate aliens with fear and danger and loss of our lives. Take Travis Walton, for example, who is the man who claims to have been abducted by aliens and who’s account has been captured in the 1993 film Fire in the Sky. If that movie doesn’t instill a fear of aliens, I don’t know what would. However, Mr. Walton has claimed, in speeches and documentaries and podcasts since the film was released, that he was not given final approval on his account of what happened the day he was “abducted.” He says that the aliens were not harming him, as portrayed in the movie, but were in fact, helping him and healing him. </span><o:p></o:p></p><p><span>If there are aliens out there, it would only make sense that there are good aliens and there are bad aliens just as there are good humans and “bad” humans. If Project Blue Beam comes to be on whatever timeline you are on, it is a for sure thing that bad aliens are going to be projected in the fake alien invasion. After all, that is how we have been and continue to be kept under the control of the very few power-hungry, greedy, selfish, manipulative, fear-mongering, psychopathic, narcissistic and destructive inhumane beings at the top of our society: through fear. So, if you see something scary in the skies, don’t be afraid. There’s a good chance that it might not be real…</span><o:p></o:p></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/72058332023-05-09T13:34:04-07:002023-05-09T13:34:04-07:00Who is the Khazarian Mafia? <p><span style="color:#666666;">According to the Ellis Washington Report, published on May 3, 2021, “The Rothschild Khazarian Mafia, according to the writings of Preston James and Dr. Mike Harris’s revelatory 2015 essay—</span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://geopolitics.co/2015/03/11/hidden-history-of-the-incredibly-evil-khazarian-mafia/"><span style="color:#336699;"><i>Hidden History of the Incredibly Evil Khazarian Mafia</i></span></a><span style="color:#666666;">—chronicled that the Khazarian Empire dated back to 100 AD (about 72 years after the crucifixion of Jesus Christ in 28 AD) in the ancient land of Khazar (Ukraine).(</span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.elliswashingtonreport.com/2021/05/03/a-brief-history-of-the-rothschild-khazarian-mafia-part-v/"><span>https://www.elliswashingtonreport.com/2021/05/03/a-brief-history-of-the-rothschild-khazarian-mafia-part-v/</span></a><span style="color:#666666;">)</span><o:p></o:p></p><p><span style="color:#666666;">Gene Decode has done a number of “deep dives” in the subject of Ukraine and the Khazarian Mafia.<span> </span>Here is one of them:<span> </span></span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.genedecode.org/programs/ukraine-decode-truth-and-history-by-sanrata-with-captions-405479?categoryId=116838"><span>https://www.genedecode.org/programs/ukraine-decode-truth-and-history-by-sanrata-with-captions-405479?categoryId=116838</span></a><span> </span></p><p><span style="color:#666666;">Gene says that the Khazars are “Satanic, Luciferian people who stole the Jewish religion and culture generations ago.”<span> </span>“They are NOT from the bloodline of Abraham” like genuine Jewish people are.<span> </span>Whereas Jewish people are Hebrew, Khazarians are not.<span> </span>Tartaria and Khazaria were names that used to apply to the area that we now know as Ukraine.<span> </span>The words “Zionists” or “Khazarian Jews” distinguish the Khazarian mafia from real Jews.<span> </span>Gene goes on to say that the Khazars aren’t even human but “mostly mankind at best and NAA (Negative Alien Agenda Groups) half breeds or worse.”<span> </span></span></p><p><span style="color:#666666;">He goes on to say, “The Khazar aristocrats were not trusted and were considered to be very crazy.<span> </span>Once you travelled into their land, they would rob people and then they would follow them into their homeland and assume their identity. <span> </span>In the 6<sup>th</sup> century, they took over England and in the 10<sup>th</sup> century, they went for Germany.<span> </span>The Russian Tsar, fed up with this, forced them to choose one of the three Abrahamic religions (Jewish, Muslim or Christian).<span> </span>They chose the Jewish faith and used all its sacred knowledge from Solomon to recreate it into the Talmudic Judaism of today’s Zionists.<span> </span>Judaism was a convenient religion to hide their worshipping of Moloch (symbolized by the owl), Baal, Lucifer and satan and utilize black magic to realize their aims.<span> </span>Khazars do extensive rituals with child sacrifice that include torture, blood drinking and cannibalism of human children.<span> </span>What they do is practice Babylonian Talmudism as a kind of secret satanism.”<span> </span></span><o:p></o:p></p><p><span style="color:#666666;">An online article from the following website (</span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://operationdisclosureofficial.com/2022/03/22/how-the-khazarians-own-our-world-the-origin-of-the-khazars/"><span>https://operationdisclosureofficial.com/2022/03/22/how-the-khazarians-own-our-world-the-origin-of-the-khazars/</span></a><span style="color:#666666;">) explains why the Khazars decided to convert to Judaism over other religions: </span><o:p></o:p></p><p><span style="color:#222222;"><i>Nowhere in recorded history has the art of making money from nothing been better developed than in the ancient Khazarian Empire, which developed from nomadic robber clans operating on the western caravan routes in the Caucasus Mountains, north of Iraq and between the Black Sea and the Caspian Sea region. By the 10th century, the Khazars had created an empire that stretched from the north of the Black Sea to the Ural Mountains and from the west of the Caspian Sea to the Dnieper River.</i></span><o:p></o:p></p><p><span style="color:#222222;"><i>The Khazar warlords decided that exchanging and lending money would be more profitable and less dangerous than raiding caravans. There was one problem. The Khazarian Empire was almost equally divided between Christians, Muslims and Jews. Both Christians and Muslims believed that charging interest on a loan, then called usury, was a sin. Only Jews were allowed to openly charge interest on loans. Whether they did it for practical reasons, or out of genuine religiosity, the Khazarian aristocracy professed their conversion to Judaism.</i></span><o:p></o:p></p><p><span style="color:#666666;">The Khazars infiltrated the monarchies in England and Europe as well as power structures in America.<span> </span>When they tried in take over Russia in 1918, they killed Tsar Nicholas and the entire Romanov family, except for Anastasia, who survived.<span> </span>They called themselves Bolsheviks, they took over the government, installed Stalin as a leader, and implemented Communism. “During their leadership approximately 100 million Russians died,” according to Gene Decode.<span> </span>Alexander Solzhenitsyn says, “You must understand, the leading Bolsheviks who took over Russia were not Russians.<span> </span>They hated Russians.<span> </span>They hated Christians. <span> </span>Driven by ethnic hatred they tortured and slaughtered millions of Russians without a shred of human remorse.<span> </span>It cannot be overstated.<span> </span>Bolshevism created the greatest human slaughter of all time.<span> </span>The fact that most of the world is ignorant and uncaring about this enormous crime is proof that the global media is in the hands of the perpetrators.”<span> </span></span></p><p><span><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/s:bzglfiles/u/393997/56f40355c70293ca4ea0f2a5b428be2ddff3ba56/original/image.jpeg/!!/meta%3AeyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ%3D%3D.jpg" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="Map
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Description automatically generated" height="598" width="624" /></span><o:p></o:p></p><p> </p><p>Because modern-day Ukraine is the homeland of the Khazarian mafia, this is also the headquarters of all sorts of shady, Luciferian operations and activities such as the trafficking of children, adults, weapons and drugs.<span> </span>Additionally, they have built up biolabs there to create bioweapons such as things that are falsely called “viruses” when they are actually bioweapons.<span> </span>According to Gene Decode, Bakhmut, a city in Ukraine, is the hub of child trafficking, child sacrifice, adrenochrome harvesting, organ harvesting, sex trafficking and all other forms of debauchery on this planet.<span> </span>This is why Ukraine is so important to the cabal – it is their headquarters in a sense.<span> </span><o:p></o:p></p><p>So, this is the real reason for the war in Ukraine:<span> </span>to take down all these bioweapons, to put an end to all the suffering of the children and people who are being abused, killed and trafficked there, to eradicate Satanism and Luciferianism from the planet, and to free all humans who have been enslaved in various ways by the Khazars and their ilk. <span> </span>Putin is actually part of the Alliance that is trying to take down this worldwide cabal that has begun to be exposed and will continue to be exposed. <span> </span>The Alliance consists of Putin, Trump, Xi Jinping, Narendra Modi, Kim Jong Un, Bolsonaro, Bin Salman and others including military and other world leaders. <span> Some truthers, such as Megan Rose, are saying that there are even off-world entities and groups that are also part of the Alliance. </span>But on Earth, the Alliance has been around for a long time and, in the not-so-distant past, has included Nikola Tesla, the Trump brothers (Fred, Donald’s father, and John, Fred’s younger brother) and Howard Hughes.<span> </span>The Alliance is and has been trying to save the world from this Satanic power structure that has enslaved the rest of us.<span> </span>Though the Khazar’s original homeland on Earth is Ukraine, they are mostly in Israel and America now.<span> </span>“What’s happening in Ukraine is a holy war against global satanism.” – Gene Decode<o:p></o:p></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/71855272023-04-06T19:15:15-07:002023-04-06T19:15:15-07:00Ten Days of Darkness<p>I’ve been hearing about these 10 days of darkness since about 2020 or 2021.<span> </span>However, it was first posted by Q on the Q boards in 2017.<span> </span>Many Anon’s believe that the 10 days of darkness will follow the “storm” that Trump was referring to when he posed with the military leaders in October of 2017 for a photo op and said, “you know what this represents?<span> </span>This is the calm before the storm.”<span> </span>When asked by a reporter to elaborate on what he meant when he said that, Trump said, “you’ll find out.”<span> </span><p></p></p><p>If these 10 days of darkness do, in fact, happen, they may happen following or in tandem with a big effect such as a solar flash or the collapse of the US dollar.<span> </span>A big truther in the truther community, Charlie Ward, said that these 10 days of darkness might not happen everywhere and/or may not be 10 days but more like 3 days or even 3 hours.<span> </span>So, what will these 10 days of darkness be like?<span> </span>Will it be actual darkness as in no sunlight or it is just 10 days or so of darkness with regards to electronics and/or banking activities/access?<span> </span>No one knows for sure.<span> </span>Of course, if there is a military operation going on behind what we see, the “pantomime” in the mainstream media, as Charlie Ward often proclaims, then only those higher up’s in the military operation will know for sure.<span> </span>What follows (in Italics) is a synopsis of what may happen during the 10 days of darkness according to this link:<span> </span><p></p></p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://marilynjwilliams.com/ten-days-of-darkness-exposed-evil-shocks-the-world/">https://marilynjwilliams.com/ten-days-of-darkness-exposed-evil-shocks-the-world/</a><p></p></p><p><span style="color:black;"><i>It is expected that the militaries all around the world, via the US Military, are going to shut down all:</i></span><p></p></p><ul style="list-style-type:square;">
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<span style="color:black;"><i>During this time of ‘darkness’ they will be broadcasting 3×8 hour sessions showing the world exactly what has been going on over the past number of years. This means that one session will be broadcasts 3 times per day. It’s to allow everyone worldwide to view during their daytime.</i></span><p></p>
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<span style="color:black;"><i>This will be a shocking time for all as we learn what the countless members of the Dee/p St/ate Ca/bal have been doing. Only those who have been game enough to dive deep into the rabbit holes have any idea of what is to come.</i></span><p></p>
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<span style="color:black;"><i>While this was happening the Military would be removing governments worldwide and making global arrests on 500 thousand indictments filed in federal courts across the nation and globe.</i></span><p></p>
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<span style="color:black;"><i>So the Ten Days of Darkness is not a time to be feared. It is more a time we should all look forward to so we can get on with the great transition from dark to light that is taking place in our world at this time… with King Jesus at the helm!</i></span><p></p>
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</ul><p>Judy Byington is another truther who has been writing a lot about the 10 days of darkness, specifically around the EBS that is supposed to accompany or head off the 10 days of darkness.<span> </span>There has been a lot of talk around the EBS (Emergency Broadcast System) or EAS (Emergency Alert System) and when that might happen and the need to be prepared when EBS is activated.<span> </span>Judy has been encouraging her followers to <span> </span>stock up on foods, water, gas, and cash in case we don’t have access to these things during the 10 days of darkness.<span> </span>The following synopsis is from a website that has since been scrubbed from the internet, as has much information that truthers have released and exposed prior to the hyper-censoring of anything representing “disinformation.”<span> </span>But I included the link below the synopsis to reflect that the link once did work:<span> </span><p></p></p><p><span style="color:red;">We are hearing that the ten days of darkness planned by the “white hats” are upon us. Insiders have told us there is going to be an interruption of electricity which would bring down water, power, gasoline and diesel pumps, gas, internet, and you should act accordingly and quickly. We are told that trucking and airlines are to cease. Airlines are already going down. The trucking interruption means food will quickly begin to disappear from the store shelves. During this time they are starting up the new starlink satellites and taking out DS satellites along with the Main Stream Media. They are going to bring up a new internet that is much safer and much faster. They are going to bring down nuclear power plants and bring on line free energy. Since all of these things are connected they will try to do all of this together. How long this will actually string out we dont know. Trump is coming back and the GCR will happen along with Nesara Gesara and block chain voting on our phones and computers for the rulers of the new republic. The dominoes are falling, the states where the votes are contested are falling to Trump. The military will remove Fake Biden. Trump will quickly bring the economy back with the money the DS/Cabal stole from the people over centuries and was collected by executive order. </span><p></p></p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.ubm1.org/index.php?page=10-days-of-darkness-trumps-return">https://www.ubm1.org/index.php?page=10-days-of-darkness-trumps-return</a><p></p></p><p><span style="color:black;">The book of Revelations in the bible might also refer to the 10 days of darkness per the following scripture:<span> </span></span><p></p></p><p><span style="color:black;"><i><strong><sup>10 </sup></strong>Do not be afraid of what you are about to suffer. I tell you, the devil will put some of you in prison to test you, and you will suffer persecution for ten days. Be faithful, even to the point of death, and I will give you life as your victor’s crown.</i></span><p></p></p><p><span style="color:black;"><i>Revelation 2:10, </i></span><p></p><span style="color:black;"><i>New International Version</i></span><p></p></p><p><span style="color:black;">A lot of truth has been revealed through predictive programming in the media and in cinema as well.<span> </span>What follows is an interpretation of possible predictive programming in the movie </span><span>Blade Runner 2049 and the link where I got this article/blog: </span><p></p></p><p style="text-align:justify;"><span style="color:#666666;">If <i><span>Blade Runner</span></i> follows through to its logical conclusion, then the entire world is one big massively social engineered MK Ultra program.</span><p></p></p><p style="text-align:justify;"><span style="color:#666666;">According to it’s recent follow-up, <i><span>Blade Runner: 2049</span></i>, the world experienced a total blackout sometime in the year 2020. And while little information is otherwise given, it appears to be some sort of reset event, in which pre-existing archival information was re-written or otherwise almost entirely lost in a society still completely run and governed by corporations. The black out event caused the Tyrell Corporation, the very people who ruled the world through its replicant program, to go bankrupt.</span><p></p></p><p style="text-align:justify;"><span style="color:#666666;">The world would need saving by yet another corporate New World Order. The10 days of darkness appears to be a designed event to grab more elitest power and further thrust mankind into ignorance.</span><p></p></p><p style="text-align:justify;"><span style="color:#666666;">Clearly, time will tell whether the voice behind the “Q” Movement simply borrowed from Blade Runner: 2049 or, like the dozens upon dozens of references in the decades leading up to September 11, this is yet another eerie example of predictive programming.</span><p></p></p><p style="text-align:justify;"><span style="color:#666666;">Hindsight is 2020.</span><p></p></p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://theunexpectedcosmology.com/global-reset-q-anon-10-days-of-darkness-blade-runner/">https://theunexpectedcosmology.com/global-reset-q-anon-10-days-of-darkness-blade-runner/</a><p></p></p><p>On November 5, 2017 at 00:31:00 (EST), Q posted “Ten Days. Darkness.”<span> </span>According to the Q boards, the 10 days of Darkness was supposed to occur on April 1, 2020.<span> </span>It would appear that this did not happen.<span> </span>However, it’s important to realize that are many timelines at play and both the White Hats (the team of military, government officials and world leaders that have been planning to and are currently taking down the Satanic pedophilic cabal that has been controlling international banking, engaging in child sacrifice and trafficking and many other illegal activities, and keeping us enslaved and brainwashed on many levels for centuries) and the Dark Hats (the cabal formerly mentioned) are messing with the timelines in a game of 5 dimensional chess.<span> </span>According to Gene Decode, the Dark Hats tucked their timeline into the primary timeline and sometime before Biden was inaugurated as “president” of the USA Corporation.<span> </span>However, Gene goes on to state that “God drew a line in the sand” and the timelines separated back out on June 26<sup>th</sup>, 2022, during the time the Schumann resonance went silent for a short period of time.<span> </span><p></p></p><p>It’s also important to note that due to the cabal messing with our calendar and getting us off our cosmic rhythm, anticipated dates may be on the Gregorian calendar which don’t reflect time via more accurate calendars such as the Mayan calendar which is 12 years off the Gregorian Calendar.<span> </span>The Gregorian Calendar has some months at 30 days, some months at 31 days and 1 month at 28 days for a reason – to get us off our natural rhythms.<span> </span>Additionally, the months are off.<span> </span>The last month of the year should be March and the first day of the year should be the first day of April like the Persian calendar reflects.<span> </span>After all, “sept” means 7 in Latin so why is September the 9<sup>th</sup> month of the year instead of the 7<sup>th</sup> month of the year? <span> </span>And “oct” means 8 so why is October the 10<sup>th</sup> month of the year rather than the 8<sup>th</sup> month of the year?<span> </span>And “dec” means 10 so why is December the 12<sup>th</sup> month of the year instead of the 10<sup>th</sup> month of the year?<span> </span>Given this, no one can accurately predict the day and the time of these 10 days of darkness, should they occur at all.<span> </span>If it does occur, it should be seen as a good thing, as a reset into a new world, a new age and a new dimensional for those of us who are ready and willing to take the leap of faith and have been working in service to others rather than service to self.<p></p></p><p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/71241502022-12-16T13:01:52-08:002023-03-29T19:21:56-07:002023 – The Year of Karma, Justice, and Balance<p>Since late 2019, I have been writing blogs at the end of the year to predict the general feel of the coming year. I wrote in late 2021 that 2022 would be the year of truth. I think a lot of truths have been trickling out this past year and there will be more of a flood of truths coming before Christmas and into the new year. Of course, we have been on the Gregorian calendar, so my blogs reflect that fact. It is interesting that we are using the Gregorian calendar when the Julian and Mayan calendars are likely more accurate. For example, the Mayan calendar predicted the end of the age (Piscean) to be in 2012. However, given that the Gregorian calendar is 10-12 years off the Mayan calendar, we are witnessing the end of the age of Pisces at this time and the beginning of a new age, the Aquarian age. What does Aquarius represent? How is this biblical? </p>
<p>A lot of Christians decry Astrology but how do you think the wise men found the baby Jesus? By reading the meaning in the stars. The wise men were likely astrologers themselves or at least practiced astrology. Christian astrologer, Carmen Turner-Schott, wrote a blog at the following website (https://www.liveabout.com/christian-astrologer-the-age-of-aquarius-206619) where she states: </p>
<p><em>Jesus talked in the Bible about the changes in the future that would signal his return. He said that there would be “Signs in the Sun, Moon, and stars” (Luke 21:25) signaling his return. </em></p>
<p>She goes on to write: </p>
<p><em>Jesus was the one who announced the Age of Aquarius and said, “A man will meet you carrying an earthen pitcher of water; follow him into the house where he goes in” Luke 22:10. Since ancient times Aquarius was called the “water-bearer” and is symbolized by the Face of a Man in the Book of Revelation as one of the fixed signs of the zodiac. </em></p>
<p><em>Aquarius is symbolized by a man carrying a jug of water and this symbol existed since ancient times. It's interesting that Jesus tells us to “follow the water-bearer.” Jesus was telling his followers to follow the Aquarian Age and enter the house he goes in, which can mean he was helping us prepare for the future by telling us to follow this new spiritual expansion and rebirth. Jesus was educating the disciples and warning them about this crucial time in human history and preparing them for it in advance. </em></p>
<p>So, what exactly is the Age of Aquarius and what will it entail? Well, for starters, we will go from group think and hive mind to individual thought and belief which means that everyone will get to decide for themselves what exactly they believe. We will no longer have to consult a guru or priest or some other intermediary as a gateway between us and the divine, the God source. </p>
<p>I keep hearing that there will be a huge galactic shift in March of 2023. I don’t know what that will look like on this plane of existence but I think it has something to do with ushering this new age of Aquarius, which some say will be a golden age. It may also look like the transformation and falling away of old structures of government, money, healthcare, education, religion and all these current institutions as we have known them. </p>
<p>We will then see a balancing in the world. For example, the power will shift away from governments and politicians back to the people, and away from banks and the Federal Reserve back to the people. We will have individual freedoms and find our own strengths and gifts and no longer have hero worship of doctors, celebrities or those who have been in positions of authority, power or influence. We will find our sovereignty as individuals. </p>
<p>Karma, which is not about punishment but about balancing, will be called in to support this need for balance. There are people who have been involved in dark deeds or in service to darkness that will finally be held accountable for their actions and choices. They will be exposed to the rest of us. For those who have been working for the light, “good” karma will be called in and they will finally see the path cleared for them to be abundant and no longer enslaved to debt and the current rat race paradigm of eat, work and sleep. The daily grind will fall away to reveal the divine purpose that each of us were meant for if we choose to answer the call for we all have freewill. </p>
<p>I also believe that we just witnessed the “first trumpet” that was written of in the Book of Revelations with Donald Trump’s announcement on 12/15/22 about bringing back the freedom of speech and holding those accountable that have censored this freedom. The Brunson case that is going to the supreme court about the events surrounding the 2020 election and the possible removal of a sitting president (Biden), and any individuals in the stolen 2020 election, may also be another sign that those trumpets are starting to sound. Why? Because the Brunson’s are a band of four brothers who are trumpeters. For more on that case: <a contents="https://robcunningham.substack.com/p/brunson-brothers-make-history-the?utm_campaign=post&amp;utm_medium=email" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://robcunningham.substack.com/p/brunson-brothers-make-history-the?utm_campaign=post&amp;utm_medium=email">https://robcunningham.substack.com/p/brunson-brothers-make-history-the?utm_campaign=post&utm_medium=email</a> If you don’t know what the seven trumpets are, here is a synopsis from Wikipedia: </p>
<p><em>In the Book of Revelation, seven trumpets are sounded, one at a time, to cue apocalyptic events seen by John of Patmos (Revelation 1:9) in his vision (Revelation 1:1). The seven trumpets are sounded by seven angels and the events that follow are described in detail from Revelation Chapters 8 to 11. According to Revelation 8:1–2 the angels sound these trumpets after the breaking of the seventh seal. These seals secured the apocalyptic document held in the right hand of Him who sits on the throne.[1]</em> </p>
<p><em>First trumpet: Upon the sound of the first trumpet, hail and fire mingled with blood is thrown to Earth, burning up a third of the trees on the planet, and all green grass.[3] </em></p>
<p><em>Second trumpet: With the sounding of the second trumpet, something described as "a great mountain burning with fire" plunges into the sea and turns a third of the oceans to blood. Soon after, a third of all sea life and a third of all ships will be destroyed.[4] Some speculate that the "great mountain" will be an asteroid cast from the heavens. </em></p>
<p><em>Third trumpet: </em><em>With the sounding of the third trumpet, a great star called Wormwood falls to the Earth, poisoning a third of the planet's freshwater sources, such as rivers and springs. Many will die from the bitterness of its taste.[5] </em></p>
<p><em>Fourth trumpet: Following the sounding of the fourth trumpet, a third of the light that shines from the Sun, moon, and stars becomes dark from the celestial bodies being "struck." This catastrophe causes complete darkness for a third of the day, even through night hours.[6] This is the final trumpet that sounds before the three woes, also known as the fifth, sixth, and seventh trumpets. </em></p>
<p><em>Fifth trumpet: The fifth trumpet is the "first woe" of three. Before this trumpet sounds, an angel (translated as an eagle in some versions) appears, and warns, "Woe, woe, woe, to those who dwell on the earth, because of the remaining blasts of the trumpet of the three angels who are about to sound!"[7] </em></p>
<p><em>The fifth trumpet is the "first woe" of three. Before this trumpet sounds, an angel (translated as an eagle in some versions) appears, and warns, "Woe, woe, woe, to those who dwell on the earth, because of the remaining blasts of the trumpet of the three angels who are about to sound!"[7] </em></p>
<p><em>The fifth trumpet prompts a personified star to fall from heaven. The star is given the key to the bottomless pit. After opening it, the smoke that rises out of the pit darkens the air and blocks the sunlight. Then, from out of the smoke, the locusts are unleashed. The locusts are scorpion-tailed warhorses that have a man's face with lion's teeth. Their hair is long and they fly with locust-like wings. They are adorned with golden crowns and protected with iron breastplates. They are commanded by their king, Abaddon, to torment anyone who does not have the seal of God on their forehead, by using their scorpion-like tails. It is also made clear to them that they must not kill anyone during the five months of torment.[8] </em></p>
<p><em>Sixth trumpet: After the fifth trumpet blast, the sixth one sounds.[11] This is the "second woe", where four angels are released from their binds in the "great river Euphrates". They command a force of two-hundred million mounted troops whose horses exude plagues of fire, smoke, and brimstone from their mouths. The mounted horsemen wore breastplates with the color of fire, hyacinth, and brimstone. The horses are with lion's head and their tails, as well, are like a serpent with a head. The plagues exuding from the horses will kill a third of all mankind.[12] </em></p>
<p><em>Seventh trumpet: The sound of the seventh trumpet signals the "third woe." This is the final trumpet and the final woe. Loud voices in Heaven will say: "The kingdom of the world has become the kingdom of our Lord and of His Messiah, and He will reign forever and ever. " [13] </em></p>
<p>While the above trumpets sound scary and frightening as does the idea of an “apocalypse”, I think it’s important to note that the book of Revelations, in my opinion and according to some Christian scholars and theologians, speaks to the apocalypse for the cabal: the Satanic, pedophiliac, child-trafficking elite that has kept us enslaved through debt, distraction and negative emotions through wars, drugs, the mockingbird media, vaccines, and all the other aspects of their self-serving agendas. </p>
<p>We are on two distinct timelines now: the one for those are in service to others and the one for those who are in service to self. So, I don’t believe that those on the first, transcendent timeline will see all the death and destruction that those on the second timeline will see. I also believe that the first timeline is what new agers refer to as the “new earth.” Another way of saying this is to go from 3rd dimensional earth to 5th dimensional earth. </p>
<p>As previously stated, we are entering a new age, a golden age and 2023 marks the beginning of seeing this shift though not everyone will see it and not everyone will make it. If you are reading this blog, I hope that you take God’s hand and accept His invitation into the kingdom. Can you shed who you are to become who you are meant to be? Those who have been suppressed, such as women and dissenting voices, will now be exalted. Those who have been in service to others will be able to call in their karma. Those who have been in service to self will finally feel their karmic backlashes. </p>
<p>There’s never been a more exciting time to be alive if you are on the winning side - if you are on God’s side. We have been in a spiritual war and those working for the dark side are finally being exposed. And those working for the light will be victorious. I think we will begin to celebrate those victories prior to Christmas 2022. And in 2023, the victories will keep coming…</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/70878082022-10-24T15:03:20-07:002022-12-19T09:45:43-08:00Been Brainwashed Lately?<p>We all, everyone who is alive on Planet Earth at this time in history, have been brainwashed to some extent. I wrote a blog called “The Emperor is Naked” based on the children’s story The Emperor’s New Clothes, that talks about our reluctance to admit and/or accept that we have been brainwashed and mind controlled by the global elite, also called the Illuminati and/or cabal, that have had control of this world for hundreds, if not thousands of years. They control our governments, our elections, our mainstream media outlets, our celebrities and influencers, our money, and our thoughts, moods and behaviors. They even control our health through allopathic medicine, vaccines, the Food and Drug Administration, control of food manufacturing and distribution, the legal system, and Big Pharma. </p>
<p>They create diversions anytime there is a possible ascension or uprising against them or that are about to exposed. They assassinate or smear campaign anyone who dares to expose them. They create phrases like “conspiracy theorist” as a way to discredit and mock anyone who dares to expose them or points out the truth to the masses. Mark Twain said, “It's Easier to Fool People Than It Is to Convince Them That They Have Been Fooled.” </p>
<p>Anyone who has been a survivor of narcissistic abuse knows about brainwashing and mind control experientially and once they get enough time and distance away from the abuser, they can begin to understand it more consciously and even then, they may still have a hard time waking up to the horror and understanding exactly what they went through. For survivors of MKUltra, the experience of brainwash and mind control is even more horrific. According to Wikipedia (as of 10/24/22), MKUltra “was an illegal human experimentation program designed and undertaken by the U.S. Central Intelligence Agency, intended to develop procedures and identify drugs that could be used in interrogations to weaken individuals and force confessions through brainwashing and psychological torture.” Though Wikipedia suggests that the MKUltra program was “halted” n 1973, evidence suggests otherwise. </p>
<p>There have been numerous MKUltra survivors who have been speaking out publicly. Their stories are so horrific and unbelievable, that many of them are not believed. According to Medicine Bear, who spoke out on TheTruthseekers88 channel on Rumble, published 10/17/22, MKUltra is the umbrella program for many different mind control programs including Project Monarch which includes the Beta Sex Kitten Project. Part of Project Monarch has included those called “Presidential models” such as Marilyn Monroe, who are used to transport secrets back and forth between different political leaders. The leaders just have to say a certain trigger word or phrase for the secret to be revealed. Triggers can also include sounds, sights and smells. There is a video where you can see Britney Spears being triggered by the smell of strawberries when she is being interviewed by Diane Sawyer. If you listen closely, you can hear her say “strawberries” before one of her alters (alternative personalities) takes over her system: <a contents="https://youtu.be/MQQFV6Pu5NI" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://youtu.be/MQQFV6Pu5NI">https://youtu.be/MQQFV6Pu5NI</a> </p>
<p>Medicine Bear was adopted at birth into a Luciferian family under the guise of being a Jewish family. He was given the name of “The Chosen One” which means that he was to be used as a tool or sacrificed within the Satanic cult. He speaks of having false memories implanted and being a part of the hunting parties where children are hunted. He was involved in Project Talent and recalls being given puzzles at around age 7. He says, “They’re trying to establish what your particular talents might be” and then place you in a position where you can be used to do their bidding. Ultimately, however, he landed in Project Phoenix, which has also been called Project Delta and is an assassination program. These include your basic sleepers who, with the right cues, triggers, and programming, are trained to assassinate others and possibly self-assassinate. His testimony suggests that he was abused by Lt. Colonel Michael Aquino. Here is the link to that podcast: <a contents="https://rumble.com/v1okynk-special-guest-mkultra-sleeper-cells-special-forces-signal-alerts...-1017202.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/v1okynk-special-guest-mkultra-sleeper-cells-special-forces-signal-alerts...-1017202.html">https://rumble.com/v1okynk-special-guest-mkultra-sleeper-cells-special-forces-signal-alerts...-1017202.html</a> </p>
<p>Project Monarch includes your basic honeypots that entice powerful men or women to share their secrets, to do their bidding and/or to get come back into the fold if they are “waking up” or exposing secrets or have gone AWOL. Some examples are Cathy O’Brien who claims that she and her daughter were both sex slaves for George Bush Sr and Dick Cheney and other political leaders. She has released many books and had an awesome documentary made about her like called Trance. Here is a link to watch that movie: <a contents="https://www.trance.movie/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.trance.movie/">https://www.trance.movie/</a> </p>
<p>Laura Worley, who wrote the book <em>Puzzle Pieces to The Cabal, Mind Control, and Slavery: Putting it All Together for Peace, Healing and Freedom,</em> writes about being abused and tortured by someone that sounds a lot like HRC if you put all the pieces together in what Laura describes in her book. Laura also speaks and does interviews and podcasts where she helps people heal and trains mental health professionals so they can know what to do to help people who have been victims of SRA (Satanic Ritual Abuse). She writes about going to therapy for 20 years and getting nowhere because mental health professionals are likely to label people who present with her kind of symptoms as “delusional” or “dramatic” and even if they do believe these survivors, they are at a loss at how to help as their training does not include how to undo mind control. </p>
<p>Hope Beryl-Green, born into an illuminati family, wrote her memoir about breaking free from her programming in her book To Tell the Truth. Here is an excerpt from the synopsis of that book on Amazon: "This journey will expose the evil of sex slavery, government-sponsored mind control, and the Illuminati's existence in our culture." Both Laura Worley and Hope Beryl-Green speak and write about the importance of using the power of God's love and guidance to break free of their energetic chains. </p>
<p>Becca Bodle has been very vocal in sharing her testimony of being a survivor of human trafficking. Here is a link to a interview she did with Michelle Moore: <a contents="https://rumble.com/v20znok-the-michelle-moore-show.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/v20znok-the-michelle-moore-show.html">https://rumble.com/v20znok-the-michelle-moore-show.html</a>. Sarah Ruth Ashcraft claims to have been sold as a sex slave to Tom Hanks at age 13. Miesha Johnston wrote the book They Weren’t Butterflies: A Monarch Survivor’s Story. It is a very interesting read. I also have read a few of Stewart Swerdlow’s books. He is a survivor of Montauk Project, related to the Philadelphia Experiment. He is now a doctor of alternative healing and deprogramming. He has spoken openly about aliens including Reptilians. Unfortunately, most victims of MKUltra have died, have gone insane, or are still in a brainwashed or sleeping state. </p>
<p>Then, there’s the brainwashed and mind controlled in the illuminati most notably people in high positions of power in government or high positions of influence in Hollywood, the music industry, professional athletes and mainstream media. I attended a training on Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) given by Herschel Walker, former NFL running back and currently running for public office, where he talked about having this disorder (once called MPD or Multiple Personality Disorder) though he didn’t go into detail about what caused it. Kanye West appears to have broken out of his programming several times and every time this has happened, they dye his hair blonde (always make a note of it when someone’s hair is dyed blonde) and take him away to be “hospitalized” which is a code word for “reprogrammed.” For example, this happened right after he dished the dirt at one of his concerts before he was “hospitalized”: <a contents="https://youtu.be/mueeKk6GweI" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://youtu.be/mueeKk6GweI">https://youtu.be/mueeKk6GweI</a> </p>
<p>Kanye West has an incredibly strong spirit to try to break out of his programming despite his popularity. Britney Spears is another example of someone doing everything she can to break out of her programming. Rumor has it that she has been replaced with a clone and this is not hard to believe. Cloning has been going on for a long time. If you watch a movie called The Boys From Brazil (1978), it spells out how nuclear transfer cloning is one. Clonaid is a company that openly advertises cloning but cloning is also done in Deep Underground Military Bases (DUMB’s) and other secret locations owned and operated by the elite. There have been outspoken voices against cloning such as Donald Marshall and Kid Buu, who claims to be a second generation clone. </p>
<p>Oftentimes, when a celebrity or politician will not play along with the script or programming they were given, it can be quite obvious that they have been replaced by a clone or an actor, while the original God-created human has either been killed or has been caged in a DUMB so they can create more duplicates as needed. They do this because these celebrities are cash cows for them and they want to continue to milk the cash cows for as long as they can. Michael Jackson is an obvious example. The Michael Jackson in the Bad videos and pictures looks nothing like the Michael Jackson in the Thriller videos and pictures. Why? Because, according to Gene Decode, Michael Jackson died after he caught on fire in that Pepsi commercial and they cloned him after death. The skin issues and the nose issues can be explained by quantum entanglement. After that debacle, the cabal wised up and started caging and cloning celebrities more in their prime. </p>
<p>But back to the point of brainwashing. We are all being brainwashed by the mainstream media. We are being brainwashed to believe that COVID-19 (which stands for Certificate of Vaccination Identification AI) is a virus when it can’t be isolated and has been patented (you can’t patent nature), that we should take a vaccine that has no long-term studies and killed all the animals in the animal trials, and vaccinate our children when children are more at risk for taking the vaccine then from getting COVID. We are told that variants to COVID-19 such as Omicron, are more dangerous, when any epidemiologist knows that variants always decrease in virulence. We are being brainwashed to hate Donald Trump, to believe that Joe Biden, having done no campaigning and is obviously a pedophile, won the 2020 election. We are being brainwashed to believe that anyone who went to the Capital on January 6th, 2021 is a traitor against America and that there weren’t infiltrators among the peaceful protestors who actually caused all the ruckus. </p>
<p>We are mind controlled via Operation Mockingbird which is the CIA program that uses movies, TV, MSM outlets and social media to influence how we think, how we vote, and how we behave. According to Wikipedia, "<b>Operation Mockingbird</b> is an alleged large-scale program of the <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/United_States_Central_Intelligence_Agency" title="United States Central Intelligence Agency">United States Central Intelligence Agency</a> (CIA) that began in the early years of the <a href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cold_War" title="Cold War">Cold War</a> and attempted to manipulate domestic American news media organizations for propaganda purposes." Notice how they use the word "alleged" to explain what Operation Mockingbird is. All these various forms of media are also used to tell us, the general public, what they have in store for us. There is a lot of predictive programming used for this purpose. Just look at everything the TV show The Simpsons has predicted correctly. Why would the elite tell us what they are going to do? It's part of the Luciferian religion to let people know what you are going to do to people prior to doing anything (evil). It's their way of saying of getting around our free will to say, "no" to whatever they have in mind for us. If they told us, however indirectly, what they were going to do to us, they can then say, "we told you what we were going to do and you didn't do anything to stop it or protest it." </p>
<p>Women are brainwashed to believe they have to look like Victoria Secret Models, many of whom are biological males. Women are being programmed to compete with each other for the attention and favor of men. Men are being programmed by things like pornography to see sex in a lustful way and view in their manhood in terms of sexual prowess and orgasm, power and control. We are programmed by our families, by our communities, by our political parties, by our religions, by our peers, by our educational system, by our medical system and the list goes on and on. We are told to always “check with your doctor” and are programmed to believe that our family doctors or physicians are the experts on our bodies and the authority on health. They aren’t. They are experts in diagnosing disease and treating symptoms with pharmacia. We are brainwashed into thinking that going into therapy and treating depression and anxiety with psychiatric medications is going to “fix” whatever traumas we are experiencing or confronting. </p>
<p>We are brainwashed into thinking that people and things outside of ourselves have the answers to all of our ills instead of looking within, consulting our intuition. Sure, we are mammals and as such, we are social creatures who need each other for survival. But there is a reason why Jesus said, in Luke 17:20-21, “The kingdom of God does not come with observation; nor will they say, ‘See here!’ or ‘See there!’ For indeed, the kingdom of God is within you.” We are in the age of Aquarius, the information age, and we need to decide for ourselves what information resonates with our soul, not our ego, but our soul. So, if you disagree with everything I wrote in this blog, good for you. The point is, everyone should be able to decide for themselves what they believe. That freedom of belief, just like freedom of speech, is fast disappearing. But we can reclaim our freedom of speech, our freedom of belief and our freedoms in general. In order to be truly free, we have to acknowledge that we have been programmed, mind controlled and brainwashed. We need to regain our critical thinking skills. We need to break through all the programming to find ourselves, our higher selves, our true selves, the self that transcends all the programming. And we have to say “no” and stand up against someone else telling us who we are and what we must think and belief. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/70761412022-10-06T15:42:50-07:002022-10-24T11:49:42-07:00You Saw Me<p>I was walking home from school carrying my saxophone</p>
<p>and a saxophone is heavy to a 5th grade little girl</p>
<p>And I didn't see you swinging on the swings across the street</p>
<p>Until you called out my name to say hello to me</p>
<p> </p>
<p>And it's the first time I've ever felt seen</p>
<p>It's the first time someone ever saw me</p>
<p>Somehow you knew my name</p>
<p>and remembered it that day</p>
<p>Thank you, forever friend, for seeing me</p>
<p> </p>
<p>Whenever my friends would choose a superpower</p>
<p>for the days of pretend when we played outside for hours</p>
<p>I always chose the gift of invisibility</p>
<p>Not knowing that's how I was already feeling</p>
<p> </p>
<p>And still until this day</p>
<p>I sometimes get afraid</p>
<p>and want to retreat into my own safe space</p>
<p>Not everyone is welcoming</p>
<p>Not everyone is inviting </p>
<p>and if they are, they may want to trick or harm me</p>
<p> </p>
<p>But you're the friendliest boy I ever met</p>
<p>And I wish I knew now what I didn't know then</p>
<p>But I wasn't ready yet to admit</p>
<p>or trust that I meant</p>
<p>Anything to you, my long lost friend</p>
<p> </p>
<p>For you planted a seed</p>
<p>For me to feel seen</p>
<p>Without any threat of invasion</p>
<p>Without any threat of humiliation</p>
<p> </p>
<p>And I haven't blossomed yet</p>
<p>But I'm growing to my best</p>
<p>And it's all because you took the time</p>
<p>to say hello to this grateful heart of mine</p>
<p>and let me know that you... saw me</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/70720232022-09-30T12:15:05-07:002022-10-24T11:02:46-07:00Are You a QANON Conspiracy Theorist?<p>These days, it’s considered an insult to be labelled or assumed to be a “QANON Conspiracy Theorist.” The term “conspiracy theorist” became popular after the assassination of JFK and it became a form of social engineering to silence anyone who questioned the official narrative: that only one man, Lee Harvey Oswald, killed JFK. These days, the term is used to silence anyone who questions the official narrative with regards to COVID, with regards to the COVID “vaccine” and with regards to the 2020 election results. </p>
<p>Adding “QANON,” which really doesn’t have any meaning because there is “Q” and there are “ANON’s” but there isn’t any “QANON” within that movement, to the term “conspiracy theorist” is almost a double whammy of insult hurled at anyone who dares to question the official narrative of the mainstream media (MSM), which is very controlled and censored by the way. The MSM puppets are not really reporters but controlled influencers who are told what to say and what they can’t say. There are plenty of videos that show different “reporters” reporting the exact same story in relatively the same way. Here are some links that demonstrate what I’m talking about: </p>
<p><a contents="https://www.tiktok.com/@diamondprofessional/video/6999487185539976453?is_from_webapp=1&amp;sender_device=pc&amp;web_id=7024561404565308934" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.tiktok.com/@diamondprofessional/video/6999487185539976453?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7024561404565308934">https://www.tiktok.com/@diamondprofessional/video/6999487185539976453?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7024561404565308934</a> </p>
<p><a contents="https://www.tiktok.com/@qatalan11/video/6849877442446839046?is_from_webapp=1&amp;sender_device=pc&amp;web_id=7024561404565308934" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.tiktok.com/@qatalan11/video/6849877442446839046?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7024561404565308934">https://www.tiktok.com/@qatalan11/video/6849877442446839046?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7024561404565308934</a> </p>
<p>According to the Goodstuf podcast, published on 10/17/22 on Rumble (see link when this podcast is mentioned again below), "media labelling as QANON is a method to combine Q to comments, theories, suggestions and statements and actions made by ANON's." ANON's, as just stated, are those who are making comments or coming up with theories on what the Q posts mean. Because "not all ANON's are authentic" and "some are injected by our enemies to discredit us," pairing comments made by Q to those made by ANON's is a way to discredit the original source, Q. </p>
<p>Other ways to silence, insult, one-up, and demean people are to call them a “Trumpster” or an “anti-vaxxer.” You are considered immediately stupid, uneducated, selfish and ignorant if you are a “anti-vaxxer.” If you are pro-vaccine except when it comes to the COVID vaccine, you are still called an “anti-vaxxer” by the mass populace and MSM. If you are a Trumpster or conservative, you are automatically thought to be racist, sexist, and/or transphobic or homophobic. </p>
<p>But the term “QANON Conspiracy Theorist” takes the cake and is considered the ultimate insult among the people who don’t take the time or don’t care to understand what QANON even is or means. According to David Straight, “Q is six military intelligence agencies lead by the president of the United State of America.” He adds, “Q is the most trusted.” For example, “there are only 200 naval pilots at any given moment on the face of this planet that are Q capable” in that “they can carry a nuclear weapon, no one else can” according to David Straight. "Q" in QANON means "Q level clearance" or top-secret clearance. Here is the video that I am referencing with David Straight: <a contents="https://rumble.com/v1kqc9r-must-watch-david-straight-out-of-babylon-conference-part-1-of-8.html&nbsp;" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.tiktok.com/@qatalan11/video/6849877442446839046?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7024561404565308934">https://rumble.com/v1kqc9r-must-watch-david-straight-out-of-babylon-conference-part-1-of-8.html </a></p>
<p>David Straight does talk about JFK Jr. in the above video and some people believe that Q is JFK Jr. The Goodstuf podcast on Rumble, published on 10/17/22, questions if Q is a "deep state insider in the intelligence community" but ultimately suggests that Q is "part of the Trump team psychological operation to expose government corruption" and may be specifically Dan Scavino, the guy responsible for much of President Trump's social media. This same podcast states that "the media weaponized Q." Though the media has paired Q and QANON with ideas like Adrenochrome, Satanic sex rings and sex trafficking related to Epstein Island, "calls to violence", Pizzagate and the like, none of these things are actually represented in the Q posts. In this way, QANON's are dismissed as "cult member deviants." Here is the podcast where these things are discussed: <a contents="https://rumble.com/v1oi2bl-durham-now-prosecuting-corrupt-doj-fbi-russia-ukraine-nato-ww3-military-ind.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/v1oi2bl-durham-now-prosecuting-corrupt-doj-fbi-russia-ukraine-nato-ww3-military-ind.html">https://rumble.com/v1oi2bl-durham-now-prosecuting-corrupt-doj-fbi-russia-ukraine-nato-ww3-military-ind.html</a></p>
<p>According to Charlie Ward, Donald Trump was not the first president to have a Q team around him. Abraham Lincoln reportedly had a Q team of trusted advisors around him as did JFK. But Q goes all the way back to the bible. Q is one of the lost books of the bible. According to Gene Decode, the original bible had 777 books and 711 books were taken out leaving only 66 books of the bible (you know how the Satanists and Luciferians who rule this world love their 6’s). Gene adds that the convenience store 711 was so named to mock the rest of us for not realizing that the bible was censored down to 66 books. </p>
<p>On a side note, Gene says that the Book of Revelations represents only the worst timeline and that there is a more positive timeline reflected in the Book of Sarah, another book that was taken out of the bible. How dare we have hope. If we don’t stay in a constant state of fear of anxiety, the energy vampires of this world won’t have anything to feed off of. Additionally, the “end times” do not represent the end times for God’s children, those created in His image, but those that are not created in His image and/or chose to turn away from God. </p>
<p>Back to QANON. I have tried to look into the Q drops and Q posts that have been put out and I don’t feel intelligent enough to even understand them. I have to turn to others more intelligent than I to understand these Q drops. One of those highly intelligent people is Jason Q. My point is that being a “QANON Conspiracy Theorist” is someone who has to be highly intelligent to even understand and decode what the Q drops are saying in the first place. Here is one of the sites that people go to in order to see the latest Q drops and then try to decode them: <a contents="https://qaggregator.news/?page=1" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://qaggregator.news/?page=1">https://qaggregator.news/?page=1</a></p>
<p>So, the next time someone calls you a “QANON Conspiracy Theorist”, simply say, “thank you.” Being called such means that you are likely an intelligent person that can understand things that the rest of us don’t, that you have great powers of discernment, that you are not likely to just accept whatever narrative is being delivered but are brave enough to question it and even challenge it, that you can problem solve and decode things more easily than the rest of us, and that you have a growth mindset and enough flexibility of thought to consider different ways of thinking about things instead of rejecting new and different ideas outright. </p>
<p>I am someone who is willing to look at both sides of an issue. But most people are not this way. Most people want to only find information that confirms what they already think. Most people want to talk to and associate with only those that think, act and believe as they do. I’ve always been curious about people and interested in different ways of thinking. And while I don’t fully understand the in’s and out’s of Q and all that it encompasses, I am willing to look into it and find out more about it instead of judging and dismissing it. We all come from different backgrounds and political leanings and spiritual beliefs but at the end of the day, I believe we are all one. So, I want to say thank you to people like David Straight, Gene Decode, Charlie Ward and Jason Q for speaking out against the mainstream narrative and being willing to teach the rest of us about Q, conspiracy and the like despite threats to your life, the energy drain of doing such humanitarian work and the inevitable backlash from those who are stuck in a fixed mindset. Thank you to every QANON Conspiracy Theorist and to anyone, for that matter, who has ever been called a label or smear campaigned or censored or silenced in any way, even by physical death. Even beyond the veil, we won’t and can’t be silenced…</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/70657562022-09-21T13:58:34-07:002023-01-06T09:55:24-08:00Red Pill Information List<p>Are you experiencing cognitive dissonance? Are you confused about the things that are going on in the world of today? There is a scene in the movie The Matrix, where the guru character Morpheus, played by Laurence Fishburne, offers the protagonist, Neo, played by Keanu Reeves, to take either a red pill or a blue pill. Morpheus lets Neo know that if he wants to take the blue pill, he will wake up in his normal world and reality. However, if Neo chooses to take the red pill, he will be shown “how deep the rabbit hole goes.” I have compiled a list of media that may help those who are wanting to know more and are ready to take the ”red pill.” Most of this list consists of sources that I have found helpful in my own awakening process. </p>
<p><span class="font_large"><strong>Movies: </strong></span></p>
<p>1. The Matrix <br>2. They Live <br>3. Invasion of the Body Snatchers <br>4. The Hidden <br>5. Eyes Wide Shut <br>6. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas <br>7. The Plot Against the President <br>8. Out of Shadows <br>9. The Fall of the Cabal <br>10. Pervywood (might be available on Bitchute) <br>11. Trance (the documentary about Cathy O’Brien’s life an MK Ultra Survivor) <br>12. 2000 Mules</p>
<p>13. Arlington Road</p>
<p>14. Surviving the Game</p>
<p>15. Wag the Dog</p>
<p>16. The Hunger Games</p>
<p>17. Total Recall </p>
<p><span class="font_large"><strong>TV Series: </strong></span></p>
<p>1. Stranger Things</p>
<p>2. Westworld</p>
<p>3. Black Mirror</p>
<p><span class="font_large"><strong>People and Podcasts: </strong></span></p>
<p>1. Out of Babylon Conference (series) with David Lester Straight <br>2. Gene Decode (Telegram, Rumble, YouTube, Gene usually shows up on other’s shows, beware of the fake accounts such as the Telegram simply called “Gene Decode.” His real Telegram account is “Gene Decode Consensei.”) Gene is by far my favorite truther. <br>3. Laura Worley (Rumble, Laura is a survivor of the MK Ultra Mind Control Programs ran by the CIA) <br>4. SuperSoldierTalk (Rumble) <br>5. Charlie Ward (Rumble, Telegram) <br>6. Simon Parkes (Rumble, Bitchute, Telegram) <br>7. AndWeKnow (Rumble channel) <br>8. WeThePeople (Rumble channel) <br>9. SantaSurfing (Rumble channel) <br>10. David Nino Rodriguez (Rumble) <br>11. The Mel K Show (Rumble) <br>12. Janine Steffens on Turn the Page (Rumble) <br>13. Ismael Perez (you can currently find him on YouTube) <br>14. Megan Rose (YT, Telegram, Patreon)</p>
<p>15. Mike Penny (TheTruthseekers88 channel on Rumble)</p>
<p>16. Chas Carter (The Patriot Party News on Rumble)</p>
<p>17. Michelle Fielding (Rumble)</p>
<p>18. Sloan Rumble (YouTube) (the person I credit with waking me up to the corruption in the world at large)</p>
<p>19. Derek Johnson (Rumble) (Veteran and musician - a truther of high moral standing and a wealth of information)</p>
<p><strong><span class="font_large">Videos: </span></strong></p>
<p>1. Sloan Bella (YouTube and Tik Tok – love Sloan – she was the person who woke me up in 2019) <br>2. Jamie Dlux (used to be on YouTube but was kicked off, I’m not sure where to find Jame’s videos now, I especially his video called “Clinton Body Count”) <br>3. Tarot by Janine (she may have got booted off YouTube, as all truthers have, and switched the name of her channel) </p>
<p><span class="font_large"><strong>Books: </strong></span></p>
<p>1. Remember Who You Are – David Icke (or really any book by David Icke) <br>2. Behold a Pale Horse – Milton William Cooper <br>3. Handbook for the New Paradigm – George Green</p>
<p>4. Plague of Corruption - Judy Mikovits</p>
<p>5. Puzzle Pieces to The Cabal, Mind Control, and Slavery: Putting it All Together for Peace, Healing and Freedom - Laura Worley </p>
<p>6. The Truth About Cancer - Ty Bollinger</p>
<p>7. To Tell the Truth - Hope-Beryl Green</p>
<p><span class="font_large"><strong>Children’s Books: </strong></span></p>
<p>1. The Plot Against the King – Kash Patel <br>2. The King and Queen of Mean by Lynne Namka <br>3. The Emperor’s New Clothes <br>4. The Pied Piper of Hamelin </p>
<p><span class="font_large"><strong>Websites: </strong></span></p>
<p>1. <a contents="https://freedomforce.live/about/&nbsp;" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://freedomforce.live/about/">https://freedomforce.live/about/</a></p>
<p>I plan on updating this list from time to time. While I don’t agree 100% with everything the above people and media sources say, I still believe they are the best sources, at this time, for finding the truth in a sea of lies. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/69420332022-09-02T09:00:52-07:002023-03-29T19:21:56-07:00The QFS (Quantum Financial System) and NESARA/GESARA<p>I’ve been wanting to do a blog on the corrupt global financial system ever since watching a documentary called War Castles on YouTube. It is now hard to find and seems to have been shadow banned. War Castles was narrated by a military insider who talked about the three financial centers of the world as being Washington DC (USA), London City (UK) and Vatican City (Italy). This documentary also talks about how the social security system, birth certificate system, Internal Revenue Services (IRS) and judicial system, which is based on admiralty maritime law, are tied into this corrupt global financial. </p><p>This subject matter of a corrupt global financial system is such a vast subject matter involving so many elements that it’s hard to write about it in a blog. However, I’m not enough of an expert on the subject matter to explain the corruption in any real depth. So, for the purposes of this blog, I will talk about some basic things I have learned from War Castles and everything I have researched about the subject matter since first watching War Castles a year ago. Patriot Streetfighter uploaded the original War Castles Documentary on 12/28/22. Here is that link: <a class="no-pjax" href="https://rumble.com/v22i8fe-12.28.22-patriot-streetfighter-revealing-russell-jay-gould-part-1-war-castl.html" data-link-type="url" contents="https://rumble.com/v22i8fe-12.28.22-patriot-streetfighter-revealing-russell-jay-gould-part-1-war-castl.html">https://rumble.com/v22i8fe-12.28.22-patriot-streetfighter-revealing-russell-jay-gould-part-1-war-castl.html</a></p><p>So, you’ve probably heard of the 13 families or bloodlines that are in control of our money worldwide. They are also called the “13 Satanic Bloodlines” or “13 Bloodlines of the Illuminati.” One of them is, you got it, The Rothschilds. But here is a full list from https://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/bloodlines/: </p><p>1 - The Astor Bloodline</p><p>2 - The Bundy Bloodline </p><p>3 - The Collins Bloodline </p><p>4 - The DuPont Bloodline </p><p>5 - The Freeman Bloodline </p><p>6 - The Kennedy Bloodline </p><p>7 - The Li Bloodline </p><p>8 - The Onassis Bloodline </p><p>9 - The Reynolds Bloodline </p><p>10 - The Rockefeller Bloodline </p><p>11 - The Rothschild Bloodline </p><p>12 - The Russell Bloodline </p><p>13 - The Van Duyn Bloodline </p><p>These bloodlines have been stockpiling gold and hoarding the world’s currency and funding both sides of war, appointing world leaders, and are at the head of the illuminati which is those at the top of that pyramid of control involving everything from the food we eat and what music we listen to and what news we receive through mainstream media outlets to what we learn at school including universities. I’m going to be using the terms “illuminati” and “cabal” interchangeably for the purposes of this blog. </p><p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/a47ad7d0d463c3a446401b97c9373cc4716207af/original/pyrimid-of-control-1.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.gamerlandia.net/2012/11/26/ricerca-il-nuovo-ordine-mondiale-nwo-la-vera-struttura-degli-illuminati/pyrimid-of-control/" target="_blank" data-link-type="url" contents="https://www.gamerlandia.net/2012/11/26/ricerca-il-nuovo-ordine-mondiale-nwo-la-vera-struttura-degli-illuminati/pyrimid-of-control/&nbsp;">https://www.gamerlandia.net/2012/11/26/ricerca-il-nuovo-ordine-mondiale-nwo-la-vera-struttura-degli-illuminati/pyrimid-of-control/ </a></p><p>There are some important acronyms and terms to know when discussing the issue of money and how the whole banking system, as it is currently known, is collapsing right before our very eyes. One of those acronyms is SWIFT. So what is SWIFT? Here is a definition of SWIFT from the following website <a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.investopedia.com/articles/personal-finance/050515/how-swift-system-works.asp" target="_blank" data-link-type="url" contents="https://www.investopedia.com/articles/personal-finance/050515/how-swift-system-works.asp">https://www.investopedia.com/articles/personal-finance/050515/how-swift-system-works.asp</a> </p><p> “Behind most international money and security transfers is the Society for Worldwide Interbank Financial Telecommunications (SWIFT) system. SWIFT is a vast messaging network banks and other financial institutions use to quickly, accurately, and securely send and receive information, such as money transfer instructions.” The SWIFT used to be an interbank system according to Gene Decode. Now, the SWIFT System is “a bunch of regulations put upon a digital monetary system” according to Gene (And if you don’t know who Gene Decode is, you should, because he is, in my opinion, the best source of intel across the board). </p><p>Another term to know is “Fiat.” Here is a great definition and good explanation (in Italics) I found on what “Fiat” is and how it generally works. And here is the website link to the source of the following definition: <a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.sofi.com/learn/content/fiat-currency/" target="_blank" data-link-type="url" contents="https://www.sofi.com/learn/content/fiat-currency/">https://www.sofi.com/learn/content/fiat-currency/</a> </p><p><i>A fiat currency is money that is not backed by a physical commodity like gold, but instead backed by the government that issued it. Most modern currencies, such as the U.S. dollar, euro, pound and yen, are fiat money. </i></p><p><i>“Fiat” means “an authoritative or arbitrary order.” So in the case “fiat money,” it’s an order by the government that gives them value and makes them legal tender. The current fiat-money system came about during the 20th century when countries moved away from the gold standard, where currencies are directly linked to gold. There are currently some 180 fiat currencies in the world today. </i></p><p><i>The value of fiat currencies is driven by the marketplace forces of supply and demand. Central banks control the supply, gauging how much money is needed in the economy and printing accordingly. The biggest risk is that they print too much, triggering a bout of hyperinflation–rapid, out-of-control price increases that can lead to economic devastation. </i></p><p><i>Faith in a fiat currency hinges on the stability of the government that issues it, as well as trust in the central bank that manages its supply. Here’s a deeper dive into the fiat-currency systems that are fixtures of modern economies. </i></p><p>An example of how the Fiat system works is getting a loan from the bank. The bank can give you a loan with money it actually doesn’t have but creates out of thin air without any gold backing. And beware of having anything to do with cryptocurrency, especially Bitcoin, which is reportedly the currency involved in child trafficking. The word “cryptocurrency” starts with the root word “crypt” for a reason. It is the currency of the dead. Referring back to the information on War Castles and also information from Gene Decode and other truthers, the cabal thinks of us as “dead.” </p><p>According to the website <a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.dtss.us/blog/the-central-bank-and-monetary-policy/" target="_blank" data-link-type="url" contents="https://www.dtss.us/blog/the-central-bank-and-monetary-policy/">https://www.dtss.us/blog/the-central-bank-and-monetary-policy/</a>, “In 1913 Congress committed an unconstitutional act by giving away the right to print the nation’s currency to the Federal Reserve Bank.” So what exactly the Federal Reserve Bank? Most Americans believe that the Federal Reserve Bank is part of The United States of America. But, it’s actually not part of the USA at all. The USA does not own the Federal Reserve. It is privately owned. So, then who does own and run the Federal Reserve Bank? Here’s the most truthful and uncensored answer (in Italics) I’ve found from the website <a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.facts-are-facts.com/news/the-federal-reserve-is-privately-owned" target="_blank" data-link-type="url" contents="https://www.facts-are-facts.com/news/the-federal-reserve-is-privately-owned">https://www.facts-are-facts.com/news/the-federal-reserve-is-privately-owned</a> </p><p><i>Who actually owns the Federal Reserve Central Banks? The ownership of the 12 Central banks, a very well kept secret, has been revealed: </i></p><p><i>Rothschild Bank of London </i><br><i>Warburg Bank of Hamburg </i><br><i>Rothschild Bank of Berlin </i><br><i>Lehman Brothers of New York </i><br><i>Lazard Brothers of Paris </i><br><i>Kuhn Loeb Bank of New York </i><br><i>Israel Moses Seif Banks of Italy </i><br><i>Goldman, Sachs of New York </i><br><i>Warburg Bank of Amsterdam </i><br><i>Chase Manhattan Bank of New York </i><br><i>(Reference 14, P. 13, Reference 12, P. 152) </i></p><p><i>These bankers are connected to London Banking Houses which ultimately control the FED. When England lost the Revolutionary War with America (our forefathers were fighting their own government), they planned to control us by controlling our banking system, the printing of our money, and our debt (Reference 4, 22). </i></p><p>Basically, the 13 bloodlines that own the Federal Reserve Bank also own and run the monetary systems of all countries. Whenever a leader in any country, such as Muammar Kaddafi with Libya and also reportedly with Abraham Lincoln and JFK (John F Kennedy) with the USA, attempts to create a monetary system that doesn’t rely on these greedy banking families, they are sabotaged, smear campaigned and/or assassinated. Thus far, humanity has been enslaved to debt, to working long hours and sometimes multiple jobs, just to get by, and programmed and socially engineered to “keep up with the Joneses” materially. We have been taken advantage of while, at the same time, programmed to blame ourselves and just accept that there are people at the top of the financial food chain that live in luxury. We are programmed to worship these people, look up to these people and aim to be like these people. IT IS ALL A BRAINWASH. </p><p>You may have heard of “The Great Reset” according to Klaus Schwab, the founder and executive chairman of the World Economic Forum. Part of this supposed “great” reset is not owning anything and being happy about. Just read Schwab’s book, COVID-19: The Great Reset and his other book, The Great Narrative. Another part of this reset is what the cabal calls the New World Order (NWO) which aims to centralize whatever power that “sovereign” countries have and also centralize the money even further. Just look at the European Union (EU) and the Euro. That was just one step towards what the cabal wants to do with the NWO. </p><p>The new financial system that the cabal wants is called the Global Financial System which, of course, means centralized money on a global level controlled by the same people who control the vast majority of our money today. This would involve collapsing the world economy, which is currently happening, in order to provide the “solution” to this problem, the solution being, of course, the Global Financial System. This form of manipulation is what David Icke calls "Problem -Reaction - Solution." You have something you want to do, invade a country like Iraq for example, and you set it up so that the invasion is a solution to a problem, “weapons of mass destruction”, but you need the public to get on board and so you create a problem (9/11, Terrorism) where they will demand a solution. For more information on this, read David Icke’s book The Trigger. </p><p>What you hear less about is the opposite of the Global Financial System. It sounds similar to and is not to be confused with Klaus Schwab's Great Reset or the Global Financial System. It is called the Global Currency Reset which wants every country to be sovereign with currencies that are gold-backed. The fiat currencies are all debt-based and are “a house of cards built on quicksand” according to Victoria Reynolds, who speaks of money in a very spiritual way. I listened to her speak on one of Charlie Ward’s Rumble podcasts and was amazed by the pearls of wisdom that were dripping from her words. Here is the link to that video: <a class="no-pjax" href="https://rumble.com/vzf04l-one-earth-consciousness-rescuing-children-in-ukraine-with-victoria-reynolds.html" target="_blank" data-link-type="url" contents="https://rumble.com/vzf04l-one-earth-consciousness-rescuing-children-in-ukraine-with-victoria-reynolds.html&nbsp;">https://rumble.com/vzf04l-one-earth-consciousness-rescuing-children-in-ukraine-with-victoria-reynolds.html </a></p><p>According to Victoria Reynolds, the new money that will be part of the Global Currency Reset will “coded at a 5D (fifth dimensional) vibration.” This was reportedly done to “keep it out of the hands of those who wouldn’t use it for the highest good.” In order to experience the Global Currency Reset, we must raise our vibration to 5D. Once the Global Currency Reset is ushered in, we will experience the Quantum Financial System (QFS) and NESARA/GESARA. So what is the QFS. Here is the best definition (in Italics) I found from the website <a class="no-pjax" href="https://qfs.live/" target="_blank" data-link-type="url" contents="https://qfs.live/">https://qfs.live/</a>: </p><p><i>The QFS is the takeover of the Central Bank Monetary Debt System to end the financial slavery and control over the populace. The QFS is an advanced financial system launched to eradicate monopoly on monetary system and for that purpose, a system comprises of Artificial Intelligence and complex computer programs fully backed by banks is needed. Quantum Financial System would be a break through in the world of banking which will lead to a new area of banking. QFS will not be influenced by Government policies, rather it will be entirely backed by tangible assets like Gold, Platinum, Silver and will not be based upon mere piece of papers which have no evidentiary value. </i></p><p>NESARA is an acronym for National Economic Security and Recovery Act. According to Charlie Ward's podcast on Rumble aired on 10/12/22, he says "there are two different NESARA's out there. There's the good one and the bad one. There's the National Economic Stabilization and Reformation Act which is the good one." GESARA is an acronym for Global Economic Security Reformation Act. Here are some highlights (in Italics) of what the QFS will look like with NESARA/GESARA from the website <a class="no-pjax" href="https://roserambles.org/2021/10/06/nesara-gesara-explained-in-great-detail-october-6-2021/" target="_blank" data-link-type="url" contents="https://roserambles.org/2021/10/06/nesara-gesara-explained-in-great-detail-october-6-2021/">https://roserambles.org/2021/10/06/nesara-gesara-explained-in-great-detail-october-6-2021/</a> </p><p><i>The IMF will announce the “global gold-standard monetary system” once GESARA is announced. All remaining fiat currencies will be cashed in for gold-standard currency. </i></p><p><i>Paper money will eventually be phased out and all currencies will be digital under the new financial system. </i></p><p><i>Energy costs will also drop as a result of free-energy and new technologies. </i></p><p><i>And soon also available ‘real health care’ to make people healthy instead of sick, to regrow limbs or organs, or to reduce our age by 30 years. </i>(Yes, this sounds very out there, but I’ve heard of this technology which some have called: "Med Beds." Another thing to research would be the “20 and Back” secret space program which involved this sort of age regression technology. Also, ask yourself why it is that monarchs, such as Queen Elizabeth, live so long, much longer than the rest of us? Do they have access to healthcare, cures, and technologies that us common folk don't?) </p><p><i>Money and banks are tools of the cabal to control us, with their debt-based economy which can never bring prosperity. – Consequently, paper money and banks will eventually disappear. Coinage will not. </i></p><p><i>Corporations that responsibly produce things that people really need will see a huge surge in business and profits for many years to come. This is wealth-producing. Because a huge aspect of GESARA is the elimination of the national debt of every nation on earth, taxes will be adjusted to be lower for citizens and corporations. Only a flat sales tax of about 15% on new items will be applied. </i></p><p><i>GESARA was voted to be implemented by all 209 sovereign nations of the world, per the signed 2015 Paris Agreement on Climate Change, starting with the restored Republic of the United States (known in the USA as NESARA – National Economic Security and Reformation Act or National Economic Stabilization and Recovery Act). In the United States, this single act does away with cancers like the Federal Reserve Bank, Internal Revenue Service (IRS) and USA, Inc. shadow government, plus so much more! </i></p><p><i>Planet Earth and humanity are experiencing The Great Shift of Consciousness, also known as Ascension or The Great Awakening into Unity Consciousness. Mother Earth is returning to be a sacred planet, and is taking the entire human population with her (whoever wants to go). It’s a golden age beyond our wildest imaginations. </i></p><p><i>The “dark cabal” governing authority has intentionally and methodically hidden humanity’s historical truth (including extra-terrestrial occupation and genetic tampering) for over 13,000 years. It’s plan was to enslave humanity for its own selfish ends. It almost succeeded. </i></p><p><i>Here’s a short description of NESARA’s mandate in the United States: </i></p><p><i>Cancels all credit card, mortgage, and other bank debt due to illegal banking and government activities. Many refer to this as a “jubilee” or complete forgiveness of debt. </i></p><p><i>Abolishes Federal Income Taxes in the U.S. Creates a 17% flat rate non-essential new items only sales tax revenue for the government. In other words, food and medicine will not be taxed, nor will used items such as old homes. </i></p><p><i>Abolishes the Internal Revenue Service (IRS), with employees of the IRS will be transferred into the US Treasury national sales tax area. </i></p><p><i>Restores Constitutional Law to all courts and legal matters in the Republic of the United States of America. Retrains all judges and attorneys in Constitutional Law. </i></p><p><i>Removes all dark cabal agents and administration officials and all members of the U.S. Congress from their positions due to their continuous unconstitutional actions. </i></p><p>Sounds promising, right? I have heard that there will be debt forgiveness and that the cost of living won’t be so astronomical when this new financial system gets ushered in. Of course, given that we are on two primary timelines now, not everyone will experience this 5D financial system. So, do what you can to raise your vibration by being in service to others, cutting ties with dark connections that involve fear and any of the negative emotions, and attune yourself to love and to God. Scott McKay does a livestream called The Tipping Point on Revolution Radio on Monday nights. He did a great podcast that explains the Global Currency Reset and all the history that led to the necessity of this reset in a very comprehensive way. If you want to do your own research on the QFS and NESARA/GESARA, Scott McKay's video is a great place to start. Here is a link to that video: </p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://rumble.com/vzr1ni-psf-rebroadcast-11.12.20-election-sting-operation-leading-to-trump-2nd-term.html" target="_blank" data-link-type="url" contents="https://rumble.com/vzr1ni-psf-rebroadcast-11.12.20-election-sting-operation-leading-to-trump-2nd-term.html">https://rumble.com/vzr1ni-psf-rebroadcast-11.12.20-election-sting-operation-leading-to-trump-2nd-term.html</a></p><p>UPDATE added 5/25/22: I wanted to add an update to this blog for a video (Rumble) I watched this morning that I was very inspired by about the QFS and GESARA/NESARA. In case the video "disappears", some highlights are:</p><p>- QFS works via an AI (Artificial Intelligence) program that is a monetary system backed by gold. You have to be vibrationally matched to it in order to attract it into your life. One affirmation you can practice is: "I am a vibrational match to the Quantum Financial System." </p><p>- Raise your vibration by pursuing and living your highest joys.</p><p>- It is no longer GESARA/NESARA. It is now just GESARA which means that the QFS will be global. </p><p>- The video below also says that NESARA was passed into law in the year 2000. Any mention of it was forbidden but the truth always has a way of leaking out. It was going to be announced to the people of the USA on September 12, 2001. What happened the day before, of course, obliterated any chance of NESARA occurring at that time or even being mentioned at that time since we were still under the control of the Cabal at that time. 9/11 was thus a way to keep us enslaved to the current monetary system that is on it's way out, the SWIFT and FIAT systems as previously stated above.</p><p>Here's the link: <a class="no-pjax" href="https://rumble.com/v15tkfp-nesara-gesara-qfs-quantum-financial-system-end-of-global-poverty-and-libera.html" data-link-type="url" contents="https://rumble.com/v15tkfp-nesara-gesara-qfs-quantum-financial-system-end-of-global-poverty-and-libera.html">https://rumble.com/v15tkfp-nesara-gesara-qfs-quantum-financial-system-end-of-global-poverty-and-libera.html</a></p><p>Updated on 6/29/22: It appears that more and more information is coming out on the Rainbow money, the forgiveness of debt and the QFS/GESARA/NESARA. I wanted to provide a link to a great video on the topic but you may have to scroll past the first 20-30 minutes where the presenter is working out technical difficulties: <a class="no-pjax" href="https://rumble.com/v1a8trz-45-tastic-and-john-dowling-on-turn-the-page-with-janine-steffens-q-and-a-on.html" data-link-type="url" contents="https://rumble.com/v1a8trz-45-tastic-and-john-dowling-on-turn-the-page-with-janine-steffens-q-and-a-on.html">https://rumble.com/v1a8trz-45-tastic-and-john-dowling-on-turn-the-page-with-janine-steffens-q-and-a-on.html</a></p><p>Updated on 9/2/22: Within the past month, Juan O. Savin, who is a big figure in the truther communicator, has said that GESARA/NESARA is a "scam." However, there are other truthers that I highly respect, such as Ismael Perez, who continue to talk about the QFS and GESARA/NESARA being a real thing that will happen, depending on which timeline you end up on. For more information on that, look for Ismael Perez's YT videos. He has been doing interviews all over the place and has a couple of books out too, including a book called Our Cosmic Origin. Additionally, he has been teaching online classes that sound very interesting. You can sign up for his classes at: <a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.themysticarts.org/" data-link-type="url" contents="https://www.themysticarts.org/">https://www.themysticarts.org/</a></p><p>Updated on 10/13/22: There is an awesome Rumble where both Juan O. Savin and Dr. Charlie Ward are discussing NESARA/GESARA. I updated parts of this blog above based on this Rumble: <a class="no-pjax" href="https://rumble.com/v1npbmu-ironing-out-the-truth-nesara-gesara-with-charlie-ward-juan-savin-amelia-lov.html" data-link-type="url" contents="https://rumble.com/v1npbmu-ironing-out-the-truth-nesara-gesara-with-charlie-ward-juan-savin-amelia-lov.html">https://rumble.com/v1npbmu-ironing-out-the-truth-nesara-gesara-with-charlie-ward-juan-savin-amelia-lov.html</a></p><p>In the above podcast, Charlie Ward says, "the re-evaluation (the 'rv') actually did start on the 24th of September (2022)" and "the Quantum Financial System IS the operating system and the only currencies that can be entered in the Quantum system are gold-backed currencies." </p><p>Updated on 11/14/22: Another great resource for learning about GESARA is Dylan Monroe, aka "The Mapmaker." He created a map, a flowchart of GESARA and made it a free download for anyone trying to understand it better. He also has a video explaining the map in more detail. Below are links to a free download of the map and his video about the map:</p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://deepstatemappingproject.weebly.com/free-downloads.html" data-link-type="url" contents="https://deepstatemappingproject.weebly.com/free-downloads.html">https://deepstatemappingproject.weebly.com/free-downloads.html</a></p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://rumble.com/v18tjxz-gesara-map-and-the-qfs-full-walkthrough-w-the-mapmaker.html" data-link-type="url" contents="https://rumble.com/v18tjxz-gesara-map-and-the-qfs-full-walkthrough-w-the-mapmaker.html">https://rumble.com/v18tjxz-gesara-map-and-the-qfs-full-walkthrough-w-the-mapmaker.html</a></p><p>Updated on 3/15/23: There is A LOT happening with the QFS right now. If you haven't noticed, banks have been failing. It would be a good idea to withdraw cash to have on hand should your bank fail and you not have access to your own funds for 10 days to 3 months. It would also be a good idea to print out any electronic bank statements so that you have paper statements for the RV (Review - where we have meetings with our bank to switch over the QFS). I've been wanting to share more links about what's currently happening with the QFS. One of my favorite truthers is Gene Decode. In this video, he shares a general overview of what's going on regarding the QFS and GESARA/NESARA: <a class="no-pjax" href="https://rumble.com/v2d07nc-gene-decode-discusses-gesara-banking-collapse-and-alliance-moving-fast-with.html" data-link-type="url">https://rumble.com/v2d07nc-gene-decode-discusses-gesara-banking-collapse-and-alliance-moving-fast-with.html</a></p><p>Updated on 3/27/23: My updates have been more frequent on this subject matter because things are moving and shifting quickly with regards to the QFS and GESARA/NESARA. I wanted to share this awesome Rumble video with Dave XRP Lion on Nicholas Veniamin. Dave XRP Lion gives out such helpful, practical and specific information, more than anyone I've heard out there speaking on the subject of the QFS and GESARA/NESARA. One important piece of information is to move any money you have in brokerage accounts into your banking account. Another important highlight is that 401K's WILL BE PROTECTED. So, DO NOT WORRY about your 401K's. Dave SRP Lion talks specifically about the different stations that will be at the redemption centers and how it will be important to talk about what Humanitarian Projects will be. Here's the link to find out more: <a class="no-pjax" href="https://rumble.com/v2ei74o-dave-xrp-lion-discusses-the-deep-state-crash-and-the-quantum-system-with-ni.html">https://rumble.com/v2ei74o-dave-xrp-lion-discusses-the-deep-state-crash-and-the-quantum-system-with-ni.html</a></p><p>Updated 3/29/23 – I was listening to a podcast today, again on Rumble (which to me is one of the best sources of truther information other than Telegram or Bitchute or TruthSocial), on the Risevolution channel. This video includes a panel of truthers including Jason Q and Dylan Monroe.<span> </span>One truther that is new to me, Emily Tang with the Quantum Stellar Initiative, questions any information coming from Dave XRP Lion.<span> </span>Rather than delete the update I did on 3/15/23, which is information being put out by Dave XRP Lion on the QFS and the whole reset, I decided to keep both that post up and add this new post so people can watch both and make their own decision about what to believe or not believe.<span> </span><p></p></p><p>One thing Dylan says that is aligned with the information from Dave XRP Lion is that your money is probably not safe in stocks.<span> </span>However, Dylan says that your money also might not be safe in a bank, depending on the bank.<span> </span>Dylan says that he would not have his money in Chase Bank right now, for example.<span> </span>I heard in another podcast that Credit Unions might be more safe.<span> </span>The important thing is to use your own discernment and intuition instead of listening to someone else about what to do with your money.<span> </span>Most truthers agree that investing in silver and gold is probably a safe way to go. Though some truthers talk about having money on hand in case your banking institution collapses or there is a worldwide banking collapse, other truthers say that the Federal Reserve notes, that have been and currently are the U.S. dollar, will be useless at that point as the new rainbow money is in the process of being ushered in.<span> </span><p></p></p><p>Another important piece of information that continually comes up around the reset of our monetary system is the BRICS nations.<span> </span>Though this acronym originally stood for Brazil, Russia, India, China, and South Africa, more and more nations are being added to the BRICS nations including Turkey (which is why they were reportedly attacked with a HARP-related weather or earthquake warfare recently). <span> </span>It is important to know about BRICS because they may be leading the way to a new global economic structure.<span> </span>For more information on BRICS, here is a Wikipedia link:<span> </span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/BRICS">https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/BRICS</a><p></p></p><p>An interesting quote from this panel podcast today came from Victoria, though she is reportedly quoting someone else. I believe that Victoria is one of the hosts or the moderator for the Risevolution channel on Rumble. What she says in the video/podcast is: “Once all is said and done, we will have access to the monies we are all worth since the day we were born based off of our birth certificates.”<span> </span>She adds, “depending on your age, that could be billions.”<span> Let's hope this isn't too good to be true. </span>Here is the link to the panel podcast/video that I’ve been referring to in my blog entry update today:<span> </span><a class="no-pjax" href="https://rumble.com/v2eyyf6-risevolution-w-emily-dylan-jason-q-supershow-ii.html">https://rumble.com/v2eyyf6-risevolution-w-emily-dylan-jason-q-supershow-ii.html</a><p></p><p></p></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/70233222022-07-25T13:11:24-07:002022-08-16T11:59:55-07:00The Desecration of God's Creation<p>I used to believe that everyone is good at heart and that if you just loved someone and showed someone compassion and really tried to understand someone, a person could change their ways for the better. However, after surviving 25 years of narcissistic abuse in my personal life and uncovering the global Satanic agenda per the narcissists, sociopaths and psychopaths at the top of the pyramid of power in this world, my views have changed. I now realize that these kinds of people will use and abuse your empathy and your love and twist it into a means for their evil ends. These people mock God’s creations. If you say anything about this, you are dismissed as a “conspiracy theorist”, “QANON”, “paranoid” or “crazy” – a way to silence you, mock you and get others to do the same. </p>
<p>This is why they push the transgender agenda. Instead of accepting the gender you were born with, they want you to destroy what God created and feel free to create what you want. This is one of the reasons why they invert their children into the opposite gender from birth or early childhood. They also invert their children to worship the Baphomet, their transgender God. Have you ever heard of “detransitioning”? There is a detransitioning movement that is trying to get the word out about how transitioning into another gender will not solve your problems or make you happy. This movement includes people who have had the top or bottom surgery, deeply regret it and are trying to transition back to their God-given gender. If you say anything about this, you are dismissed as “transphobic” or “homophobic”: a trick to silence you, censor you and/or mock you into silence. </p>
<p>I do understand that there are people who deeply feel that they were born in the wrong body. I used to wish I was a boy. My parents thought I was going to be a boy until I was born. I would wear shorts (without a shirt) instead of a bathing suit when I would swim when I was a little girl. Throughout elementary and middle school, I was more of a tomboy. In high school, I would steal my dad’s clothes and wear them to school. I now just accept that I am a masculine female or what Native Americans might call “two spirit” and that’s okay. Moreso, I deeply love and appreciate that I am a female now. </p>
<p>Gene Decode, my favorite truther and teacher, says that reincarnation is a real thing and a that there is a recycling of souls onto this earth plane through what he calls “soul traps” which is where the tunnel of lights, if you follow them upon dying, lead to. Our soul memories are wiped clean and we stay enslaved to the Satanic forces that control this planet. According to Gene, predominantly male souls may be put into a female body lifetime after lifetime (or vice versa) in order to create a schism in the soul so that demonic entities can attach. This situation can, on a spiritual level, cause someone to have gender dysphoria. </p>
<p>In addition to holograms that create a “tunnel of light” that we have been brainwashed to believe (through the CIA-controlled entertainment industry) is the way to heaven, the Satanic forces also use holograms that may reflect whatever religion or afterlife beliefs one has such as holograms of Jesus, the Virgin Mary, or someone from your family who has passed before you. These holograms are designed to trick your soul into a soul trap, sort of like cheese in a mouse trap. The way to bypass this trick and go to the God of all creation is to go towards what Gene calls “the central sun” or “source.” A hologram is another way to desecrate or mock God’s creation. </p>
<p>The Global Cult, that is mankind but not humankind, mocks God’s creations in many ways. To them, everything is inverted. Up is down and down is up. This is why it is so important to question what you see on TV, in the movies, on the internet, in the news or anything you are perceiving with our limited senses. This is why they do everything they can to make us third eye blind, to calcify our pineal glands and make us question our intuition. This is why they indoctrinate our children with things like drag queen story time – it confuses our children and again, creates a schism in the soul which makes them easy bait for all the mind control that follows throughout life on this planet. This is why our education system has been bombarded by “woke” ideology and you are shamed and called “ignorant” if you dare the question the agenda. Now, there is a movement to try to normalize pedophilia by rebranding pedophiles as “minor attracted person.” </p>
<p>Woman have been desecrated and continue to be desecrated in most religions and in the secular world. We are not allowed to be priests. We are far less likely to hold the highest positions in governments such as president or prime minister. Woman are paid less for their work than men in the same positions. We were not allowed to vote until recently in history. There are still many countries where women don’t have any rights of their own but only have rights through their husband, brothers or fathers. In the bible, we are either a Madonna or a whore. </p>
<p>I grew up going to Catholic school and I was taught that Mary Magdalene was a prostitute that Jesus had pity on, not the partner of Jesus which is what many historians now believe her to be. But her name and reputation were desecrated in the bible, probably because she was a divine feminine and that is not allowed in a patriarchal society. Now, women’s sports are dominated by Luciferian women who are biological males and transwomen. Biological males who were inverted at birth make up a good portion of the supermodels and actresses that we are brainwashed to aspire to be like or look like. Now, transwomen can give birth and the term “birthing person” is being branded so now even giving birth is not special to being a woman. We, as women, are portals for souls to come onto this earth and as such, we tend to hold life more dear. This is why women who are proud to be women should be in positions of authority. </p>
<p>This desecration of God’s creation is also behind the “pro-choice” movement which is really a movement away from freewill of the soul and towards further government control which is why it’s ironic that they call themselves “pro-choice.” The global cult has normalized the killing of our children and use the fetal tissue, cells and organs for many different things including putting it in our food and vaccines, another way to mock God’s creation – to feed us and inject us with our own children. What do you think inspired the song and movie “The Wall” by Pink Floyd and the movie Soylent Green and/or Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas? The global cult sacrifice their own children want us to do the same. They get high on the blood of our children, a drug called Adrenochrome, and use the blood of children as a youth serum to hold onto their corporal lives as long as possible because they know that once they die, they are extinguished, unlike the children of God, for we are made in his image. </p>
<p>According to Gene Decode, “we are the blueprint for everything” which means the that the children of God, the bloodline of Seth, unlike the bloodlines of Cain, are blueprint for all life on this planet, in this galaxy and across all galaxies. As Lucifer is the father of Cain, the bloodlines of Cain worship Satan aka Lucifer and not God. When you hear any of the global cult talk about “God”, they are talking about Lucifer and not the God of all creation. In fact, they are angry with or hate God, if they believe that God even exists. They all pretty much hate Christians. They hate in general. But they love themselves and worship themselves. </p>
<p>But perhaps the biggest way that the global cult has succeeded in desecrating God’s creation is through their practice of trafficking, torturing and harvesting the blood of our children. There is a great TikTok video where the reporter/truther, Laura Logan, explains this well. I have included the link below. In case that video disappears, since the global cult controls and censors the mainstream media and most of social media to their benefit, the gist of the video is that our children are the closest thing to source, to God as they are still pure and innocent and uncorrupted. The energy vampires that are the global cult, feed off the light of others, having no light of their own. They also feed off the negative energies of fear and anger. Dr. Christiane Northup wrote an excellent book on this called Dodging Energy Vampires. In addition to feeding off the light of children, the global cult also delights in torturing our children and consuming our children and secretly getting us to do the same, because they hate God and they hate us, especially our children because our children are the closest thing to God on this planet. </p>
<p>So, how do we want to respond to the global cult’s attempts to desecrate God’s creations? By revering life, by owning our inner light, by seeing the divine in one another, by decrying evil and no longer denying its existence, by standing up for our future, our children and protecting them and holding those who harm our children accountable for their actions, by no longer blindly believing those in positions of power when it’s sociopaths, psychopaths and narcissists that tend to seek out positions of power, by no longer distracting ourselves with various forms of social media, entertainment and mainstream media that keep us from connecting with each other, by honoring women as equal to men, by accepting our God-given genders, by listening to another’s point of view instead of dismissing them as “crazy” or a “conspiracy theorist”, by getting back in touch with our intuition, by forgiving ourselves and each other so that we might unite and transcend whatever circumstances we find ourselves in, and by turning to God who does not wish for any soul to perish. But we all have freewill on this planet. May we use our freewill in service to God and in service to others. God bless…</p>
<p><a contents="https://www.tiktok.com/@classyrednecklady/video/7113226244421995818?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7024561404565308934" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.tiktok.com/@classyrednecklady/video/7113226244421995818?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7024561404565308934">https://www.tiktok.com/@classyrednecklady/video/7113226244421995818?is_from_webapp=1&sender_device=pc&web_id=7024561404565308934</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/69961902022-06-17T09:49:27-07:002022-06-17T09:49:27-07:00Rebirth of the Earth<p>I was listening to a beautiful quote on one of my favorite Rumble channels this morning, We The People. I didn't see or hear a source for the quote but I have included the link to the video below if you are interested in researching it further. Here's the quote: </p>
<p>“The people who will know how to survive these times of great upheaval will be the wounded healers, the ones who have had their hearts broken over and over again until it has cracked open. The ones who have learned from their experiences and now know how to heal themselves because people who have been broken and know how to put themselves back together again hold the spiritual power of regeneration. They know what it’s like to die and be reborn in a single lifetime. Earth is going through a collective death right now and the people who know how to rebirth themselves will know how to be the midwives for the rebirth of the earth too.”</p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/v18knvr-situation-update-61522.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/v18knvr-situation-update-61522.html">https://rumble.com/v18knvr-situation-update-61522.html</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/69680992022-05-10T14:35:56-07:002023-11-23T10:39:42-08:00The Real Zodiac<p>We have been lied to in so many ways: about our history, about our world and about ourselves. One of the ways we have been deceived is through the zodiac signs. In reality, there are 13 zodiac signs, each sign being different lengths. Additionally, our calendar is off. Our annual calendar actually starts on April 16th and ends on April 15th. Each month is actually 28 days with an extra day “to swing into the new year” per Gene Decode. Gene also says that there is an extra day every 4 years or so, just like the concept of a leap year, where the masculine energy joins with the feminine energy. </p><p>So, why did the cabal mess with our calendar and make our months varying lengths? According to Gene, they did so to keep us off our rhythm. For the same reason, they only revealed 12 zodiac signs to us and not all 13. The sign that was hidden from us is the sign of the healer and they didn’t want anyone born into that sign to know that they would be a natural healer. This is the sign of Ophiuchus. The cabal wants us controlled through Big Pharma. They want us relying on the allopathic or Western medicine approach of treating any condition by addressing the symptoms of disease with pharmakeia which translates to “witchcraft” in Greek. </p><p>Your sign is important because it shows you your gifting from God. The cabal does not want us knowing our God-given gifts and certainly doesn’t want us making use of those gifts because they want to keep us enslaved for their own purposes. For those Christians out there who were falsely taught that the zodiac and that astrology were satanic, realize that astrology is all over the bible. Here are some examples from the following website: <a class="no-pjax" href="https://www.liveabout.com/christian-astrologer-the-age-of-aquarius-206619" data-link-type="url" contents="https://www.liveabout.com/christian-astrologer-the-age-of-aquarius-206619">https://www.liveabout.com/christian-astrologer-the-age-of-aquarius-206619</a> </p><p>Jesus talked in the Bible about the changes in the future that would signal his return. He said that there would be “Signs in the Sun, Moon, and stars” (Luke 21:25) signaling his return. </p><p>Jesus was the one who announced the Age of Aquarius and said, “A man will meet you carrying an earthen pitcher of water; follow him into the house where he goes in” Luke 22:10. Since ancient times Aquarius was called the “water-bearer” and is symbolized by the Face of a Man in the Book of Revelation as one of the fixed signs of the zodiac. </p><p>Aquarius is symbolized by a man carrying a jug of water and this symbol existed since ancient times. It's interesting that Jesus tells us to “follow the water-bearer.” Jesus was telling his followers to follow the Aquarian Age and enter the house he goes in, which can mean he was helping us prepare for the future by telling us to follow this new spiritual expansion and rebirth. Jesus was educating the disciples and warning them about this crucial time in human history and preparing them for it in advance. </p><p>Here is another website that speaks well to astrology in the bible: <a class="no-pjax" href="https://medium.com/belover/astrology-in-the-bible-5d4abecac741" data-link-type="url" contents="https://medium.com/belover/astrology-in-the-bible-5d4abecac741">https://medium.com/belover/astrology-in-the-bible-5d4abecac741 </a></p><p>The most important case for astrology, in my opinion, is that the three wise men knew where to find the baby Jesus by following a star. Christians often retort, “that’s astronomy, not astrology.” But astrology, not astronomy, is the meaning given to the stars. The next best case for astrology in the bible comes from Genesis 1:14, English Standard Version: </p><p>And God said, “Let there be lights in the expanse of the heavens to separate the day from the night. And let them be for signs and for seasons and for days and years."</p><p>Our zodiac signs don’t enslave us to a certain future because God allows for all choices and possibilities. What it does give us, though, is knowledge of the gifts we are born into the world with. Each natal chart is like an energetic footprint, a cosmic signature which gives us the gravitational magnetic field of the time, place and date we are born. </p><p>So, here are the 13 signs according to Gene Decode: </p><p>Aires: April 18 – May 14, 25.5 days long </p><p>Taurus: May 14 – June 21, 38.2 days long </p><p>Gemini: June 21 – July 20, 29.3 days long </p><p>Cancer: July 20 – August 10, 21.1 days long </p><p>Leo: August 10 – September 16, 36.9 days long </p><p>Virgo: September 16 – October 31, 44.5 days long </p><p>Libra: October 31 – November 21, 21.1 days long </p><p>Scorpio: November 21 – November 29, 8.4 days long </p><p>Ophiuchus: November 29 – December 18, 18.4 days long </p><p>Sagittarius: December 18 – January 20, 33.6 days long </p><p>Capricorn: January 20 – February 17, 27.4 days long </p><p>Aquarius: February 17 – March 13, 23.9 days long </p><p>Pisces: March 13 – April 18, 37.7 days long</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/69476632022-04-13T14:40:11-07:002022-04-13T14:40:11-07:00Adventures in Social Work<p>Around 2010 or so, I was walking along the pier on Seattle’s waterfront. This was before pot was legal. I forgot to remove my badge from work. I came across a very creative panhandler who was writing the word “LOVE” out in pennies on the sidewalk. He stopped me and asked if he could have some pennies to finish the word “LOVE.” I thought he was so creative that I gave him some pennies. Then his friend put a vial of weed in my face and said, “look at this, isn’t it beautiful?” The panhandler scolded his friend and pointed out my badge and said to his friend, “can’t you see she’s a social worker?” </p>
<p>And that, my friends, is how social workers are viewed in society. We are viewed as almost the same, if not worse, than the police. I remember being in high school and taking a class where a social worker from Child Protective Services was visiting. She said that it was a thankless job because you are either accused of not taking away kids who should’ve been taken away or taking away kids that shouldn’t have been taken away. She added that nobody sees or cares to see how much social workers help people. I remember thinking to myself back then, “who in the world would want to be a social worker?” </p>
<p>When I later worked for Child Protective Services one summer as a case aide, I saw how much the social workers did to help children, to help families. I saw how many services they provided to families struggling with generational abuse or trauma. They helped with daycare, parenting classes, in home therapy, and basic needs like vouchers for food and travel. Nobody ever hears about this side of social workers. </p>
<p>Upon graduating high school, I went to the University of Washington (UW) attempting to become a physical therapist because I wanted to be a healer in some capacity and back then, I was still under the social programming that you need a degree to do or be anything of value in this world or make substantial money. I obtained my Bachelor’s degree in psychology but could never get into the physical therapy program at UW (which only accepted 24 students per year) or any other PT program at that time. My grades were just not good enough in the sciences. I recall walking by the School of Social Work a lot as an undergraduate student because the building was next to Schmitz Hall which is where you paid your tuition, handled issues around student loans, enrollment, transcripts, etc. Anyway, the School of Social Work building was at a prominent location on campus and I walked by it often. As I would walk by it, I recall sometimes thinking, again, “who in their right mind would become a social worker?” </p>
<p>Because I couldn’t get into the PT program at UW, I knew I had to get a Master’s degree in something because a Bachelor’s in Psychology on its own was not likely to get me a job. I considered a Master’s in Education but didn’t have enough of the prerequisites to apply. Two Master’s programs reached out to me, The School of Law and The School of Social Work. Because I was intimated by the LSAT, I applied to The School of Social Work as well as the Marriage and Family Therapy program at a different college. I got into both and chose Social Work only because I knew it would give me more options. </p>
<p>It wasn’t until I started my graduate program that I discovered that social workers did much more than work for Child Protective Services. I learned that social workers are counselors and social justice warriors and worked in healthcare as medical social workers. When I took my first mental health class in the MSW program, I thought to myself, “I can do this.” I decided to go down the mental health track of social work. The other tracks at the time were multicultural, administrative, and child/youth/family. I’ve done work in CYF and mental health and medical social worker (it’s odd that there wasn’t a medical social work track at the time). While I enjoyed doing work within the CYF part of social work, I enjoyed mental health work much more. Medical social work was what I enjoyed the least. </p>
<p>My first job in social worker was working in people’s homes that were involved with CPS. I did Family Preservation Counseling and taught parenting skills to parents at the age of 22 with no kids and little experience in the field. Somehow, I was able to pull off getting positive feedback from the CPS social workers and the families I worked with. Probably, because I was and still am a people pleaser to some degree. I went from that job to working in community mental health. I ran into a lot of age discrimination because a lot of people were upset by my age, even into my 40’s, because I’ve always had a baby face. But I’ve always been an old soul and most people were willing to look past my chronological age and youthful appearance. </p>
<p>While working as a medical social worker, I found that people got angry if they were referred to my office for an intake or assessment. People would arrive to their first appointment with me by saying things like “I don’t beat my wife” even if this had nothing to do with why their doctor referred them to me. One woman said to me, “I might have cancer but I’m not depressed” as if depression was more stigmatizing than cancer. I guess, it is in some ways it is. Most people would say something like “I don’t know why my doctor referred me to a social worker.” When I would call people from the clinic, I would introduce myself and my credentials and it immediately put most people off. Most people would say, “why is a social worker calling me?” I got wiser and started introducing myself as, “I’m Nicole and I’m calling from Dr. So-and-So’s office.” People were much more receptive to the improved introduction. </p>
<p>While I never quite enjoyed my profession completely, due to the general societal hate and distrust towards social workers, I have grown to appreciate that while the job is very stressful and demanding and, at times, traumatic, it is also very rewarding. I’ve had people, for example, tell me that I saved their lives by talking them out of suicide. I’ve had many children draw me pictures to thank me for helping them to heal and/or for helping their parents or families to heal. </p>
<p>Becoming more aware of how vast the issue of child abuse and trafficking is, in 2019, was when my choice of graduate degree and career finally clicked for me. I realized, on a conscious level, that helping children or adult children, heal from trauma and informing the world about the truth of child trafficking and related Satanic Ritual Abuse and all the related issues, such as the survivors of the MK Ultra and Monarch mind control programs, was not only part of my job but my spiritual purpose for being here on this earth, especially at this time in history. I’m here, as many lightworkers are, to hold the light, to help people heal, to help people find their path and evolve, and to be a teacher in the sense of bringing the dark issues to the light. (BTW, if you have not watched the documentary, Trance, about Cathy O’Brien’s life, you are missing out. She is a survivor of the MK Ultra program. Here is the link to watch it: <a contents="https://trance.movie/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://trance.movie/" target="_blank">https://trance.movie/</a>) </p>
<p>Getting back to my “adventures” in social work, I have been threatened in my professional life and in my personal life due to this spiritual purpose of helping to bring light to the issue of child trafficking and child abuse including Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA). I have lost friends due to this purpose. I have been mocked and ridiculed. I have been kicked off social media platforms, repeatedly and have seen other advocates for children have the same done to them. I have become unpopular, lost jobs, lost relationships, and have had people scold and chastise me because of my purpose. I have been smear-campaigned. I have had people threaten my livelihood, my personal safety and my life because of my need to be a child advocate and be a voice for the voiceless. And if I lose my life because of this purpose, then I can think of no better reason to die, on the spiritual battlefield doing what God wants me to do. So, to all of those who have threatened me or mocked me or smeared me, I say… BRING IT ON!!!</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/69283792022-03-21T16:19:33-07:002022-03-21T16:19:33-07:00Keep Your Outlet Clean<p>My friend shared a dream with me this past week and gave me permission to share the dream and the meaning of the dream with the readers of my blogs. In my work as a mental health counselor, part of my job, at times, is to interpret dreams. I think the dream has a very important message: to keep your outlet clean and your connection to source (God, your higher power or highest self, etc.) ongoing and as free of as much interference as possible. So here is the dream: </p>
<p><em>My energy is low and my mind is cloudy (in the dream). We are in an old military brick building on an ocean beach. A loud foghorn goes off. I can see fog rolling in through the large windows. My mind goes to home (Pacific Northwest, Washington state, King and Snohomish counties). I tell someone, “In Seattle, they don’t have any foghorns. They simply don’t allow boats out to the islands.” </em></p>
<p><em>I’m in a dozy state. The sound of a critical supervisor breaks through my mental fog. It seems to be coming from one woman. I didn’t even pick up that people had tasks to do until now. I’m not aware of the tasks, what it entails. Asking someone near me what they are doing. I’m told this: “the electric outlets have names on them. The outlet with your name, you’re responsible to keep clean.” I start looking for my name on outlets. You can have more than one outlet. There are so many outlets with different names and different levels of cleanliness and repair. Haven’t found my name yet. I worry about being cut off with energy or life by someone. From an unexpected group member (an unknown man dressed as a factory worker), I receive their (telepathic) message: “their (God) power trumps all, not to worry.” The man also was saying, “keep looking, you’ll find it (the outlet) and be fine” and “don’t worry about dying.” </em></p>
<p>And here is the message: </p>
<p><em>Your outlet is your life path and your connection to an energy source whether that be God or something/someone else. You choose where you put your energy and power, where you pay attention. It is your duty and your responsibility to keep your outlet in the best working order. In the dream, my friend saw that the outlets were all over the walls at different heights, some were older than others and some were broken or mismanaged or dirty. </em></p>
<p><em>The foghorn was a warning that breaks through the mental fog and both the foghorn and the critical supervisor in the dream were reasons to open my friend’s eyes in the dream and wake up from the mental fog to see what’s really going on. My friend says, “the sound of the foghorn brings me back to life (in the dream).” She is dialoguing with someone in the dream and tells them that, “back home, there are no foghorns and they don’t send the boats out.” This made her think of her own life where “I don’t interact, I don’t connect.” “Sending the boats out” is a way of connecting with others. Otherwise, we are islands until ourselves. </em></p>
<p><em>I also think that the Seattle area is one of the most “asleep” communities all over the world. I connect with people from all over the world on social media and everywhere but here, people seem to be more asleep to the reality of the situation in the world that those in Seattle dismiss as “conspiracy theory.” The people here are largely in a mental fog and they are less connected with others. I hear this most from those who move here from other places. It’s known as “the deep Seattle freeze.” We are like a secluded community in our little corner of the world, buying into the mainstream narrative of events, politically. I’ve also been told from people who move here that we tend to be on our phones A LOT. We can be sitting at dinner with others and everyone at the table may be on their phones instead of actually talking to each other. </em></p>
<p>So, how do we plug in and connect to source and keep that connection free from interference? </p>
<p>What are the things that you find uplifting? What are the things that keep your mind free and clear so that you can connect to spirit? What activities do you choose to do? Who do you choose to hang around and interact with? Who do you listen to? What are you eating? Are you taking care of your body? Are you tending to your physical, mental, emotional and spiritual health? </p>
<p>For me, it is music that connects me to God the most, other than prayer. The music and the songs were always my favorite part of church. I also enjoy reading metaphysical books and listening to uplifting music. However, overworking myself, overcommitting my time and energy to others to the point of exhaustion, not setting boundaries, not having enough discernment with what information I listen to and who I choose to be influenced by, and indulging too much in comfort food are all things that lead to depression and are all ways that keep me giving into anxiety, self-defeating beliefs and in a state of mental fog, confusion or delusion. </p>
<p>Also, be careful of where you get your news. There is a lot of fear-mongering that goes on via Mainstream Media outlets. The information you get on the main social medial platforms like Twitter, Facebook, Google and Instagram are highly censored. What messages cause division? Be open to seeing the other person’s side and point of view instead of just arguing with them or dismissing them. It doesn’t mean that you have to agree with them to be open to seeing their point of view. We are social creatures and we need social connection but COVID and quarantine affected our openness to connection with others. We were, instead, taught to fear the other. This fear of the other has been shoved down our collective throats through sociopolitical events as well. </p>
<p>And how do we keep our outlets clean and in good working order? </p>
<p>Be aware of how different things affect your outlet (your connection to source energy). Who and what is uplifting for you and who or what is draining or exhausting? If you are not sure, you can do a meditation where you ask God, your guides, your higher self, how something or someone is affecting your energy. How do you visualize things to be affecting you? Think of when you plug a hair dryer into an outlet and how much power that hair dryer uses. When you do things that are exhausting, it can take a toll on you. There is a lot of disinformation and downright lies to weed through right now at this time in history. When you are not sure who to trust and who to listen to, use your intuition and/or ask God or your guides for more information. There are so many sources of subliminal messages and Satanic symbolism and forms of mind control, brainwash and trickery going on, that it is a good idea to ask God, or whatever you want to call your higher power, for clarification or confirmation on any impulses or thoughts that you get and/or any action you want to take. Stay away from potential demonic portals including drugs, alcohol, Ouija boards, dark places, and even dark people. </p>
<p>Keep your temple, your body in good working condition. Research the side effects of medications and/or vaccines before agreeing to put things in your body. Make healthy food choices. Exercise and spend time in nature. Go off the grid every now and then when it comes to electronics, especially social media. Regularly discharge whatever negative energies you are picking up. Read the book Dodging Energy Vampires by Dr. Christiane Northup. Even among Christian leaders and communities, have discernment about who you listen to and who you connect with and how different scripture is being interpreted – in a fear-based or judgmental way or a in a loving and graceful way? </p>
<p>Surround yourself with positive people and messages. If the person or message you are receiving is fear-based or anger-inducing or chaos creating, then distance yourself from it. Protect your energy and your spaces from negative energies. There are various ways to do this. Sloan Bella has a great video on this on TikTok. Here is the link: <a contents="https://www.tiktok.com/@sloanbella/video/7072623403793927467?is_copy_url=1&amp;is_from_webapp=v1" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.tiktok.com/@sloanbella/video/7072623403793927467?is_copy_url=1&is_from_webapp=v1">https://www.tiktok.com/@sloanbella/video/7072623403793927467?is_copy_url=1&is_from_webapp=v1</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/69017822022-02-18T23:20:45-08:002022-02-18T23:35:27-08:00The Two Timelines and the Deadline for Divine Love <p>There has been a lot of talk about timelines lately. Some of my favorite movies involve ideas around timelines and time travelling such as Donnie Darko, The Terminator, and Back to the Future. I’ve been knowing about the idea that time isn’t linear but moves more in a spiral and the notion of parallel lifetimes for decades now. I’ve always been into reading and researching metaphysical information. </p>
<p>I first heard about the idea that there would be a new earth from following Dolores Cannon’s work. The new earth would reportedly split apart from the earth we know and some of the population would ascend to the new earth while the rest of the population would stay behind on this earth due to lack of spiritual evolvement. Gene Decode suggests that those living in service to others would go ascend to 5D (the fifth dimension) whereas those living in service to self would stay behind on 3D (third dimension). I think this is just another way of saying “new earth” versus “old or current earth.” </p>
<p>The first time I heard that we were on two timelines was from Megan Rose in one of her YouTube videos. She did a video right after Biden’s inauguration and said that if the ceremony seemed fake, it was because it was fake. She went on to say that the best way she could explain this is by saying that we were on two timelines. Then I heard Gene Decode talking about us being on two timelines. He calls these two timelines the Book of Revelations timeline and the Book of Sarah timeline. The Book of Revelations timeline is for those who will stay behind on 3D (third dimensional) living because they are not ready to transcend to the Book of Sarah timeline, which is for those ready to ascend to 5D (fifth dimensional living). </p>
<p>Perhaps this is what the bible is referring to in the parable of the wheat and tares. If you don’t know this parable, here is a short synopsis: </p>
<p>24 Another parable He put forth to them, saying: “The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field; 25 but while men slept, his enemy came and sowed tares among the wheat and went his way. 26 But when the grain had sprouted and produced a crop, then the tares also appeared. 27 So the servants of the owner came and said to him, ‘Sir, did you not sow good seed in your field? How then does it have tares?’ 28 He said to them, ‘An enemy has done this.’ The servants said to him, ‘Do you want us then to go and gather them up?’ 29 But he said, ‘No, lest while you gather up the tares you also uproot the wheat with them. 30 Let both grow together until the harvest, and at the time of harvest I will say to the reapers, “First gather together the tares and bind them in bundles to burn them, but gather the wheat into my barn.” ’ ” (<a contents="https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+13&amp;version=NKJV" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+13&amp;version=NKJV">https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+13&version=NKJV</a>) </p>
<p>So, I interpret this parable to mean that not all people on earth are children of God. But those who are children of God are his “wheat” where the “tares” or weeds are those who turn away from the God of all creation and/or are living their lives in service to self and/or are the bloodlines or Cain. However, we will share this earth and comingle until the time comes for God’s wheat to be separated from the tares, who are not of God. I see this happening in marriages, families, and communities. </p>
<p>People are either choosing the path of fear, debauchery, lust, greed, Satanism, unforgiveness, willfulness and selfishness or the path of divine love, generosity, compassion, charity, kindness, unity, forgiveness and harmony. Furthermore, the bible states that in the end times: “Two men will be in the field; one will be taken and the other left. Two women will be grinding with a hand mill; one will be taken and the other left.” (Matthew 24:40) This again represents a separating of people. I had a dream several months ago where there were two lines of people and a line down the middle but the lines of people on the right and on the left were branching apart. I knew that I had to make a choice as far as which line I wanted to stand in and I chose the right side. I saw that the right side was longer than the left side. I think this dream was showing me that people are now having to choose to be righteous or not and will be separated accordingly. </p>
<p>Most recently, I was listening to a video with Michael Jaco and Jason Shurka. Jason Shurka said that the date December 23rd, 2192 is the deadline for divine love and that we can aspire to divine love prior to that date and may even meet the goal of divine love prior to that date but that we would, for sure, get to divine love in our collective consciousness by that date at the latest. Gene Decode said that the cabal, the Satanic global elite, has a way of looking into the future called Project Looking Glass. The Looking Glass uses advanced secret technology, such as the Orion Cube* and remote viewers to look into the future and see how different choices affect the timelines. They do this to manipulate the timelines to their benefit and liking. However, the cabal reportedly can’t see themselves past the year 2045 because they don’t exist past that date. What happens to the tares at the time of the harvest per the bible? They are burned. </p>
<p>Gene also says that the Montauk Project and Philadelphia Experiment both messed with the timelines and this is why The Mandela Effect, where people remember a different past, exists. According to Gene, ”time operates like a manifold.” There are 8 timelines in each manifold. There are 8 manifolds per super manifold. There are timelines where WWI didn’t happen, Lincoln wasn’t killed, and JFK wasn’t killed. Gene says, “God allows all choices so we can learn from our choices.” </p>
<p>Sloan Bella has been talking about timelines as of late as well. She speaks of meditating to jump timelines. She says that a lot of the Satanic and Luciferian influencers in the media, government and in Hollywood will be gone in the next 1-2 years. Hopefully, this will be true on ALL timelines. Jason Q talks about how every major event at this time has to be done twice. Why? Because of the two timelines. </p>
<p>Gene Decode says that one of the timelines is tucked into the other timeline. In the “lowest” timeline, “they (the cabal) nuked the world.” Gene had the ability to see in different timelines from a young age and had a near death experience that only enhanced his psychic abilities. He saw the FEMA camps and guillotines that were part of the timeline “when Hillary won the election in 2016” and “everything on the surface of the earth died.” However, because the cabal did not go to the court of God to ask for permission to nuke the world, this timeline was ultimately not allowed. According to Gene, “when you pray for a change” you are petitioning the court of God. </p>
<p>There is so much to timelines, that I hardly understand it all myself. But I’ve been open to learning more about timelines and the information seems to be coming to me from many different directions now. If you’re also interested in learning more about timelines, I would suggest that you listen to any of Gene Decode’s interviews on the subject. In my humble opinion, he is the foremost authority of quantum physics and in explaining timelines. Here is a link to get you started: <a contents="https://brandnewtube.com/v/jdgZUy" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://brandnewtube.com/v/jdgZUy">https://brandnewtube.com/v/jdgZUy</a> <br> </p>
<p>* “Eisenhower met with several extraterrestrial groups who warned the Earthmen to abandon atomic weapons to avoid a future nuclear holocaust. Diplomatic discussions between civilizations took place at this meeting and an agreement was approved to abduct human beings for the purpose of studying them, provided that they did not have to suffer and remember nothing of their experience. The Orion ET races have given President Eisenhower a cube about eight centimeters wide by another eight centimeters long, capable of predicting the future. It has been passed between rich and powerful to be able to choose well in their lives.” <a contents="https://www.monkeyandelf.com/project-looking-glass-the-plans-of-the-secret-government-on-time-machines-and-stargate-devices/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.monkeyandelf.com/project-looking-glass-the-plans-of-the-secret-government-on-time-machines-and-stargate-devices/">https://www.monkeyandelf.com/project-looking-glass-the-plans-of-the-secret-government-on-time-machines-and-stargate-devices/</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/69004742022-02-17T13:50:25-08:002022-02-17T13:50:25-08:00Three Kinds of Truthers<p>I started relating to the truther movement after a brutal awakening and ending of a 25-year-long relationship that involved gaslighting, trickery, emotional abuse and lies. Since exiting the toxicity of that relationship in 2017, I came to appreciate the truth no matter how brutal or ugly it was. Cambridge Dictionary defines “truther” as: </p>
<p><em>“someone who does not believe the generally accepted explanation for an event or situation and thinks it is the result of a secret plan made by powerful people: </em></p>
<p><em>He is a truther - one of those who believes that 9/11 was some sort of government operation.” </em></p>
<p>Once you are open to accepting the truth that you have been duped by a narcissist, sociopath or psychopath (those who typically seek out positions of power in the world) in your personal life, you are more able to see it in the world at large. However, the 9/11 conspiracy was on my radar way before my personal rude awakening to narcissistic abuse in 2017. Now, I can see narcissistic and sociopathic abuse everywhere. And this is not a projection! </p>
<p>So, I now highly value and respect other truthers and follow them on social media platforms. I have noticed three kinds of truthers in my search for the truth about everything in this world, especially during this confusing but exciting time in history. </p>
<p><strong>1) Positive Only Truthers</strong>: These kind of truthers, whether discussing new age beliefs, Christian beliefs, political beliefs or ideas about aliens, are determined to “stay positive” and this can almost be positive to a toxic degree. Hence the term “toxic positivity.” They feel that we should all just get along and give everyone the benefit of the doubt. These truthers can range from the naïve influencers who simply haven’t been burned, had the experience of being tricked, gaslit or lied to at a disabling degree or aren’t aware of how dark the cabal really is, to those truthers who are Greater Than Thou Influencers who decry anyone who brings up the dark and brutal truths about others as “gossipers.” </p>
<p>These Greater Than Thou truthers may feel superior or on a moral “high horse” and somewhat preachy about the need to transcend third dimensional living or “non-Christian” attitudes. If you bring any negative truth to their attention, they think they are above it and may choose to ignore it. All I have to say to that is that it is NOT OKAY to ignore the fact that children are being hurt and killed here. Children cannot stand up for themselves and need advocates to speak up for them. Also, Jesus was not above judging people such as the pharisees. He was not above getting angry with people. He was quite comfortable with calling evil out. </p>
<p>If we keep giving the evildoers of this world the benefit of the doubt, we actually collude and enable them and assist in victimizing their victims. These are probably my least favorite kind of truthers though there are some that I really like and follow such as Megan Rose, who was putting out a lot of negative information about the cabal at first, but then decided to delete all of that information. She also did say that feels it is “gossip” to say anything negative about anyone and that we should all focus on the light in order to evolve our souls to the fifth dimension and higher timeline. </p>
<p><strong>2) Negative Truthers and Doomsday Truthers:</strong> While I don’t think it’s a good idea to stay too long in a place of negativity or dive deep for truth without coming up for light or a breath every now and then, I actually prefer these negative truthers to the positive only truthers. At least they are willing to dive deep and go far down rabbit holes. As long as their motives and intentions are right, such as wanting to spread the truth in order to call people to action or warn people or protect kids or other marginalized populations, I applaud their efforts and bravery in saying what other people may know but aren’t willing to say. However, if the truther’s intention is just to get attention, obtain fame, fortune, a following, narcissistic supply, manipulate others or anything of the ego, I’m not likely to pay attention to the negative truther. </p>
<p>I also don’t think it’s a good thing to continually scare people or cajole people into fear or anger or any of the lower vibrational states without balancing the negative with more positive information. Some negative truthers do speak in an inspirational way at times, but if they are mostly speaking in a negative tone, I consider them to be a “negative truther.” Sloan Bella is an example of a negative truther. She goes on rants a lot but during those rants, you will get a ton of valuable truth. She is one of my favorite truthers even though she is “spilling the beans” or “dishing the dirt” on people, who should, in fact, be exposed. She is fulfilling a very important purpose in the world. When I listen to her, I am reminded of the scripture from Ephesians 5:11 – “Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them.” </p>
<p><strong>3) Balanced Truthers: </strong> You would think that balanced truthers would be the most healthy and wise of the truthers and in some cases, that might be true. But there are some “balanced truthers” who are just more lukewarm or non-committal than anything else. Perhaps, they are “on the fence” with where they stand on an issue or perhaps they flip flop back and forth on their opinions and information. When you come across a balanced truther, such as Gene Decode or Jason Shurka, who is an evolved one, you have hit paydirt. Both of these men stand in the light, aim to serve God but don’t ignore the negative and the darkness about what’s going on in the world, especially to our children. </p>
<p>So, in closing, I feel like all three kids of truthers have a valuable place in this movement towards evolvement and freedom. We need people who help us see the light in this dark time, we need people to help bring the dark to the light where it can be exposed and dissolved in the light, and we need people who can show us the way to finding the balance between dark and light without falling into lukewarm complacency or non-committed wishy-washiness or flip-flopping, convoluted confusion. I’m probably more of a negative truther at this time but I do aim to be more positive like Megan Rose, more brave like Sloan Bella, more wise like Gene Decode, and a more balanced speaker like Jason Shurka. There is something to learn from everybody. I firmly believe that there is a silver lining to any dark situation and that God always wins. If you are a truther and/or you are dipping a toe or wading into the deeper waters of truth, as George Green writes in his book, Handbook for the New Paradigm, “welcome to the winning side.” </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68976472022-02-14T14:54:40-08:002023-11-23T10:47:13-08:00The Satanic State of Music<p>I first heard about the illuminati in Dan Brown’s book, Angels and Demons, released in 2000. I first heard about the illuminati in the music business around 2014. U2 had put out an album called Songs of Innocence and released it free on iTunes. It became a controversy because a lot of people, especially millennials, were pissed off that they had U2 in their iTunes library without their permission. Growing up with U2 music and being a fan of some of their songs, especially “One”, I couldn’t believe that people were complaining about getting this free music from a great band. I thought perhaps millennials could not appreciate older bands like U2. So, I did some research on the controversy at the time and learned that a lot of millennials believed U2 to be in the illuminati. So, what is the illuminati? </p><p>If you look up the history of the illuminati on Wikipedia, you will find that it supposedly started in 1776 in Bavaria (Germany) as secret society founded by Adam Weishaupt. “The society's goals were to oppose superstition, obscurantism, religious influence over public life, and abuses of state power.” (<a class="no-pjax" href="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Illuminati" data-link-type="url" contents="https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Illuminati">https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Illuminati</a>) Whether or not the illuminati survived and/or morphed into something new since then is a matter of debate or “conspiracy.” </p><p>I remember reading a book about how the music business worked when I was in college. As an independent artist, I was always interested in the music business but even after reading the book, doing a lot of research, recording albums with well-known musicians at well-known recording studios, and doing shows in my local areas, I still was no closer to understanding how the music business worked overall. I tried to pray away my desire to “make it” in the music business. When the desire wouldn’t go away, I prayed to know why it wouldn’t go away. It was then that I was led, in 2019, to the psychic medium, Sloan Bella. She released a number of YouTube videos on Dead Celebrities and explained how they really died by connecting with their spirits or with the energy surrounding the circumstances of their death. It seemed that A LOT of them died by murder but it was made to look like a suicide or overdose. </p><p>Sloan also talked about the Luciferian and Satanic roots of Hollywood and the music business. She also spoke of her personal experiences working in and around Hollywood, celebrities, and the media. And she wasn’t the only one talking about this. So was Jamie Dlux and Tamara Desiree Magdalene, two other YouTube personalities. The more I went down this rabbit hole of the true nature of the music business, the more I saw that it was a good thing that I never saw an ounce of “success” within the music industry. </p><p>I released a book in 2020 called The Heaven I Hear about my hearing loss and how it impacted my life, especially when it came to my love of music as a singer/songwriter. It was written as a memoir. However, it also included information about the illuminati and how they control the music business. After getting a negative review from a woman, who couldn’t digest what I was saying about the big hitters in the music business because she was a huge Taylor Swift fan, I realized that the time wasn’t right to release the album. People are mind controlled to worship their favorite singers or musicians or rappers. They don’t want to believe anything negative about them. If you say anything that goes against how their favorite star is perceived, you are labelled a “hater.” </p><p>The world is rife with celebrity worship and we have them on pedestals. We are infatuated with them. We idealize them. We are mind controlled to believe that we should be just like them. And in this process of celebrity worship, our energy is siphoned and harvested for nefarious purposes. The reviewer of my book just saw me as a “bitter” and “jealous” person, and it may be true that I am “bitter” on some level, but who wouldn’t be bitter that the main players in music got their success because they were born into a Luciferian family, or sacrificed family members or other people to get where they are at, promoted materialism, lust, violence, Satanism, and narcissism through their music? I am certainly not jealous of anyone who has sold their souls for success. As a Christian, I know it isn’t worth it. </p><p>I do believe that I had a chance to sell out around 2017. I was taking voice lessons remotely from a woman who was very positive and uplifting until a few lessons in when she turned dark and biting. She went from giving me positive feedback to attacking me. She asked me to think of the worst thing I could imagine and imagined Jesus to be stabbing me. She said to make the picture worse, I imagined Jesus to be leaving me in a ditch to die. (I did not tell her what I was imagining and I don’t know why my mind went there). She then wanted me to do some chants that sounded Satanic. I decided to end the relationship then and there. That experience, in part, inspired me to write the song Audience of One. </p><p>There is a reason why so many successful singers, musicians and bands have talked about or sang about selling their soul to the devil. There is no one at this time, who is a musical superstar, that isn’t sold out in same way. What does “selling out” mean? It basically means signing your name in blood on a contract with the illuminati. The devolution of music reportedly started with the Beatles. Much of the music around that time was on vinyl records that could be played backwards. Many classic rock bands, including the Beatles, had Satanic recordings in their music, which means you could hear secret messages in the music if you played the album backwards. In Satanism, everything is inverted. What is the inversion of Google’s motto “Don’t be evil” for example? </p><p>Nowadays, Hip Hop is the most popular genre of music. With Hip Hop, everything is said more straight out to the audience. There are less attempts to hide or code the illuminati symbols or sayings from the lyrics. People like Kanye West, have been trying to get their followers and listeners and fans to know the truth but as soon as they speak out, the handlers are quick to send them to “treatment” for either a mental health condition, medical condition or drug or alcohol issue. In some cases, however, they are actually being reprogrammed into submission to the higher authorities they chose to sell out to. </p><p>According to Gene Decode, and I have heard this from other sources too, the 440 Hertz that the music business records at is Satan’s frequency. The frequency of God, however, is 432 Hertz. It was the American music industry who decided, in 1926, that 440 Hz should be the tuning standard for music. So, why would the top brass of the illuminati want music to devolve over the decades and why would they want everyone to be listening to music in Satan’s frequency? Sloan Bella says that music, whether recorded and fed through the airways or at a concert, is a “mass grab” into Satan’s hands. </p><p>Basically, if you want to be successful in today’s music industry, you have to sell your soul. Many of today’s most popular artists, including Beyonce and Nikki Minaj, have talked about entities coming into their body. This is what happens when you sell your soul. Your soul is scalped and you aren’t even allowed to enjoy your success because whatever demonic attachment that has possessed your body is enjoying your spoils of fame and fortune instead. What is “soul scalping”? There is great video on that by Megan Rose. Here’s the link: <a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/wqnkHodxO20" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/wqnkHodxO20">https://youtu.be/wqnkHodxO20 </a></p><p>In closing, I know I’m talking about a lot of stuff that is very unbelievable and crazy-sounding. Do I expect you to believe me? No, I don’t know. I think it’s important that everyone do their own research and I have provided a list of links to get you started: </p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/x2ndMHjbV8A" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/x2ndMHjbV8A">https://youtu.be/x2ndMHjbV8A</a><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/x2ndMHjbV8A" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/x2ndMHjbV8A&nbsp;"> </a></p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/cI1ZbBwEA-c" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/cI1ZbBwEA-c&nbsp;">https://youtu.be/cI1ZbBwEA-c;</a></p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/531973laioc" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/531973laioc&nbsp;">https://youtu.be/531973laioc</a></p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/Qe7s7CrpItI" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/Qe7s7CrpItI&nbsp;">https://youtu.be/Qe7s7CrpItI </a></p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/IBge61_Uqa0" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/IBge61_Uqa0">https://youtu.be/IBge61_Uqa0</a> </p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/i05C4jmaUJE" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/i05C4jmaUJE">https://youtu.be/i05C4jmaUJE </a></p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/J_rcwlU9j6M" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/J_rcwlU9j6M">https://youtu.be/J_rcwlU9j6M</a> </p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/-fq75Ax_kL0" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/-fq75Ax_kL0">https://youtu.be/-fq75Ax_kL0</a> </p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/LYZ3xNdXW1E" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/LYZ3xNdXW1E">https://youtu.be/LYZ3xNdXW1E </a></p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/BGYGMATnMQg" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/BGYGMATnMQg">https://youtu.be/BGYGMATnMQg</a> </p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/nNFiBLG7qqI" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/nNFiBLG7qqI">https://youtu.be/nNFiBLG7qqI</a> </p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://youtu.be/zzKFGLysmGw" data-link-type="url" contents="https://youtu.be/zzKFGLysmGw">https://youtu.be/zzKFGLysmGw</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68931572022-02-09T11:59:29-08:002022-02-09T11:59:29-08:00Open Season on the Obese and Overweight <p>I have noticed that fat shaming has surged in popularity since the COVID quarantines began. The fat shaming is usually done by those who oppose the mandates whether a mask mandate or a COVID vaccine mandate. I have heard and read countless comments like the following actual comments found on Twitter and other social media platforms: </p>
<p>“The unvaccinated aren’t overwhelming the hospitals, and even so, we don’t take the same approach to smokers or those that are morbidly obese.” </p>
<p>“She’s morbidly obese and double-masked with a face shield. But sipping on a 680 calorie McDonalds frappe.” </p>
<p>“It isn’t my responsibility to get vaccinated to ‘save the hospitals.’ If you want to make that argument, first tell all the morbidly obese people to lose weight to ‘save the hospitals.’ Then get back to me.” </p>
<p>“50% of Americans live sedentary lifestyles. 45% of Americans are obese. 20% are morbidly obese. And we’re told that the most serious pandemic we’re facing is a virus.” </p>
<p>While none of the above comments may seem hurtful to those who have never struggled with obesity, they are very hurtful to anyone who has struggled with obesity. People, usually those who are thin or have a healthy or normal weight, are continually using obesity, over any other health condition, as a way to make a point or compare and contrast with dramatic flair. While it is not okay to use racial slurs or homophobic comments or sexist remarks publicly, it is still considered okay and generally acceptable to mock, bully, and shame those who are obese or “fat.” I have even heard influential and popular social media personalities, whom I highly admire, speak of the obese with disdain and ridicule during this time of COVID. </p>
<p>In case you didn’t know, obese individuals tend to shy away from the spotlight or from bringing attention to themselves. They want to be invisible so nobody starts in on the jokes and ridicule, even from friends and family, those who supposedly love you. They don’t want to notice the looks of disgust that are constantly shot their way. In family gatherings or among friends even, the overweight or obese are bombarded with unsolicited advice on how to lose weight, improve diet or work out more effectively. Everyone suddenly becomes your dietitian or personal trainer. </p>
<p>People believe that the obese choose to be that way and are either lazy, stupid, or gluttonous or all three at the same time. Though this may be true in same cases, it is NOT TRUE in a lot of cases. According to Dr. Susan Pierce Thompson, author of Bright Line Eating, “genes contribute to anywhere from 25% to 80% of the variation we see in people’s weight.” Additionally, “one in six people have a variation that makes them 70% more likely to become obese.” Those who struggle with obesity have “consistently higher levels of Gherlin (the hormone that makes you feel hungry) in their blood and higher responses to Gherlin and food rewards in the brain.” There is another hormone at play called Leptin, which is the satiety hormone. Dr. Thompson writes, “overweight people have more Letpin in their blood than slender people.” Those who struggle with obesity basically struggle with “insatiable hunger caused by Leptin resistance.” So, in essence, obesity is partly a hormonal issue. Yet, we treat it like a sign of lack of willpower. </p>
<p>According to Dr. Thompson, “willpower is actually just a brain function that originates in the anterior cingulate cortex.” She adds that the resource of willpower is actually finite and “…most of us naturally have only about 15 minutes of effective self-regulatory capacity at a time.” Additionally, “…studies have shown that the anticipation of food in the brain of an obese person is much stronger than a slender person, but when they eat, their pleasure is lower.” </p>
<p>When you are overweight or obese, people try to shame you into weight loss. Well, that doesn’t work. You can’t hate yourself to weight loss. So, if you want to support those who are overweight or obese in your life, love on them. Accept them for who they are and whatever shape and size they may be. This is NOT enabling the problem of obesity. Some would suggest that having overweight or heavy or big role models, like Lizzo or Adele, is sending the wrong message to people. Some say that the body positivity movement is a shameful one and one that promotes obesity or poor health. Can’t overweight or obese people love themselves and see their shape or size or struggles reflected in popular culture icons like everyone else? Can’t obese or overweight children see themselves reflected in a positive way in our society? Are they are supposed to hate themselves as children because of this message they are invariably getting implicitly or explicitly from the haters and shamers? Is that supposed to inspire them to love themselves or even feel worthy of being the healthiest weight they can be? </p>
<p>Overweight or obese individuals are worthy of living and receiving their best lives just like everyone else. They have probably been on diets more than anyone else. They likely have been ridiculed and shamed more than anyone else just on the basis of their appearance alone. They may have medical conditions or take medications that interfere with their ability to lose weight and/or contribute to their tendency to hold or put on weight more easily. As previously stated, there is likely a genetic component involved when it comes to issues involving weight or appetite. Whatever the cause, it certainly isn’t due to a character flaw or a lack of willpower. In the grand scheme of things, we ALL need to learn to love ourselves better regardless of what we look like. We have been brainwashed to believe that looks are everything. </p>
<p>One thing that people don’t talk about it is the idea that those in positions of power on this planet may want us to be fat and suffering from ill health. Healthcare is big business, weight loss and diet are big business. When we aren’t in the best of health, we are physically weaker and can’t fight back against the attempt to divide and control us. Ever seen the movie WALL-E? Men are the ones who are typically in positions of power on this planet and we are told that they are “visual” and we ought to respect that. Women who want to get ahead or do get ahead in this world typically do so because they are connected to a powerful man, because they have slept with the right man, are willing to or are mind controlled to play the part of a Jezebel or Honeypot or Sex Kitten, or look appealing to the right audience. </p>
<p>Any sort of position of influence or power in this world may involve increased visibility, fame, attention or celebrity. We are hit over the head with the message that any success in these fields is only for those who look the part because these institutions, such as the mainstream media or the entertainment business, are “visual mediums.” So, people who look the “right” way but who may lack substance or talent or intelligence are chosen over anyone else simply because they meet the visual criteria. I’m hoping that this is all changing right now in the world, right before our very eyes. </p>
<p>There is something to be said for the spiritual purpose of being overweight or obese. Perhaps, you want to work on the spiritual lesson of humility or empathy. Perhaps, you are meant to fulfill a mission where your weight makes you less threatening and more appealing in a way to others, especially other women. Sometimes, those that struggle with weight issues do so because they put others first and live a life in service to others rather than service to self. But obviously, we still have a long way to go when it comes to evolving past judgements and superficiality. It has been open season on the obese and overweight and right now the bullets are coming fast and heavy. But we can all be bullet dodgers and reclaim our health and our light through self-acceptance, compassion and most importantly, self-love.</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68887982022-02-04T10:56:11-08:002022-02-04T18:29:08-08:00Return of the Divine Feminine<p>I grew up in the Catholic church which is a very patriarchal culture. Women aren’t allowed to be priests, only men. Catholics refer to God and priests as “father.” I was taught in private Catholic school that Mary Magdalene was a prostitute that Jesus was sympathetic to, not Jesus’ feminine equal. Since the Dead Sea Scrolls were discovered, and the Gospel of Mary was recovered, there is now a new viewpoint that Mary was Jesus’s closest disciple and may have even have been his wife or divine counterpart. </p>
<p>I was also taught in Catholic school, that it was Eve, from the bible, that brought on the downfall of man by coaxing Adam, the proverbial first human male, to eat of the tree of knowledge against God’s wishes, which supposedly started the downfall of man from the perfect garden of Eden. I grew up with the basic viewpoint that women are either Madonna’s like the virgin Mary or whores and Jezebels. It seemed that women were to blame for all of mankind’s problems. </p>
<p>As a tomboyish little girl, I longed to be a boy and even wrote stories where boys were the main character. I’ve always considered myself to be a masculine female but didn’t quite except this female incarnation until I was in high school. I somehow thought that if I was more boyish, men and boys would respect me and like me better. After all, I intuitively knew that men, not women, held the keys to any form of success in this world. </p>
<p>I’m glad I didn’t grow up with the “woke” culture that teaches kids that you can change your gender if you want to or else I would have possibly took the hormones and/or sought the top and bottom surgery out of confusion. Now, I’m glad that I am a woman this lifetime. There is something to be said about accepting your God-given gender even if it means that you may be called “transphobic” in the process of doing so. We are taught to further divide ourselves by race, by religion or by sexual or gender orientation so we can continue to remain controlled by evil. </p>
<p>When I was an adult, I attended a Christian marriage retreat with my ex-husband, an emotional abuser and narcissist. The basic teaching of that weekend was that women are the helpers of men and should be subservient to men as this is what God intends for women to be. My ex used that message to further abuse me. </p>
<p>As a social worker, I have worked with many abused women who were taken to jail for fighting back against their abuser due to a law where the police has to take someone to jail after a domestic dispute. Because the men would deny hitting the women and was cool, calm and collected by the time the police arrived and the women were emotional, exhibiting PTSD symptoms, feeling guilty for reacting and more honest about their part in fighting back, it was more often the woman who was taken to jail for simply defending herself or appearing “unhinged.” </p>
<p>There are “women” in Hollywood and in positions of influence and power in the media who were born men and inverted at birth or shortly after birth because this is what those in the Beast system and of the Luciferian religion do as an ode to the Baphomet, a Luciferian transgender God. Women who were born as women are told that we have to be as thin or as strong as these “women” who naturally have less body fat or more testosterone and muscle tone due to being biological males. These “women” don the cover of beauty magazines, are supermodels and are placed in other areas of successful positions in society and we are never told that they are biological males so we can continue to feel inferior in comparison. If anyone dares to say anything about this, they are automatically called “transphobic” and silenced through public humiliation and exclusion, the Old Testament equivalent of a stoning. </p>
<p>I feel that the world is now seeing the return of the divine feminine. There is a reason why evil has tried and succeeded thus far to keep women disempowered. Only women have uteruses and only women can give birth to God’s children. Women are portals for souls to come through. We are the divine cup. We may be the Holy Grail. Some scholars say that Jesus and Mary Magdalene had children and that the bloodline of Jesus is or Mary Magdalene herself what is meant by “The Holy Grail.” There is a book called The Holy Blood and the Holy Grail (published as Holy Blood, Holy Grail in the United States) by Michael Baigent, Richard Leigh and Henry Lincoln. </p>
<p>Whatever the case, it is getting more and more obvious that the true and real history of God’s children has been hidden from us or has been and is being inverted. Women, when standing together, are very powerful. If all of the women on Earth that are a part of God’s creation were to band together and fight evil, evil would have no footing, would have no standing. If all of these women were to wake up to the realization of their divine greatness, spiritual power, and divine birthright, we would stop competing with each other (which we are mind controlled and brainwashed to do) and start upholding each other’s beauty, success and power. Instead, we are programmed to please men (especially sexually), to compete with each other for a man’s attention and favor, to have any semblance of success in this world, and to become honeypots or sex kittens. If we continue with this programming, we will never feel worthy and we will never feel that we are enough and this is what is intended so that we never rise up together in unity. </p>
<p>If all the women on Earth knew what was going on with the children of the Earth, with the fetuses and babies that have been “aborted”, through the worldwide Satanic child trafficking ring and involves Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA), organ harvesting, adrenochrome production, Sodomy and other Black Magic rituals, and sexual abuse and exploitation, that spans the globes and includes major players in Hollywood, in government and in other positions of power and influence, women especially would and should be outraged and feel a call to action to protect our children, our future. Though that awareness is slow in coming… but, make no mistake about it… it is coming…</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68811912022-01-27T12:44:01-08:002022-01-27T12:44:01-08:00A Return to Natural Healing Remedies <p>It is interesting to me that a lot of Christians decry the use of God-made herbs, essential oils and crystals for healing yet partake in allopathic medicine consisting of man-meds medications that have numerous side effects, may be addictive, and have Satanic origins. Herbs used for healing is decried as witchcraft, and essential oils and crystals are decried as “of the devil.” However, we must realize that the Satanists and Luciferians that run this world invert everything. To keep us under their control, they have distorted our history, distorted our healing modalities and inverted the definition of everything. </p>
<p>I have had rare medical conditions, including a rare form of cancer and a rare autoimmune disease, that Western medicine has had little treatment options for. Because of this, I have turned to alternative medicine and healing methods. I have seen great benefit from these alternative healing options. I believe that we will be returning to natural remedies for healing and health in the years to come. </p>
<p>Galatians 5:19-21 says, “Now the works of the flesh are evident: sexual immorality, impurity, sensuality, idolatry, sorcery [pharmakeia], enmity, strife, jealousy, fits of anger, rivalries, dissensions, divisions, envy, drunkenness, orgies, and things like these. I warn you, as I warned you before, that those who do such things will not inherit the kingdom of God.” In some versions of the bible, the word “pharmakeia” is translated as “witchcraft” which is the Greek definition of the word “pharmakeia” which may also be spelled as “pharmacia.” There is an excellent and concise online article that also speaks to this idea: </p>
<p>Pharmacia (Sorcery disguised as Medicine) </p>
<p>Today’s world is a “medical” police state where sorcery (manipulating man’s mind and body with man-made drugs) is called medicine and where the state totally controls and stops men’s access to God’s own natural remedies. I am not saying we should never take medications prescribed by doctors. It seems that sometimes that is what God would have us do, especially since men have made many of God’s natural remedies, like marijuana and ephedra, illegal. But, use caution. Always pray for your and other people’s healing. And learn about God’s natural means of healing. </p>
<p><a contents="http://zedek.us/babylon-the-great-a-must-read/mystery/pharmacia-sorcery-disguised-as-medicine/&nbsp;" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://zedek.us/babylon-the-great-a-must-read/mystery/pharmacia-sorcery-disguised-as-medicine/&nbsp;">http://zedek.us/babylon-the-great-a-must-read/mystery/pharmacia-sorcery-disguised-as-medicine/ </a></p>
<p>We must also relearn our history in order to extricate ourselves from the pharmacia we have been using as the main means of healing ourselves. There are now commercials for different drugs on TV so that we are brainwashed into wanting a drug to fix an issue that might be psychological, emotional, mental, or spiritual in origin. As a mental health therapist, I have noticed that most people prefer a drug, to quick fix their anxiety or depression, over therapy. Even medical conditions can have origins in mental, emotional, psychological or spiritual issues that have gone unresolved for too long. There is a great book that speaks to that mind/body connection called The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel Van der Kolk. </p>
<p>So, getting back to our history and how we have been led to believe that a vaccine is superior to natural immunity. There is a good video that summarizes the history of big pharma and it’s satanic origins: <a contents="https://rumble.com/vt2n7u-the-great-reset-what-is-the-rea-history-of-big-pharma.html&nbsp;" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vt2n7u-the-great-reset-what-is-the-rea-history-of-big-pharma.html&nbsp;">https://rumble.com/vt2n7u-the-great-reset-what-is-the-rea-history-of-big-pharma.html </a></p>
<p>Now that there have been so many adverse events and deaths due to the COVID vaccine and boosters and now that we are starting to question why drugs like Remdesivir, which kills 50% of those who are treated with it, is the only approved treatment protocol for those who are hospitalized for COVID, and now that we are waking up to how we have been bamboozled by big pharma and the medical industry and those that run these entities, such as NIH and CDC, and how more natural or less invasive treatments for COVID and things like cancer are being suppressed, and now that we are seeing an increase in strange conditions and diseases such as autoimmune illness even in our children, I’m hoping that we can get back to God and homeopathy and naturopathy. Is there a place for allopathic medicine in our future? I believe so. I do believe that God is reclaiming organizations with Satanic origins or manipulations and infiltrations, such as The Catholic Church, The United States, The Republican Party and even people such as Donald Trump, for His own purposes. But I also believe that we are seeing the start of a return to treatments for health that are more natural and God given. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68802742022-01-26T13:16:32-08:002022-02-17T09:56:21-08:00Mass Formation and Mind Control<p>I think it is important to write about and spread the word about this idea of “mass formation” and how it relates to how people have been and are currently being mind controlled. Dr. Robert Malone, has been vocal lately about this phenomenon that is taking place in the general public as we speak related to the vaccine and the pandemic. Some doctors and scientists are referring to the “vaccine” and the “pandemic” as a “bioweapon” and “plandemic” respectively. Why would this be? So what is “mass formation” and how it relevant to what is going on in the world today? </p>
<p>According the article cited below, “4 conditions need to be present to create Mass-Formation </p>
<p>1) There needs to a lot of socially isolated people or people who experience a lack of social bond 2) People who experience a lack of ‘sense making’. Unable to come to sensible conclusions. 3) There is a lot of Free-Floating Anxiety (FFA). Free-Floating because there’s nothing to connect their anxiety to. No focal point. Unable to identify what’s causing and so no way to deal with it. 4) There’s also a lot of Free-Floating Psychological-Discontent. People may experience their daily lives as lacking any purpose or meaning.” </p>
<p><a contents="https://thomascasey.wordpress.com/2021/08/28/mass-formation-by-dr-mattias-desmet-professor-of-psychology-university-of-ghent/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://thomascasey.wordpress.com/2021/08/28/mass-formation-by-dr-mattias-desmet-professor-of-psychology-university-of-ghent/">https://thomascasey.wordpress.com/2021/08/28/mass-formation-by-dr-mattias-desmet-professor-of-psychology-university-of-ghent/</a> </p>
<p>Additionally, “Followers can be hypnotized and be led anywhere, regardless of data proving otherwise. A key aspect of the phenomena is that the people they identify as the leaders – the one’s that can solve the problem or issue alone – they will follow that leader(s) regardless of any new information or data. Furthermore, anybody who questions the leader’s narrative are attacked and disregarded.” </p>
<p><a contents="https://www.swfinstitute.org/news/90470/what-is-mass-formation-psychosis&nbsp;" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.swfinstitute.org/news/90470/what-is-mass-formation-psychosis&nbsp;">https://www.swfinstitute.org/news/90470/what-is-mass-formation-psychosis </a></p>
<p><a contents="https://medium.com/@dina.osman/what-is-mass-formation-d2ac63020a34" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://medium.com/@dina.osman/what-is-mass-formation-d2ac63020a34">https://medium.com/@dina.osman/what-is-mass-formation-d2ac63020a34</a> </p>
<p>So, why in the world would the doctors, such as Anthony Fauci, and the governing organizations like the Center for Disease Control (CDC) and NIH (National Institute of Health) be engaging in mind control efforts? If you don’t already know the answer to that question, then you haven’t done your own research. What might get you started? Look up (though not on Google) “MK Ultra” and “Operation Mockingbird” which might also be called “Project Mockingbird.” Look up “Project Paperclip” or “Operation Paperclip.” </p>
<p>You may have heard of a famous philosopher named Niccolo Machiavelli from the sixteenth century. He authored several how-to manuals for a prince at the time. From the book, The Gods of Eden, by William Bramley, these manuals describe "several of the techniques used by various Italian rulers to maintain control over a population. One method was to breed conflict." For example, Machiavelli advised that any ruler could "act as an arbitrator" between disunited parties and then "give tardy support to the weaker party" which serves to keep any warring parties engaged in the warfare which inevitable leads to "wearing them out." Bramley writes, "the success of the technique depends upon at least one of the manipulated parties not being aware of the true source of the problem." Additionally, Bramley writes, "For the technique to be effective, the instigator must do the following:</p>
<p>1. Erect conflicts and 'issues' which will cause people to fight among themselves rather than against the perpetrator.</p>
<p>2. Remain hidden from view as the true instigator of the conflicts.</p>
<p>3. Lend support to all warring parties.</p>
<p>4. Be viewed as the benevolent source which can solve the conflicts."</p>
<p>The above sounds somewhat like David Icke's: "Problem Reaction Solution" where the ruling class has their solution already in mind (currently: the vaccine) and then creates a problem (the COVID-19 virus) to generate a reaction (fear, hysteria, demand for assistance) from the general populace. </p>
<p>It might be hard to find anything resembling the truth now, however, that the internet has been scrubbed of all of these things or you will likely find a vanilla explanation of these concepts. The important thing is to use your intuition in trying to comb through all the information that is out there. Due to all the censorship, trying to find the truth now is like combing the beach for the perfect seashell. There are many truthers out there on alternate media that can get you started down the rabbit holes if you dare to go there and take the red pill to quote the Matrix movie. Here are some of those truthers: Mel K, Charlie Ward, Gene DeCode, Sloan Bella, Jamie Dlux, and many, many more. The platforms to check out that will give you the most uncensored truth: Telegram, Rumble, Bitchute, Ugetube, and Gab. The search engines that are superior to Google are Qwant and DuckDuckGo (this is fast becoming censored). </p>
<p>Look up “Project Monarch” and “The Montauk Project” and the survivors of these CIA-run mind control programs such as Tony Rodrigues, Kathy O’Brien, Arizona Wilder, Stewart Swerdlow and Meisha Johnston. And then, if you are ready, keep looking and never stop looking for the truth and be open to what someone is telling you is the truth even if it seems preposterous or ridiculous. Maybe then, you will not be part of the mass formation crowd but part of a bigger, more important movement for truth and freedom. God bless you on your journey for truth. There are have many suspicious deaths in the truther community including that of Cirsten W, Sabrina Bittencourt, Tracy Twyman, Isaac Kappy, Brittany Murphy, Chester Bennington, Chris Cornell, Phil Schneider and LeRoi Moore. They died trying to get the truth out there. This blog is dedicated to them and to the survivors of all mind control operations and programs, which might include, on some level, all of us.</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68764042022-01-21T16:22:32-08:002023-11-23T10:45:32-08:00Is Trump God’s Anointed Leader?<p>I remember when I “hated” Trump. Interestingly enough, I didn’t have a problem with him prior to his announcing his intention to run for president on June 16, 2015 – a moment that was, like many key moments at this time in history, predicted by the TV show, The Simpsons. I believe that I was brainwashed and mind controlled, like many people, to hate him by the mainstream media and its relentless attacks and mocking of him. I bought into that narrative wholeheartedly. </p><p>I recall being so heated in my hatred of him and having a moment of clarity enough to ask myself, “why do I hate him so much?” While my question wasn’t answered right away, I was soon to learn that part of the reason why I hated him so much is because he is likely a narcissist or at least, appears to be. But it wasn’t until I was going through my divorce in 2017, from my husband of 9 years and who I had been with for 25 years, that I realized that I had likely projected all my repressed anger towards my husband, and about my enduring 25 years of narcissistic abuse, onto Trump. </p><p>My eyes were not opened to the fact that my ex-husband was a narcissist until 2017 when a series of events coalesced for this fact to be revealed to me. I write about this in my book Recovery from Narcissistic Abuse. I also write about Trump in a negative way in that book because, at that time, I was still early in my recovery and not yet awake to the narcissistic abuse that was going on in the world which, I now believe, Trump is, actually, not a part of. Trump may be a narcissist but one good thing about being a narcissist is that you are typically fearless and as Sacha Stone says, perhaps Trump is the “perfect narcissist” for the task God chose him for, to take down the sociopathic bloodlines that “rule” this world. </p><p>The first person that woke me up to the reality of the psychopaths and sociopaths and narcissists that run this world was Sloan Bella. She is a YouTube personality that isn’t afraid to tell the truth in exposing powerful, and influential people in this world and their dark dealings. She mentioned David Icke who is, in my opinion, her male equivalent in exposing the pedophiles, satanic elite and realities of this world and others. I started going down the rabbit hole and found more and more people who were and are willing to bravely speak out against the tyranny we are under on this planet. Many of these people have lost their lives in trying to expose the truth. </p><p>At the same time, I was comparing all the information I was finding to information from Christian prophets such as Kim Clement. It seemed like everything was matching up. The first time I heard that God may have chosen Trump to be the president of the United States was when I heard about Mark Taylor’s prophecy about it. I watched the movie about this called The Trump Prophecy. Still, I had my doubts that God would choose someone like Trump to be his anointed. I kept hearing about how Trump was chosen by God and how he was a “genius” in his dealings with the cabal and how he was playing a game of 6-dimensional chess in taking down the world leaders who were a part of the worldwide corruption. I heard this from many sources, typically truthers who I highly admire and respect such as Mel K, Charlie Ward and Gene Decode. </p><p>Still, I could not go there. Why was Trump promoting a vaccine that was killing and injuring so many people? Why wasn’t he disclosing the truth about things instead of running “White Hat Operations” or so-called “false flags”? </p><p>Do I believe that people should worship Trump like he’s the second coming of Christ? Absolutely not! But it could be that God did, in fact, anoint Trump to lead the task of “draining the swamp” that the world has become. Someone had and has to do it. It can’t be someone like me, too empathetic to see through the tricks and manipulations of the darkness that has its grip on this world. It would have to be someone like Trump who is fearless and may be narcissistic. </p><p>And then, I watched the video (link below) of Lance Wallnau, yet another Christian prophet saying the same thing about God choosing Donald Trump to be our fearless leader. God has always chosen imperfect people to lead us but he has never chosen the wrong person or anyone that represents darkness to lead us… closer to Him… closer to His light… closer to His kingdom… and closer to our evolvement and our inheritance as children of God, made in His image. Not everyone here on Earth is a child of God. But if you are a child of God, we are called upon to follow the leaders that he chose for us. But did he choose Trump as a leader or is Trump a false prophet? </p><p><a class="no-pjax" href="https://rumble.com/vsy9i7-lance-wallnau-the-power-of-the-prophetic-patriot.html" data-link-type="url" contents="https://rumble.com/vsy9i7-lance-wallnau-the-power-of-the-prophetic-patriot.html">https://rumble.com/vsy9i7-lance-wallnau-the-power-of-the-prophetic-patriot.html</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68750262022-01-20T10:41:43-08:002022-01-20T10:41:43-08:00The Blocking of Our Collective Throat Chakra<p>Through mask mandates </p>
<p>Through censorship of any media or anyone who speaks out against the mainstream narrative </p>
<p>Through smear campaigning of anyone who is an expert or influencer that is challenging the mainstream narrative in anyway </p>
<p>By taking away the licenses of any doctors and mocking any scientists and/or doctors who choose to defend bodily autonomy, anti-vaxxers and/or dare to question the effectiveness of the “vaccine” </p>
<p>By kicking people off social media who aren’t adhering to the mainstream media and/or trying to get the truth out to the people including the former president, Dr. Robert Malone, Mel K, Jamie Dlux and Sloan Bella </p>
<p>By using words like “conspiracy theorist” or “quack” or “antivaxxer” or “QAnon” or any other term that is used to disregard someone, dismiss someone, discredit someone or socially ostracize someone who uses their voice in a way that isn’t approved of by the global elite </p>
<p>By encouraging people to turn any “vaccine hesitant” people into the authorities or encouraging people to socially distance themselves from anyone who the cabal has labelled as “diseased” mainly anyone who has yet to the jab or the latest booster shot </p>
<p>By isolating and socially ostracizing and mocking anyone who is not giving in to the vaccine coercion attempts by their family, friends, and society at large, and the incentivization of obtaining the vaccine </p>
<p>By suppression and/or mocking of any information that challenges and/or threatens the mainstream media such as VAERS data, the testimonies of the vaccine injured, and any information about alternative treatments for COVID such as Ivermectin and Hydroxychloroquine </p>
<p>By threatening to shut down any businesses that don’t enforce the vaccine mandates and by firing any employees who refuse to adhere to these unethical, unconstitutional, and illegal mandates </p>
<p>By the silencing of hospitals, funeral homes, and healthcare workers through the incentivization of COVID diagnoses given, respirator usage, COVID deaths counted, and standard treatment protocol following and simultaneously “alternative” treatment rejecting </p>
<p>By the jailing of all the protestors on January 6th who are falsely being accused of insurrection as a way to set an example for anyone else who dares to stand up to the tyranny that is currently occurring around the world </p>
<p>By setting up quarantine camps for the unvaccinated and/or forcing vaccines on people (already happening in Australia) </p>
<p>By the scrubbing of the internet on Google and other search engines and social media platforms of any information that threatens the agenda of the cabal </p>
<p>By the use of mainstream media (i.e. news outlets, movies, internet and social media) to brainwash and mind control the masses via Project Mockingbird </p>
<p>By accusing anyone who puts information out there that challenges the mainstream narrative as “spreading disinformation” including well known and respected doctors and scientists </p>
<p>Through manipulation of empathetic beings to feel guilty or feel like they are putting their loved ones at risk if they don’t get jabbed and through those who are successfully being manipulated and who go on to condescend to the unvaccinated or give out the message, where explicit or implicit, that their choice to get vaccinated means that they are somehow morally superior or “ethically right” </p>
<p>Through the hero worship of doctors and healthcare workers who we are trained to not ever question because they supposedly know more about our bodies than we do </p>
<p>Through educational systems such as the Western Educational system that discourages critical thinking and any questioning of the lesson plans that are approved by those in power </p>
<p>We are quickly losing our right to free speech. Try listening to someone else’s point of view instead of instantly rejecting it because it threatens everything you’ve learned or been told. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68658662022-01-11T14:32:58-08:002022-01-11T14:32:58-08:00Why is Trump Recommending the Jab?<p>I have a another blog devoted to thanking all the doctors that I admire due to their bravery around speaking out against the MSM's narrative on the jab. Dr. David Martin is one of those doctors. He did a video recently where he gives his opinion on why Trump is recommending the vaccine. I will provide the link to that video which is the best video I've found on the subject. <a contents="https://rumble.com/vsaojh-why-does-trump-keep-promoting-the-vaccine-dr.-david-martin-on-man-in-americ.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vsaojh-why-does-trump-keep-promoting-the-vaccine-dr.-david-martin-on-man-in-americ.html">https://rumble.com/vsaojh-why-does-trump-keep-promoting-the-vaccine-dr.-david-martin-on-man-in-americ.html</a> For the hearing impaired, I have provided the summary in writing: </p>
<p>WHY PRESIDENT TRUMP MUST ENDORSE THE COVID VAX: <br>1) He is part of a military operation. <br>2) Globalists’ plan involved starting Covid once HRC won. When she didn’t, they waited until the last year of DJT’s term to roll it out for several reasons: <br>A) Cover for election fraud. <br>B) Start the depopulation. <br>C) Begin fear/control. <br>D) Not give him enough time to make a vaccine so they could present one that could be approved by the FDA and MANDATED FOR ALL. <br>3) DJT had to countermove… to get rid of Covid/Fear/Control, expose big pharma, and ensure a quick vaccine would have to be labeled experimental, NOT be mandated. <br>4) He had to weigh both options: <br>A) Tell America the vaccines are a big pharma / globalist plan to depopulate the world. <br>B) Endorse it. <br>CONSEQUENCES OF EACH: <br>A) If he warned, the media would mock him, call him a failure, hype Covid all the more, demand a real vaccine, and then he wouldn’t be able to expose election fraud, make thousands of arrests, expose the deep state plan, and turn things around naturally with the public waking up. He would have had to stop the election fraud before it could be seen, taken office for the second term, and forced his hand resulting in chaos and a certain civil with MSM stoking the flames and increasing public terror or let it play out for election fraud and a Biden takeover which would let the deep state to create an approved, MANDATED vaccine, killing millions more. <br>B) By endorsing it but placing truthful info in alternative news sites, the deep state’s vaccine HAD to remain experimental and not mandatory, which was NOT part of their plan. </p>
<p>If DJT can turn this around naturally, in the coming months or so, he can stop the momentum, have way less deaths, and get the vaccinated sheep to med beds. </p>
<p>In war, sometimes you have to choose between two bad options. Given the globalists’ strategy, DJT and the military chose the path with the fewest causalities, and that is to keep going with the façade of endorsing the toxic but NOT MANDATORY vaccine publicly. The alternative would have been FAR more deadly for all of us in so many ways. <br>Thank you and God bless, Marcum <br>--------------------------------------------------------------------------------- <br>Please check out the HUGE "INDEXED" LIBRARY ON THE CRIMINAL COVID-19 HOAX. It's an enormous free resource where you can find out the truth about everything related to COVID-19: Find out the truth about the fraudulent testing procedure, fake case and death numbers, who Dr. Fauci really is, who Bill Gates really is, the truth about the vaccine industry and the dangers of their products and much much more. <br><a contents="https://kickthemallout.com/page.php/COVID-19_Fraud_News" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://kickthemallout.com/page.php/COVID-19_Fraud_News">https://kickthemallout.com/page.php/COVID-19_Fraud_News</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68616072022-01-06T22:19:11-08:002022-01-06T22:19:11-08:00Forever Free<p>(Dedicated to my sister in spiritual warfare, Cirsten W.)</p>
<p> </p>
<p>Is she with you, Lord, is she with you? </p>
<p>Is she still part of our fight from a higher kind of sight? </p>
<p>Is she with you, Lord, is she with you? </p>
<p>Has she found her way to peace? </p>
<p>Is her soul finally free? </p>
<p> </p>
<p>Oh, I pray, that her soul will find its way </p>
<p>To the kingdom for the saved and for those of faith </p>
<p>And for those as brave as she</p>
<p> </p>
<p>Please bless us, Lord, and strengthen we </p>
<p>Who faithfully remain as our comrades fall away </p>
<p>For the fight that lies ahead </p>
<p>For the freedom that we seek </p>
<p>For the battle that feels bleak </p>
<p>For all the attacking </p>
<p>And while we’re separate still from thee</p>
<p> </p>
<p>Is she with you, Lord, is she with you? </p>
<p>Oh, I hope and pray she’s free </p>
<p>From this present tyranny </p>
<p>From the fear and lies they speak </p>
<p>And the bleating of the sheep </p>
<p> </p>
<p>May we one day all be free </p>
<p>But until that time arrives </p>
<p>And until we all unite </p>
<p>May our sister rest in peace </p>
<p>And may she always be </p>
<p>With you, Lord, forever free</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68543332021-12-29T09:51:17-08:002021-12-29T13:28:35-08:00God Save the Kids<p>So I made a music video for my new single, God Save the Kids, which has now been banned from YouTube. Why? Because you are not allowed to say or show anything about child trafficking. This is the same reason why you don't hear or see anything about the Ghislaine Maxwell trial on mainstream media. It's pretty clear that this is just a "show trial" anyway and that they will likely find her "guilty" just to satisfy the masses. But what about the celebrities, politicians and others in positions of power and influence that went to Epstein Island and/or that were connected to Epstein and Maxwell? Is Ghislaine supposed to be the scapegoat for all of them? </p>
<p>Also, wanted to write that I have submitted my song, God Save the Kids, to several radio stations but nobody will play it. The most common reason I get for not playing it is not because it isn't a good song or doesn't fit the format but because they don't want to be the first to play it, they want to wait until it is heard on other stations first. Why? Because you die a social death and are ostracized, mocked and ridiculed if you speak about child trafficking. You are called a conspiracy theorist. One gatekeeper said that he wouldn't play it on his radio station because though he would like to play the song, he would be outnumbered by his cohorts. </p>
<p>That's all fine. I didn't write the song to be a hit. I realize it has no hit potential at this time. I wrote this song to inform people of how widespread the problem of child trafficking is and to inspire everyone to unite for this cause, to protect our children and our future. I had asked for spiritual assistance in writing the song and got that assistance on Easter 2020 when I wrote the song. So, since the video has been banned on YouTube, which was actually a very vanilla video compared to the one I posted on Ugetube, which is still a free speech platform (though these are fast diminishing), I decided to repost the version of the video I actually wanted to make in the first place on Ugetube. I didn't want to be in the music video at all because this song is not about me. I wanted it to be more informative, like a music video documentary. </p>
<p>I don't know how much longer I will be able to have this video on the internet at all or even have this website up as many private websites are being taken down off the internet. Censorship is at an all time high. I am on my third incarnation on Twitter because I keep getting locked out of my account due to "suspicious activity." If you would like to see what I posted on Twitter, you can check out my lifetimes on Twitter under the handles @girlwhirl, @girliwhirl2, and my latest handle @girliwhirl3. If you would like to know more about child trafficking, check out the video I made for God Save the Kids. Please note: THIS VIDEO IS NOT FOR CHILDREN. IT IS VERY GRAPHIC. But, if you are prepared to know the truth and if you would like to see what I pieced together, here is the link: <a contents="https://ugetube.com/watch/god-save-the-kids_nCGHdsxMe9QQFln.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://ugetube.com/watch/god-save-the-kids_nCGHdsxMe9QQFln.html">https://ugetube.com/watch/god-save-the-kids_nCGHdsxMe9QQFln.html</a></p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68479022021-12-21T09:45:53-08:002021-12-21T12:16:12-08:00Transhumanism <p>There has been a lot of talk about transhumanism in the last few years though the idea and the concept has been around much longer. David Icke, the well-known "conspiracy theorist", has been talking about it for years. He was the first person I heard using the term "transhumanism." So, what is transhumanism? Basically, it's the idea that the global elite, which some people refer to as the "cabal", has plans to turn us into computers, robots, AI and then hook us up to a global computer system so they can further control us. </p>
<p>Dr. Zelenko, who practices the Jewish faith, feels, like many Christians do, that transhumanism is a “a war on God consciousness.” God consciousness involves such ideas, according to Dr. Zelenko and Christians alike, as “we’re made in the image of God” and “have sanctity.” The Cabal, which include people like Klaus Schwab and higher up’s in the Masons or illuminati, believe that they are Gods and use “fear and isolation” to “induce mass psychosis” so that we will take the “death shot” and they can reduce the population per their Georgia Guidestones. Dr. Zelenko calls the transhumanism agenda “a movement for global enslavement” and “crimes against humanity” and “mass genocide.” </p>
<p>According to Dr. Zelenko, when interviewed on the Thrivetime Business Show which aired on Rumble on 11/2/21, Klaus Schwab, the founder of the World Economic Forum and author of the book The Great Reset, is a “sociopath” with a “God complex” who is waging “war against consciousness.” Klaus Schwab once said that the “fourth industrial revolution” will “change you if you take the genetic editing” which means the MRNA vaccine, the COVID vaccine. Klaus Schwab was arrested at his home in Switzerland on 11/12/21 for “multiple counts of fraud.” </p>
<p>Dr. Zelenko does not support the vaccine and says, “this shot has nothing to do with health.” He adds, “there’s tracking technology” so that “whoever survives this poison death shot will be tagged” and the system “can track your location” and you will be “tied to digital currency” and “if you’re misbehaving according to those in the systems of control, the commerce will be suppressed.” </p>
<p>For people of faith, such as myself, the goal is apparently to separate us from God consciousness and make us into mindless zombies by changing our DNA and hooking up our consciousness to artificial intelligence. For some people, the idea of being a robot, computer or "super human" is cool. For me, the idea is terrifying. </p>
<p>I remember watching the movie Superman 3 as a child and there is a scene towards the end of the movie where the bad guys are trying to escape a building that is turning into a computer. All but one lady were able to escape and she was pretty much turned into a computer with the rest of the building. I can remember that scene to this day. And even as a child, the idea of being turned into a computer was terrifying to me. Here is a link to that scene: <a contents="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fpTHrdemfQo " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fpTHrdemfQo">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fpTHrdemfQo </a></p>
<p>So, why is the subject of transhumanism a popular subject currently? A lot of this has to do with the COVID vaccine. As previously stated, there are many people, not just Dr. Zelenko, that believe that the COVID vaccine is just another step that the cabal is taking towards their transhumanism agenda. After all, the vaccine has graphene oxide in it which, if you watch the videos on what graphene oxide does in the body, it’s pretty darn scary. Also, graphene oxide is patented as the “secret ingredient” in the Pfizer vaccine. </p>
<p><a contents="https://ambassadorlove.wordpress.com/2021/08/09/confirmed-graphene-oxide-main-ingredient-in-covid-shots/ " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://ambassadorlove.wordpress.com/2021/08/09/confirmed-graphene-oxide-main-ingredient-in-covid-shots/">https://ambassadorlove.wordpress.com/2021/08/09/confirmed-graphene-oxide-main-ingredient-in-covid-shots/ </a></p>
<p>Also, there is a possibility that the vaccine can eventually be used as a bar code so that one can get groceries or pay for things: </p>
<p><a contents="https://www.bitchute.com/video/lEVPk1XpG4Ry/ " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.bitchute.com/video/lEVPk1XpG4Ry/">https://www.bitchute.com/video/lEVPk1XpG4Ry/ </a></p>
<p><a contents="https://www.bitchute.com/video/H42HALbf4YZA/ " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.bitchute.com/video/H42HALbf4YZA/">https://www.bitchute.com/video/H42HALbf4YZA/ </a></p>
<p>The vaccine is what helps some people keep their jobs since the mandates have been imposed. Therefore, some people think of the vaccine as the mark of the beast that the bible speaks of. Revelation 13:15-18 is the scripture that addresses the mark of the beast: </p>
<p>“The second beast was given power to give breath to the image of the first beast so that the image could speak and cause all who refused to worship the image to be killed. It also forced all people, great and small, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on their right hands or on their foreheads, so that they could not buy or sell unless they had the mark, which is the name of the beast or the number of its name. This calls for wisdom. Let the person who has insight calculate the number of the beast, for it is the number of a man. That number is 666.” </p>
<p>So, how is the number 666 connected to graphene oxide or to the COVID-19 Vaccine in general? Isn’t it interesting that the patents for the COVID-19 vaccine were started in 2015 and the years leading up to the pandemic? Here is a link to the Moderna patents: <a contents="https://www.modernatx.com/patents" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.modernatx.com/patents">https://www.modernatx.com/patents</a> </p>
<p>How did they know there would be a pandemic 5 years later where the vaccine would be “needed”? It’s what David Icke calls “Problem Reaction Solution.” The cabal creates the Solution first, which is their agenda, and then create a problem that the public will react to so they, the cabal, can then provide their ready-made solution. Here is a well-written article that speaks to the patents as well as to other “conspiracies” regarding materials in the jab and other information on the jab: <a contents="https://hackernoon.com/covid-19-and-the-bibles-666-prophecy-zb2432po " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://hackernoon.com/covid-19-and-the-bibles-666-prophecy-zb2432po">https://hackernoon.com/covid-19-and-the-bibles-666-prophecy-zb2432po</a> </p>
<p>Are we owned by a pharmaceutical company once we are vaccinated? According to Dr. Ariyana Love, who was interviewed on the Stew Peters show which aired on Rumble on 12/3/21, there is an ingredient in the vaccines called CDNA or Complimentary DNA which can be patented. She, like Dr. Zelekno, speaks to the presence of Graphene Oxide, Graphene Hydroxide (which is reportedly more deadly than Graphene Oxide) or other Graphene variants in “100% of the shots.” The “nano sensors” in the shots are made from Graphene Oxide and this is what is listed in the patents. Both the Moderna vaccine and the Johnson & Johnson vaccine have Hydrogels derived from Graphene Oxide according to the patents they filed. </p>
<p>There have been 2 brave Pfizer whistleblowers and hundreds, if not thousands, of doctors and scientists speaking out against the vaccine. Many of them are saying the same thing about the Graphene Hydroxide which act like “razorblades in the body that cut people up from the inside” and are “why people are dropping dead.” But, did you know, that if you drop dead in the chair right after having the vaccine or within 2 weeks of having the vaccine, you are not considered as having died from the vaccine? Another way to lie with statistics. </p>
<p>So, other than the depopulation agenda, what other purposes does Graphene Oxide serve in the body according to the cabal? Well, their goals include: </p>
<p>- To track us, the way they already do via our electronic devices, in order to control us and manipulate us by continuing to engage in fear mongering to divide us and weaken us and feed off our lower vibrational states of chaos, drama, confusion, anger and fear <br>- To bring us “back into the fold” by whatever means possible should we stray from what they deem is acceptable behavior <br>- To keep us zombified and distracted from all the evil that is going on in the world such as the worldwide child trafficking operation that involves taking children for Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA), sexual purposes and Adrenochrome which the elite use as a party drug and a youth serum (among other uses). On a side note, isn’t it interesting that the Ghislaine Maxwell trial isn’t being televised and that the judge is Obama appointed and that the prosecutor is James Comey’s daughter – all signs that it is indeed a “show trial.” <br>- To connect us to AI (Artificial Intelligence). According to the brilliant and wise Gene Decode and also David Icke, the cabal plans to connect us to the internet via the Graphene Oxide, so that whoever is left after their depopulation efforts, typically the most compliant with their mandates thus far, can be controlled and used as super soldiers to do their bidding. This is part of the reason that the bioweapon was made to target the elderly and medically compromised first – they wouldn’t make great soldiers. This is a repeat, by the way, of what happened in Nazi Germany. If you are wondering whether or not you would have complied with the government’s orders at that time, you now know… </p>
<p>If this all sounds very bleak and like fear mongering, that is not my aim in writing these blogs. My aim is to wake people up so we have some hope for our freedoms, for our children, for our future and for our souls. There is a Satanic Transhumanism agenda going on and NOBODY wants to see it, believe it or do anything about it. We want to believe that everyone on Earth is an empathetic being made in God’s image but this simply isn’t true. Not everyone on this prison planet is of God. Not everyone on this planet is speaking about the one true God of all creation when they use the word “God.” Not everybody prays to the same God. To quote a line from a movie called The Usual Suspects, “the greatest trick the devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn’t exist.” </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68432382021-12-16T11:47:40-08:002021-12-16T11:47:40-08:00The Emperor is Naked!<p>One of my favorite children’s books is The Emperor’s New Clothes. If you haven’t read the story, now would be a good time to read the story. It would also be a good way to explain to children what is going on in the world. Basically, the story is about an emperor who gets swindled by a couple of men who call themselves weavers and were claiming to make him new clothes that are only visible to those who are fit to hold their job or rank. Although the emperor himself and those who served him couldn’t see the clothes, they didn’t want to admit it for fear of looking unfit for their job or role. It wasn’t until the emperor went parading naked in front of his kingdom in his new “clothes” that someone pointed out that he was naked and of course, it took a child, an innocent and pure soul, to point it out to everyone. As Mark Twain says, “it’s easier to fool people to than to convince them that they have been fooled.” </p>
<p>And though many people are waking up to the reality of this world, to the reality of the people who are in positions of power around the world, and to the reality that we have been lied to about many things, there are still too many people are still asleep. Let’s start with the pandemic which is really a plandemic. After all, how did Dr. Fauci know that Donald Trump would face a pandemic during his presidency and how did Fauci know this ahead of time? </p>
<p>How many of you are aware of Agenda 21 and Event 201? Don’t google these things as Google is highly censored and you will probably find false information, if any, about these things. Instead use search engines such as duckduckgo or qwant.com. Don’t search on YouTube or Facebook or Twitter to find out the truth. Instead, look on apps that are less censored such as Telegram, Bitchute, Gab, Ugetube, or Rumble (though it was recently bought out by another company). Here is an article about Agenda 21 that the sleepers will likely dismiss as “conspiracy”: https://csglobe.com/agenda-21-depopulation-95-world-2030/ </p>
<p>If this is all a conspiracy, then why were the Georgia Guidestones erected? What are the Georgia Guidestones? There are a granite monument erected in 1980 in Elbert County, Georgia, in the United States. On these stones are “commandments” written in different languages, the first one being: “Maintain humanity under 5000,000 in perpetual balance with nature.” Sounds good, don’t it, when you throw in the words “balance” and “nature.” The Georgia Guidestones are just more proof, literally in stone, that there are wealthy and powerful people with an agenda to depopulate the world. Still not convinced? Here is video of Bill Gates, who was highly involved and very public at the start of the pandemic, stating this very depopulation agenda, hidden in plain sight: <a contents="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GNZAWdUD0c " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GNZAWdUD0c">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GNZAWdUD0c </a></p>
<p>So, what is Event 201? In October 2019, in New York, NY, there was a simulation exercise funded by The Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation, the World Economic Forum and John Hopkins Center for Health Security, where world leaders and big pharma and reportedly even Pentagon officials met to discuss and “prepare” for a worldwide pandemic. It is interesting to note that this simulation took place 3 months prior to the actual start of the “pandemic.” Here is some truth on that: <a contents="https://www.nationalheraldindia.com/international/why-is-gates-denying-event-201 " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.nationalheraldindia.com/international/why-is-gates-denying-event-201">https://www.nationalheraldindia.com/international/why-is-gates-denying-event-201 </a></p>
<p>So how did Bill Gates and his rich homies know there was a pandemic coming just months before it was announced and why he is denying the simulation ever took place? What is conspiracy yesterday becomes truth today. When the pandemic first began, you were a conspiracy theorist if you said that the virus came from a lab and not from a bat from a wet market in China per the Mainstream Media. Now, it’s generally accepted that the virus did, in fact, come from a lab in Wuhan. Many scientists and doctors are reluctant to even call it a virus, favoring the term “bioweapon” instead since the virus has NEVER BEEN ISOLATED. Furthermore, nature cannot be patented and yet this “virus” was patented: <a contents="https://redpilluniversity.org/to-make-a-killing-covid-19-was-patented-before-the-pandemic-began/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://redpilluniversity.org/to-make-a-killing-covid-19-was-patented-before-the-pandemic-began/">https://redpilluniversity.org/to-make-a-killing-covid-19-was-patented-before-the-pandemic-began/</a></p>
<p>And why are the natural treatments for COVID, such as Ivermectin and Hydroxychloroquine, being suppressed? And why is the PCR test being used to “diagnose” someone with COVID when the inventor of the PCR test, Kary Mullis, said it should never be used as a diagnostic tool? Why do the testing cycles change depending on political events, creating many false positives when it is favorable to certain political parties or when it is election time? By the way, Kary Mullis despised Fauci and called him a “liar” and conveniently died in 2019 before the start of the pandemic. He is also not the only one to call Dr. Fauci a liar: <a contents="https://ugetube.com/watch/pcr-test-inventor-kary-mullis-called-fauci-a-liar-mp4_DxysA1KvJ59jNyb.html?lang=dutch " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://ugetube.com/watch/pcr-test-inventor-kary-mullis-called-fauci-a-liar-mp4_DxysA1KvJ59jNyb.html?lang=dutch">https://ugetube.com/watch/pcr-test-inventor-kary-mullis-called-fauci-a-liar-mp4_DxysA1KvJ59jNyb.html?lang=dutch </a></p>
<p>Dr. Fauci, by the way, never treated anyone for anything. He went straight from getting his degree to being in a position of power and influence. Fauci also has a shady past including his immoral and unethical experiments and his ties to the AIDS epidemic. Here is some truth on that: <a contents="https://vaccineimpact.com/2020/scandal-anthony-fauci-has-been-mass-murdering-people-for-decades-prevented-aids-patients-from-receiving-life-saving-cheaper-drug/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://vaccineimpact.com/2020/scandal-anthony-fauci-has-been-mass-murdering-people-for-decades-prevented-aids-patients-from-receiving-life-saving-cheaper-drug/">https://vaccineimpact.com/2020/scandal-anthony-fauci-has-been-mass-murdering-people-for-decades-prevented-aids-patients-from-receiving-life-saving-cheaper-drug/</a></p>
<p>There are actually many doctors and scientists who are speaking out against Fauci and/or against the vaccine and/or trying to get the truth out about the COVID19 “virus” and treatments. Some of these doctors include a well-respected virologist, Dr. Peter Mc Cullough, Dr. Vladimir Zellenko, who has successfully treated COVID in his patients including world leaders and patients in their 90’s, and Robert Malone, who created the MRNA technology that the COVID vaccines are based on. However, if you look up any of these dissenters from the mainstream narrative, you will see a lot of smear campaigning put upon them. This is only one reason why doctors and scientists in general are not speaking out about the vaccine. You are in danger of being “suicided”, you are in danger of losing your license, you are in danger of having your reputation smeared. </p>
<p>Dr. Carrie Medaj, another dissenter from the mainstream narrative, has spoken out about how medical schools program doctors to not ask questions and to not be critical thinkers. Also, Western-educated doctors are mostly schooled in disease and pharmacology and not in nutrition or health maintenance or disease prevention. Doctors have to answer to their hospital administrators or higher up’s too. If they don’t, they may lose clinical privileges. </p>
<p>Only doctors in private practice may have more freedom to speak out and even them, you can bet that their reputations will be slammed by the mainstream media. We are trained from a young age to respect those in authority, doctors most of all because doctors would never do any harm, right? I don’t think they mean to, for the most part. One of the most interesting experiments I learned about in Psych 101 in college was the Milgram Experiments <a contents="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mOUEC5YXV8U" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mOUEC5YXV8U">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mOUEC5YXV8U</a> that demonstrated that most people will shock another person at a deadly voltage if a perceived authority is telling them to do so. But according to the Nuremberg code, which was established after WWII to prevent another catastrophe, like the Holocaust, from ever happening again, “just following orders”, which was what the majority of the Nazi soldiers told the courts when having to answer for their actions, is no longer a valid excuse for carrying out crimes against humanity. </p>
<p>So why would the mainstream media not report any of this truth and actually call it “conspiracy.” It is important to note that all mainstream media in America is controlled by the same six companies: <a contents="https://www.businessinsider.com/these-6-corporations-control-90-of-the-media-in-america-2012-6 " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.businessinsider.com/these-6-corporations-control-90-of-the-media-in-america-2012-6">https://www.businessinsider.com/these-6-corporations-control-90-of-the-media-in-america-2012-6 </a></p>
<p>So, reporters are given a script to read that are generally the same across the board despite the illusion of choice we are given when it comes to the news on mainstream media outlets: <a contents="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jomiysyoKOw " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jomiysyoKOw">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jomiysyoKOw </a></p>
<p>It is important to know as well that a lot of the movies and TV and other forms of “entertainment” that are fed to us through the media are controlled by the CIA. There is something called Project Mockingbird. According to <a contents="https://listverse.com/2018/08/02/10-dark-conspiracy-theories-that-actually-turned-out-to-be-true/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://listverse.com/2018/08/02/10-dark-conspiracy-theories-that-actually-turned-out-to-be-true/">https://listverse.com/2018/08/02/10-dark-conspiracy-theories-that-actually-turned-out-to-be-true/</a> , “Operation Mockingbird was a 1950s program in which the CIA recruited and propped up various media organizations to influence public opinion.” Do you think that the program ended in the 1950’s, though? Food for thought… </p>
<p>So, who is the emperor? Is the emperor the health care industry and related organizations such as the CDC and NIH that are pushing the narrative about the virus and the vaccine? Or is the emperor all of us who are still asleep and/or still too prideful to admit that WE HAVE BEEN FOOLED? Who is doing the fooling? Is it the “military industrial complex” that President Eisenhower warned us about? Is the “cabal” of people in positions of power and influence in our government and in Hollywood? Why did so many of these people go to Epstein Island? Are they involved in the global child trafficking ring and related Satanic practices? Who are they referring to when they use the word “God”? Is the same God that Christians pray to? I believe all of these questions will be answered very soon and even then, there will be some unwilling to believe it or so shocked that what they thought about this world isn’t true, that they fall into Catatonia or other mental health or health conditions that are related to psychological shock to the system. </p>
<p>Perhaps, when that happens, those who are bravely trying to enlighten others and spread the truth far and wide, will no longer be mocked and ridiculed. Few of us are born knowing the truth and even if we are, we venture far away from the truth and start gaslighting ourselves from all the indoctrination and lies we have been exposed to. Most of us, at one time or another, or repeatedly throughout our lives, have been the emperor…</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/68142602021-11-18T10:58:50-08:002022-11-04T13:12:20-07:00Social Crediting and Virtue Signaling <p>I saw a tweet on Twitter the other day that was a picture of a mom getting her 5 year-old vaccinated with the COVID19 vaccination. She got a lot of responses from people and dismissed anyone who questioned her actions as an “anti-vaxxer.” Then she posted a second picture of her son sucking on a lollipop with the caption: “nothing a lollipop won’t fix” regarding his upset and tears that he was being jabbed. While I understand that there is scientific data around basic vaccines for children, I also understand that there is a lack of data around long term effects of the COVID vaccine and that kids have a 99.9% survivability rate should they get COVID. So why then are people so eager to vaccinate their children and then post it all over social media? My answer: social crediting and virtue signaling. </p>
<p>When you vaccinate your child or even have a need to create posts on social media that you are vaccinated and/or get those stickers that you can put on your profile picture on Facebook (or should I say “Meta”) that show that you have been vaccinated, you are engaging in this psychological operation called “social crediting and virtue signaling.” Should children be expected to keep adults safe from a virus? Should they be made to feel responsible for possibly getting grandma or grandpa sick? Absolutely NOT! But parents and people in general are feeling the need to cave to the coercion of their families and friends, the mainstream media, those in positions of power and influence and perceived authority, and these mandates (which aren’t laws by the way) which all play into this psychological phenomenon of social crediting and virtue signaling. </p>
<p>So, what is “social crediting” and “virtue signaling”? This is the best article that I have found online to explain "social crediting" and its origins: <a contents="https://www.theorganicprepper.com/social-credit-system-coming-to-america/ " data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.theorganicprepper.com/social-credit-system-coming-to-america/">https://www.theorganicprepper.com/social-credit-system-coming-to-america/ </a></p>
<p>I surprisingly found a good definition of “virtue signaling” on Wikipedia: “Virtue signaling may be thought of as a form of moral grandstanding, in which a viewpoint or answer is calculated to ‘look good’, thereby making the object or speaker appear virtuous to others, rather than being chosen because it is strictly honest.” </p>
<p>Basically, politicians, social influencers and the Mainstream Media in America have all been using virtue signaling and social crediting not only to model preferred social behavior to the general populace but also to dismiss anyone, including renowned doctors and scientists like Peter McCullough and Robert Malone, as “quacks” or “anti-vaxxers” or “conspiracy theorists” if you provide any evidence to question the vaccine’s effectiveness or side effects, oppose the vaccines or have “vaccine hesitancy” – a term created to push the vaccine agenda. Moreover, you are made to look as “selfish” or not caring about your friends or family if you don’t get jabbed or don’t readily agree to get vaccinated or question the vaccine in any way. Being a psychology major with 20 years of experience working in the mental health field and also being a survivor of 25 years of narcissistic abuse, I’m well aware of the tactics that narcissists and psychopaths and sociopaths use to control and manipulate others. </p>
<p>So why is virtue signaling and social crediting a problem? For all of the following reasons (and I’m sure that I did not capture all of the reasons): </p>
<p>It’s a form of psychological abuse and manipulation <br>It’s child abuse when children are involved <br>It dismisses and silences any voices of dissention and therefore our freedom of speech is threatened <br>It minimizes and marginalizes and ostracizes anyone who is vaccine injured or died from the vaccine <br>It can cause symptoms of PTSD, depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation, substance abuse and/or violence, whether domestic or otherwise, due to the isolation and social death that those who are voices of dissention or vaccine injured or grieving the death of someone who died from the vaccine all experience on some level <br>It suppresses any information from doctors and scientists, such as Peter McCullough and Robert Malone, that is contrary to the vaccine agenda <br>It interferes with information that could be used to save lives from COVID and prevent deaths from the vaccine <br>It forces you into emotion brain where you are reacting from an emotional standpoint and all logic, reasoning and common sense goes out the window <br>It threatens our general freedom and, at the same time, brainwashes us a little bit at a time to get more and more comfortable with every restriction of freedom that is added to the ever growing and unending list of mandates until we find ourselves in a situation where we are the frog in boiling water wondering how we got here </p>
<p>If we don’t stand up to the medical tyranny and discrimination and these psychological operations of social crediting and virtue signaling, we are in danger of losing our humanity, our empathy and compassion for each other, our freedoms, our health and most importantly, our children who are our future. We must stand up to protect our freedoms, ourselves and our children. If we don't, we will end up on the timeline that is referred to in the bible in Revelations 13:16-17, King James Version: </p>
<p><em>16 And he causeth all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and bond, to receive a mark in their right hand, or in their foreheads: </em></p>
<p><em>17 And that no man might buy or sell, save he that had the mark, or the name of the beast, or the number of his name. </em></p>
<p>As a Christian, I would like to close with the parable of the prodigal son. From Wikipedia: </p>
<p>“In the story, a father has two sons. The younger son asks for his portion of inheritance from his father, who grants his son's request. This son, however, is prodigal (i.e., wasteful and extravagant), thus squandering his fortune and eventually becoming destitute. As consequence, he now must return home empty-handed and intend to beg his father to accept him back as a servant. To the son's surprise, he is not scorned by his father but is welcomed back with celebration and a welcoming party. Envious, the older son refuses to participate in the festivities. The father tells the older son: ‘you are ever with me, and all that I have is yours, but thy younger brother was lost and now he is found.’” </p>
<p>From <a contents="https://findinggodamongus.com/prodigal-son/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://findinggodamongus.com/prodigal-son/">https://findinggodamongus.com/prodigal-son/</a>: “The main message of The Prodigal Son is that it doesn't matter how far we stray from our Heavenly Father or how much we squander the gifts he provides, he is always delighted when we turn back to him. His unconditional love is waiting for us to return home where he greets us with open arms.” </p>
<p>Why do I bring up the parable of the prodigal son in this blog? To demonstrate that our heavenly father gives us free will – the freedom to turn and walk away from him or the freedom to return home to him. However, our heavenly father does not mandate that we love him or respect. He wants us to choose him, not be forced to choose him. He wants us to make the choice for ourselves, not be coerced or manipulated into making a choice. This parable demonstrates the opposite of what we see happening in the world today. With God, freedom is allowed and freedom is given. With the general populace engaging in various forms of social crediting and virtue signaling, we are only adding to the tyranny of the ungodly people in charge. </p>
<p>I realize that not everyone reading this blog is a Christian. But I am assuming that everyone is interested in free will or freedom of choice and freedom of speech as long as those freedoms don’t infringe on others’ freedoms or well-being. We must not give in to fear. Fear is what is used to control us. And at the root of social crediting and virtue signaling is fear: the fear of not fitting in, the fear of being rejected, the fear of dying a social death, the fear of not being accepted, the fear of being isolated or ostracized, the fear of being criticized, the fear of being mocked and ridiculed. Because we are social creatures, we need each other. But our motivation to connect should spring from love and not fear. We must strive to reach for love instead. And love is… letting go of fear. <br> </p>
<p>Here is a good video that explains how social crediting is connected to the transhumanism agenda: </p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vpvzwp-mel-k-and-pharma-analyst-and-whistleblower-karen-kingston-on-terrifying-ai-.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vpvzwp-mel-k-and-pharma-analyst-and-whistleblower-karen-kingston-on-terrifying-ai-.html">https://rumble.com/vpvzwp-mel-k-and-pharma-analyst-and-whistleblower-karen-kingston-on-terrifying-ai-.html</a></p>
<p>Another great video where Dr. Zellenko, who has treated COVID successfully, talks about the vaccination with regards to children: <a contents="https://rumble.com/vq0xx9-mel-k-with-dr.-zelenko-on-the-dangers-in-todays-healthcare-and-solutions-to.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vq0xx9-mel-k-with-dr.-zelenko-on-the-dangers-in-todays-healthcare-and-solutions-to.html">https://rumble.com/vq0xx9-mel-k-with-dr.-zelenko-on-the-dangers-in-todays-healthcare-and-solutions-to.html</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/67759322021-10-18T09:47:30-07:002021-10-21T22:38:27-07:00What the Bleep is in the Vax?<p> </p>
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<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/3b9a3f21a896c6693eed25b3bfcd16df724031b2/original/luciferase.jfif/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jfif" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/d179c747110b35391a4e4271cbcd169601e50f7b/original/hek.jfif/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jfif" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/2d0f8ba72fea087fcd02c9e5deb51f769e7cb51b/original/peg.jfif/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jfif" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/62fab3b9ace9da2d1d5b606000ce34909b866380/original/test-swabs.jfif/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jfif" class="size_l justify_center border_" />The above slides are from a presentation given by Dr. Christiane Northrup who is being highly censored due to her attempts to get the truth out.</p>
<p>Here is a link from a video from Dr. Carrie Madej about the contents of the Pfizer vax under a microscope: </p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vnzy9f-shocking-dr.-carrie-madej-releases-first-look-at-pfizer-vial-contents.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vnzy9f-shocking-dr.-carrie-madej-releases-first-look-at-pfizer-vial-contents.html">https://rumble.com/vnzy9f-shocking-dr.-carrie-madej-releases-first-look-at-pfizer-vial-contents.html</a></p>
<p>Testimonies from health care providers and scientists about adverse reactions and deaths related to the vax:</p>
<p>(more slides from Dr. Christiane Northrup):</p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/dde9f1990277f6f4f335ebc6ed673e2ae1171d37/original/miscarriage.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/2b31d36d2f88f1762d2d63f6bb9a677d612be9c7/original/5g.jfif/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jfif" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/a8985613e673d76416ad11a8348996cb80f9266c/original/miscarriages.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/de8c41f9b56fc35b81aa7c20b466528b74b369b5/original/ovaries.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/4b9d27e9c3ac2cbcbe73a875a94222bf98f55274/original/teen-boys.jfif/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jfif" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/67759522021-10-14T11:36:29-07:002021-11-18T08:56:33-08:00How to Lie With Statistics <p>The Center for Disease Control (CDC) counts people dying within 14 days of getting vaccinated as “unvaccinated.” </p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vm1yrt-wow-vaccine-caused-deaths-reported-as-un-vaxxed-covid-deaths.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vm1yrt-wow-vaccine-caused-deaths-reported-as-un-vaxxed-covid-deaths.html">https://rumble.com/vm1yrt-wow-vaccine-caused-deaths-reported-as-un-vaxxed-covid-deaths.html</a></p>
<p>Doctors were incentivized to count deaths from other diseases or causes as COVID deaths if the person tested positive for COVID. Dr. Robert Malone speaks to this and other things that may have corrupted the data on this awesome video where he is interviewed by Stew Peters: <a contents="https://rumble.com/vnps9l-special-broadcast-dr.-robert-malone-on-his-mrna-creation.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vnps9l-special-broadcast-dr.-robert-malone-on-his-mrna-creation.html">https://rumble.com/vnps9l-special-broadcast-dr.-robert-malone-on-his-mrna-creation.html</a></p>
<p>This documentary also speaks to the issue of inflated numbers of deaths due to COVID-19: <a contents="https://rumble.com/vnpknr-covidland-the-lockdown-episode-1-infowars-alex-jones-documentary.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vnpknr-covidland-the-lockdown-episode-1-infowars-alex-jones-documentary.html">https://rumble.com/vnpknr-covidland-the-lockdown-episode-1-infowars-alex-jones-documentary.html</a></p>
<p>The cycles on the PCR test were too high and created false positives: <a contents="https://republicreborn.com/2020/12/08/the-nyt-article-on-how-40-cycle-pcr-tests-generate-mostly-false-positives/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://republicreborn.com/2020/12/08/the-nyt-article-on-how-40-cycle-pcr-tests-generate-mostly-false-positives/">https://republicreborn.com/2020/12/08/the-nyt-article-on-how-40-cycle-pcr-tests-generate-mostly-false-positives/</a></p>
<p>The inventor of the PCR test, Kary Mullis, said that it should not be used as a diagnostic tool: <a contents="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXm9kAhNj-4" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXm9kAhNj-4">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rXm9kAhNj-4</a></p>
<p>VAERS numbers are underreported partially due to healthcare workers being threatened with termination or coerced into silence for causing "vaccine hesitancy." Doctors and scientists who speak against the mainstream narrative are dismissed as "quacks" or spreading "disinformation" such as Dr. Christiane Northrup. Here is a slide from Dr. Northrup's presentation on COVID19:</p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/b5a77b15546ebb520668e97cd7cd179622a20af5/original/vaers.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />And here is a slide from the VAERS system, only one of dozens of systems that captures adverse reactions and deaths from vaccines around the world, from September 2021. Keep in mind that VAERS is estimated to only capture 1% of actual cases due to underreporting. And in the case of COVID, the underreporting is probably even more exaggerated due to healthcare workers being shamed and guilted into feeling as if they are causing people to die by spreading "disinformation" and causing "vaccine hesitancy." </p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/d84ba5f647bd6379943cb8c693a637b50ee334ed/original/vaers-from-sept-2021.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>
<p>Adverse affects and deaths from the vaccine are being censored by mainstream media.</p>
<p>Really love this video that shows how stats can change quickly regarding the vaccine’s effectiveness because the truth always wins in the end: <a contents="https://t.me/TheGreatResetTimes/12454" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://t.me/TheGreatResetTimes/12454">https://t.me/TheGreatResetTimes/12454</a></p>
<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/c3f3dd14a3bc13fbf4a8b55696ce0e0a8f832e5e/original/kill-gates.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" />This is the man who was very vocal at the start of the pandemic as he is influential in the World Health Organization (WHO) as their top private donor. Check out the name of the book at the top of the stack in the above picture. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/67646702021-10-03T02:17:12-07:002021-12-03T21:04:32-08:00Testimonies from Those Injured by the Vax or Those Left Behind After a Vax-Related Death<p>Everyone’s experience deserves to be heard even if it threatens your experience and perception of the world and what’s happening in the world. Since the rollout of the vax, those who have been injured by it and those who have died due to it have been silenced, mocked, ridiculed, marginalized and censored. Their stories deserve to be heard. Here’s links to videos and articles that give them a voice:</p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vpzp18-teenager-has-a-neurological-reaction-to-the-pfizer-vaccine.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vpzp18-teenager-has-a-neurological-reaction-to-the-pfizer-vaccine.html">https://rumble.com/vpzp18-teenager-has-a-neurological-reaction-to-the-pfizer-vaccine.html</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://www.facebook.com/1268881417/posts/10226050392147545/?d=n" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.facebook.com/1268881417/posts/10226050392147545/?d=n">https://www.facebook.com/1268881417/posts/10226050392147545/?d=n</a></p>
<p><a contents="HealthImpactNews.com" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://HealthImpactNews.com">HealthImpactNews.com</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vn8u8u-the-victims-of-the-covid-vaccines.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vn8u8u-the-victims-of-the-covid-vaccines.html">https://rumble.com/vn8u8u-the-victims-of-the-covid-vaccines.html</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vn212d-the-testimonies-project-the-movie.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vn212d-the-testimonies-project-the-movie.html">https://rumble.com/vn212d-the-testimonies-project-the-movie.ht</a>ml</p>
<p><a contents="https://peakd.com/vaccine/@lethalinjections/hidden-truth-about-the-shots" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://peakd.com/vaccine/@lethalinjections/hidden-truth-about-the-shots">https://peakd.com/vaccine/@lethalinjections/hidden-truth-about-the-shots</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vnuv1l-plane-crashes-linked-to-the-jab.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vnuv1l-plane-crashes-linked-to-the-jab.html">https://rumble.com/vnuv1l-plane-crashes-linked-to-the-jab.html</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://t.me/KanekoaTheGreat/2492" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://t.me/KanekoaTheGreat/2492">https://t.me/KanekoaTheGreat/2492</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://www.redvoicemedia.com/video/2021/10/vaxx-injury-victim-if-just-one-person-hears-what-i-have-to-say/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.redvoicemedia.com/video/2021/10/vaxx-injury-victim-if-just-one-person-hears-what-i-have-to-say/">https://www.redvoicemedia.com/video/2021/10/vaxx-injury-victim-if-just-one-person-hears-what-i-have-to-say/</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://thereport.be/article/?u=https%3A%2F%2Fmedicalkidnap.com%2F2021%2F11%2F27%2Fa-list-of-people-who-had-their-leg-amputated-shortly-after-receiving-a-covid-19-shot%2F" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://thereport.be/article/?u=https%3A%2F%2Fmedicalkidnap.com%2F2021%2F11%2F27%2Fa-list-of-people-who-had-their-leg-amputated-shortly-after-receiving-a-covid-19-shot%2F">https://thereport.be/article/?u=https%3A%2F%2Fmedicalkidnap.com%2F2021%2F11%2F27%2Fa-list-of-people-who-had-their-leg-amputated-shortly-after-receiving-a-covid-19-shot%2F</a></p>
<p>There have reports that the vax causes the following: </p>
<p>1.) Micro-clotting (Micro-Thrombosis) </p>
<p>Increased risk of a major thrombosis such as ischemic stroke or heart-attack in the future. Permanent damage to small capillaries in various organs, heart, brain, lung etc. Possible risk of sepsis. </p>
<p>2.) Myocarditis </p>
<p>Permanent damage to the heart. Increased risk of heart failure in the future requiring heart replacement. </p>
<p>3.) CB8 Killer T-Cell damage </p>
<p>Increase risk of auto-immune disorders, increase risk of cancer and other diseases kept in check by these immunity cells. </p>
<p>4.) Lymphoma Cancer (NLH non-Hodgkin lymphoma) </p>
<p>Increased risk of developing this type of cancer based on the active immune response caused by the spike-protein. Keep an eye out for swollen lymph-nodes. </p>
<p>5.) ADE - Anti-Body Dependent Enhancement Syndrome </p>
<p>One of the Achilles-heel of mRNA vaccine research is the ADE problem associated with this type of immune response. The reason why lab animals die and 20 years worth of research never produced a vaccine for the common cold. Just don't catch a variant and you won't face cytokine storms. </p>
<p>6.) Creutzfeld-Jakob Disease (CJD) and Lewy Body Disease </p>
<p>Research on the spike protein of SARS-COV-2 in China caused Lewy Body disease in Macaque Monkies which is a neural degenerative disease. The spike-protein produced by the synthetic mRNA code has a 5 GxxxG prion motif placing it in the category of a prion. CJD is a slow-onset disease (can take up to 10 years) but once it sets it's 100% fatal. Basically 'Mad-Cows' disease. </p>
<p>For more information on deaths and side effects related to the COVID vaccine, visit: <a contents="https://openvaers.com/covid-data" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://openvaers.com/covid-data">https://openvaers.com/covid-data</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/67332022021-09-01T11:44:26-07:002021-09-01T11:44:26-07:00What is Senomyx?<p>The information for this blog came from: <a contents="https://rumble.com/vlrwoh-lin-wood-fireside-chat-21-are-we-unknowingly-eating-fetal-tissue-strike-bac.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vlrwoh-lin-wood-fireside-chat-21-are-we-unknowingly-eating-fetal-tissue-strike-bac.html">https://rumble.com/vlrwoh-lin-wood-fireside-chat-21-are-we-unknowingly-eating-fetal-tissue-strike-bac.html</a></p>
<p>What is Senoymyx - A company that develops patented flavor enhancers using HEK (Human Embryonic Kidney) cells. What products use these flavor enhancers? Here's a list:</p>
<p>Frito Lays </p>
<p>Tostitos</p>
<p>Ruffles</p>
<p>Oreo Cookies</p>
<p>Chips Ahoy</p>
<p>Ocean Spray</p>
<p>Capri Sun</p>
<p>Kit Kat</p>
<p>Hot Pockets</p>
<p>Lipton Tea</p>
<p>Quaker Oats </p>
<p>Smarties </p>
<p>Miracle Whip</p>
<p>Lean Cuisine</p>
<p>Doritos </p>
<p>Cheetos</p>
<p>Kool Aid</p>
<p>Tang</p>
<p>Jello Gelatin</p>
<p>Crisco </p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/67279262021-08-26T10:35:20-07:002021-08-26T10:35:20-07:00Chart of Coercion<p>The following is psychiatry professor Albert Biderman's "<strong>Chart of Coercion</strong>" as applied to COVID-19 and the Lockdowns from Dr. Joseph Mercola's book: <em>The Truth About Covid-19</em>:</p>
<p><strong>Isolation Techniques:</strong> Quarantines, social distancing, isolation from loved ones and solitary confinement. </p>
<p><strong>Monopolization of Perception:</strong> Monopoloizing the 24/7 news cycle, censoring dissenting views, and creating barren environments by closing bars, gyms and restaurants. </p>
<p><strong>Degradation Techniques:</strong> Berating and shaming (or even physically attacking) those who refuse to wear masks or social distance or generally choose freedom over fear.</p>
<p><strong>Induced Debility:</strong> Being forced to stay at home and not be able to exercise or socialize.</p>
<p><strong>Threats: </strong> Threatening with the removal of your children, prolonged quarantine, closing of your business, fines for noncompliance with mask and social distancing rules, forced vaccination and so on. </p>
<p><strong>Demonstrating Omnipotence/Omniscience: </strong> Shutting down the whole world, claiming scientific and medical authority.</p>
<p><strong>Enforcing Trivial Demands: </strong>Examples include family members being forced to stand six feet apart at the bank even though they arrived together in the same car, having to wear a mask when you walk into a restaurant even though you can remove it as soon as you sit down, or having to wear a mask when walking alone on the beach.</p>
<p><strong>Occasional Indulgence: </strong> Reopening some stores and restaurants but only at a certain capacity, for example. Part of the coercion plan is that indulgences are given, then taken away.</p>
<p>The above reminds me of what abused women and children go through with their abusers and what survivors of toxic workplaces go through when their superior(s) are narcissists, sociopaths or psychopaths. However, in this time of COVID and quarantine, I'm seeing many "normal" people coercing their family and friends to get vaccinated or calling them "selfish" or "conspiracy theorists" or trying to control others through degradation and humiliation if one doesn't adhere to the mask and social distancing mandates to a T. Where did our humanity go?</p>
<p> </p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/67279102021-08-26T10:04:37-07:002021-08-26T10:04:37-07:00The Dangers of Fearmongering<p>"The real problem is that when human societies lose their freedom, it's not usually because tyrants have taken it away. It's usually because people willingly surrender their freedom in return for protection against some external threat. And the threat is usually a real threat but usually exaggerated. [...] Hysteria is infectious. We are working ourselves up into a lather in which we exaggerate the threat and stop asking ourselves whether the cure may be worse than the disease." - Lord Sumption in a March 30, 2020 interview with The Post. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/67154162021-08-13T09:23:23-07:002021-08-13T09:23:23-07:00Pretty By Proxy<p>Isn't she pretty, this mother of mine?</p>
<p>And with her beauty, she catches your eye</p>
<p>Like sun rays at sunset and fireflies</p>
<p>Her beauty inspires and lights up the night</p>
<p> </p>
<p>Isn't she pretty this sister of mine?</p>
<p>All the boys ask me if they are her type</p>
<p>And in her spotlight, I almost shine</p>
<p>It almost feels that her beauty is mine</p>
<p> </p>
<p>Isn't she pretty, this niece of mine?</p>
<p>Doesn't she glow like the Fourth of July?</p>
<p>Isn't she smart? Isn't she wise?</p>
<p>Isn't she young and vibrant and bright?</p>
<p> </p>
<p>Isn't she pretty, this daughter of mine?</p>
<p>Doesn't she have the prettiest eyes?</p>
<p>It makes me so proud to see her take flight</p>
<p>To test her wings, regardless the sky</p>
<p> </p>
<p>I guess I'm pretty by proxy, surrounded by beauty, surrounded by swans</p>
<p>Still searching for my own sense of pretty</p>
<p>I've been searching for a very long time</p>
<p>And he did so much damage to my self esteem</p>
<p>As does ALL OF SOCIETY</p>
<p>And until I embody positivity</p>
<p>I'll at least be</p>
<p>pretty by proxy</p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/67128542021-08-10T20:50:26-07:002021-08-12T09:57:45-07:00The Unspoken Side of Vaccines <p>This list is shared from Dr. Christiane Northrup’s Telegram:</p>
<p>Hundreds of doctors testify that vaccines aren't safe or effective in these documentaries.... </p>
<p>1. Vaccination - The Silent Epidemic - http://bit.ly/1vvQJ2W <a contents="The Silent Epidemic" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1vvQJ2W">The Silent Epidemic</a></p>
<p>2. The Greater Good - http://bit.ly/1icxh8j <a contents="The Greater Good" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1icxh8j">The Greater Good</a></p>
<p>3. Shots In The Dark - http://bit.ly/1ObtC8h <a contents="Shots in the Dark" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1ObtC8h">Shots in the Dark</a></p>
<p>4. Vaccination The Hidden Truth - http://bit.ly/KEYDUh <a contents="Vaccination: The Hidden Truth" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/KEYDUh">Vaccination: The Hidden Truth</a></p>
<p>5. Vaccine Nation - http://bit.ly/1iKNvpU <a contents="Vaccine Nation" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1iKNvpU">Vaccine Nation</a></p>
<p>6. Vaccination - The Truth About Vaccines - http://bit.ly/1vlpwvU <a contents="The Truth About Vaccines" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1vlpwvU">The Truth About Vaccines</a></p>
<p>7. Lethal Injection - <a contents="http://bit.ly/1URN7BJ" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1URN7BJ">http://bit.ly/1URN7BJ</a> <a contents="Lethal Injection" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1URN7BJ">Lethal Injection</a></p>
<p>8. Bought - <a contents="Bought" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1M7YSlr">http://bit.ly/1M7YSlr</a> <a contents="Bought" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1M7YSlr">Bought</a></p>
<p>9. Deadly Immunity - http://bit.ly/1KUg64Z <a contents="Deadly Immunity" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1KUg64Z">Deadly Immunity</a></p>
<p>10. Autism - Made in the USA - http://bit.ly/1J8WQN5 <a contents="Made in the USA" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1J8WQN5">Made in the USA</a></p>
<p>11. Beyond Treason - http://bit.ly/1B7kmvt <a contents="Beyond Treason" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1B7kmvt">Beyond Treason</a></p>
<p>12. Trace Amounts - http://bit.ly/1vAH3Hv <a contents="Trace Amounts" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1vAH3Hv">Trace Amounts</a></p>
<p>13. Why We Don't Vaccinate - http://bit.ly/1KbXhuf <a contents="Why We Don't Vaccinate" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1KbXhuf">Why We Don't Vaccinate</a></p>
<p>14. Autism Yesterday - (2010) </p>
<p>http://bit.ly/1URU2A7 <a contents="Autism Yesterday" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/1URU2A7">Autism Yesterday</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/67108282021-08-09T19:27:09-07:002021-10-29T11:18:19-07:00Legal Resources for Jab Coercion <p>As many of us are currently being coerced to get the jab, what some call the COVID vaccine, or face losing our jobs, losing exclusion from family and friends groups, losing our right to an education, and losing our our very freedoms, I thought it was important to provide some information on legal resources to combat this insanity. Additionally, as we may be days away from the FDA approving the jab, the mandates to provide proof of vaccination may be so widespread that we may need such proof to do anything from working to traveling to buying groceries. Currently, the jab falls under the Emergency Use Authorization as it is still considered experimental. Therefore, it cannot be mandated as no one can be forced into an experiment. The following are letters one can use as templates to combat this threat to bodily autonomy. NOTE: If any person, company or entity, such as your job or school, is requiring you to get the vaccine in order to keep your job or attend your school, make sure to get that "request" in writing. These letters are forwarded from Christiane Northrup, MD:</p>
<p>The attached letters may either appear at the bottom of this page or to the side of this post depending on how your electronic device configures the information as I was not able to embed the documents within this post. <br> </p>
<p>More information is available at: <a contents="https://www.vaxxchoice.com/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.vaxxchoice.com/">https://www.vaxxchoice.com/</a></p>
<p>Thank you to attorney Thomas Renz for suing Dr. Fauci and speaking out against hospital executives and administrators who put profit over patient care and who threaten to sue their doctors who don’t follow the money-making protocols. Mr. Renz explains why only doctors working independently from such corrupt systems are speaking out against the vaccine and standard treatment protocols for COVID:</p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vl7rbz-whistleblower-bombshell-hospitals-are-killing-for-cash-and-threatening-doct.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vl7rbz-whistleblower-bombshell-hospitals-are-killing-for-cash-and-threatening-doct.html">https://rumble.com/vl7rbz-whistleblower-bombshell-hospitals-are-killing-for-cash-and-threatening-doct.html</a></p>
<p>Do you have a loved one in the hospital due to COVID and you are concerned about the medical treatment they are getting or not getting? Please watch this video: <a contents="https://rumble.com/vkyz0m-covid-19-treatments-is-the-hospital-denying-you-the-100-effective-covid-19-.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vkyz0m-covid-19-treatments-is-the-hospital-denying-you-the-100-effective-covid-19-.html">https://rumble.com/vkyz0m-covid-19-treatments-is-the-hospital-denying-you-the-100-effective-covid-19-.html</a></p>
<p>Other helpful forms and links regarding vaccine mandates:</p>
<p><a contents="https://www.corbettreport.com/solutionswatch-vaccinemandates/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.corbettreport.com/solutionswatch-vaccinemandates/">https://www.corbettreport.com/solutionswatch-vaccinemandates/</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://americasfrontlinedoctors.org/2/legal/vaccines-the-law/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://americasfrontlinedoctors.org/2/legal/vaccines-the-law/">https://americasfrontlinedoctors.org/2/legal/vaccines-the-law/</a></p>
<p>As the vaccine is still in the experimental phase in most countries, it is unlawful to mandate that you receive it in order to keep your job. If you want to have a card that puts you in the "control" group of this experiment on humanity, go to:</p>
<p><a contents="https://www.vaxcontrolgroup.com/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.vaxcontrolgroup.com/">https://www.vaxcontrolgroup.com/</a> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/67063832021-08-04T01:50:57-07:002021-11-22T15:15:33-08:00Magnetic from the Jab?<p>There was a "Amazing Stories" episode called "The Main Attraction" that aired in October 1985 where the main character, a hunk named Brad Bender, becomes magnetic after a meteor shower. I still remember watching that episode until this day. Predictive programming anyone? After all, Steven Spielberg was one of the producers of the show (if you want to know more about Spielberg's shadiness, Jamie Dlux's videos on him on YouTube are a good place to start your research). <a contents="https://youtu.be/4A-DQuvx9eQ" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://youtu.be/4A-DQuvx9eQ">https://youtu.be/4A-DQuvx9eQ</a></p>
<p>You may have seen or heard testimonies from those who have gotten the COVID vax about magnets, spoons and other metal items, including heavy ones like hammers, sticking to the arms or upper torsos of the vaccinated body. Three of my family members have had such a positive magnet test following the jab. <br> </p>
<p>This magnetic effect is reportedly due to SPIONs which stands for Superparamagnetic Iron Oxide Nanoparticles (and/or Graphene Oxide which may also be present in testing swabs and/or some masks). Why would the global elite want this substance in our bodies and what does this substance do in the body?<br> </p>
<p>I have seen videos of what this substance may do in the body and tried to share these videos over social media platforms but these videos are highly censored and not allowed to be shared over the more popular social media platforms like Facebook or YouTube or Twitter. I have seen them over Telegram or Bitchute or Gab - some of the less censored social media apps. Here is one such channel on Telegram specific to Graphene Oxide: <a contents="https://t.me/graphene_oxide" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://t.me/graphene_oxide">https://t.me/graphene_oxide</a></p>
<p>When I’ve tried to share information on this magnetic effect from the jab on Facebook, I was called a “fake” and accused of spreading disinformation that is killing people. I’ve heard some radio DJ’s talking about how cool it would be to be magnetic. Well, it might not be a problem now but just wait until you are near an activated 5g tower. </p>
<p>I came across this supplement regimen one can take to reduce the graphene oxide in their body. The link is below but in case, it gets deleted, the most important supplements are: </p>
<p>Glutathione - if taken directly, the body assimilates only 25-30% so it’s best to take in the form of NAC or N-acetylcysteine which can inspire the body to create its own Glutathione </p>
<p>Astaxanthin - 5 mg, can also help improve eyesight </p>
<p>Quercetin</p>
<p>Vitamin D</p>
<p>Zinc</p>
<p>Melatonin</p>
<p>Milk Thistle </p>
<p>Of course you’ll want to consult your doctor about this regimen. </p>
<p><a contents="https://www.bitchute.com/video/PrgzZMP0KKxW/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.bitchute.com/video/PrgzZMP0KKxW/">https://www.bitchute.com/video/PrgzZMP0KKxW/</a></p>
<p>Dr. Judy Mikovitis also gives advice on Graphene Oxide detox: <a contents="https://endtimeevangelist.com/v/42q4SbxGGfmk/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://endtimeevangelist.com/v/42q4SbxGGfmk/">https://endtimeevangelist.com/v/42q4SbxGGfmk/</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/67035752021-07-31T21:33:38-07:002021-11-29T22:05:42-08:00COVID is Treatable <p>Forwarded information from CJTruth on Telegram (one of the few places you can get still uncensored information though Rumble, Gab, and Bitchute also still have some semblance of freedom of speech):</p>
<p>I said I would not post but this is too important. Doctors are not prescribing certain drugs that work for Covid 19 because it is off label. This is just plain EVIL! </p>
<p>I have to send everyone this protocol from Front Line Covid-19 Critical Care Alliance for Covid 19 that includes Ivermectin. Please pass this one far and wide. Covid is real. I don’t care what you say. </p>
<p>FLCCC Alliance </p>
<p>All Protocols </p>
<p><a contents="https://covid19criticalcare.com/covid-19-protocols/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://covid19criticalcare.com/covid-19-protocols/">https://covid19criticalcare.com/covid-19-protocols/</a></p>
<p>Hospital Protocol </p>
<p><a contents="https://covid19criticalcare.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/01/FLCCC-Alliance-MATHplus-Protocol-ENGLISH.pdf" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://covid19criticalcare.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/01/FLCCC-Alliance-MATHplus-Protocol-ENGLISH.pdf">https://covid19criticalcare.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/01/FLCCC-Alliance-MATHplus-Protocol-ENGLISH.pdf</a></p>
<p>Prevention and Early Outpatient Protocol </p>
<p><a contents="https://covid19criticalcare.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/11/FLCCC-Alliance-I-MASKplus-Protocol-ENGLISH.pdf" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://covid19criticalcare.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/11/FLCCC-Alliance-I-MASKplus-Protocol-ENGLISH.pdf">https://covid19criticalcare.com/wp-content/uploads/2020/11/FLCCC-Alliance-I-MASKplus-Protocol-ENGLISH.pdf</a></p>
<p>At Home Treatment </p>
<p><a contents="https://covid19criticalcare.com/covid-19-protocols/i-mass-protocol/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://covid19criticalcare.com/covid-19-protocols/i-mass-protocol/">https://covid19criticalcare.com/covid-19-protocols/i-mass-protocol/</a></p>
<p>How to get Ivermectin </p>
<p><a contents="https://covid19criticalcare.com/ivermectin-in-covid-19/how-to-get-ivermectin/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://covid19criticalcare.com/ivermectin-in-covid-19/how-to-get-ivermectin/">https://covid19criticalcare.com/ivermectin-in-covid-19/how-to-get-ivermectin/</a></p>
<p>Ivermectin Studies </p>
<p><a contents="https://covid19criticalcare.com/ivermectin-in-covid-19/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://covid19criticalcare.com/ivermectin-in-covid-19/">https://covid19criticalcare.com/ivermectin-in-covid-19/</a> </p>
<p> </p>
<p>Doctors to get prescription from after being seen online and doctors who may be able to prescribe across state lines:</p>
<p><a contents="https://myfreedoctor.com" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://myfreedoctor.com">https://myfreedoctor.com</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://www.speakwithanmd.com/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.speakwithanmd.com/">https://www.speakwithanmd.com/</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://americasfrontlinedoctors.org/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://americasfrontlinedoctors.org/">https://americasfrontlinedoctors.org/</a></p>
<p>Great video on treating COVID from Dr. Peter McCullough:</p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vm3kvi-dr.-peter-mccullough-full-lecture-on-covid-19-treatment-and-vaccines.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vm3kvi-dr.-peter-mccullough-full-lecture-on-covid-19-treatment-and-vaccines.html">https://rumble.com/vm3kvi-dr.-peter-mccullough-full-lecture-on-covid-19-treatment-and-vaccines.html</a></p>
<p>More information:</p>
<p>In addition to Ivermectin, antibiotics like Hydroxychloroquine and Azithromycin, have shown promise in treating COVID. Recommended supplements include: Vitamin D, Zinc, and Quercetin. Nebulizing Hydrogen Peroxide into your sinuses, throat and lungs has shown to ease some of the symptoms. According to Dr. Ryan Cole, Monoclonal antibodies saves lives. Look into Monoclonal Antibody Treatment. <br> </p>
<p>Information on Budesonide: <a contents="https://www.news-medical.net/news/20210726/Budesonidee28099s-antiviral-effect-against-SARS-CoV-2.aspx" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.news-medical.net/news/20210726/Budesonidee28099s-antiviral-effect-against-SARS-CoV-2.aspx">https://www.news-medical.net/news/20210726/Budesonidee28099s-antiviral-effect-against-SARS-CoV-2.aspx</a></p>
<p>General information on proven treatments for COVID:</p>
<p><a contents="https://timetofreeamerica.com/proven-treatments/#scroll-content" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://timetofreeamerica.com/proven-treatments/#scroll-content">https://timetofreeamerica.com/proven-treatments/#scroll-content</a></p>
<p>Doctors who will prescribe Ivermectin off label: <a contents="https://www.exstnc.com/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.exstnc.com/">https://www.exstnc.com/</a></p>
<p>Great video on COVID truth and treatment: <a contents="https://t.me/santasurfing/22597" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://t.me/santasurfing/22597">https://t.me/santasurfing/22597</a></p>
<p>For information on treating the Delta Variant: <a contents="https://covid19criticalcare.com/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://covid19criticalcare.com/">https://covid19criticalcare.com/</a></p>
<p>Great documentary on Chlorine Dioxide as a treatment for COVID, cancer and many other ailments: <a contents="https://rumble.com/vmlqyq-the-universal-antidote-documentary-miracle-cure-against-cancer-hiv-covid-19.html?mref=6zof&mrefc=6" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vmlqyq-the-universal-antidote-documentary-miracle-cure-against-cancer-hiv-covid-19.html?mref=6zof&mrefc=6">https://rumble.com/vmlqyq-the-universal-antidote-documentary-miracle-cure-against-cancer-hiv-covid-19.html?mref=6zof&mrefc=6</a></p>
<p>More information on Chlorine Dioxide as a treatment for COVID: </p>
<p><a contents="https://andreaskalcker.com/en/coronavirus/clinical-study-with-chlorine-dioxide.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://andreaskalcker.com/en/coronavirus/clinical-study-with-chlorine-dioxide.html">https://andreaskalcker.com/en/coronavirus/clinical-study-with-chlorine-dioxide.html</a></p>
<p>Dr. Vladimir Zelenko has successfully treated his patients for COVID and talks about the need to treat COVID within 3 days for better outcomes. He talks about combining Zinc with Ivermectin or Hydroxychloroquine for treating COVID. For preventing COVID, he talks about Vitamin D, Vitamin C, Zinc and Quercetin. Here are related links:</p>
<p><a contents="https://vladimirzelenkomd.com/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://vladimirzelenkomd.com/">https://vladimirzelenkomd.com/</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vl4u7t-dr.-zev-zelenko-slays-globalists-exposes-global-genocidal-event.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vl4u7t-dr.-zev-zelenko-slays-globalists-exposes-global-genocidal-event.html">https://rumble.com/vl4u7t-dr.-zev-zelenko-slays-globalists-exposes-global-genocidal-event.html</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vovtpu-florida-covid-summit-dr.-brian-tyson-successfully-treating-6000-covid-19-pa.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vovtpu-florida-covid-summit-dr.-brian-tyson-successfully-treating-6000-covid-19-pa.html">https://rumble.com/vovtpu-florida-covid-summit-dr.-brian-tyson-successfully-treating-6000-covid-19-pa.html</a></p>
<p>How to Get Ivermectin 💊 </p>
<p>Depending on where you live, it can be difficult to obtain a prescription for Ivermectin, as many physicians will be reluctant to prescribe before its widespread adoption. </p>
<p>We suggest the following approaches: </p>
<p>1. Discuss Ivermectin studies with your primary health care provider. </p>
<p>If they are unconvinced of the data, share with them information from <a contents="covid19criticalcare.com" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://covid19criticalcare.com">covid19criticalcare.com</a> and <a contents="bird-group.org" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bird-group.org">bird-group.org</a> about Ivermectin. </p>
<p>2. Contact doctors that can provide tele-medicine consultation. </p>
<p>Check out the Directory of Doctors Prescribing Ivermectin (international). If your doctor will not prescribe for you, contact one of the following tele-health companies listed here. </p>
<p>3. Order from an online pharmacy or message @meds_man </p>
<p>OR @perry_fl if you are based in Europe or Australia </p>
<p>No, you don't need a prescription.</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/66802832021-07-06T11:54:26-07:002021-12-17T23:45:40-08:00Healing for the Vaxxed<p>It’s a strange world when the healthy are treated like they are sick and you feel coerced and pressured to take a jab that is experimental and you are labeled as a conspiracy theorist or called paranoid if you don’t want to take a “vaccine” that has no longterm studies, killed most of the animals in the animal studies and already caused over 6000 deaths and hundreds of thousands of adverse side effects in the USA alone per the VAERS system which only captures an estimated 1-10% of actual cases. Some people are even told that they will lose their jobs if they don’t get the experimental gene therapy. <br><br>I know that I have been uninvited from family events for not being vaccinated and I had a smear campaign run against me by a doctor I recently worked with because I dared to challenge his attempts to get all his coworkers and patients to get the jab. I feel like I should have bodily autonomy as Dr. Sherri Tenpenny suggests in the following video where she speaks bravely and intelligently against the COVID-19 vaccine despite being attacked by her colleagues: </p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vjfrd3-the-mind-blowing-truth-about-covid-19-vaccines-dr.-sherri-tenpenny-testifie.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vjfrd3-the-mind-blowing-truth-about-covid-19-vaccines-dr.-sherri-tenpenny-testifie.html">https://rumble.com/vjfrd3-the-mind-blowing-truth-about-covid-19-vaccines-dr.-sherri-tenpenny-testifie.html</a></p>
<p>Another brave truth warrior in the medical community is Dr. Christiane Northrup who I highly respect and trust and have followed for a long time. I found this awesome healing protocol from her Telegram page and wanted to share it with anyone who has taken the vaccine and fears any long term effects from having done so. I also feel that those who work frequently with the vaccinated or are around those who have been vaccinated could benefit from the following information due to the “shed” of spike proteins that the vaccinated emit amid other concerns and effects that have been reported by the vaccinated, the providers that have treated them and the reports of the friends and family of those who have died from the vaccine or had life altering adverse side effects as a result of getting the vaccine. <br> </p>
<p>Spike Protein </p>
<p>Summary of the Spike Protein Protocol </p>
<p><a contents="http://bit.ly/SpikeProtein" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/SpikeProtein">http://bit.ly/SpikeProtein</a></p>
<p>This is the updated protocol to protect those who’ve been injected with spike protein and mRNA and the same protocol is useful to protect those concerned with the spike protein shedding coming off those who’ve been injected. So if you know someone who has been injected and requires help, please provide them with this protocol. </p>
<p>This is the Nutrition Protocol to Prevent Damage from Spike Protein and Derivatives due to Injection and to Protect from Spike Protein Shedding: </p>
<p>• Zinc (30-80mg per day depending on immunological pressure) </p>
<p>• Vitamin D3* </p>
<p>• Nattokinase (4000 Fibrinolytic Units twice per day or 200mg twice per day) Nattokinase is a fermented soybean derivative that is know to protect the cardiovascular system from developing a blood clotting cascade. </p>
<p>• Lypospheric Vitamin C (30ml, twice daily)* </p>
<p>• Quercetin (<a href="tel:500-1000">500-1000</a> mg, twice daily)* </p>
<p>• Iodine* </p>
<p>• PQQ* </p>
<p>• Pine Needle Tea for shikimic acid or shikimate (from green edible pine needles) There are toxic pine needles, be careful! When drinking pine needle tea, drink the oil/resin that accumulates too! Shikimate, shikimic acid and their derivatives possess: cancer fighting, antiviral, antimicrobial, anticoagulant and antithrombotic properties. </p>
<p>• Fennel and/or Star Anise Tea: These are also an excellent source of shikimate or shikimic acid (which is known to neutralize the spike protein) </p>
<p>• C60 (1-3 droppersfull per day): One of the issues we are seeing with those who have been injected is disturbances in their energetic field (magnetism) and hot spots of inflammation. C60 is a rich-source of electrons and acts like a fire extinguisher to inflammation and simultaneously (because it bio-distributes throughout the body) drives a normalization of electron flow throughout the body. In this category, we offer two products, the traditional C60 product* is made by yours truly and the C60 SuperConcentrate* is made by a carbon scientist friend of mine and contains a higher concentration of electrons. </p>
<p>• Charcoal (2-4 capsules a day): Charcoal is the pre-eminent detoxifier and when taken on an empty stomach, works its way down into the intestines and activates a blood purification process known as “interstitial dialysis”. Our Kohlbitr* product is the premier activated coconut charcoal in the world and we also now offer the more gentle birch charcoal.* </p>
<p>•Citrus fruit (especially blood oranges, due to their high hesperidin content — hesperidin is a chalcone like quercetin that deactivates spike protein) </p>
<p>Peppermint (very high in hesperidin) </p>
<p>Wheatgrass and Wheatgrass Juice (blades are high in shikimate) </p>
<p>• Superherbs to help disable spike protein: </p>
<p>Schizandra Berry* (high in shikimate) </p>
<p>Triphala formulations: In Sanskrit, the word Triphala means "three fruits”: a combination of Indian gooseberry (Emblica officinalis), black myrobalan (Terminalia chebula) and belleric myrobalan (Terminalia belerica). The terminalia fruits are rich in shikimate. </p>
<p>St. John’s Wort (shikimate is found throughout the entire plant and in the flowers) </p>
<p>Comfrey Leaf (rich in shikimate) </p>
<p>Feverfew (leaves and flowers are rich in shikimate) </p>
<p>Gingko Biloba Leaf (rich in shikimate) </p>
<p>GiantHyssop or Horsemint (Agastache urtifolia) (rich in shikimate) </p>
<p>LiquidAmbar (Sweet Gum tree) A tea of the spiky seed pods is rich in shikimate. </p>
<p>*Indicates products found in one place here: <a contents="http://bit.ly/SpikeProtein" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://bit.ly/SpikeProtein">http://bit.ly/SpikeProtein</a></p>
<p>Please SHARE. @davidavocadowolfe</p>
<p> </p>
<p>Dr. Carrie Medaj released a protocol for detoxing from the vaccine. Here is the link:</p>
<p><a contents="https://fb.watch/8SC6W5hMJi/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://fb.watch/8SC6W5hMJi/">https://fb.watch/8SC6W5hMJi/</a></p>
<p>In case her information is scrubbed from Facebook, which is a highly censored social media platform if you haven't figured that out by now, here is what she says:</p>
<p>Take a bath for 20 minutes or as long as you can stand, and scrub yourself with the following:</p>
<p>- 1-2 cups of Baking Soda</p>
<p>- 1-2 cups of Epson Salt</p>
<p>- 1 Cup of Borax (laundry detergent) to take out the nanotechnology</p>
<p>- 1/2 Cup to 1 Cup of Bentonite Clay - she recommends the brand Aztec Secret which you can get off Amazon</p>
<p><a contents="https://www.bitchute.com/video/XVZyPP2JrZEP/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.bitchute.com/video/XVZyPP2JrZEP/">https://www.bitchute.com/video/XVZyPP2JrZEP/</a></p>
<p>Dr. Andreas Kalcker recommends that one try CDS (Clo2), aka Chlorine Dioxide, to mitigate the effects of the vaccine:</p>
<p><a contents="https://andreaskalcker.com/en/coronavirus/clinical-study-with-chlorine-dioxide.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://andreaskalcker.com/en/coronavirus/clinical-study-with-chlorine-dioxide.html">https://andreaskalcker.com/en/coronavirus/clinical-study-with-chlorine-dioxide.html</a></p>
<p>There is something called “shedding” that can occur when a vaccinated person sheds their viral load around an unvaccinated person which could actually put the unvaccinated person in danger. Get Dr. Zelenko's Anti-Shedding Treatment, NOW AVAILABLE FOR KIDS: <a contents="www.zStackProtocol.com" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.zStackProtocol.com">www.zStackProtocol.com</a></p>
<p>Gene Decode is an absolute genius and swears by a protocol he uses to protect himself from the effects of vaccine shedding: <a contents="https://awakeneduk.wordpress.com/2021/09/19/gene-decodes-vax-detox-protocol/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://awakeneduk.wordpress.com/2021/09/19/gene-decodes-vax-detox-protocol/">https://awakeneduk.wordpress.com/2021/09/19/gene-decodes-vax-detox-protocol/</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/66761992021-07-01T10:54:28-07:002021-07-01T10:54:28-07:00What Does 4th and 5th Dimensional Living Look and Feel Like?<p>I am often asked what the 4th or 5th dimension means. What does it look like? What do people mean when they talk about us, as a humanity, raising our consciousness to the 4th and 5th dimension? I am by no means an expert on this subject and find answering these questions challenging. However, the day after being asked this question yet again, I ran across a 1994 interview of Alex Collier, a man who claims to have had contact with The Andromedans (yes, I'm talking about an alien race here) since age 8. In this interview, which you can watch in its entirety on YouTube (see link below), Alex is asked this same question about what the 4th and 5th dimension is and what it means. I have compiled a list here of some of his main points, which is really information that was given to him by the Andromedans. As I gain more knowledge of this subject (about the 4th ad 5th dimension), I will update this blog. But I definitely wanted to start putting this information out there as soon as possible as time is of the essence when it comes to humanity raising our consciousness. If we don't raise our consciousness, we run the risk of being enslaved even further by the cabal or destroyed by our own ignorance, selfishness, arrogance and stubbornness, lower vibrational states that the cabal provokes in us through war, famine, viruses and other means of control and manipulation, so they can then feed off of these lower vibrational states and keep us controlled through fear. </p>
<p>What 4th and 5th Dimensional Living Looks like:</p>
<p>- You can instantly create with your mind</p>
<p>- Everyone is telepathic</p>
<p>- There is more group think</p>
<p>- You can't have hidden agendas because people can see right through you</p>
<p>- We become clairvoyant and can see energy fields</p>
<p>- Court systems will change in that the judge and jurors will be clairvoyant and able to see if someone is lying or guilty or if someone is telling the truth. Everything will be judged based on energy, not on words</p>
<p>- Technology will only be used for the purposes of spiritual evolution and will not be used as a means to defend yourself</p>
<p>- When you walk by someone or touch their hand, you will instantly know everything about them</p>
<p>- More of our emotional energy will be focused on unconditional love, not fear, of self, of earth and of the human race as a whole</p>
<p> </p>
<p>How Can We Raise Our Consciousness to the 4th and 5th Dimension?</p>
<p>- Lower your meat consumption as meat can lower your vibration</p>
<p>- Come together and stop worrying over politics</p>
<p>- Stop warring with each other on any level</p>
<p>- Stop polluting the planet</p>
<p>- Resensitize to violence</p>
<p>- Stop creating Plutonium (both physical, emotional and spiritual forms)</p>
<p>- Stop creating Styrofoam </p>
<p>- Stand in your truth</p>
<p>- Whenever you feel dark energies around you, do what you can to clean your energy and command those darker energies to leave your space</p>
<p>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f2ubrA3X7rM&list=PLxRolaNEcgro8v6CKkb6iWarxmyxT2sfK</p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/66705182021-06-25T13:32:48-07:002021-06-25T13:32:48-07:00False Light<p>"In the deepest levels of the ocean, there is a creature called an anglerfish that lures prey into its jaws by dangling a small, glowing light in front of its teeth. Like an anglerfish drawing victims in with a false promise of light in the deep, gaslighters lure victims back in with promises to change." - Amy Marlow-MaCoy, author of<em> The Gaslighting Recovery Workbook</em></p>
<p><em><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/079ade2384985bdbd558764ec789095b40b11464/original/1d6707ece655fb824a9291e56614224c.jpg/!!/meta:eyJzcmNCdWNrZXQiOiJiemdsZmlsZXMifQ==/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></em></p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/66662552021-06-21T16:50:30-07:002022-01-14T15:32:00-08:00Thank You Doctors<p>I would like to thank the following brave and courageous doctors for speaking out against the grain on the COVID vaccines. Many of them are being censored, ridiculed, dismissed as "conspiracy theorists", sued, and have risked having their license taken away and the ruin and end of their careers and very livelihoods and ability to care for their own families because they are speaking up and out against the grain. I don't believe that all doctors are in the healing profession for the right reasons. Some are in it for the money, prestige, hero worship, optics, ability to care for only themselves and/or their families financially, or for other ego reasons. However, these group of doctors are true healers, heroes, and spiritual warriors in this fight against medical tyranny and freedom of bodily autonomy and speech that are in jeopardy of disappearing fast from our increasingly controlled world. You are all truly heroes:</p>
<p>Dr. David Martin <a contents="https://rumble.com/vsaojh-why-does-trump-keep-promoting-the-vaccine-dr.-david-martin-on-man-in-americ.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vsaojh-why-does-trump-keep-promoting-the-vaccine-dr.-david-martin-on-man-in-americ.html">https://rumble.com/vsaojh-why-does-trump-keep-promoting-the-vaccine-dr.-david-martin-on-man-in-americ.html</a> & <a contents="https://www.fullyliveacademy.com/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.fullyliveacademy.com/">https://www.fullyliveacademy.com/</a> & <a contents="https://www.davidmartin.world/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.davidmartin.world/">https://www.davidmartin.world/</a></p>
<p>Dr. Robert Malone <a contents="https://rumble.com/vry9qz-joe-rogan-interview-with-dr.-robert-malone-md-full.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vry9qz-joe-rogan-interview-with-dr.-robert-malone-md-full.html">https://rumble.com/vry9qz-joe-rogan-interview-with-dr.-robert-malone-md-full.html</a></p>
<p>Dr. Carrie Madej</p>
<p>Dr. Ariyana Love</p>
<p>Dr. Peter McCullough</p>
<p>Dr. Dan Stock </p>
<p>Dr. Sucharit Bhakdi</p>
<p>Dr. Christiane Northrup</p>
<p>Dr. Michael Yeadon</p>
<p>Dr. Dolores Cahill</p>
<p>Dr. Roger Hodkinson</p>
<p>Dr. Jane Ruby <a contents="www.DrJaneRuby.com" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.DrJaneRuby.com">www.DrJaneRuby.com</a></p>
<p>Dr. Scott Jenson</p>
<p>Dr. Brian Tyson</p>
<p>Dr. Bryan Ardis <a contents="Dr. Bryan Ardis | COVID-19 Protocols Are Literally Killing People Including His Own Father-In-Law" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HSIRFwA32Q4">Dr. Bryan Ardis | COVID-19 Protocols Are Literally Killing People Including His Own Father-In-Law</a></p>
<p>Dr. Sherri Tenpenny </p>
<p>Dr. Ryan Cole <a contents="https://www.thegatewaypundit.com/2021/05/dr-cole-covid-jabs-seen-deaths-shot-vaccines-last-20-years-combined-audio/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.thegatewaypundit.com/2021/05/dr-cole-covid-jabs-seen-deaths-shot-vaccines-last-20-years-combined-audio/">https://www.thegatewaypundit.com/2021/05/dr-cole-covid-jabs-seen-deaths-shot-vaccines-last-20-years-combined-audio/</a></p>
<p>Dr. Simone Gold</p>
<p>Dr. Vladimir Zelenkos <a contents="https://www.14streetmedical.com/blog/dr-zelenkos-miracle-cures-coronavirus" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.14streetmedical.com/blog/dr-zelenkos-miracle-cures-coronavirus">https://www.14streetmedical.com/blog/dr-zelenkos-miracle-cures-coronavirus</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://vladimirzelenkomd.com/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://vladimirzelenkomd.com/">https://vladimirzelenkomd.com/</a></p>
<p><a contents="https://rumble.com/vl4u7t-dr.-zev-zelenko-slays-globalists-exposes-global-genocidal-event.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vl4u7t-dr.-zev-zelenko-slays-globalists-exposes-global-genocidal-event.html">https://rumble.com/vl4u7t-dr.-zev-zelenko-slays-globalists-exposes-global-genocidal-event.html</a></p>
<p>Dr. Richard M. Fleming <a contents="Flemingmethod.com" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://Flemingmethod.com">Flemingmethod.com</a></p>
<p>Dr. Judy Mikovits</p>
<p>Dr. Jim Meehan <a contents="www.meehanmd.com" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.meehanmd.com">www.meehanmd.com</a></p>
<p>Dr. Mark Sherwood <a contents="www.sherwood.tv" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://www.sherwood.tv">www.sherwood.tv</a></p>
<p>Check out <a contents="Flemingmethod.com" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://Flemingmethod.com">Flemingmethod.com</a> for information on how to heal yourself after having had the vaccine. Dr. Christiane Northup has also mentioned Dandelion Leaf and Pine Needle Tea as possible antidotes to the spike protein in the vaccine. </p>
<p>Proof that there are hundreds, if not thousands, of doctors against the COVID vaccines and "standard" COVID treatment protocol: <a contents="https://americasfrontlinedoctors.org/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://americasfrontlinedoctors.org/">https://americasfrontlinedoctors.org/</a><br> </p>
<p>Forwarded from Karen Nugent in chatroom (Telegram app)</p>
<p>‼️MASSIVE DUMP‼️ - Doctors who explain clearly why vaccines aren't safe or effective. </p>
<p>1. Dr. Nancy Banks </p>
<p>2. Dr. Russell Blaylock </p>
<p>3. Dr. Shiv Chopra </p>
<p>4. Dr. Sherri Tenpenny </p>
<p>5. Dr. Suzanne Humphries </p>
<p>6. Dr. Larry Palevsky </p>
<p>7. Dr. Toni Bark </p>
<p>8. Dr. Andrew Wakefield </p>
<p>9. Dr. Meryl Nass </p>
<p>10. Dr. Raymond Obomsawin </p>
<p>11. Dr. Ghislaine Lanctot </p>
<p>12. Dr. Robert Rowen </p>
<p>13. Dr. David Ayoub </p>
<p>14. Dr. Boyd Haley PhD </p>
<p>15. Dr. Rashid Buttar </p>
<p>16. Dr. Roby Mitchell </p>
<p>17. Dr. Ken Stoller </p>
<p>18. Dr. Mayer Eisenstein </p>
<p>19. Dr. Frank Engley, PhD </p>
<p>20. Dr. David Davis </p>
<p>21. Dr Tetyana Obukhanych </p>
<p>22. Dr. Harold E Buttram </p>
<p>23. Dr. Kelly Brogan </p>
<p>24. Dr. RC Tent </p>
<p>25. Dr. Rebecca Carley </p>
<p>26. Dr. Andrew Moulden </p>
<p>27. Dr. Jack Wolfson </p>
<p>28. Dr. Michael Elice </p>
<p>29. Dr. Terry Wahls </p>
<p>30. Dr. Stephanie Seneff </p>
<p>31. Dr. Paul Thomas </p>
<p>32. Dr. Richard Bartlett <a contents="https://rumble.com/vs4k65-bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb.html" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://rumble.com/vs4k65-bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb.html">https://rumble.com/vs4k65-bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb.html</a> & <a contents="https://budesonideworks.com/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://budesonideworks.com/">https://budesonideworks.com/</a> & <a contents="https://www.synergyhealthdpc.com/covid-care/" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="https://www.synergyhealthdpc.com/covid-care/">https://www.synergyhealthdpc.com/covid-care/</a></p>
<p>33. Dr. Richard Moskowitz - censored </p>
<p>34. Dr. Jane Orient </p>
<p>35. Dr. Richard Deth </p>
<p>36. Dr. Lucija Tomljenovic </p>
<p>37. Dr Chris Shaw </p>
<p>38. Dr. Susan McCreadie </p>
<p>39. Dr. Mary Ann Block </p>
<p>40. Dr. David Brownstein </p>
<p>41. Dr. Jayne Donegan </p>
<p>42. Dr. Troy Ross - censored </p>
<p>43. Dr. Philip Incao </p>
<p>44. Dr. Joseph Mercola author of the book: The Truth About COVID-19: Exposing The Great Reset, Lockdowns, Vaccine Passports, and the New Normal.</p>
<p>One of the things that Dr. Mercola talks about in his book is the connection between sepsis and deaths related to COVID-19. Here is an excerpt from his book: "A sepsis treatment protocol developed by Dr. Paul Marik, which involves intravenous vitamin C with hydrocortisone and thiamine (Vitamin B1), has been shown to dramatically improve chances of survival in sepsis cases. If you suspect that you or a loved one may have sespis, visit <a contents="mercola.com" data-link-label="" data-link-type="url" href="http://mercola.com">mercola.com</a> and search for the article titled, 'Vitamin C, B1 and Hydrocortisone Dramatically Reduce Mortality from Sepsis.' It could save your life." </p>
<p>45. Dr. Jeff Bradstreet </p>
<p>46. Dr. Robert Mendelson </p>
<p>47. Dr Theresa Deisher </p>
<p>48. Dr. Sam Eggertsen </p>
<p>Hundreds more doctors testifying that vaccines aren't safe or effective: </p>
<p>Documentaries... </p>
<p>1. Vaccination - The Silent Epidemic (2013) </p>
<p>2. The Greater Good (2011) </p>
<p>3. Shots In The Dark (2009) </p>
<p>4. Vaccination The Hidden Truth (1998) </p>
<p>5. Vaccine Nation (2008) </p>
<p>6. Vaccination - The Truth About Vaccines </p>
<p>7. Lethal Injection </p>
<p>8. Bought (2015) (third copy)</p>
<p>9. Deadly Immunity (2005) </p>
<p>11. Beyond Treason (2005) </p>
<p>12. Trace Amounts (2014) </p>
<p>13. Why We Don't Vaccinate </p>
<p>14. Autism Yesterday - (2010) </p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/66462682021-06-01T09:55:54-07:002021-06-01T09:55:54-07:00The Spiritual Spark<p>"Every science will remain relatively ineffective or destructive to the degree that it omits or devaluates the relative importance of the spiritual spark that ignites all of creation and life." - Lawrence R. Spencer, author of Alien Interview </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/65994082021-04-09T10:16:00-07:002021-04-09T10:16:00-07:00Quote from The Urantia Book"...some planets (or even systems) have plunged far into spiritual darkness, they are in a certain sense quarantined, or partially isolated from intercourse with the larger units of creation. And all this, as it operates on Urantia, is a spiritually defensive reaction of the majority of the worlds to save themselves, as far as possible, from suffering the isolating consequences of the alienating acts of a headstrong, wicked, and rebellious minority." - The Urantia Book nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/65915002021-04-01T16:53:00-07:002021-04-01T16:53:00-07:00Sheeple <p>I don't draw a crowd</p>
<p>I have been found out</p>
<p>for being the boring, untalented, jealous person I am</p>
<p> </p>
<p>To add to this, they call me egotistical, they call me bitter</p>
<p>when the same could be said about them and the idols they worship</p>
<p> </p>
<p>Why can't they see</p>
<p>they're being sheep</p>
<p>led to the slaughter of their souls</p>
<p>by the very people they adore?</p>
<p>Oh dear, sheeple</p>
<p>wake up like the people you deplore</p>
<p> </p>
<p>It ain't my fault you're blind</p>
<p>It ain't my fault you're still asleep</p>
<p>I've tried to wake you</p>
<p>and in return, you attack me</p>
<p>Eager to return to your slumbering</p>
<p>You dare to project onto me</p>
<p>all the things you're unwilling to see</p>
<p>about your sorry self and the stars who hoard your wealth</p>
<p> </p>
<p>Why can't you see</p>
<p>You're being sheep</p>
<p>Led to the slaughter of your souls</p>
<p>by the very people you defend, protect and adore?</p>
<p>Oh, dear sheeple</p>
<p>Wake up to the dark truths about the people we deplore</p>
<p>and what they do to kids</p>
<p>and what they've done to us</p>
<p>to keep us enslaved </p>
<p>and keep us from love</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/65754452021-03-16T10:17:27-07:002021-03-16T10:21:02-07:00Enter the Greater Journey<p>In Shamanism, there is what’s called “the lesser journey” that satisfies the ego such as: </p>
<p>- enhancing our public image in the world </p>
<p>- getting your dream job </p>
<p>- ascending the ladder of success in your career </p>
<p>- getting good grades in school </p>
<p>- getting into the best college </p>
<p>- obtaining whatever accolades, awards, or degrees you want </p>
<p>- obtaining recognition from your peers or authority figures </p>
<p>- getting to your ideal weight or look </p>
<p>- having your ideal house, car or any other physical item </p>
<p>- having whatever experience the ego craves such as different states of ecstasy, a sense of belonging to a group, ability to travel to exotic or desired destinations, or the experience of romantic love </p>
<p>Once we have exhausted or transcended our lesser journey, we can enter what’s called “the greater journey” in Shamanism. The greater journey can be described as finding our truth and expressing and owning our freedom as souls regardless of whatever ego injuries and psychic attacks we have sustained or endured. </p>
<p>We can gently enter the greater journey by choice and focused intention OR we can be forced into the greater journey at some point. We can come across opportunities to enter the greater journey whenever we experience: </p>
<p>- A dark night of the soul <br>- A life threatening or life altering illness or event <br>- The loss of our civil liberties or freedoms due to imprisonment, oppression, or censorship <br>- Moments of ego collapse, ego injury or ego death <br>- Grief or loss of a love whether that “love” is a person, an animal, a former state of health, a relationship, a dream or other “love” <br>- The loss of a job especially if you are forced out due to ageism, racism, narcissistic or sociopathic abuse, bullying, psychic attack or any other trauma <br>- A reversal of fortune <br>- Injury or loss of reputation, public image or standing due to libel, slander, defamation of character, being thrown under the bus, smear campaigns, being labelled things such as “racist” or “homophobe” or “crazy” or any other negative label that affects your ability to gain or keep employment or function as a social being in a society that is judgmental of anyone that doesn’t conform to the approved standards and conduct of the times <br>- Moments of questioning spiritual beliefs or the meaning and purpose of life <br>- Moments of questioning why things are the way they are in this world or why people do the things they do <br>- Doing some sort of mental, psychological, emotional or spiritual exploration such as mental health therapy, spiritual sojourns or retreats that assist you in dealing with your traumas, deprogramming from family and societal programming, and seeing past any indoctrination into various cultures or institutions in this world, becoming aware of and emancipating yourself from any domestications, mind control and brainwashing attempts, gaslighting and other forms of mental, emotional and spiritual enslavement that exist <br>- Being the first one or ones to start a movement or reform an institution or ideology that assists the evolvement of earth and its inhabitants despite the backlash, attacks and resistance you will inevitably encounter <br>- An experience of excommunication, exclusion, public humiliation or attack where you are left isolated and shamed by almost everyone and/or your most important relationships are severed <br>- The experience of rape, molestation, assault, or abuse <br>- Having your empathy manipulated or held hostage </p>
<p>While all of the above examples of things that can initiate you to the greater journey seem rather horrific, they can either cause you to become stuck in a cycle of victim consciousness OR lead you to greater awareness and eventual transcendence of all things ego. Your intention on which road to choose is everything. While the above are rather Plutonium ways of entering the greater journey, we can be proactive in choosing to enter the greater journey without having to come to a Plutonium moment or having to experience our “rock bottom” to shove us or motivate us to get started on the path to enlightenment. What are ways of easing more gently onto the path of the greater journey? Here are some suggestions: </p>
<p>- Mental health therapy <br>- Reading selfhelp or metaphysical books <br>- Going on spiritual retreats <br>- Meditation <br>- Prayer <br>- Seeking spiritual counsel <br>- Trying to see the positive side or aspect of ANY situation <br>- Looking at any relationship, job or situation as a learning opportunity and then asking yourself what you are learning <br>- Adopting a growth mindset <br>- Affirmations <br>- Selfcare activities (doing things that nurture your body, mind and soul) such as regular exercise, healthy eating, gardening, etc. </p>
<p>How will you know that you are on the greater journey? Here are some signs: </p>
<p>- Things that you use to fear no longer cause you fear <br>- Decrease or dissipation of anxiety, depression or other “negative” mood states or thoughts <br>- A sense of confidence or inner strength or peace that cannot be easily shook <br>- The ability to see through or not be easily affected by advertisements or other forms of media or other peoples’ issues or projections (see the movie They Live) <br>- The ability to rise above any opposing factions or opinions and see and relate to both sides of the perspective <br>- A gain in unconditional positive regard or love for all beings even those dismissed as “evil” or “narcissistic” <br>- Ability to embody the law of allowance where we agree to allow others the freedom to experience whatever situation or mindset they are in, without judgement, whether their choice to do so is a subconscious choice or a conscious one, even if the choice is seen as a negative one in our own eyes <br>- The ability to forgive others and self <br>- The experience of being healed of any physical or mental condition <br>- The recognition of having transcended the need for others to accept, see, understand, love, forgive or thank you <br>- A decrease in attracting negative or anxious people or situations into your life <br>- A decrease in reacting to or being triggered or activated by others’ attempts to ensnarl you or recruit you into their ego agendas </p>
<p>My hope and wish for you is that you choose to assess which journey you are on, the lesser one or the greater one, and then make the conscious choice to enter the greater journey. Take my hand and we’ll walk it together to the light that shines through any darkness, to the light that leads to life…</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/65611412021-02-28T11:28:18-08:002021-02-28T11:28:18-08:00Pretty pennies <p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/c9f24f1fcc9d81f3d7e5d25e9f22e72984260c95/original/2df8b8ad-c057-4390-bf49-280fd3749ab6.jpeg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/65500922021-02-15T16:00:00-08:002021-02-16T10:49:09-08:00 The Power of Heart Consciousness <p>In this age of Aquarius, we are worshippers of the brain. A lot of our society is based on scholastic achievement. Who has the best grades, the best test scores, the best and highest degrees and who is the smartest, brightest and most innovative in our communities? Who has the highest paying jobs and the biggest and nicest houses and other measures of success as defined by our modern day society? Jobs or careers in left-brain fields such as science, engineering or medicine are more valued than those in the more right-brain fields such as arts or creative fields. We believe that the brain is the most important organ in the body and when we are “brain dead”, we are considered dead. </p>
<p>Some of our biggest fears are being in a vegetative state with little to no brain function, growing old and demented and losing our intellectual capacities, or going “crazy” and losing our minds to severe mental health disorders such as Schizophrenia. People who have mental challenges or disorders are stigmatized, marginalized, mocked and/or looked down upon in our society. In contrast, we look up to those who are viewed as more intelligent or smart such as tech big wigs, scientists, those in positions of authority, and doctors and even those, such as politicians, who may use their brains for nefarious aims. We sometimes wrongly assume that those in positions of authority are more intelligent than us or that they were promoted or assigned to those positions based on hard work or merit. However, we have to remember that those with more narcissistic tendencies and therefore, have less capacity for empathy, seek out positions of power more readily than the average person in society. Because they are very gifted at being self-promoting and tend to have less fear and are generally better at risk-taking behaviors, those with more narcissistic qualities are more likely to be in positions of power. However, there is something to be said for nepotism, favoritism, being compromised, being easy to control and other less-than-ideal factors playing into the reasons behind why people are promoted to positions of power. </p>
<p>What most of us fail to realize is that the heart is far more powerful than the brain. According to the Institute of HeartMath in the United States, the heart has its own energy field which generates 60 times more electrical output than the brain. The heart also secretes hormones along with the pineal gland and pituitary glands in the brain to strengthen our sense of intuition, an inner knowing without necessarily having any evidence to support this knowing. Most people are socialized to override their intuition with over analysis of the brain. However, it usually doesn’t work out well to ignore your intuition in favor of analysis even when the intuition doesn’t make “sense” while the analysis does. Intuitive knowing, after all, is a more advanced state of awareness than thinking is. In other words, the heart is far more intelligent and wise than the brain when it comes to matters of perception. There is a saying that goes, “the brain thinks, the heart knows.” </p>
<p>Did you know that there are more nerves going from the heart to the brain than the other way around? Did you know that the heart secretes hormones that can cure many diseases, including cancer? According to a Dr. David Vesely, chief of endocrinology at James A Haley VA Hospital in Tampa and professor at the University of South Florida, heart hormones can kill up to 97% of all cancers in cell cultures within 2 hours. Abnormal heart rhythms can be triggered by negative or anxious emotional states. In contrast, one can reinstate more normal heart rhythms with deep abdominal breathing to stimulate a state of calm and by affirmations, meditations, visualizations or any other coping skills that refocuses the body and mind to think more positively and calmly. Equally important, we should limit our exposure to any television, media or activities that seek to instill fear or division. </p>
<p>At this time in history, we are more divided than ever. We are pressured to choose more and more ways to identify ourselves into more and more boxes regarding our sexuality, gender, race, beliefs and ideologies. We are given 2 sides to choose from whether that be Pro Life or Pro Choice, All Lives Matter or Black Lives Matter, Republican or Democrat. And those are just a few examples. All this does us is get us to fight with each other and keeps us all in a lower vibrational state. It keeps us divided and easier to manipulate by those in power that lack empathy or compassion and whose intellects may be guided by more sinister, narcissistic, sociopathic or psychopathic motives and agendas. </p>
<p>It is of utmost importance that we aim to embrace the power of our heart consciousness both individually and collectively. We must learn to love ourselves and others and be forgiving of ourselves and others. We must not censor dissenting voices no matter how much we disagree. We must allow for freedoms of beliefs and ideologies with mutual respect as long as no one is intending harm to others. David Icke, author of “Remember Who You Are”, writes, “There is a war within most people between their head and their heart, and the head normally wins. It is time to change that, and in doing so change the world from a prison to a paradise.”</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/65431572021-02-07T16:00:00-08:002021-02-08T16:25:34-08:00The Invisible Middle<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/d6fbf972e928fbedda9f2e3b4df0e1113e375526/original/img-3495.jpg/!!/b:W10=.jpg" class="size_l justify_center border_" /></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/65429702021-02-07T16:00:00-08:002021-02-08T12:55:17-08:00Ways to Achieve Mystical States Without the Use of Mind-Altering Substances<p>It is understandable why so many people, in this time in history, would want to enter a mystical or altered state of consciousness. This is a very difficult time to be alive as fear is fed to us daily through various forms of media, there is more and more pressure to label yourself or choose a side or group politically, sexually, spiritually or culturally. We are bombarded by too much information and too much stimulation. </p>
<p>The majority of people who become addicted or dependent or abusive of mind-altering substances are those who have a history of abuse or trauma that keeps them in a fight or flight or depressed state and that they may want continual temporary relief from. </p>
<p>Many are wondering what the purpose of their lives are and want to experience something richer, deeper and more meaningful than the mundane monotony of everyday life. We are becoming more and more aware that there has to be something more to life than the worldly definitions of success that are programmed into us from an early age. </p>
<p>However, there are many people who feel that the use of mind-altering substances is the best, quickest and only way to achieve that mystical state of consciousness. Most people who regularly use mind-altering substances are looking for a feeling. That feeling might be anything from escapism to energetic to ecstasy. </p>
<p>Many are not aware that there are many methods to reaching mystical states of consciousness that don’t have to involve mind-altering substances and the side effects or potential harms that come with them. So, I wrote this blog to document the other ways one can explore mystical experiences and metaphysical realms without necessarily having to use mind-altering substances. For example, I have had many mystical experiences in life and I am as square as they come, never having used mind-altering substances for the purpose of entering a mystical state or altered state of consciousness. I’ve never needed mind-altering substances to find mysticism in everyday life. So, I have compiled a list of things that have or can lead to a mystical experience that don’t involve mind-altering substances (I put an * next the ways I have entered mystical experiences): </p>
<p>Meditation* <br>Kundalini Yoga* (and other forms of yoga) <br>Massage* (especially craniosacral massage) <br>Reiki Therapy* <br>Use of crystals* <br>Shamanic drumming* <br>Music* <br>Vision quests <br>Prayer <br>Dance <br>Tai Chi <br>Running <br>Hiking <br>Walking a labyrinth <br>Dreaming* <br>Hypnosis* <br>Many other ways that I may not be aware of yet</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/65173622021-01-09T18:27:50-08:002021-02-22T13:00:38-08:00Information Wars<p>The fact that the world, the USA in particular, is going through information wars has become ever more apparent with recent events from 1/6/21. I knew that the day was going to be momentous because I knew that there was going to be a rally at Washington DC at the same time as the congressional hearings to certify the electoral college votes. Sure enough, it was a big day when barriers were breached and things reportedly turned violent. However, you will get different reports on who breached the barriers depending on who you ask, who you follow, who you associate with and what search engines you use. For example, The New York Times, a mainstream media outlet, had this headline:</p>
<p><span class="font_large"><strong>Pro-Trump mob storms Capitol, disrupting electoral count </strong></span></p>
<p>Jan. 6, 2021 at 7:44 pm Updated Jan. 6, 2021 at 8:34 pm </p>
<p>By NICHOLAS FANDOS and EMILY COCHRANE </p>
<p>The New York Times</p>
<p>https://www.seattletimes.com/nation-world/pro-trump-mob-storms-capitol-disrupting-electoral-count/</p>
<p> </p>
<p>If you use Google as your search engine or even watch the 24 hour news TV channels in America such as CNN (reportedly more liberal) or Fox News (which is reportedly more conservative), you'll get similar stories that suggest that Trump supporters are brainwashed or "idiots" or extremists. Additionally, most of the mainstream media in America suggests that Trump incited anger in his followers as if they have no minds of their own. And the reports about calls for his resignation were right behind those reports. </p>
<p>However, if you check out alternative media or use the search engine DuckDuckGo, you may find testimony from people that were there at the capital stating that there was a smaller group of people at the rally who were different than the rest and these people were the ones to breach the barriers and taunt the police. Some reports suggested that Antifa members or members of the Proud Boys were the ones that represented this smaller group at the capital that day. Here's an example from the website The Independent:</p>
<p><span class="font_large"><strong>Proud Boys boast they caused 'absolute terror' during Capitol riot </strong></span></p>
<p>The group says it intentionally dressed in black on the day of the riot </p>
<p>Graig Graziosi </p>
<p>https://www.independent.co.uk/news/world/americas/us-election-2020/proud-boys-terror-capitol-riot-b1783996.html</p>
<p> </p>
<p>Either way, it's important to try to get both sides of an issue before reacting, cutting off friends or family who are Trump supporters or Anti-Trump, or spreading more information or misinformation. There is a thing called "controlled opposition" which is a way of getting us to fight with each other in order to keep us controlled, distracted and at a lower vibrational state. It is important that we do not give into these attempts to divide us. It is also important to take into account that propaganda is alive and well in America through Operation Mockingbird and other attempts to keep us mind controlled and enslaved. It is becoming more known that the same few conglomerates own all of the media outlets in the press. It is also becoming more known that both the Pentagon and the CIA teamed up with Hollywood to release films that are propaganda such as Zero Dark Thirty. </p>
<p>Critical thinking is becoming a no-no in American institutions such as the primary and secondary and higher education systems. It's even a no-no to go against the grain in established institutions such as the health care system in America. Any doctor or health care worker that doesn't go along to get along and support the official narrative will get fired and then blackballed. </p>
<p>Controlling what information we get and what information we don't get is one way to control our perception and run a smear campaign against anyone of the cabal's choosing. Ever since Trump won the election in 2016, there has been a massive smear campaign against him and anyone who follows him. But most people aren't willing to even enter an intelligent debate or consider a different point of view. He has now been banned from Twitter. So has much respected people who are affiliated with him such as General Flynn, Sidney Powell and Lin Wood. Well, if the president of the United States can be silenced and censored, that anyone can be censored. </p>
<p>YouTube, Facebook and Twitter have gone about the business of censoring anyone who challenges the official narrative about COVID, about Trump, about the 2020 election, etc. Strong alternative media influencers such as David Icke, Jamie DeLux, and Sacha Stone, just to name a few, have been banned, demonetized, or lost followers on their online platforms. So has anyone who says anything against the official narrative. They are all pretty much dismissed as "conspiracy theorists." So a critical thinking question: Why is this? In David Icke's book, Remember Who You Are, he writes, "The 'revolutions' are manipulated through a complex web of foundations and organisations working with other groups and agencies, including the CIA and Mossad. The Open Society Institute and other (Georg) Soros-connected groupings funded and trained Georgian students in the art of mass protest, and financed the opposition TV station that encouraged demonstrations." Of course, if you quote David Icke at all, you are "dismissed" as a "conspiracy theorist" by anyone not willing to employ critical thinking. </p>
<p>There was a doctor, Stella Immanuel, who was championed by Trump and who said that she had successfully treating COVID19 with HCQ. Well, she was slandered, called "crazy" by people in positions of power, including Biden, and this information about HCQ was belittled and ridiculed and suppressed. If you look up information on her on social media, she is described as a witch doctor who talks about spirits. God forbid anyone talk about spiritual matters, especially if you are a doctor. That is considered a big No No. Now that the vaccine has been rolled out, however, there are studies that are showing HCQ to indeed be effective in treating COVID19. Think of all the lives that could have been saved if this information wasn't suppressed in the first place. So again, you have to ask yourself: why is it okay for this information, about HCQ as an effective treatment for COVID19, to be out there in the mainstream media now that the vaccine has been rolled out? </p>
<p>I do know from personal experience that many anti-vaxxers are being attacked and belittled and ridiculed. If you don't go along with the official narrative or popular opinion, you are danger of losing your job, adversely affecting your schooling and ability to find work, being censored, and/or being ostracized from your family, your coworkers, your friends, your platforms on social media and your reputation and standing in society. </p>
<p>Most people are only willing to view or watch media that supports their political leanings, spiritual beliefs and values. They are not open to viewing what "the other side" thinks or beliefs. I know that I have attempted to stay open to both sides of an argument and finding out what each side is saying before making a decision on where I stand on an issue. I watch Fox News and CNN. I look into alternative media sources as well. I find it interesting that I find things out on alternative media much faster and sooner than I do on mainstream media or what is reported on alternative media never makes it to mainstream media at all. I consider myself to be an independent when it comes to politics with no loyalty to any group. So I challenge you to check out the content on these websites that might offer new ways of thinking about our current political landscape. It is important for us, as a humanity, to aim for fluidity of thought instead of just accepting what we've been told.</p>
<p>https://timetofreeamerica.com/</p>
<p>https://www.theepochtimes.com/</p>
<p>https://www.americanthinker.com/</p>
<p>https://www.thegatewaypundit.com/</p>
<p>https://redstate.com/</p>
<p>https://justthenews.com/</p>
<p>https://steeltruth.com/</p>
<p> </p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/64770132020-11-13T12:12:47-08:002020-11-13T12:12:47-08:002021 – The Year of Maturity Most would agree that 2020 has been a year from hell and most are anxious for 2020 to be over. These last 2 months of 2020 are going to be very stressful with the pandemic and the election. The number of COVID cases is reportedly increasing and some states have already begun their second shutdown which of course affects the economy and the livelihood of many. This second shutdown also affects our ability to worship with fellowship or gather with our loved one during the holidays. Some would say that this has been the plan all along: to keep us at a lower vibrational state. The energy and power vampires can then feed on our negative energies – fear, drama, confusion, anger, and sadness.
As a mental health care worker, mental health issues have increased at a dramatic rate, more than I have seen in the last 20 years of working in the mental health field. People are more suicidal, addicted, depressed, anxious, angry, having more relationship issues and there is an increase in domestic violence and child abuse as well, due to us, as mammals, not having space and being cooped up and trapped at home. Some people have had and still have “election anxiety” and other have “COVID anxiety.” Some believe that the pandemic was the result of biological warfare and some specifically believe that the pandemic is the handiwork of the USA democratic party’s attempt to increase mail order ballots in this election which reportedly resulted in massive voter fraud.
There is a constitutional lawyer, Ivan Raiklin, who is projecting that the final electoral college results will be: Trump 305 and Biden 233 when all is said and done with the legal processes, recounts and voter fraud corrected. It does seem odd and fishy that Biden and Harris gave immediate victory speeches based on the mainstream media’s declaration of their victory rather than wait, as Bush did (for nearly 40 days) in the 2000 presidential election, for the legitimate counts and or recounts to be concluded. It’s very odd how CNN, known as a liberal media outlet, is reporting on Biden’s cabinet appointments already and defaming Trump and ignoring any stories of voter fraud while confidently confirming Biden’s victory while Fox News, known as more conservative media outlet, is heavily covering the stories about voter fraud. Well, I guess that’s not all that surprising.
If Trump does get elected to a second term, it is likely going to be complete pandemonium and there will likely be protests, riots and looting going on in major “liberal” cities such as Portland or Seattle. There may be civil war or the start of a second American Revolution or even World War III.
I work with both Trump supporters and Biden supporters. Trump supporters are typically in the closet because they don’t want to be accused of being racist or homophobic. Biden supporters have expressed fear of being “hate crimed” or their government dependence (whether monetary like SSDI or SSI or with regards to healthcare like Medicare/Medicaid) being disrupted if Trump wins. Biden supporters may also believe that Trump and/or Republicans in general don’t care about the environment. Certain Trump supporters, though not all, have expressed fear of the New World Order aka socialism, loss of personal freedoms and liberties, and any triumph of a possible Satanic or Luciferian agenda that the “Biden crime family” or “deep state” may be involved in.
Then, there’s the QAnon movement which believes that Trump is going to save us, overturn the “demonic” democratic party and their “evil” schemes, is working on behalf of the Christian God, and that JFK Jr is still alive. This reminds me of the story from the bible where the people asked for a king to rule over them. Perhaps, we the people would be okay without a “king” or “president” to lord over us.
Whatever the case, it is the hope of many that 2021 will be a better year for the people of the United States of America. And from many of the prophets and psychics that I follow, it promises to be just that. The economy WILL improve. We will mature and “grow up” emotionally and spiritually as a people in 2021. It might not happen at the beginning of 2021 but we will, for the most part, raise our vibrational states by the end of 2021. So have hope, have faith, and think and believe and do uplifting things. Strive for fluidity of thought in trying to see the other side and the other person’s beliefs. Don’t give in the “controlled opposition” and attempts to get us to fight with each other and accuse each other and take a side. When you find yourself falling into despair, anger, fear or any of the lower vibrational states, find a way to find a silver lining, a lesson, a way to move forward and a way to believe in higher things. Attempt not to rely on your own understanding of things. There is always more than we can perceive. We are never done growing…
nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/64597502020-10-20T10:49:38-07:002020-10-20T10:49:38-07:00Vampiric Entities aka Energy Vampires<p>For me, it is difficult to talk about energy vampires without talking about empaths. What is an empath? An empath feels the pain of others, absorbs and transmutes the negative energies of others (which can result in physical illness) and then emits a purified energy back out into the atmosphere. “Their energy field quite literally goes into the body of another and feels what’s going on,” according to Christiane Northup, MD and author of the book Dodging Energy Vampires. This is an excellent book that everyone should have a copy of. I have included important points in quotations from Dr. Northup’s book throughout this blog on energy vampires and their opposites, empaths. </p>
<p>“As an empath, I mistakenly believed that everyone shared the same empathy and compassion that I have. I assumed that no matter how much harm someone was causing to their families or colleagues that deep down, in their heart of hearts, they were good people who meant well. […] It never occurred to me that there are people who are actually predators – who prey on the agreeableness, trust, goodwill, openheartedness, and resourcefulness of others.” </p>
<p>“The thing about energy vampires is that they target the people who are most likely to put up with their tactics – and those people are empaths, because we have extremely high levels of compassion and empathy.” </p>
<p>“As an empath, you have special gifts that bring light to the world. Your compassion and empathy are healing salves for the people around you and the planet itself. You were not put on earth to be the energy source of a vampire. You are here to bring your light to the world.” </p>
<p>“…an energy vampire relationship is based on careful manipulation.” “Energy vampires keep energy coming their way by masterfully playing into the wounds of the people around them. The empath, then, is a special target for the energy vampire because the wounds in their lives go so deep, which means they are easier to manipulate. The energy vampire hooks into the empath using that I call ‘malignant intuition.’” </p>
<p>“…the vampire is initially very supportive of your goals and dreams.” Eventually, however, they criticize your hopes and dreams and belittle you and emotionally abuse you. </p>
<p>“If there were no drama, the energy vampires would have to look at the spiritual side of life. But they are afraid of it. Trauma and Drama are comfortable.” </p>
<p>“Empaths, on the other hand, generally have a very solid relationship with God and their faith in a Divine Source. We feel bad for those who don’t, and we’re eager to share that deep and abiding faith with another. But they don’t want to do the work of contacting that Divine within. They’d rather just get a hit of our energy to keep them afloat until the next time. And if we don’t recognize our own role in keeping this drama going – which is attempting to be their Higher Power by being available all the time and having all the answers – then we risk losing ourselves and enabling them to stay stuck.” </p>
<p>Another term for energy vampires is “narcissists.” Sociopaths and psychopaths are also narcissistic. You may have heard the term “narcissistic supply.” Ms. Northup defines narcissistic supply as “the ‘blood’ that manipulative people suck out of empaths. Vampires manipulate others for this narcissistic supply, which comes in the form of attention, money, sex, and status.” </p>
<p>“Vampires will often pick a fight if things are going too smoothly, just to get a hit of energy. It doesn’t matter if the energy is good or bad. That’s what narcissistic supply is – diverting energy, attention, and money towards themselves, which they do very skillfully.” </p>
<p>“…the root cause of an individual’s health problems is very often that they are involved with a vampire – either at home or at work.” </p>
<p>“Labels for the behavioral patterns of vampires include sociopaths, psychopaths, narcissists, borderline personalities, or people who are prone to antisocial behaviors…” </p>
<p>“Self-sacrifice and martyrdom have been tools of Darkness used by Darkness in the old energy. They are tools of enslavement.” </p>
<p>The above excerpts from Dr. Northup’s book, Dodging Energy Vampires, speak mostly to the idea of energy vampires in third dimensional terms though she does throw in some fourth dimensional ideas as well. However, I am turning to another book, Reign of the Anunnaki: The Alien Manipulation of Our Spiritual Destiny by Jan Erik Sigdell, for more fourth and fifth dimensional ideas around energy vampires. I was blown away by what the author wrote on the subject of energy vampires. However, the term the author uses in this book is “vampiric entities.” Below is an excerpt from this book: </p>
<p>“When an Earth human dies and the soul leaves the body, the life energies in the corpse are also set free. These energies can be perceived by an entity with a multidimensional consciousness, whether it is incarnated in a three-dimensional body or not, and it can feed on them as well. This is easier when a human being dies from violence, since the body is still ‘fully charged.’ When a person dies from old age or disease in an ailing body, there is almost no life energy left; his batteries are empty, so to speak. This is of no interest to vampiric entities. Furthermore, humans release similar energies when they have very strong negative emotions, especially intense rage, fear, panic, or hatred. Entities and other multidimensional beings can also feed on such energies, as well as on sexual feelings that have to do with lust but not love.” </p>
<p>“Positive entities feed directly on the primordial divine light energy of the original Creator, which is the primordial source of all nutrition. Those, however, who have cut themselves off from the original Creator, like the Anunnaki, cannot do that but feed indirectly from the life energies of other living beings, which have better access to the energy of light.” </p>
<p>“It is therefore no wonder that beings like the Anunnaki like to see violence among us humans. They stir up murder and manslaughter wherever they can and thus get access to the life energies that have been released.” “That also explains the purpose of animal sacrifice and still more of human sacrifice.” “This offers them a way to the above-mentioned life-prolonging measures. If the victim suffers in the process, so much the better, because then emotional energies are also set free.” </p>
<p>A lot of this makes sense given a lot of the wars, protests, and controlled opposition attempts instigated by those in power in recent years, especially in 2020. Remember to hold the light and not give your attention or focus to anything that stimulates you to embrace lower vibrational states. There is a reason why lust and violence are promoted in our movies, media, video games, advertisements, and music. The time is now for us to hold light and create in a higher vibrational way. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/64548702020-10-13T13:37:55-07:002020-10-14T21:38:03-07:002022: The Year of Truth<p>Most in the United States would agree that 2020 has been a difficult year. Not only it is an election year that seems to be the most emotionally charged presidential election in my life time, but life in the US has really been affected the Corona Virus which has affected not only the physical health of many but also the mental, emotional and spiritual health of a lot of people. There is a “new normal” of children going to school online, of people working mostly online, of gatherings and ceremonies being cancelled or reduced, of people having to be hospitalized or dying without the ability to see their loved ones and of being afraid of germs or getting sick or giving illness to those you love. Then, the racial riots began and organizations like Black Like Matter and Antifa became center stage. There was looting and other forms of civil unrest that resulted from all the tension. People are being caught in the crossfires of controlled opposition. We could barely take a breath, before the forest fires in Oregon, California and Washington state caused smoky air that has forced us inside our homes for about 10 days in September. It’s difficult to not tie all of this upheaval to the fact that it is an election year. Republicans feel that democrats and the “deep state” are causing all this conflict so that Trump doesn’t get re-elected. Democrats feels that the Republicans are causing all this conflict to affect the election. </p>
<p>I’m someone who likes to take a spiritual approach to any situation. I also follow a lot of psychics online and they ALL say that Trump will get re-elected and I don’t doubt that. There are a lot of people that I call “Trump worshippers” that feel he is going to save the people of the United States from the “evil” democratic party. But I don’t think it’s that simple. I certainly don’t view Trump as a savior of any kind. Some say that he is getting help from aliens and is saving a lot of children from the tunnels under major cities in the US such as Washington DC and Hollywood. These children have reportedly been human trafficked and traumatized and abused and reportedly, some of these children have never seen the light of day and have been born and raised underground. If he is helping these children, then I can forgive a lot of his arrogance and narcissism. Perhaps, it takes a great deal of narcissism to bring down the whole child trafficking operation of which Jeffrey Epstein and Ghislaine Maxwell are only 2 players in. However, some are reportedly saying that he was involved in these evil activities as well. Certainly, child molesters and abusers fall on both sides of the political aisle. </p>
<p>There are others who feel that we have a false democracy here in the United States and that it doesn’t matter who we vote for because both major political parties and presidential candidates are working for the same people. Regardless of what one believes politically, we can all agree that there is a lot of fear and anxiety and anger energies that are keeping the people of the United States of America in lower vibrational states. Some may say that there is actually an agenda to keep us at a lower vibrational state and hence, this is the reason for all the events of 2020. This attempt to keep us at a lower vibrational state is an attempt at power and control. It is easier to control people if they are in a state of fear and anxiety. It is also easier to keep someone from growing and evolving if they are stuck in lower vibrational states. It is also easier to keep people from speaking their truth for fear of the repercussions. </p>
<p>It is certainly difficult to make sense of everything that has gone on in the United States, especially in the “blue”, more democratic states (isn’t that interesting?) since the beginning of 2020. But I think it is important to stay positive and uplifted while acknowledging the dark truths of what is happening in the United States and in the world at large, at this time in history. I do believe that a lot of dark truths about children being trafficked and abused and even sacrificed are true despite the majority of US citizens not wanting to acknowledge this heinous reality. US citizens tend to be pampered and have been groomed to be more easily distracted by TV, social media, movies, materialism, celebrity and idol worship and other forms of mind control. We tend to only care about worldly events if it reaches our safe little corners of the world. However, a lot of dark truths are coming to light and have been coming to light since Jeffrey Epstein was arrested and “died” and therefore, did not have to face the consequences of his actions. However, most don’t realize that Jeffrey Epstein was not the kingpin of this child trafficking operation. There were people above him that he had to answer to. He also had A LOT of powerful political figures and celebrities on his island that are probably now shaking in their boots because there are reportedly, a lot of sealed indictments and arrests being made at this time regarding this child trafficking operation – only the tip of the ice berg of how dark and how far down the rabbit hole goes. Some project that the sealed indictments are as much as 40,000 as this many people or more may have been involved on some level or had knowledge of these crimes against humanity. </p>
<p>So, when are we going to know who these celebrities and political figures are that were or are involved the Satanic and Luciferian activities involving children and other nefarious things? What is the extent to which children have been trafficked, abused, and killed? What truth tellers have been assassinated or killed for trying to expose the “cabal”? How long has this been going on? Apparently, we are going to know most of the answers to these questions this by 2022, although some of these questions have already been answered but people don’t want to believe it. I know that when I try to talk to people in my circle of friends and family, they either say, “I don’t want to hear” or label me a “conspiracy theorist” or change the topic of conversation. </p>
<p>Once 2022 comes along, however, the naysayers will no longer be able to deny the ugly facts that will be played out in a court of law. Once 2022 comes along, the “conspiracy theorists” will, by and large, be vindicated from all the dismissals, disdain, ridicule and mockery that they have been tormented by since JFK was killed. Once 2022 comes along, the evil doers will be exposed and held accountable for their crimes against humanity. I, therefore, call 2022 the “year of truth.” There has been much talk about the “spiritual war” that is currently going on in the astral planes around planet Earth. Have faith that good always wins, love always wins. The spiritual war has already been won. It just takes 1-2 years for things to show up on this plane of existence. Try as they may, the evil doers cannot interfere with God’s plans for us to evolve into the new age. And while, it appears that all is chaos and confusion right now on planet earth, keep in mind that in order for the new to be ushered in, the old has to die and fall by the wayside. </p>
<p>I would like to give props to the truth tellers of the past that have died trying to get the truth out there including: Isaac Kappy, Sabrina Bittencourt, Tracy Twyman, Brittany Murphy, Phil Schneider, Seth Rich, Chris Cornell, Chester Bennington, LeRoi Moore, Princess Diana, and JFK. </p>
<p>And to those who have died trying to raise the collective vibration of humanity: John Lennon, Bob Marley, and Martin Luther King Jr. just to name a few. </p>
<p>I would also like to give props to the truth tellers who are still alive at the time of this writing and who continue to try to get the truth out there despite the ridicule and death threats: Sloan Bella, Megan Rose, David Icke, Shaun Atwood, Jamie Dlux, Timothy Charles Holmseth, Frank Romanek Jr, Kanye West, Maria Farmer, Whitney Webb, and Randy Quaid. </p>
<p>Most importantly, I want to acknowledge and honor the memory of children who have died at the hands of the cabal, those children who are still being tortured and traumatized by these evil doers, and those children and adults who are starting to recover from the cabal’s crimes against humanity. </p>
<p>I’m sure that there are many more people that I’m forgetting to honor or mention at this time. For all the truth tellers past, present and future, for those who are seeking the truth and in the spirit of truth, I’d like to end this blog with scripture that got me through the mental terrorism and trickery of narcissistic abuse in my personal life. This scripture inspired me to write a song called “Truth is on its Way.” I feel that the song was given to me and was written through me rather than written by me. Both the song and the scripture gave me a sense of peace before the truth was revealed to me about my narcissistic abuser. And that scripture is: “For there is nothing hidden that will not be disclosed, and nothing concealed that will not be known or brought out into the open.” - Luke 8:17</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/64383942020-09-19T17:11:14-07:002020-09-19T17:11:14-07:00Raise Your Vibration to Make it to the 4th Dimension<p>Whenever I learn something of value, I aim to share it with as many people as possible. Recently, I have read Handbook for the New Paradigm by George Green. I love metaphysical books and proceeded to read his other two books, Becoming and Embracing the Rainbow. All three books have been highly inspirational to me and have helped me think about life and the horrors of 2020 in a more enlightened and transcendent way. So, I wrote this blog quoting a lot of Handbook for the New Paradigm with a lot of my own thoughts and insights mixed in. Anything with quotes is from George Green’s book other than figures of speech I’ve used in this blog. </p>
<p>“The ethnic and racial differences between individuals and groups are being stressed and agitated while at the same time you are being forced into a ‘one world government. It is for the purpose of creating chaos and confusion within the psyche.” It is ever more important to stay out of “controlled opposition” as much as possible. Don’t decry those of a different political stance, spiritual belief set, ideology, ethnicity or form of identification. Try to see our shared humanity and the truth that we are actually all one. The dark powers that be don’t want us to be united have been too successful at their attempts to divide and conquer. We now have several different ways to identify ourselves sexually and with regards to gender. We now have several boxes to choose between when filling out forms that have questions asking about our ethnic or racial identity. We now have several denominations of even one type of religion such as Christianity. If we aren’t identifying as “liberal” or a “conservative” or a “Republican” or a “Democrat”, we are labelled as “lukewarm” or “noncommittal” and we don’t have a chance in hell of getting a politician elected that has not bought into the controlled opposition. </p>
<p>“When a weak link or defection is found or manufactured within the members of their groups, there is almost a feeding frenzy upon that departing energy. It is far more satisfying to them than the same event happening to one of the uninvolved human beings.” This reminds me of “conspiracy theories” I have heard about certain celebrities being sacrificed within their own Luciferian or Satanic circles. Examples include Kobe Bryant, Princess Diana, River Phoenix and a lot of first-born sons of many celebrities. I don’t think sacrificial offerings are a thing of the past in certain “religions.” I find it interesting that a lot of celebrities or their family members are dying since the “quarantine” related to Corona Virus started. It’s almost as if they are upping their offerings and grasping at straws in desperation. </p>
<p>“Remember they are creating what is not in accordance with the laws of God. Their concentration is toward containment while your focus is toward rippling outward.” </p>
<p>“What is wanted here is action, not reaction. The resort to the use of arms against the plan for overwhelming mankind is doomed from the start.” “It is imperative that it be understood that armed resistance is futile.” </p>
<p>“Thought released to act upon itself will return in manifestation glorified and in a form more magnificent than the limited focused mind can imagine.” “Purity of intent to harmonize as the motive is the primary prerequisite.” </p>
<p>“Cooperation is a natural phenomenon as long as the need to control is absent. The need to control is a learned activity that becomes habitual through the experience of it.” </p>
<p>“Do not allow yourself to dwell upon the horrors of what is planned for you, but turn your thought to what it is that you would prefer to experience.” </p>
<p><strong><span class="font_large">Practice the 4 basic Universal Laws with purity of thought. They are: </span></strong></p>
<p><strong>1. The Law of Attraction </strong>– Like energy attracts more like energy. Whatever experiences you create for others, you will have to experience. If you desire something, adding strong emotion to the desire can increase the potential and speed of your desire manifesting. “There must be an emotional desire to provide the fuel for the movement or change of energy from thought into expression.” “The vision must be simple to be powerful.” If you add too much detail to what you are desiring or envisioning, you blocking thousands of avenues of manifestation. “The Law of Attraction is at the foundation of all other Laws.” </p>
<p><strong>2. The Law of Intentional Creation </strong>– This is also called the Law of Purposeful Intention and the Law of Intentional Focus. Hold a desired outcome within an emotional field of energy. When attempting to create or manifest anything, it is wise to add “of highest and best good for all concerned” to your prayer or manifestation process. “Requests that include ‘for the highest and best good of all concerned’ invokes a greater wisdom with extraordinary results.” “Using the qualifier ‘help us to help ourselves’ allows the helpers to help from a greater understanding that brings forth results undreamed of by those requesting it.” A thought held within purposeful intent allows for manifestation. “The intended thought through vibratory stimulation of it through emotion held firmly in place by commitment brings manifestation.” How to manifest: “In order to come up with a statement of purpose, the parenting groups must spend personal time visualizing (dreaming) what each can conceive through imagination (going within the mind of God) and then attempting to put it into concise wording. The process can begin with words, then mental movies, then words again, etc.” “…begin formulating and dreaming scenarios within your own personal awareness. This triggers the resonance of the law of attraction. ‘In the beginning there was the thought and the thought became flesh.’” <br> </p>
<p><strong>3. The Law of Allowance </strong>– Rather than trying to control a person, a situation or an outcome, let it go and allow it to become whenever it was meant to become. According to George Green, this is the most difficult universal law to practice because of our tendency to want to control things, especially other people. But we have to realize that everyone is on their own spiritual path. Some people go in circles and having to learn and relearn the same lessons, sort of like repeating a grade in school over and over again. We have to accept where people are on their own paths even if that means that we grow apart from them or they hurt themselves in the process. Practicing the law of allowance involves the discernment of letting go of emotion to see logic. Once we use emotion to practice the first two universal laws, we have to then let go of that emotion which is very hard for most of us to do. If we can’t or won’t or don’t do this, the spiritual law of paradoxical intent kicks in and we push away that which we want too desperately. “Application of the laws of allowance opens the door to experience the flow of creative energy.” “It is within the law of allowance that it is appropriate to discuss abundance and luxury.” “Abundance is living within the law of allowance for it allows all to also live in abundance.” “It is not within the laws to take another’s abundance to add to your own.” “Cooperation is the keynote and competition is the death knell of progress.” The Law of Allowance speaks to personal responsibility. “…one is concerned with the choosing of his/her own experience and is not responsible for the experience of others.” “Allowance is the most difficult of the laws to be learned at the 3rd dimensional level because of the deeply ingrained need to control. Control is transcended through the practice of the Law of Allowance.” <br> </p>
<p><strong>4. The Law of Harmony and Balance</strong> – This is the law that the evil planners and doers of this planet and throughout the universe are forgetting about in their “plot to enslave every man, woman and child in this country” quoting JFK. JFK reportedly included this comment in one of his speeches 7 days before he was assassinated. Of course, if you google this quote, it will say that the quote has been “fabricated” by “conspiracy theorists.” But all major forms of media are owned by the evil planners. The term “conspiracy theorist” was born out of the JFK assassination to quiet any dissenters of the official story that one man, Lee Harvey Oswald, killed JFK. According to Dictionary.com, the term “conspiracy” is defined as “an evil, unlawful, treacherous, or surreptitious plan formulated in secret by two or more person.” By this definition, most of us are conspiracy theorists. Anyone I know who was alive at the time of the JFK assassination, does not believe that only one man killed him. Because the evil planners’ plans to lower our vibration do not fall within this law of harmony and balance, their plans are doomed to fail. “…the critical mass point needed for evil intent is different than it is for intent of upliftment.” “Lowering the vibratory rate is much more difficult than raising it.” There are many who wonder why “God” allows evil to exist and the answer is “freewill.” We are allowed to choose to act out of good or evil. We are allowed to learn our spiritual lessons in our own time. We were not made to be robots. Robots are what the evil planners want us to be. According to Edgar Cayce, we have all had an evil incarnation. “You are programmed to think that the negative pole is always ‘bad.’ Within the context of the whole this is not true. There is no electricity (energy moving) without both poles.” “Within the two foci of positive/negative energy lies the center point of harmony. This is the goal of all manifested energy, to exist within this harmonious point.” “Unfortunately some of the predictions that have been made reflecting the plans of the dark side will manifest. Though they seem to indicate that the situation is irreversible, it certainly is not.” </p>
<p><span class="font_large"><strong>Other ways to raise your vibration: </strong></span></p>
<p><strong>- Transcend victim consciousness.</strong> “The victim cannot be rescued, but must pull himself up by his own boot straps and rescue himself by being responsible for his own rescue.” You are complicit in enabling victim consciousness with your sympathy. “Your sympathy will not solve their misery.” Instead, choose to “place your intent beyond the play perceived by the 5 senses, and place it instead into the creation of a new experience…” When you do this, you are “withdrawing your consent and support of the experience in which you no longer wish to participate.” “The victim attitude is deeply ingrained within humanity as a whole. It shuts down the light of each child as soon as it is absorbed from the parental attitude.” “…the moment you are born, you are taught to begin swimming upstream against the flow of creative expansion.” Instead, “…begin swimming within the expansive flow.” </p>
<p><strong>- Focus on gratitude.</strong> “God loves a grateful heart.” </p>
<p><br><strong>- Ask for assistance from your higher power</strong>. Given that we have freewill, we must ask for help. It is best to ask for help using the “affirmative prayer” which means “entering into the creative mode that is your pattern.” </p>
<p><strong>- Focus on planetary gain rather than personal gain.</strong> When you are making an important decision, think about how your decision affects all parties involved and how your decisions, choices, actions and words ripple out to affect everyone in your community, in your country, on your planet and really, in the universe. “It is the pursuit of the creation of your personal fiefdoms and in the competition to create one of greater opulence and grander physical pleasures that have you trapped. These are empty promises to fill the void of imbalance that you feel within.” </p>
<p> <br><strong>- Look for answers within yourself and honor your intuition rather than trying to bypass its wisdom with over analysis. </strong>Don’t look to any kind of authority, whether celebrity, military or government, to tell you what to do with your life. Don’t give up your own personal volition and sense of responsibility in following “orders” of superiors whether in the family, personal circles, church, workplace, community, country, or world. You can certainly listen to the suggestions and advice of those who you look up to, but then decide for yourself how to proceed. In this age of Aquarius, we pay homage to the brain and the mind. We don’t see how the heart is way more powerful than the brain. We bypass our intuition with our over analysis. We prefer to think through a problem than feel our way through a problem. Those who are sensitive or emotional are seen as “unhinged” or lacking in intelligence. We revere those who seem cool, rational, logical and unmoved by emotion. They, therefore, become our leaders, our government officials, and our CEO’s. We are easily mind controlled by subliminal messages in our media and other forms of manipulation and persuasion. “The oppressors must work with the levels of the mind while it might be said that we have available the levels of the ‘heart.’ The heart feels. A feeling can transform the beliefs held by the mind. When the feeling vibrates within the being at a certain level, it overrides the belief and the being simply tosses it out and follows the feeling to a new conclusion.” </p>
<p><br><strong>- Spend time in nature or “off the grid”</strong> of the electronic, media and technological forms of influence, mind control and brain washing. “…there is the moment of now that you experience that is not either past or future. That is your balance point. It is your place of rest.” This can be reached through deep abdominal breathing, meditation, mindfulness, being in nature, or getting away or unplugging from technology and electronic devices. “In order to live the new paradigm of experience those participating will be required to focus within present time.” “There was a time as the planet revolved in the cycle of light and darkness, all were active or resting in unison which brought greater balance to the whole. With the advent of artificial lighting, this balancing pattern is no longer present.” “Balance is reached through the understanding and practice of the three basic laws of the universe: attraction, deliberate creation and allowance.” “When the time arrives for what could be termed the crash of all your systems of communications, utilities and supplies, there will be turmoil and confusion of massive proportions.” “As our arrogant planners flaunt their methodology before your eyes assuming that sleeping minds have little discernment between programming and entertainment, there is not reason we cannot use this information to our advantage.” “Movies and television have been their tools of deception. However, the pictures that are brought forth by the imagination are far more powerful.” “The current cartoons for children and movies have been provided to repress the inner imagination and stifle the creative instinct.” “Pictures program the subconscious.” </p>
<p> <br><strong>- Pray:</strong> “I am a human becoming, help me to become.” “…you give away your power to an ego that does not exist. Denial is the shield of the empowered Ego that fosters victimhood as a result. This prayer will end the deification of the ego.” “The higher the degree of self awareness implies a higher vibratory rate or dimension of experience.” </p>
<p><br><strong>- Find ways to unite and recognize the truth: that we are all one.</strong> “Meet in 3s, 7s and 12s.” “Know that all help possible will be given upon request.” Do not fall into the “controlled opposition” that is aimed to divide us and get us to argue and debate with each other. </p>
<p><br><strong>- Learn the pathology of narcissism, psychopathy and sociopathy.</strong> Learning about those who fall within the “dark triad” of personality will help you recognize who to not enable, listen to or allow yourself to be influenced by. Often, those in the dark triad, enlist unsuspecting assistants into their plans to control, destroy and smear others. Of course, even people who seem to be “of the light” may be deceiving you so always consult your intuition if you are not sure of one’s intent. </p>
<p><br><strong>- Follow what gives you joy into greater expression.</strong> A lot of people are working their lives away in jobs that do not give them joy or jobs that are, whether knowingly or not, are serving the dark forces of this world or are stifling the creativity or spiritual growth of others. A lot of people are in traumatic work situations or are working just to pay off debts, put their kids into college, pay the bills or just survive. But their occupation gives them no joy and in fact, may rob them of their joy or life force. Many teenagers and young adults are being pressured by their education systems and families to get good grades and get into good colleges and get degrees in order to get high paying jobs and to choose a profession even though they don’t know what they want to do with their lives yet. They are being sold on the myth that this pathway is what makes one happy in life. This pathway is: do good in school, go to a good college, get a degree, get a high paying job, get a house and car, get married and have kids, retire and travel and/or spend time with your grandchildren. While this route may be part of the spiritual path of some, it is not the spiritual path of others. If what you truly love to do doesn’t fall within societal or family expectations, do it anyway as long as it brings no true spiritual harm to others. </p>
<p>We are caught in a rat race, on a hamster wheel. In our frenzied busyness, we are distracted from evil intent and actions. We are oppressed with debt in our attempts to survive in ever more expensive world. This leads some to hopelessness, a feeling of despair that we cannot even afford to live. Some of us become dependent on the government, whether we have aimed to do so or not. George Green says, “You have your addictive paycheck system to depend upon, along with Social Security.” Those who try to be independent of the government, such as the self-employed or owners of small businesses, are made to suffer and penalized in various insidious ways for their attempts to dare to be free of the oppression. “The accumulation of wealth is motivated by the desire for protection which is based in fear of what the future may hold and fed by the empowered ego through competition.” </p>
<p><span class="font_large"><strong>More Advice and Insights from Benevolence: </strong></span></p>
<p>“… stand forth in determination to detach from emotion of overwhelm and to observe from a space that is beyond the reach of the control techniques.” </p>
<p>“It might be appropriate to define mantra. It is a short series of sounds or words that brings about balance within what you call the subconscious awareness. Often the sounds are from ancient languages that are not consciously understood, but resonate at the DNA/RNA level of the body bringing about change in an outward flowing manner.” </p>
<p>Regarding those of evil intent, “…they have studied you well. Every weakness is known and is being exploited for their purposes. However, their focus was upon inducing your cooperation rather than resisting them until it is too late for you to do so. They carefully laid plans to overwhelm you both sensually and physically.” </p>
<p>We are programmed to idolize fame and fortune. “Your heroes are all well paid sports or movie stars.” “Your movie star heroes are drugged and adulterous in open display along with your presidential movie star.” </p>
<p>“Remember if you can be held at the lowest level of your dimension, you cannot take advantage of the dimensional leap at the shift of the cycles, but can instead be taken to an even lower level of vibration. At that point it is their intention to separate the soul energy from the body.” </p>
<p>“Thought provides the mobility that allows Creation to flow into manifestation. Thought has the potential of thinking within and upon itself. This is another way of describing Freewill.” </p>
<p>“Through long planted misinformation by the religions on your planet, you think of the focused assistance as coming to you from the outside.” “…the flow of creation is from the inside out. It is an expansive process.” </p>
<p>“The normal vibratory rate of a human body has been determined to be between 62 and 68 MHz. The brain functions optimally between 72 and 90 MHz. When the body vibration lowers to 58 MHz, it can ‘catch a cold’; at 57 MHz the flu; 55 MHz candida; 52 MHz Epstein Barr; 42 MHz cancer and at 25 MHz death begins.” “Allopathic medicine (a misnomer), chemical prescriptions, lower the MHz of the body. Radiation from TV and computer screens lower the MHz, and consuming processed and canned foods, which have 0 MHz to support the body, continue the process.” “When your brain wave is 90 MHz or less, you are unable to tune your radio like brain to universal flow and receive the keys to the mysteries of galactic intentional focus.” </p>
<p>Therefore, one should aim to eat whole foods, have a plan to get off prescription drugs if able or don’t get on them in the first place, disengage as much as possible from electronic devices, and seek out naturopathic doctors or other healers that don’t rely mostly on prescription drugs to treat various ailments and conditions. If you are going to partake of the allopathic medicine model, balance it with alternative medicine, healing methods that have been suppressed from the indigenous healers, and adjunct therapy modalities. </p>
<p>With regards to food, Mr. Green recommends that one try to cut out caffeine, carbonation, over cooked foods and consider more raw foods or foods cooked over shorter periods of time. He further states, “Over eating causes the body to use its energy digesting rather than using it for more productive modes. Smaller amounts of nourishing foods allow the body to use its available energy in other activities and to possibly require shorter sleep periods.” “Also, the use of the sugar substitute […] is slowly destroying the ability of the brain to function as it destroys the nerve endings.” “Further, low fat/high sugar bearing carbohydrate diets are starving the brain cells. All of this is part of the plan, remember they understand the functions of the physical body well enough to be able to develop techniques to weaken the connection of the being to its vibratory source in hopes it can be broken at their moment of choosing.” </p>
<p>“Within the holographic process is the element of maintaining the focus to enable manifestation to complete its intended cycle. The focus of thought is maintained for long periods of time (…) by setting the vibratory oscillations within a range that emanates sound. This is duplicated in crude form by your music. In purity it can be grasped as being of a crystalline bell like quality. Tibetan bells give you an inkling of the reverberations that continue for long periods of time, beyond what the human ear can hear.” “There is present within each galaxy a continuous melody of bell like sounds which is perceived in part by some and referred to as ‘the music of the spheres’ which is a perfect description.” “Earth is at the moment quite out of tune. Contemplate the resonance of the crystalline music of the spheres and then think of punk rock. That might be thought of as the resonant sound of the planned new galaxy.” “This is the reason that rock music is so destructive to the balance of the young people. It is designed to be unbalanced and discordant in its basic construction. It reflects outward the inner imbalance of its composers and it enhances chaotic tendencies with in the psyche of those spending long and frequent time listening to it. The bridge for this phase from romantic sexually stimulating music was the Beatles. Their early music contained melodies with a lessor amount of distortion as is demonstrated by the orchestral versions. It did however open the door for the more destructive distortions that inevitably followed. Again all part of the plan to slow and hold down the human vibration.” </p>
<p>George Green talks about the “volunteers” as has Dolores Cannon and other metaphysical speakers and authors. “These are souls that are volunteering to be here for the benefit of this planet and these beings have incarnated here for the purpose of experiencing the next rising or at the least to assure its success.” Dolores has referred to the “three waves of volunteers” in her writings. The volunteers are sometimes referred to as “lightworkers.” Mr. Green writes: “These volunteers are numerous and await the triggers planted within their awareness to remember their roles. The time has come for this to begin!” If you are a healer, speaker, writer, psychic, creative or educator in any way, you might be one of these volunteers or lightworkers. We came here to help out humanity, to help as many as possible transcend to the 4th dimension. However, we came to Earth at a cost, at a risk and some of us have succumbed to the lower vibrational states here on Earth, also called “the prison planet.” </p>
<p>“Each of you has programmed within the deep levels of your awareness the memory of the purpose you came into this lifetime to accomplish.” “When the focus is on reacting to what is perceived as imminent danger, then momentum is lost.” </p>
<p>“Even people who have heard and consciously rejected the information reflect a degree of light and it remains waiting to fully reflect.” </p>
<p>You may have heard that there is spiritual war going on right now. There has been lots of talk about this. It is important to realize that the old must be released in order for the new to be ushered in. And the process of releasing the old can look like chaos and confusion. Have faith and have hope. Things happen on the astral plane a year or so before we see it on the earth’s 3rd dimensional stage. And remember, “…God’s plans cannot be thwarted.” </p>
<p>“This is the mission you have literally trained yourself to take part in, so don’t drop the ball now. There is nothing more important in your current realm of experience.” </p>
<p>Again, everything that in quotes is from George Green’s book Handbook for the New Paradigm, other than euphemisms and figures of speech. Though I have shared a lot here from George Green’s book, Handbook for the New Paradigm, I don’t think he will mind because my intent is to get the message out, not to claim any glory for myself. Besides, Mr. Green writes, “Egos must be in their observer states for the credit of writing will go to no one individual.” Additionally, I highly suggest reading George Green’s other two books, Becoming and Embracing the Rainbow. These books have been life changing for me. I thought my chance to go to the “New Earth” had been missed and I had other existential and spiritual questions and concerns. These three books by George Green answered all my existential questions and inspired me to remain transcendent at this very difficult time in Earth’s history. May you be inspired as well… </p>
<p>“Sometimes it is necessary for darkness to descend before people can become aware of a light that has been shining all along.” </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/63754362020-07-03T18:37:31-07:002020-07-03T18:37:31-07:00Celebrate Your Eternal Freedom this Fourth of July<p>Fourth of July is my favorite holiday. For one, it takes place in the summer which is beautiful and much appreciated here in the northwest where it rains so often. Secondly, I treasure the concept of freedom. However, our collective and individual freedoms have been hindered this Fourth of July as we are no longer allowed to: </p>
<p>- Go in public without a mask on – which is certainly challenging for anyone with a lung or breathing issue but on a basic level, is a way to cover and suppress our throat chakra which represents our ability to speak up or speak out against anything whether that be mandatory vaccinations or anything that is not considered politically correct. In fact, isn’t it interesting that censorship is on the rise and freedom of speech is being threatened? David Icke was banned from Facebook and YouTube. Most of the truthtellers I follow on YouTube are either being demonetized or their streams are being messed with or their videos are being deleted or they’re being threatened with being kicked off YouTube or their subscribers are not being notified of their new videos or live streams. For those who have suffered trauma around the mouth, such as dental trauma or being gagged or being orally raped, having to wear a mask certainly activates a lot of trauma. However, if you dare to go around not wearing a mask, not only are you facing possible legal ramifications but you will also experience people giving you the evil eye, on a mild level, and screaming or talking down to you, on a more severe level. Sloan Bella, a truthteller I follow on YouTube, says that it’s going to be a civil war between the masks and the unmasks, between those who fight against and those who submit to the agenda of the sociopaths and psychopaths that rule this prison planet. <br>- Praise and worship in the physical presence of our spiritual communities which affects our spiritual health which in turn affects our mental and physical health and also strengthens the ability of the Satanists and Luciferian sects of the world to attack us, especially those they despise the most: Christians. “For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.” Matthew 18:20 NIV <br>Be with our older adults, who are already at risk of suffering from depression due to the marginalization and isolation inherent in that population. Older adults are more susceptible to the COVID19 virus. They are being quarantined in assisted living facilities, nursing homes, and hospitals where they may be forced to die alone. <br>- Celebrate with our friends and family whether that be celebrations of life (memorials, funerals, etc), holidays, birthdays, anniversaries, graduations, births and other opportunities to get together without fear of judgment from the strict rule followers that attack others on behalf of the establishment. Never mind the fact that we are social beings who, no matter how introverted we are, need social interaction for our survival. In fact, there were studies done where infant monkeys chose a wire mom monkey covered with terrycloth over a wire mom monkey with a bottle. There was also that very unethical study done by Holy Roman Emperor Frederick II in the 13th Century where infants were neglected to determine if they might develop a natural language on their own. Instead, those infants died from the lack of social interaction. <br>- Attend to our mental health, which affects physical health. Part of mental health is social interaction and I don’t mean through social media. In fact, there are studies that link increased screen time to increased depression and anxiety. Since the quarantine started, domestic violence is on the rise, drug and alcohol abuse is on the rise and so is depression and anxiety. Mental health professionals, such as myself, are booked up. More people are depressed to the point of being suicidal. Therefore, for some people, being isolated and quarantined isn’t keeping them alive, it’s literally killing their spirits. And a body without a spirit is a zombie, a narcissist or a sociopath, or a host to demonic entities. I suppose that is what some of us in power want us to be: any or all of those things. f</p>
<p>Some of my favorite memories in life are from the Fourth of July. I grew up in Tacoma, Washington and my siblings and I would ride our bikes down to the firework stand and buy as many fireworks as we could to save up for Independence Day. In those days, you couldn’t buy matches as a kid but you could buy fireworks. On the third of July, we’d go to Cheney Stadium where we would watch the local baseball team, the Tacoma Tigers who later became the Tacoma Rainiers, and then watch the fireworks show following the game. The next day, we would go to my grandmother’s house, who lived in Old Town Tacoma by the waterfront, every 4th of July. There would be a lot of food there to eat but we would also walk down to the Freedom Fair on the Tacoma Waterfront and buy food like elephant ears from the food vendors, buy goods from the artists and other vendors and enjoy the air show which consisted of the Blue Angels and supersonic jets that travelled faster than the speed of sound. After that, we’d walk back up to my grandmother’s house until it was dark at which time, we’d walk down to a hilly street called Carr Street, where we’d put down our blankets and watch the fireworks show. </p>
<p>So, for me, other than representing freedom, the Fourth of July also represented a chance to be around friends and family and have fun together. Now both freedom and celebrating with friends and family is being threatened. However, I’m a big believer in seeing the silver lining in everything. I am reminded of the scripture: “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.” – Genesis 50:20 NIV </p>
<p>As a Pisces, I tend to look at everything from a spiritual perspective. I just got done reading the book “Charmed by Darkness” by Roger Morneau, a Satanist turned Christian and spiritual warrior. I was struck by one passage in the book which inspired me to a write a song called “Eternal Freedom” in celebration of this Fourth of July. You can find the song at: <a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=juyXzome254">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=juyXzome254</a></p>
<p>And here’s the passage that inspired me from Mr. Morneau’s book: </p>
<p>“Like a bird released from the snare of the fowler, springing forth in the direction of the sun with a sense of liberty that a freed captive alone could understand, so was my joy in the Lord and my realization of the fact that Jesus had put an end to my captivity to the spirits, and opened the way for my visiting many of His beautiful worlds in the galaxies, through the eternal age.” </p>
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<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/63148902020-05-13T09:22:15-07:002020-09-27T19:00:48-07:00Why You Don't Want to be "Discovered"<p>Most independent musicians, bands and singers want to be "discovered" by a music mogul, record company or A&R person. What they don't realize is that being discovered is the start of being indoctrinated in the music business and losing your creative freedom. From the time you are signed, you have basically sold your soul to the devil. If you used to make inspiring and uplifting music, that will soon change. </p>
<p>When you sign a contract with a major label or any of their subsidiaries, you are signing away your freedom to say and do whatever you like, make the kind of music you want to make and often times, you are signing away your creative works, the ability to choose what your creative works will be, your ability to profit from those works and your likeness and image into "all of perpetuity." </p>
<p>Those who stray from the script they are given or the role that are made to play, such as John Lennon when he started writing and releasing songs like "Imagine", may be killed off by a mind-controlled assassin. Those that try to backpedal or get out of the contract that they have signed, start getting bad publicity usually around mental health, and start losing their income and their fan base. If you don't get back in line, you are either replaced, blackballed or ostracized and publicly scored, or all of the above. If you try to change the system from within or leave the system, such as Kurt Cobain tried to do, you are killed off and it is made to look like a suicide, an overdose, an accident, a stroke or a heart attack. Or you simply disappear into obscurity by design.</p>
<p>It is only those that are willing to follow orders, or those that are of the same ilk as the powers that be, that are promoted or get the most fame, followers, fortune, promotion or backing from the system. What you are then left with in today's music business is a bunch of talentless hacks and writers that are releasing meaningless music, or even worse, mass grabs into the dark energies and forces or subliminal messages that make us afraid, lustful, angry or subdued into submission. <br> </p>
<p>In his book, Charmed by Darkness, Roger Morneau, demon worshiper turned Christian prayer warrior, writes about meeting the man, a successful band leader at the time, who introduced him to the world of demon worship so prevalent among those who “make it” in the music or film industry or any facet of life. That man, called George, tells the author:</p>
<p>”Recognition came to us overnight; without any effort on our part, we were discovered (though we had been there all along) and recognized as one of the great bands in our field. Somehow, the news media got all excited over us. We became the talk of the town. We were spoken of by the great people of the radio world, and in no time we were pushed to the top.”</p>
<p>The days of finding spiritual unity at music concerts is a thing of the past. Today's concerts are designed to serve the agenda of materialism, mind control and devolvement. In today's reality, a person's image or body may have been replaced with a hologram or with today's science, even a clone. At worst, there’s the possibility of the artist being forced out of their body while some other entity is enjoying the adoration of the fans and the fruits of your labor. So, you don't really know what you are going to get. We are fighting a spiritual war between the forces of darkness and the forces of light. And the forces of darkness feed off of our fear and negative emotions. Which side are you going to fight for? </p>
<p>I still have hope that we can find our way back to spiritual unity and togetherness and human touch. I have hope that we can free ourselves from the agendas of this prison planet. I have hope that we can have the highest expressions of truth and love and have the freedom to say what we want to say without fear of endangerment or public humiliation. My vote is for spiritual freedom and freedom in all ways that serve the good, the truth, the light, the love in the world that so threatens the dark. We can free ourselves and we can stay free by refusing to be indoctrinated and following our intuition. <br> </p>
<p>I want to share a link to a YouTube video that is only one of many about the true nature of the music business: https://youtu.be/VLq58Pe5cRc</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/62855572020-04-17T12:27:13-07:002020-04-17T12:27:13-07:00Managing Perception<p>The desire to manage the perception of others is a normal desire. What we post on Facebook, Instagram and other social media outlets is typically showing off our best sides only. The human race, at this time in history, is turning to movies, television, drugs and alcohol, gaming and other forms of addiction, entertainment and distraction in order to cope with the stark reality of what is going on in the world, and in order to keep believing in the hopes and dreams that we are being fed from those in positions of power around the world. Some of us are okay with not knowing and not seeing these dark truths and some of us are in outright denial of these dark truths to the point of attacking anyone who tries to expose them or dismissing them as crazy or conspiracy theorists. </p>
<p>While the need to manage the perception of others is not usually done with malicious intent, this need to manage other's perception goes to a pathological extreme when we are talking about narcissists, psychopaths, sociopaths or anyone in the dark triad of the human personality spectrum. Unfortunately, many people in positions of power fall into this category because the people in the dark triad tend to seek out positions of power, don't get their feathers ruffled under pressure due to their low empathy and desire for high stakes and high risks situations (adrenaline junkies), and due to their ability to be very self-promoting and tendencies to deny or discount any flaws or weaknesses while playing up their strengths. In other words, they are experts at manipulation and managing perception. </p>
<p>However, the management of perception doesn't stop with how they want others to view them but extends to how others view others, view the world and view themselves. And why do we believe them? Because we, who are children of God, follow the Golden Rule - treat others the way you would want to be treated. Because we give people the benefit of the doubt. Because we assume everyone thinks and acts like us, with some sort of moral code. Because we believe everyone is basically good. Because we can't bring ourselves to believe the horrors that are going on in the world. Because we can't bring ourselves to even look or listen to the horrors that are going on in the world even when they have been proven to be true. It is simply too overwhelming to do for too long if one is an empathetic soul because we hurt when others hurt and we don't want to hurt. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/62809002020-04-13T08:35:19-07:002020-04-13T08:35:19-07:00My Inheritance on Celebrating Motherhood Series<p>Thank you to Bree Noble and everyone at WOS (Women of Substance) Radio for featuring my song, <em>My Inheritance</em>, on their upcoming Celebrating Motherhood Series May 4-10, 2020. <em>My Inheritance,</em> a song I wrote for my mother, will be featured on Friday 5/8/20 on the #1 New & Noteworthy and Award Winning Women of Substance Music Podcast. Listen in at:</p>
<p>https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/women-of-substance/id939201604?mt=2</p>
<p>The show also airs on most Podcast apps including Stitcher, TuneIn, Overcast, PocketCast, etc.</p>
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<p>Instagram @women_in_music Pinterest breernoble</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/62771852020-04-09T07:46:11-07:002021-02-08T10:25:38-08:00COVID-19 Conspiracies<p>There are many COVID-19 conspiracies out there and I don't disagree with some of them. I think it is important to validate peoples' feelings about being socially isolated which incites depression or anxiety in anyone with an empathetic soul. According to the Oxford dictionary, the definition of "conspiracy" is "a secret plan by a group to do something unlawful or harmful." By that definition, conspiracies do exist and exist plentifully in this age of narcissism, selfishness, greed and psychopathy. It is a spiritual war that we are ultimately fighting. We are fighting for our very freedom and our souls as God's children. I wanted to document some of the conspiracies despite the possibility of being called "crazy" as most people who are willing and brave enough to speak up are called. Calling someone a "conspiracy theorist" is a way of discrediting and silencing anyone with a different point of view. Our very freedom of speech and our diversity of thought, beliefs and ideas is being threatened as a result. It took me a long time to write about the Corona Virus conspiracies because I wanted to actually listen to all them, that I know of up to this point, before formulating my own ideas in a way that I could manage writing about. </p>
<p>When I heard about "the tunnel kids", my heart hurt and I felt deeply disturbed. Being a social worker and mental health professional for 20 years, I'm not new to stories of sexual abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse and neglect. I'm not new to hearing about and knowing about the underbelly of human society where people are raped and tortured. Being a survivor of 25 years of narcissistic abuse, I understand the dual nature of some "people" who walk this earth. However, when I heard that children, some who have never seen the light of day, who are malnourished and deformed, are being rescued from the tunnels, used to transport drugs but also to traffic children, that span from Mexico to the northern border of the United States, I was almost incredulous about it. You certainly won't hear about the tunnel kids on mainstream media but you will hear about it on alternative media, most notably YouTube and Twitter.</p>
<p>I've heard about these kids from many different sources but I first heard about it from Sloan Bella, a metaphysician, on YouTube, who is able to channel dead celebrities like LeRoi Moore, Chris Cornell, Chester Bennington, Isaac Kappy, and Brittany Murphy, who were all trying to expose the truth behind the fact that 800,000 children go missing every year. These celebrities are "suicided" or died under suspicious circumstances before they had the chance to get the word out. According to Sloan and other truth tellers I follow on social media, such as Jamie DLux, there are many tunnels under Washington DC and Hollywood in particular. And according to Sloan, some of the "earthquakes" we have been hearing about happening in the United States since the social distancing mandates began, are really the tunnels being blown up. It is unclear to me who is blowing up those tunnels. Is it the government? Is it the "cabal" that David Icke speaks of that is trying to hide their tracks? The government is part of the cabal according to David Icke. If you don't know who David Icke is by now, you should certainly watch the recent video he did on London Real that went viral where he talks about the "psychopaths" that are in charge of this world. Icke is the author of many books that expose pedophiles and psychopaths in powerful positions in this world. He's been talking about "conspiracy theories" for 30 years and people used to dismiss him as "crazy" but now people are actually listening to him and turning to him for information. </p>
<p>According to Icke, COVID-19 is a "scam" and people who are supposedly dying of COVID-19 are really dying from other conditions but COVID-19 is being put down as the cause of death on their death certificates to inflate the numbers. He says that this is all heading towards mandatory vaccination, something Bill Gates is obviously pushing, which is a way of injecting the population with microchips in order to track us and control us. He adds that the tests that test for COVID-19 actually test for any strain of the Corona Virus and not specifically for COVID-19. He further talks about the connection between the roll out of 5G technology and the symptoms that sound like COVID-19 - trouble breathing being a big one. He feels that the social distancing mandates related to COVID-19 are really a way of keeping people off the streets and distracted while these 5G towers are being built up everywhere.</p>
<p>Sloan talks about the COVID-19 social distancing mandates being about a way to distract people and keep them from seeing things as well. Some of what we aren't seeing is that all of these children are being brought up from the tunnels they have been trafficked and some of them, living in. However, she doesn't disagree with a lot of what David Icke is saying as well. Both say that COVID-19 was developed in a lab. If you look at Event 201 and the simulations for a high level pandemic that took place on October 18, 2019 in New York, NY at John Hopkins Center for Health Security in partnership with the World Economic Forum and none other than the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation, you could see how this whole thing that we are dealing with now with COVID-19 has been planned. </p>
<p>Still others follow QANON, an individual or group of individuals that purport to have classified information that they have been leaking to the public in attempt to expose the "deep state" plot against President Donald J Trump and his supporters. Some people believe "Q", as their followers call them, is a government insider and others, especially a lot of hardcore Christians, follow Q and listen to their every word because they believe Trump to be a savior of sorts. They point to Trump's outstanding record of convicting child abusers. Others believe Trump is dropping hints to the public about what's really going on. David Wilcock, who seems to love the sound of his own voice and is dismissive of anyone with a different view point, seems just as narcissistic as Trump so it's not surprising that he is among these Trump supporters who view Trump as a savior of sorts. Being that Trump is an obvious narcissist, I find it naive to believe that he is a savior. However, I also believe that a narcissist cannot change who they are unless they ask God for a new heart and perhaps Trump did just that. </p>
<p>David Wilcock has talked about these three days of darkness where the world will be without power. He and others point to the bible verses Exodus 22 and Ezekiel 34:11-12. Others point to mystics and saints such as Marie Julie Jahenny who was born in 1850 and was a Third Order Franciscan mystic who reported having visions about the three days of darkness covering the whole earth. Also, Anna-Maria Taigi (1769-1837) was a mystic who claimed to receive prophecy about the "last days." Some also quote Padre Pio who seemed to describe the three days of darkness. Some believe that the three days of darkness will begin on Good Friday which is this Friday, April 10th.
There are many who believe that COVID19 is a biological weapon from China and that we are actually at war with China. Being that 2020 was an election year, there are many, more typically Republicans, that believe that COVID19 was a plandemic to force mail-in ballots to become the favored and main way of voting which may have been used as one way to rig the election in the favor of the democratic candidate, Joe Biden.
</p><p>It is interesting that social distancing mandates have not only affected our ability to connect with each other and benefit from physical and energetic affection and connection. It also affects our ability to pray in numbers in close contact with each other - something that makes prayer especially powerful. In his book, Out of the Devil's Cauldron, author John Ramirez talks about how he turned from being a Satanist to being a Christian. He says that he enjoyed attacking Christians especially energetically during his days in Santeria. However, he found that he could not attack the people or neighborhoods that had been praying. Pray is always most effective where 2 or more are gathered. We have been scattered and separated from each other during this time of social distancing. But nothing can stop us from praying. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/62071282020-02-06T16:05:17-08:002020-02-06T16:05:17-08:00Black Sunday<p>I was going to write a blog on Sunday 1/26/20 called “modern day devil worship.” However, then I heard the news about the death of Kobe Bryant and I decided I would do a blog about him and the events surrounding his death instead. Being an intuitive, I think it’s interesting that I was going to do a blog about modern day devil worship and I also find it interesting that a few days before his death, I had a vision of an open grave knowing that some someone close to me or meaningful to me was going to die. Sometimes I have this kind of an image or feeling or dream when someone famous dies. For instance right before prince died, I had a dream that my sister died. This may be because my psyche associates Prince with my sister as my sister is the one who got us tickets to the Prince concert at The Gorge in George, Washington. </p>
<p>But back to Kobe, I find it interesting that he died in an “accident“ that involved children, that occurred on a Sunday, the day after LeBron James passed him on the NBA scoring list, and the morning of the day a big event such as The Grammy’s is about to be held in the same event center where Kobe’s team, the Lakers, play. There is just too many coincidences here. Isn’t it interesting how extra attention was given to the Grammy’s because of Kobe's death just like extra attention was given to The Grammy’s when Whitney Houston died and when Jennifer Hudson’s family was murdered and that involved children too. I wasn’t planning on watching The Grammy’s for the first time since my whole view of the music business has changed in the past year. I now see the music industry, and film industry for that matter, as modern forms of devil worship. One only has to look to at the strange, possessed, demonic behavior of those that find success in the music business in general. Just check out my metamorphosis playlist on YouTube and check out the history of ritualistic murders as forms of sacrifice that involve famous people: </p>
<p>http://falsificationofhistory.co.uk/geopolitics/the-ritual-murder-of-princess-diana/</p>
<p>I also find it interesting that a cartoon called Chamberlain Heights predicted Kobe Bryant's death in a helicopter crash. There has been lot of predictive programming lately, especially in cartoons such as The Simpsons. Some might say that certain people are able to access the collective unconscious or the akashic records the way psychic medium Edgar Cayce did. Other may take a more "scientific" approach and say that people can time travel to the future and be able to "predict" events in this way. After all, the invention of time travel was supposedly perfected in 1975. However, still others claim his death was an illuminati hit. I think any or all of the above are possible. </p>
<p>I had a dream the night before he died that I was working as a social worker doing an intake with a Black man and his daughter who were seeking my assistance. In the dream, I was lacking in confidence about doing the intake right so I was seeking out a supervisor but could not find one. However, I was able to find a supervisor's paperwork to use as an example. However, I woke up from the dream before I could find my way back to the man and his daughter. I wasn't sure what the dream symbol of a "Black man and his daughter" meant until I heard about the death of Kobe. </p>
<p>Though it seems that Kobe started his NBA career with a lot of arrogance, I really feel that he was working towards enlightenment before he died. No matter what darkness he was involved in during his life, I pray and he and his daughter, as well the others that died in the crash, will find their way to the light. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/62071192020-02-06T15:36:50-08:002020-02-06T15:36:50-08:00Cloaked in Craziness<p>There's something meaningful in being dismissed as "crazy." It gives you a sort of freedom, a creative freedom and freedom of speech that is disappearing these days in all the political correctness. The dark powers of this world aren't as threatened by you spreading the dark truths that most aren't brave enough, privy enough or open enough to speak of, acknowledge or receive. The dark powers of this world know that you will be dismissed as "paranoid" or as a "conspiracy theorist" by the mass populace who want to enjoy the comforts of whatever freedoms or perception of freedoms exist while the spiritual warriors are the ones willing to go into the trenches and stand on the frontlines of this spiritual war. </p>
<p>David Icke talks about how he was mocked, ridiculed and laughed at early on in his career of being a speaker, writer and educator of dark truths. Because of this experience, the dark powers that be aren't as threatened by him because they know that most will dismiss him as crazy. Rather than let this bring him down, he has been able to find the silver lining in being seen as crazy. </p>
<p>Sloan Bella is a metaphysician who practices astrology, works with healing crystals and channels spirits as a psychic medium. She isn't afraid to tell the truth about how certain celebrities really died and how other celebrities, while awed by the public at large, are involved in the Illuminati, Luciferianism and have been connected to Jeffrey Epstein's rings of sex trafficking involving children and possible blood sacrifice. Most people will turn their eyes and ears away from such talk and dismiss someone like Sloan as a "witch" or worse. </p>
<p>But there is purpose and meaning in being dismissed and/or attacked by the narcissists and sociopaths of the world or even by the people who want to only worry about their own little corners of the world, turning a blind eye and deaf ear to whatever evil lurks in the dark corners of the world. </p>
<p>It's as if the dark truth tellers are "cloaked in craziness" or what appears to be craziness to those whose eyes have yet to be opened or who have been fortunate enough to not have experienced narcissistic or sociopathic abuse, though I would argue that we all have whether we realize it or not, or any of a number of different traumas that lead one to see beneath the surface of the superficial lifestyle. </p>
<p>There is a documentary called Healing Voices about mental health care, the over reliance on psychiatric medications and the stigma attached to anyone labelled as anything from Schizophrenia to depressed. The movie poses an important question about seeing the positive side of something like psychosis. In some Native American cultures, for instance, a psychotic person may be elevated to the status of shaman. </p>
<p>A person who is a psychic medium may be diagnosed with Schizophrenia or any number of anxiety disorders or a "witch" by many different religions, especially those of the Christian variety. While most Christians denounce astrology, they ignore bible verse that point to the meaning in the stars such as Genesis 1:14 and the fact that the wise men used the stars to find baby Jesus. Most Christians will also denounce the term "psychic" but are okay with the term "prophet." While I do believe it's true that one can get their information from light or dark sources, who are we to judge that? Jesus was all about love, not judgement. Even Jesus was labelled as "crazy" by the people in power at that time. He was tortured, mocked and ultimately put to death for what others saw as "crazy." Why should we, as Christians, treat others the way Jesus was mistreated? It doesn't make any spiritual sense. A lot of the harsh judgement in the old testament was reversed by Jesus anyhow. Just look how he blew Leviticus 20:10 out of the water in John 7:53-8:11. </p>
<p>So, to the people who have been dismissed as "crazy" or "unhinged" or "paranoid" or a "witch" or as a "conspiracy theorist", just know that you are in good company. Jesus always walks before us in whatever pain we face. And the next time someone calls you any version of "crazy", simply reply with a "thank you." Take up your cross and follow Him. Put on your cloak of craziness and wear it proudly and then... find and speak your truth, no matter how dark and uninvited that truth may be...</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/62071182020-02-06T15:27:47-08:002020-02-06T15:27:47-08:00Shapeshifters: Episode 1<p>PRINCESS STEPHANIE is adoring the beauty of her reflection in her vanity mirror. As she brushes her long blonde hair, she notices a patch of skin on her right cheek turn scaly green. A sense of alarm adorns her face as she stops brushing her hair and feels the normal cheek skin with her hand and notices that when she removes her hand, her reflection appears to return to normal. She SIGHS and continues to brush her hair but then a patch of scaly, green skin appears once again on her cheek. She screams and drops her brush. </p>
<p>JUMP TO: </p>
<p>The Manager, MS. STREICH, of an orphanage for Native American Children, is showing the orphans how to bow and curtsy. </p>
<p>MS. STREICH: And when King Elias and Princess Stephanie arrive and you are selected to go on an outing with them, you must first address him as...? </p>
<p>THE ORPHANS: Your Majesty. </p>
<p>MS. STREICH: And then...? </p>
<p>THE ORPHANS: Sir. </p>
<p>MS. STREICH: And you will first address the princess as...? </p>
<p>THE ORPHANS: Your Royal Highness. </p>
<p>Ms. Streich then notices two eight year old twins, MARK and MATT, goofing around in the back. The rest of the orphans look back at the boys and the boys realize that everyone is watching them and look at Ms. Streich. </p>
<p>MS. STREICH: I want you boys to come with me. Ms. Horner, will you please take over for me. </p>
<p>Ms. Streich walks to the back of the class and grabs the collars of both boys and leads them out of the room. </p>
<p>JUMP TO: </p>
<p>Princess Stephanie and King Elias are in the back of a limousine. Princess Stephanie brings a handheld mirror to her face which reveals the square bandage on her cheek. </p>
<p>PRINCESS STEPHANIE: Oh, I look hideous, father. </p>
<p>KING ELIAS: It'll be alright, sweetie. We're almost there. </p>
<p>King Elias pats her on the thigh and Princess Stephanie gasps. </p>
<p>PRINCESS STEPHANIE: That hurt! </p>
<p>She pulls up her dress to reveal the thigh that has patches of scaly, green skin on it. </p>
<p>PRINCESS STEPHANIE: Oh! I can't hold form. I need blood now. </p>
<p>KING ELIAS: We mustn't panic. We'll look for the frightened ones. Their blood will be more highly charged. </p>
<p>PRINCESS STEPHANIE: Why must we drink tainted blood? </p>
<p>KING ELIAS: Our consumption of Aryan blood must be limited. If too many Aryan children go missing, it would be noticed. </p>
<p>JUMP TO: </p>
<p>Ms. Streich is at her desk in her office and Matt and Mark are sitting in chairs opposite her. </p>
<p>MS. STREICH: Perhaps, the two of you aren't ready to meet royalty. </p>
<p>MARK: We'll be good ma'am, we promise. </p>
<p>MS. STREICH: Hmmm. Perhaps the two of you need to be separated. You seem to get into mischief whenever you're together. </p>
<p>MATT: Please don't separate us. </p>
<p>MARK: We're always together. We're sorry ma'am. </p>
<p>MS. STREICH: Hmmm, we shall see. The King and Princess should be here soon. Go and join the rest in the hall. </p>
<p>The boys get up and leave her office. </p>
<p>They enter the hall where the rest of the orphans are. They join a brother and sister, IGGY (age 6) and JESSICA (age 8), who are their friends. </p>
<p>IGGY: Ooh, you guys got in trouble. </p>
<p>JESSICA: Did Ms. Streich paddle you? </p>
<p>MARK: Not this time. </p>
<p>An older child, CLAY, of 13 years, comes up to the group of friends. </p>
<p>CLAY: You dopes hope they pick you? </p>
<p>MARK: Only if they pick me and Matt together. </p>
<p>JESSICA: Yeah, me and Ig too. </p>
<p>CLAY: You know what happened the last time the king and princess came? </p>
<p>JESSICA: No, that was three years ago. I was only five. </p>
<p>Mark gestures to himself and Matt. </p>
<p>MARK: We weren't here then. </p>
<p>CLAY: Well, I remember and I DO NOT want to get chosen for an outing with them. </p>
<p>MATT: What happened, Clay? </p>
<p>CLAY: The kids that were chosen... never... came back. </p>
<p>JESSICA: Were they adopted by families? </p>
<p>Clay chuckles. </p>
<p>CLAY: That what Streaker said but I don't believe it. Two of my friends, Tommy and Jason, were chosen. I heard that Jason got away but he told people what happened to Tommy. Nobody believed him. </p>
<p>JESSICA: You're just trying to scare us. </p>
<p>MARK: No, Clay's just jealous because he's too old and ugly. No King or Princess would ever choose him. </p>
<p>Mark, Matt, Jessica and Iggy all start laughing. </p>
<p>CLAY: Listen you idiots! They will kill you and drink your blood if you are lucky and if you aren't lucky, they will... </p>
<p>Ms. Horner stands right by Clay. </p>
<p>MS. HORNER: Clay, are you scaring these children again with your horror stories. </p>
<p>Clay look down. </p>
<p>CLAY: No, Ma'am. </p>
<p>Ms. Horner then walks away and claps to get all of the kids attention. </p>
<p>MS. HORNER: Fall in line, children. Ms. Streich is about to bring the King in. </p>
<p>The children get into lines and get quiet. </p>
<p>Mrs. Streich enters the hall with King Elias. The females curtsy and the males bow and all say: your majesty. </p>
<p>KING ELIAS: I'm sorry that the Princess is not well enough to meet all of you today. But she will be able to meet a selected few among you assuming she is feeling better soon. </p>
<p>MS. STREICH: We hope she is feeling better soon, sir. </p>
<p>KING ELIAS: Thank you. Now, to get back to the reason for my visit to this lovely orphanage. I am here to select a lucky group of children to go to lunch with myself and Princess Stephanie. I have met with Ms. Streich about which children might be appropriately prepared for the occasion and have reviewed your information. The children I have chosen are: Rebecca Quinn. </p>
<p>A shy, seven year old girl, REBECCA, raises her hand. Ms. Horner goes over to her. </p>
<p>MS. HORNER: You mustn't be afraid, Rebecca. This is an honor and a privilege. </p>
<p>Ms. Horner takes Rebecca's hand and leads her to the King's side. Rebecca starts to cry. Another little girl, TAMARA, raises her hand as she begins to talk. </p>
<p>TAMARA: Ms. Streich, can I go in Becky's place if she doesn't want to go. </p>
<p>MS. STREICH: Mind your matters, Tamara. </p>
<p>The King pats Rebecca on the head and gives her a sucker from his pocket. Rebecca looks at Ms. Streich who nods at her. Rebecca opens the wrapping and begins to suck on the sucker. King Elias looks at his index card of names. </p>
<p>KING ELIAS: Now, back to business. I would also like to invite Ignatius Jessup. </p>
<p>Matt, Mark and Jessica look at Iggy whose mouth is opened wide in shock. Iggy looks at his sister. </p>
<p>JESSICA: Go ahead, Ig. It's okay. </p>
<p>Iggy stands next to Rebecca. </p>
<p>KING ELIAS: David Cross, Alicia Vickson and Kenna McKay. </p>
<p>Three more children go up to stand by the king. </p>
<p>KING ELIAS: And perhaps, one more... Matthew McKnight. </p>
<p>Matt looks at his brother, Mark, and at Clay who looks away. </p>
<p>MARK: It'll be okay. You know Clay lies... </p>
<p>Matt nods. </p>
<p>MARK: Tell me everything when you get back. </p>
<p>JUMP TO: </p>
<p>King Elias and the chosen orphans get into the back of the limo where Princess Stephanie is sitting. </p>
<p>PRINCESS STEPHANIE: Thank God. I'm so thirsty. </p>
<p>IGGY: Wow, it's so big in this car. </p>
<p>He looks at the Princess. </p>
<p>IGGY: What happened to your face? </p>
<p>Iggy points to the bandage on Princess Stephanie's face. </p>
<p>ALICIA: Iggy, don't be so rude. I'll apologize for him, your royal highness. </p>
<p>PRINCESS STEPHANIE: Well, at least somebody has some manners. </p>
<p>One by one, the rest of the kids address her as "your royal highness." </p>
<p>Once the King has entered the limo and everyone is seated, the car starts to move. </p>
<p>Matt looks around. </p>
<p>MATT: It's dark in here. </p>
<p>KING ELIAS: They're called tinted windows. </p>
<p>ALICIA: Where are we going for lunch, sir? </p>
<p>KING ELIAS: It's a surprise. </p>
<p>REBECCA: I don't like surprises. </p>
<p>Alicia glares at Rebecca. </p>
<p>ALICIA: Don't be such a scaredy cat, Becky. </p>
<p>A moment of silence ensues and Matt looks at the Princess and she looks back at him. He sees the shape of her pupils change and he recoils. </p>
<p>PRINCESS STEPHANIE: Is something wrong, child? </p>
<p>Matt shakes his head. </p>
<p>KING ELIAS: You know, it isn't polite to stare. </p>
<p>MATT: I'm sorry. </p>
<p>King Elias touches a button and all the doors lock. Becky and Matt shudder. </p>
<p>ALICIA: This is a really nice car, your majesty, your royal highness. </p>
<p>Princess Stephanie manages a smile. </p>
<p>PRINCESS STEPHANIE: Why, thank you dear. Perhaps, you shall be first. </p>
<p>KING ELIAS: Go for the jugular, Sweetie. </p>
<p>Princess Stephanie and King Elias then shapeshift into reptiles and bite into the necks of the children who begin to scream in horror. </p>
<p>JUMP TO: </p>
<p>Clay, Jessica and Mark are at a dinner table in the hall along with all the other kids. </p>
<p>MARK: I thought they'd be home before dinner. </p>
<p>JESSICA: I'm worried. I told Ig to go. </p>
<p>Jessica starts to cry. </p>
<p>Ms. Streich sits down at their table next to Jessica. </p>
<p>MS. STREICH: You mustn't cry, dear. I have some good news. The King was able to find families to adopt Iggy and the other children. </p>
<p>MARK: But Matt and I were supposed to be adopted together. </p>
<p>MS. STREICH: You don't get to decide that. </p>
<p>JESSICA: So, I'll never get to see Iggy again? </p>
<p>MS. STREICH: You mustn't be selfish, dear. You must be happy for your brother. He has parents now... unlike the rest of you lot. </p>
<p>Ms. Streich gets up and walks away. </p>
<p>CLAY: She's such a bitch. </p>
<p>MARK: Were you lying earlier? </p>
<p>CLAY: Um... yeah... I was just pulling your chain. The kids that are chosen are really set up to be adopted by rich White folks. That's why they change our names. </p>
<p>JESSICA: My name isn't Jessica? </p>
<p>CLAY: You don't remember your real name? </p>
<p>JESSICA: Do you remember yours? </p>
<p>CLAY: Yes, but I'm forbidden to speak it here. </p>
<p>LATER </p>
<p>The children are in their bed in the sleeping quarters. Jessica and Mark have beds that are next to each other. </p>
<p>Mark is laying wide awake and Jessica is crying with eyes closed. </p>
<p>Mark whispers Jessica's name. </p>
<p>MARK: Jess? </p>
<p>Jessica opens her eyes. </p>
<p>MARK: Something's wrong. </p>
<p>JESSICA: What do you mean? </p>
<p>MARK: Something happened to Matt. I feel it. </p>
<p>JESSICA: You mean, he was adopted by bad parents. </p>
<p>MARK: No, I don't think he was adopted at all. I think something bad happened to him like Clay said... </p>
<p>JESSICA: I can't believe that. I won't believe that. </p>
<p>MARK: Jess, we need to get out of here. We need to find out what really happened to Matt and Iggy. </p>
<p>JESSICA: They were adopted by nice families and we should be happy for them. </p>
<p>MARK You can't tell me that you really believe that BS! </p>
<p>Jessica turns her back to Mark.</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/62071172020-02-06T15:24:28-08:002020-02-06T15:24:28-08:00How Cancer Saved My Life: How to Find the Meaning in Everything<p>I was talking to my sister yesterday and she was bragging to me about how she just won $900 at the casino. She told me that she won on a slot machine that kept playing on despite wanting to play on her favorite slot machines that were elsewhere in the casino. She went on to say that she stayed on the machine because there were three broke, probable drug users sitting right next to her complaining about not having any money but yet loitering around her at the slot machines. </p>
<p>I don't know about you but if I had been in my sister's shoes, I would have left immediately but my sister felt it was safer to stay at the machine until they left and she won the money shortly thereafter. I told her that perhaps our mom, who passed away in 2017, guided those three individuals to her so she'd stay at the machine and win the money. After all, my mother once helped me with money issues when I prayed to her shortly after she died. At the time, I needed money to complete a creative project and had no idea where to get the money from. Finally, I said out loud to my mom, "mama, the money's got to come from somewhere" hoping she would here me from the heavens. </p>
<p>Well, the money did come and I was able to complete the project: my 5th album: Oaths of Abundance. This album represented my first album written mostly from a joyful place and it was a labor of joy and love and I had a spiritual need to complete it. The money came in 2017 after my ex-husband revealed to me in July of that year that he was having an affair. I was devastated and my eyes were opened to his malignant narcissism after lots of studying, researching and soul searching. He had fooled me for 25 years. I talk more about that experience in my book: Recovery from Narcissistic Abuse. </p>
<p>Anyway, at the time of the separation and eventual divorce, I had no idea that the selling of house would yield us a financial gain of any kind. Through the selling of the house we owned, I was able to set aside some funds for the production of Oaths of Abundance. </p>
<p>I have since reflected on that toxic relationship and how, in the last year of our marriage, he probably had plans to kill me as he had been asking me about life insurance and making comments like "I worry for you that you don't have life insurance." Does that make any sense? Why would I care that I don't have life insurance? We never had kids so he would have been the sole beneficiary if I had had life insurance. He also rushed me to refinance the house the week prior to revealing his affair to me only because I caught him in a lie. </p>
<p>Why didn't I have life insurance? Because I always denied it whenever I applied for it because I had cancer at age 28. At the time of the cancer, I was trying to make sense of why it was happening to me. I was able to find meaning in the most adverse situations such as cancer. This is a gift I have - finding the silver lining, finding meaning in anything. I speak of this in my book The Gifts of Cancer. I had cancer in 2004. I got separated in 2017. Since getting separated, divorced and recovering from the narcissistic abuse I suffered, I have found even more meaning in the cancer I had in 2004. I believe that CANCER SAVED MY LIFE. If I didn't have cancer, I likely would have had life insurance and my ex-husband would have likely killed me and made it look like an accident in order to keep his house and move his girlfriend in without looking like the bad guy. In fact, he would have been the "poor grieving widower" that would draw sympathy from others instead. </p>
<p>So, while the cancer and the divorce were huge life events for me, I feel that there is also meaning to be found in the small things that make us agitated or anxious or grief struck in life. In my job as a mental health counselor, I often aid people in seeing the silver lining in their situation, no matter how grim or dark. I found meaning in the experience of narcissistic abuse by helping others out of or in recovery from similar relationships whether personally or professionally in their own lives. And you wouldn't believe how many people are suffering from narcissistic victim syndrome. And I LIVE for helping others. Helping others is what motivates me most in life. I just had to learn that there are certain people you don't want to "help" because they will take advantage of your empathy and good nature. </p>
<p>So, the next time you are confused, downtrodden, anxious or angry, sit with the feeling and ask yourself, "where is the meaning here?" If you don't hear an answer, trust that in due time, you will know the answer, even if the answer isn't revealed to you until you are on the other side. Sometimes, GOD SPEAKS THROUGH CIRCUMSTANCE and we are blocked from doing something we want to do because we are not meant to or perhaps, the timing isn't right. I knew something was off in my marriage but I didn't know what it was. I kept praying to God to reveal the truth to me but the truth wasn't revealed to me for several years, if not decades, after I started praying this pray. </p>
<p>We have to trust that things happen in His perfect timing, not ours. And things happen in His perfect planning, not ours. We need to let go of the need to know and be open to any meaning that is ready for us to receive once any barriers to truth have been removed and we are truly ready to handle the truth, no matter how dark and no matter how light. It wasn't long after I really let go of this need to know the truth about my husband and truly gave it up to God to reveal it to me as he deemed fit, that the ugly truth was revealed to me about his true character. I believe my mother had something to do with it too. </p>
<p>In 2020, the veil will be lifted for many more people, light workers and children of God especially, about the dark truths of this world and the dark truth of the evil in this world. People will start to shapeshift before your eyes and their true nature will be revealed to you whether you are ready or not. I'm glad I got a head start in this regard. Since starting the process of acknowledging the narcissistic abuse and then starting the process of recovering from it, my eyes are ever more open to dark personalities that run this world, the wolves in sheep's clothing that once fooled me and that still fool the majority of the population, and the dark truths that are so hard to believe. Once you been mind controlled for 25 years, you have a great understand for how it happens. </p>
<p>So, I encourage you to be open to finding the meaning in everything, big or small, good or bad. God bless you on your journey...</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/62070872020-02-06T15:13:59-08:002020-02-06T15:39:55-08:00Christmas Crazy <p>A friend recently told me that she was suffering from "the Christmas Crazy." What she was referring to is the commercialism, stress, anxiety, materialism, and selfishness that the season of "giving" and spirit of Christmas has become. If you google Christmas, you will likely find that it is a "Christian festival celebrating the birth of Jesus (Britannica.com 2019)." However, when you study the origins of Christmas, you will find that most scholars believe that Christmas represents the pagan celebration of the winter solstice and that Jesus was likely born in the spring, not in the winter. </p>
<p>December 25th was chosen to represent the birth of Jesus by the powers of this world because, "It was a very dark occult festival that celebrated the birthday of the 'sun god' in all his various forms. Unfortunately, most Christians have never learned about the pagan origins of Christmas. Most Christians seem to believe that the history of Christmas began when Jesus was born. But that is not the truth. [...] ...the Roman Catholic religion latched on to the birthday of the sun god and married it to the birth of Christ. This birthday of the sun god can be traced all the way back to ancient Babylon (http://thefinalhour.blogspot.com/2010/12/history-of-christmas-december-25th-was.html 2019)." </p>
<p>I had heard that the name "Santa" is anagram for "Satan" and that he is dressed in all red because this is the color of blood or sacrifice. I did some research of origins of the name and liked what one website, https://www.lnstar.com/mall/main-areas/xmas-santa-origin2.htm, had to say: </p>
<p>The origin of Santa Claus depends on which country's story you choose to adopt. Santa Claus comes from the Dutch words "Sinter Klaas", which is what they call their favorite saint, St. Nicholas. He is said to have died on December 6, A.D. 342. December 6th is celebrated as his feast day, and in many countries this is the day he arrives with his presents and punishments. </p>
<p>Nicholas lived in what is now called Turkey. He was born about A.D. 280 in the town of Patras. [...] He was renowned for his extreme kindness and generosity – often going out at night and taking presents to the needy. </p>
<p>In newly Christianized areas where the pagan Celtic and Germanic cults remained strong, legends of the god Wodan were blended with those of various Christian saints; Saint Nicholas was one of these. There were Christian areas where Saint Nicholas ruled alone; in other locations, he was assisted by the pagan Dark Helper (the slave he had inherited from the Germanic god Wodan). In other remote areas, where the Church held little power, ancient pockets of the Olde Religion controlled traditions. Here the Dark Helper ruled alone, sometimes in a most confusing manner, using the cover name of Saint Nicholas or "Klaus," without in any way changing his threatening, Herne/Pan, fur-clad appearance. (This was the figure later used by the artist Nast as the model for the early American Santa Claus.) </p>
<p>By absorbing such pagan feasts and traditions, the Christian Church could subtly bring in its own theology: in this case, establishing the good Saint Nicholas, bringer of love and gifts, while grudgingly allowing the presence of the Olde Religion's Herne/Pan, but only as a slave to Saint Nicholas. Thus, in parts of Europe, the Church turned Herne into Saint Nicholas' captive, chained Dark Helper; none other than Satan, the Dark One, symbolic of all evil. His only remaining tasks now were to carry the bag, scare maidens and children into devout behavior, and drag sinners and pagans off to the Christian hell. Yet, in spite of this character assassination, the poor masses continued to see in this enslaved Dark Helper a reflection of their own enslavement. He remained their Herne, thumbing his nose at the Christian Church; a mischievous, nostalgic reminder of the days of their own free and lusty pagan past. </p>
<p>In other words, perhaps we are collectively buying into a holiday, both figuratively and literally, that was created to conjure up the very drama, chaos, confusion, frustration, irritability, anger, sadness, fear and anxiety that the dark forces of this world feed off of. We worry about having enough money to buy gifts for our loved ones. We fear that our loved ones will be upset with us if we don't give them a gift. We encounter family drama and unresolved trauma that bubbles to the surface longing for resolution. But in our busyness, in our dissociation, in our craziness, we miss the true meaning of Christmas: to love one another, to be kind to one another, to be compassionate and understanding of one another, to help each other out especially those who are suffering, and most importantly, never lose faith and always have hope. After all, Jesus was born to give us hope, to show us the way to enlightenment and spread his message of love. </p>
<p>Matthew 22:36-40 New International Version (NIV) </p>
<p>“Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” </p>
<p>Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.' All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/62070862020-02-06T15:09:20-08:002020-02-06T15:09:20-08:00Sweet White Lies<p>Rape was just around the corner </p>
<p>when he came on my frilly, white dress </p>
<p>At only 2 years old, I was no longer innocent </p>
<p> </p>
<p>But no one wants to hear testimony like this </p>
<p>No one wants the truth in all its darkness </p>
<p>The sweet white lies are what they prefer </p>
<p>So I stay quiet or tell them what they want to hear </p>
<p> </p>
<p>I've grown quite good at that: reading the subtext </p>
<p>knowing what people want with my intuition </p>
<p>having to zone in on what isn't being said </p>
<p>living the lie that they want me to wed </p>
<p> </p>
<p>letting them penetrate and make their mess </p>
<p>holding in the howls that go unnoticed </p>
<p>trying to wipe off the wetness from when she licked my skin </p>
<p>as she told them all the opposite </p>
<p>worst part is: they believed it </p>
<p>only able to see from their own perspective </p>
<p> </p>
<p>And I'm unable to wipe away their ignorance </p>
<p>with no one willing to be my witness</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/61995102019-12-08T08:30:00-08:002020-02-01T03:30:27-08:00THE SHADOW DEFINES THE LIGHT<p>December 08, 2019 </p>
<p>I used to suffer from what I can "new age naivete" because I used to believe that all people were basically good and that there was no such thing as "evil" or dark souls. However, after suffering from 25 years of narcissistic abuse, my eyes have been opened to the reality that the world can be a dark and dingy place. It can be an especially dangerous place for souls filled with light and empathy walking among the narcissists and sociopaths that seem to run things on this earth plane. They create chaos, confusion, fear and drama and then feed off all of that negative energy. </p>
<p>Sloan Bella, a metaphysician who channels celebrities who are living and crossed over, talks about the need for all of us to speak our truth in her latest video on YouTube where she channels the energy of Aaron Carter, whose mother is likely the narcissist Sloan speaks of in the video. It is very difficult to speak your truth when you are afraid for your life, the welfare of your family and loved ones and will inevitably suffer a backlash from those in the world who have not yet awakened to their own truth and who have not yet embraced their own light. </p>
<p>When I counsel people who get stuck in victim mentality, I try to help them see the silver lining in their situation, no matter how grim. I tell them that the shadow defines the light. If they are Christian, I tell them that even Jesus had to go to hell before he ascended into heaven. And I quote Carl Jung who said, "no tree, it is said, can grow to heaven unless its roots reach down to hell." </p>
<p>I created a video on YouTube to help myself and others remember their own light. The video features a song, The Light, from one of my favorite singer/songwriter's, Sara Bareilles. It includes images of sacred geometry, crop circles, mandalas, geoglyphs and pictures that represent light and/or heaven. Check it out at: https://youtu.be/OSlqXBeJLPM</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858782019-11-22T16:00:00-08:002019-11-23T13:16:43-08:00Mistaking Peace as Boredom or Emptiness<p>I was driving down a highway in mid-November near Sumner, Washington. It was an unusually beautiful day with blue skies and sun and the brisk cool autumn air you associate with freshness and cleanness. I was admiring the beauty of poplar trees along the highway when I noticed a sense of inner emptiness, perhaps boredom and my mind immediately wanted to fill in that emptiness with worries about the future and things I had to get done. But instead of going to that place of anxiety, I decided to sit with the emptiness a little further instead of turning away from it. What I noticed was a sense of peace often associated with being in nature. I then wondered how often in my life I confused peace, what I ultimately want most in my life, with boredom or emptiness. I realized it was probably often and realized that most us probably do the same thing.</p>
<p>As a mental health counselor, I often try to help people learn how to cope with anxiety through reframing anxious thoughts and learning coping skills. What I notice is that a great deal of people reject these ideas and hold on tightly to the their anxious thoughts and behaviors. While they say that they want peace, they ultimately push it away. They claim that they aren't capable of meditating, that deep abdominal breathing makes them more anxious and that their anxious thoughts and beliefs are benefiting them more than costing them. When I ask what they do to calm down or relax, they usually say that they watch YouTube videos, watch TV, play games on their phones or play video games, usually of a violent or fantasy nature. </p>
<p>In general, these activities tend to be more stress-inducing and anxiety-provoking than not. However, there is a reluctance to give up the distraction, the stimulation, the constant anxiety, the sensation seeking and the numbing and soul-sucking activities that revolve around the technology, electronics and social media that plague our society at this time in history. There is a lack of exposure to or immersion in nature which is grounding, relaxing and calming. There's almost a lack of interest in the natural world today. As we become more and more disconnected from each other and from nature, we become more and more disconnected from our spirits, our higher purpose and our shared humanity. </p>
<p>And this is one of the major things causing today's anxiety epidemic and the soaring need for mental health services in general. I remember the good ole days 20+ years ago when I had all sorts of no-show's and cancellations in my schedule because the weather was nice or bad or people just didn't feel the need to come in for counseling that day. Nowadays, however, I work long hours because people rarely cancel appointments, there is a waiting list for all mental health providers, we are booked solid and people have to wait for their intake appointments. It's like the world has gone mad. </p>
<p>My chiropractor, a very gifted energy worker and healer, told me that I need to "reset to love" whenever I'm feeling vulnerable to others' energies. That is largely the source of my anxiety - worrying about others and feeling their worries as well as being "attacked" at times by those with negative intentions and energy. She said a very wise thing to me as well: "divine love is the best protection there is" because if you are vibrating at a higher consciousness, you simply don't attract negative energy to you. </p>
<p>As the assigned worrier of my family, I have decided and declared that I must give up this family role and let other people worry about themselves. It's simply too much for me now to take on others' worry to the extent I have. I have this compulsive need to help others to a pathological degree. But the buck stops here and I'm hoping that you will join me in the light and make declarations in your own life.</p>
<p>And the next time you feel a twinge of boredom or emptiness, turn into it instead of away from it, thank it and join with it. You may just find a sense of peace waiting for you to arrive, waiting for your acknowledgement and longing for you to let it into your soul. Blessings, Nicole-Marie</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858772019-10-06T17:00:00-07:002019-10-07T02:33:18-07:00Spiritual Beings: Episode 5: Asking for Spiritual Guidance<p>Hopole is in adult body form on Earth arguing with his wife.</p>
<p>Guida is watching on a screen from the spiritual realms and shaking her head.</p>
<p>Hop suddenly appears beside Guida.</p>
<p>Hop: Thanks for getting me out of there.</p>
<p>Guida: Well, you asked for guidance.</p>
<p>Hop: I did?</p>
<p>Guida: Well, in your own way.</p>
<p>Guida gestures towards the screen where Hop, in the middle of his marital discord, is shouting, "Will somebody get me the hell out of here!"</p>
<p>Hop: So, how do I deal with that?</p>
<p>He points to his wife on the screen.</p>
<p>Guida: We could try allowing activation of your higher chakras. Most men on Earth are relegated to their first 2 chakras.</p>
<p>Hop: What the hell are you talking about?</p>
<p>Guida: Let me put this in a way you can understand: you think with your pecker.</p>
<p>Hop: Pecker? What is this? A G-rated movie?</p>
<p>Guida: I'm well aware of the movies YOU prefer. Let's get back to providing you some guidance. If I assist you in activating your feelings chakra, your marital relations will improve. The downside is that other men on Earth may look at you as a pansy, a princess, a weakling, a coward, a...</p>
<p>Hop: Forget it! What else you got for me?</p>
<p>Guida: Well, it might be helpful to keep your multidimensional selves in mind.</p>
<p>Hop: What do you mean?</p>
<p>Guida giggles.</p>
<p>Guida: You have forgotten. All time is simultaneous. You are living many lives at once. This lifetime on Earth with your wife is only one of your realities.</p>
<p>Hop: What?! If that's true, why am I experiencing THAT reality? Why can't I experience the reality where I'm married to Pam Anderson?</p>
<p>Guida rolls her eyes.</p>
<p>Guida: There is NO reality where YOU are married to Pam Anderson.</p>
<p>Hop: Well, what do I do then?</p>
<p>Guida: You seem to get enough out of your flights into fantasy...</p>
<p>Hop: No, not about Pam. About my wife? Got any other brilliant ideas?</p>
<p>Guida throws up her hands.</p>
<p>Guida: I got nothing.</p>
<p>Hop: I guess I'll resign myself to my bleak existence.</p>
<p>Guida: A typical Earthling response. </p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858762019-09-28T17:00:00-07:002019-11-20T00:31:45-08:002020: Perfect Vision from the Lifting of the Veil<p>There has been much talk about 2020 being the year that the veil will be lifted between our world and other worlds, between the physical world and the spiritual world, and between our reality and other realities, some of which we may not want to believe because it is so ugly, downright disturbing and hard to believe. One of the gifts of surviving narcissistic abuse is that it is much easier to process and accept ugly realities and dark truths - about this world we live in and about how evil some people truly can be. </p>
<p>Given that narcissists and sociopaths, such as Charles Manson, John of God, Jim Jones, and Jeffrey Epstein often seek positions of power, rise to fame, abuse their positions of power, and accumulate wealth and influential friends at a rapid pace, it's not that hard to believe in things like "the reptilian agenda." After all, the reptilian part of the brain is the oldest part of the brain and involves our basic drives to survive and instincts to kill or be killed. Also, there is faulty wiring or structural anomalies going on in the mammalian parts of the brain (limbic system, amygdala, etc.) that process emotions and allow us to empathize with others, and the "human" part of the brain (neocortex) that allow us to use logic to override our basic drives and instincts, in people with narcissistic or sociopathic or psychopathic tendencies. Call them narcissists, sociopaths and psychopaths or call them energy vampires and emotional manipulators (which would include Borderlines and Histrionics) or call them reptiles. To me, it's all the same things </p>
<p>I have been verbally attacked, spiritually attacked, manipulated, mentally attacked, psychologically attacked, and psychically attacked enough times to know when it's happening. The only problem is the isolation you feel in seeing a truth that others can't see about a person or organization or situation. The people who do work to uncover the truth (such as Brittany Murphy, Chris Cornell, LeRoi Moore, Isaac Kappy, Chester Bennington, Princess Diana, David Icke, and Bella Sloan) are either killed under the guise of "suicide" or "accident" or are dismissed as "crazy" or "unhinged." I can't wait for 2020 to come. I do believe that Jeffrey Epstein's death brings us one huge step closer to uncovering the vast ring of corrupt people in power that run the world of perception we are fed. <br><br></p>
<p>One of my favorite television shows is Ancient Aliens which airs on The History Channel. Watch the episode called “The REPTILIAN Agenda” and the one called “Dark Forces.” These ideas are similar to all of David Icke’s ideas. "The Reptilian agenda was, and is, to seek out the human refugees for destruction or assimilation, and to use their blood and hormones for sustenance," according to Stewart Swerdlow, author of <em>Blue Blood, True Blood: Conflict and Creation</em>. </p>
<p>One of my favorite bands is "Live." I like songs such as "I Alone", "Lightning Crashes" and "Selling the Drama." I'm not sure if the band believes in the reptilian agenda (perhaps I should have used one of Muse's songs like "Madness", I song I love by the way) but I decided to use their song "Selling the Drama" to create a montage in anticipation of 2020 being the year I hope it will be. Check it out at: <a href="https://youtu.be/FiG6C298BKA">https://youtu.be/</a></p>
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<p>I‘m sure I’m not the only one who has noticed that television is anxiety provoking and fear inducing. The News fills you with fear with “buyer beware“ features and the latest outbreaks or mass shootings. Programming consists mostly of violence and sex for adults and materialism and seedings of addiction for children. Even so-called educational shows have a bias or control of information influence to them. </p>
<p>There’s also the very real concern that you are probably being watched by big brother through your TV set and that the television is emitting unhealthy frequency waves. The following excerpts from the book “Earth” by Barbara Marciniak, mentions a lot of the concerns about television:</p>
<p>”In this age of information, you are steered away from the natural sources of gathering knowledge for yourself. You have been sold the idea that television is a great source of information. This so-called tool has been touted as one of the greatest inventions of the century. However, your media is owned and controlled by those who wish to keep you entertained and unaware. They peddle chosen versions of reality and completely ignore others. Television slows down your evolutionary process and limits you, especially as a young child.“</p>
<p>”Television keeps you in a very narrow band of emotional expression – basically chaos and fear. Today, more than ever before, there exists a great campaign to sell televisions, to have free cable television, and to entice people to stay glued to the latest version of scandal and violence, as if what is broadcast is the most important issue at hand.”</p>
<p>”Learn how to observe how you feel if you watch television. It is a form of frequency control. This control is being tremendously accelerated as fear is rapidly being promoted all over the planet through television. The large majority of people on earth are being hypnotized by television right this moment. Our campaign encourages you to experience life firsthand - not only through the image making and ideas of others.“</p>
<p>”You damage your own consciousness and the potential that your consciousness has when you give over your time to television. You suppress your imagination and do not use one of the greatest gifts you possess. It will be understood centuries from now how in the latter half of the 20th century people were induced into dazed states and made to behave, to be asleep, and to be sick through television.”</p>
<p>“You are wasting your time with any kind of television watching. It keeps you from life and acts as a substitute for experience, which, dear friends, is the primary way you learn. Some of you may say, ’well, there are some good programs on, and I only watch educational shows.‘ We ask you: what is being beamed over or under the ‘good programs’ that you do not consciously see?”</p>
<p>”If you insist on having a television in your home, keep it unplugged. Frequency waves are transmitted through your television even when you do not have it on.” In his book, <em>Human Race Get Off Your News: The Lion Sleeps No More</em>, author David Icke, states, "Remember that the world you see on the television news and hear in the political speeches is just a movie directed by the Rothschilds and their bloodline networks." This is an excellent book that everyone should read. In fact, when Alice Walker was asked, during a radio interview, what book she would take to a desert island if she could only take one book, and she responded with: <em>Human Race Get Off Your Knees: The Lion Sleeps No More</em> by David Icke. </p>
<p>In the book, David Icke also talks about how people get promoted to positions of leadership in the cabal:</p>
<p> The bloodlines use three types of people for public office: (1) Those who know the big agenda and support it (very few); (2) Useful idiots and self-obsessed wannabes who desire status and power and will do anything to get it (these are the majority, which is why there are so many arrogant incompetents in official positions); (3) Those who have dark secrets, often sexual, that the bloodlines can reveal at any time unless they do whatever they are told to do without question...</p>
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<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858732019-09-01T17:00:00-07:002019-09-02T09:23:48-07:00Happy Labor Day - Music Video for Dream Come True<p>Happy Labor Day everyone. Instead of taking it totally easy today, I labored over editing my new music video for Dream Come True. The song is about letting go of someone with love and sending them and their new love blessings as they go on their way. You can check it out under the "music videos" tab or click this link: <a href="https://youtu.be/ecg7beik8Uw">https://youtu.be/ecg7beik8Uw</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858722019-08-17T17:00:00-07:002019-08-18T13:43:43-07:00Love Soldiers Music Video<p>Check out my new music video for my original song, Love Soldiers, by visiting my "music video" page or clicking on this link:</p>
<p><a href="https://youtu.be/DpwX_nt9REc">https://youtu.be/DpwX_nt9REc</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858712019-07-31T17:00:00-07:002021-05-21T09:35:31-07:00Neuroticism on the Rise<p>As a mental health therapist, I see more people with anxiety than for any other condition these days. Anxiety seems to be on the rise especially in the younger generations. It is a harder world to live in than it was when I growing up. The concern about getting shot at while in school, while at the mall, while at a concert or attending church wasn't something I worried about because it wasn't common. There is a high demand on kids and teens to get the best grades, no less than an "A", in order to get into a good college in order to get a good job. I'm grateful that I got a Master's degree because even when I was in college in the 90's, there was information out there about how a bachelor's degree wasn't enough to be competitive in getting a job, unless of course you are working in a field that doesn't require a degree. It's getting harder and harder to afford to live a life in the USA and a lot of people are having to work 2 or 3 jobs just to make ends meet. </p>
<p>One of the best coping skills for stress is having a good social support network and having close, reliable friends or family to rely on for emotional and social comfort. However, in a age of disconnection where people can be in close proximity but disengaged from each other while being engrossed in their phones, any bit of social support has transformed from personal to digital. Any kind of physical touch or closeness is generally shunned in American culture as opposed to other cultures. Cyber bullying and mean tweeting and texting has gone viral. </p>
<p>Most recently, I have been seeing more and more people who are afraid of death yet are not living a satisfying life because they are overwhelmed with anxiety and their fears are stopping them from living life fully. When it comes to the fear of death, it seems to be more about the end of consciousness more than anything else. While exploring spiritual beliefs may be a possible antidote to this, any talk of spirituality or life after death is a topic that is also shunned even in the therapy session because people overvalue science and "logic" in this age of Aquarius and view anything of a spiritual nature as "mumbo jumbo" or "foo foo" if not falling within whatever rigid guidelines they have created for their consciousness to contract more and more instead of expand and contract as the universe does. </p>
<p>People so value free will that any talk of astrology or fate is off limits or rejected by their psyches. While I believe that free will trumps fate, I also believe that fate has its place. While I believe that certain things are fated for us to learn valuable spiritual lessons, I also believe that we have the free will to determine how we get to learn those lessons and how we are affected by those lessons. The more and more we are open to the idea of fate with a growth mind set instead of helpless or powerless or oppressed mind set, the easier it becomes for us to live in our harmony with ourselves and live in more attunement to others. We are always going to have those challenging few who want to impose their will on ours. But as long as we set boundaries with emotional vampires and manipulators, we can feel free to spread our wings and fly into an expansive world that longs for our belonging. </p>
<p>"Fear of fate is a very understandable phenomenon, for it is incalculable, immeasurable, full of unknown dangers. The perpetual hesitation of the neurotic to launch out into life is readily explained by this desire to stand aside so as not to get involved in the dangerous struggle for existence. But anyone who refuses to experience life must stifle his desire to live - in other words, he must commit partial suicide." - C.G. Jung, Symbols and Transformation, CW Vol. 5, par. 165)</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858702019-07-28T17:00:00-07:002019-07-28T18:34:27-07:00Music Video for Multicultural World<p>Check out my music video for my song Multicultural World. You can either click on my music video tab or click this link:</p>
<p><a href="https://youtu.be/kMLawBlx3uQ">https://youtu.be/kMLawBlx3uQ</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858692019-06-25T17:00:00-07:002019-06-30T01:45:28-07:00My Fourth Book: Recovery from Narcissistic Abuse<p>My fourth book, Recovery from Narcissistic Abuse, will be available on English eBook distributors such as Amazon Kindle and Barnes and Noble Nook this July. Happy Fourth of July to all survivors of narcissistic abuse! May you light up the night and embrace all forms of freedom that are awaiting your acceptance</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858682019-05-02T17:00:00-07:002019-05-03T15:29:49-07:00Vote for my song Dream Come True on CCG Network Radio<p>Vote for my song Dream Come True at: <a href="http://ccgnetworkradio.com/top-20-voting/">http://ccgnetworkradio.com/top-20-voting/</a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858672019-03-20T17:00:00-07:002019-03-21T14:02:30-07:00Oaths of Abundance<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">My new Oaths of Abundance is finally here! Check it out on the audio page! I wanted to write an album of mostly happy, uplifting and inspiring songs and Oaths of Abundance was the result. The CD is available for sale at CD Baby (see <strong>store</strong> link) and the songs are going to be available on most streaming services including Apple Music, Amazon and Spotify. </span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858662019-02-03T16:00:00-08:002019-02-04T12:45:05-08:00Highlights from the Akashic Records<p>The following are excerpts from the book: <strong><em>A Radical Approach to the Akashic Records: Master Your Life and Raise Your Vibration</em> </strong>by Melissa Feick</p>
<p>"There is a radical spiritual awakening happening all over the world. The Akashic Records say that the intention of the shift is to transform the overstimulated lower energies like anger, hatred, and struggle. It is time for these stuck lower energies to transform into something higher, for all of us."</p>
<p>"The Radical Approach to the Akashic Records is one of the best ascension tools available to humans to date. Many of us get stuck in the wheel of cause and effect: we tend to recreate our past hurts and traumas."</p>
<p>"One of the easiest and fastest ways to raise your vibration and to be more joyful is to spend more time in the Akashic Records." </p>
<p>"The Akashic Records will allow you to see beyond the illusion and the linear belief of time and space. This illusion of limitation is what creates all your feelings of lack, scarcity, and fear. To step outside of that illusion is how you can connect to your true power to create how you want to feel."</p>
<p>"The Records are not just to be used to find the negative, that is to find out what is wrong in your life. The Records can help connect you to your gifts, the positive Karma, and the truth of your soul essence."</p>
<p>"The misconception of a Soul Purpose in the spiritual community is that the Soul has come here to do something important. Many assume that Soul Purpose and life purpose are similar. The idea of life purpose is that, as humans, we came here with a specific mission to do something. When we don't do our mission then that will mean we will always be unhappy, our life will suck, and our soul will keep begging us to do what we came here to do. That way of thinking about things is so detrimental to spiritual seekers. The truth is that your life purpose is about how you live your life and how you express your Soul Purpose. Soul Purpose isn't about the doing; it's about being."</p>
<p>"Your Soul Purpose is to Be more in alignment with who you truly are. Be connected. Be compassion. What and how you express this beingness is the key to 'living your life purpose.' You can be a cashier at a small town grocery store and be living your purpose."</p>
<p>"The reason so many people are unhappy in their jobs, or in their lives, is that they aren't listening to their soul's voice."</p>
<p>"The next statement will rock your boat... everyone's, and yes, I mean everyone's, Soul Purpose is the same."</p>
<p>"Everyone's Soul Purpose is to transcend the illusion and the ego's delusion, to express Love, and to become the energy of equanimity." </p>
<p>"You are here to recognize the illusion which, in turn, teachers you how to take responsibility for your creations and to learn to create what you desire, instead of creating all the crap in your life."</p>
<p>"You are here to master the lower planes of existence, and once you recognize that this plane is an illusion, and master the planes, you have completed what you came here to do." </p>
<p>"Everything that happens in your life is just an experience, and it's the energy you put into that experience that makes it either a difficult or negative experience, a neutral experience, or a positive experience." </p>
<p>"You are here to be a human, to transcend the lower ego self, to transcend your Karma, and become your higher consciousness." </p>
<p>"Being and doing are opposites, and if you want to transcend the lower vibrations, you will want to start to express your existence through Being." </p>
<p>"When you emanate higher frequency feelings like Love, Joy, Oneness, and Gratitude from your heart, then the Quantum Field flows the same joyful vibration back to you."</p>
<p>"The heart is significant to humans in that it is the first internal organ created in the fetus. The heart has its own brain to regulate movement which indicates that it has its own intelligence."</p>
<p>"The deepest and most profound healing will happen when you are very honest with yourself and take responsibility for all your actions, past, present, and future."</p>
<p>"Once you take your power back, you will have a bunch of energy to create the life you desire. You become the creator of your destiny instead of the victim to your destiny." </p>
<p>"It is not about achieving perfection; it's about cultivating self-realization, which means looking at yourself and your actions honestly and without judgment." </p>
<p>"If you become upset or angry with anyone in your family, any race, nation, or group then you know that you are experiencing a Karmic entanglement." </p>
<p>"...don't allow tribal feelings of loyalty to keep you from being who you are meant to become."</p>
<p>"You have the opportunity to grow from every person that comes into your life."</p>
<p>"Every day you have 50,000 to 70,000 thoughts running around in your head."</p>
<p>"Buddhists have an ancient teaching called 'habitual tendencies' which can include habitual thoughts. They believe that the thoughts you think on a regular basis are habitual and are usually negative. The Buddhists also believed that if you keep thinking the same habitual thoughts, then you will bring them back lifetime after lifetime. They understood that if you don't transcend them, they won't leave you. Think about it; if this is true, you may have had thought the same thoughts for thousands of years."</p>
<p>"Studies by cognitive neuroscientists have shown that 80-95% of your waking life you are living from the unconscious or subconscious mind." </p>
<p>"Change your thoughts, and you will change your reality. Reality is made up of energy waves. Your thoughts and feelings are vibrations. Those vibrations are sent out into the Quantum Field. The Quantum Field is the energy of all possibilities, and I mean ALL! Once those vibrations are sent out to the Quantum Field, it reacts immediately, almost as if it says, "Oh, that's what he wants," and sends something to match the vibration back to you. The Quantum Field doesn't judge what you put out. It doesn't see anything like a good or bad energy or feeling; it's just a vibrational frequency to the Field. You pick that vibration, and then you receive it's match."</p>
<p>"You have to do more than recite verbal affirmations to tell the Quantum Field what you desire. You need to connect to the feelings and thoughts that match your desire. Then you'll get what you want." </p>
<p>"The ego uses the fear of the animal brain and illusion to project fear into your environment. That fear can show up as a phobia or fear of the unknown. Many people also experience it as anxiety." </p>
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<p>Melissa Feick's book "A Radical Approach to the Akashic Records: Master Your Life and Raise Your Vibration" is available now on Kindle Unlimited</p>
<p>https://melissafeick.com/rar-meditations/</p>
<p>https://melissafeick.com/</p>
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<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858652019-01-30T16:00:00-08:002019-01-31T04:33:41-08:00Spiritual Beings: Episode 4: Choosing Your Body<p>Guida: It's now time to choose your body, hop. Let's hop to it!</p>
<p>Hopole rolls his eyes.</p>
<p>Hopole: I want to be a male model type with chiseled abs.</p>
<p>Guida: I'm afraid that won't help you grow or learn any lessons this lifetime. Perhaps, we shall seek the advice of the wise council for guidance. </p>
<p>Hopole: Bunch of wise guys if you ask me. I already got you telling me what to do...</p>
<p>Guida: They are more advanced souls, more advanced than you and therefore, they can help you choose a body more wisely.</p>
<p>Hopole: More advanced, my ass!</p>
<p>Guida sighs and rings a bell.</p>
<p>Four wise souls materialize before them: Mission, Roya, Jenz and Flurra.</p>
<p>Mission: Hi Hopole, nice to see you again.</p>
<p>Hop nods to him.</p>
<p>Mission: Choosing a body, are we? I'm thinking an obese body would help you work on humility.</p>
<p>Roya: And self-acceptance as you will encounter a lot of fear and rejection from others with an obese body.</p>
<p>Flurra: Plus, you haven't had the experience of an obese body before, in any of your other lifetimes. Think of it as a new adventure...</p>
<p>Hop: I'd rather climb a volcano. </p>
<p>Mission: Yes, an obese body would be a good choice for you. It would help you hold back on your dare-devilish antics. It would slow you down and help you focus more on being.</p>
<p>Hop: On being what?!? A couch potato?</p>
<p>Jenz: It is a respite lifetime so couch potato may be a reality.</p>
<p>Hop: Exactly, my point, it is my soul vacation and it is my choice.</p>
<p>Roya: You can learn lessons in respite lifetimes too. You're right that it's your choice but remember that you can always call on us whenever you need to make a decision of any kind in life.</p>
<p>Guida: So Hop, what's it gonna be?</p>
<p>Hop: Male model with chiseled abs. </p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858642019-01-17T16:00:00-08:002019-01-18T12:38:07-08:00Pure Joy<p><em><span class="text Jas-1-2">"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,whenever you face trials of many kinds,</span> <span id="en-NIV-30270" class="text Jas-1-3">because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance."</span> James 1:2-3</em></p>
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<address>25 years of abuse, of being used, accused and lied to</address><address>has been transmuted to: pure joy, pure joy in the end</address><address> </address><address>Because I am a Christian</address><address>Because I consider Christ</address><address>my savior and my friend</address><address> </address><address>and I would face the wicked</address><address>endure all the suffering again</address><address>if more souls are saved by it</address><address> </address><address>I found the way out</address><address>I never lost sight of His truth and His light</address><address> </address><address>He gave me cancer as a blessing</address><address>to keep me safe from rage displaced</address><address>and now I see the cancer is: pure joy, pure joy in the end</address><address> </address><address>He took my hearing from me</address><address>so I couldn't hear my own vanity</address><address>or wander lost in the world of dense things</address><address>and become one with carnality.</address><address>So my listening was on reserve for His purposes alone</address><address>to bear witness to the pain of others and forget about my own</address><address>and so my deafness is: pure joy, pure joy in the end</address><address> </address>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858632019-01-03T16:00:00-08:002019-01-04T13:07:37-08:00Jeers to Blaming others for Sociopaths’ Behavior<p>In the TV series The Assassination of Gianni Versace, it is insinuated that homophobia played a hand in causing Andrew Cunanan to go on a killing spree which culminated in the killing of designer Gianni Versace. Similarly, the TV series OJ: Made in America insinuates that racism had a hand in making OJ a murderer. But neither homophobia or racism creates sociopathy. Sociopaths are born, not made. Their brains are different from the rest of us and they have blocked or impaired empathy as a result. Sociopaths don’t respond to any kind of treatmeant and only respond to consequences. Minorities of any kind may suffer from depression or anxiety disorders in response to racism or homophobia but they don’t become sociopaths as a result of these things. Trying to shift blame away from sociopaths is only enabling the sociopaths as they don’t respond to empathy anyway. They use empathy to continue to control, manipulate and harm others. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858622018-12-07T16:00:00-08:002018-12-08T00:10:33-08:00Music Amongst the Trees in the Garden<div id="yui_3_16_0_ym19_1_1544283242377_11758">
<span id="yui_3_16_0_ym19_1_1544283242377_11757" style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">There is always music amongst the trees in the garden, but our hearts must be very quiet to hear it</span> <span id="yui_3_16_0_ym19_1_1544283242377_11798" style="font-weight: bold;">. - Minnie Aumonier</span>
</div>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858612018-09-13T17:00:00-07:002018-09-14T05:42:39-07:00Trying to Fly<p><em><span style="font-size: small;">I wrote this poem after watching the footage of 9/11 and hearing survivors tell their stories of that day. The impact of those images and those testimonies inspired me to write this poem about the choices we are forced to make when our choices are limited. This poem is dedicated to all those who died that day including the heroes whose jobs led them to their deaths, those who never had a chance at survival and those who chose to jump</span></em></p>
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<p><span style="font-size: x-large;"> Trying to Fly</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: large;"></span> </p>
<address><span style="font-size: medium;">Maybe I can fly</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Maybe He will catch me</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Maybe I will fall through the holes in His hands</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Maybe I can be </span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">one with the sky</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">for one last time</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Maybe I can fly</span></address><address>
<span style="font-size: medium;"></span> </address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">All I know is I don't want the same fate</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">as the horrors I hear, their screams excruciate</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">and I must find a means of escape</span></address><address>
<span style="font-size: medium;"></span> </address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">The heat ever rising</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">The flames terrorizing</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Promising to burn me alive as I wait to be saved</span></address><address>
<span style="font-size: medium;"></span> </address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Why should I have peace?</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Why should I be saved</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">when so many are suffering, dying all around me?</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Why should I be denied a choice</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">to die by trying to fly?</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">At least I can die imagining</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">that I am a bird or an angel with wings</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">in those last seconds of reckoning</span></address><address>
<span style="font-size: medium;"></span> </address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Perhaps someone will find what remains of me</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Perhaps this will give peace to my family</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">All I know is that I can't find a way out of this hell that has found me</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">other than taking to the sky</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Perhaps I'll die in flight</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Perhaps the angels will reveal themselves to me </span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">and help me leave my body before it hits the concrete</span></address><address>
<span style="font-size: medium;"></span> </address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">There is no stairway to life that I can descend</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">Evil has blocked all exits</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">except for the last freedom that I now express</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium;">as I take this last step from the ledge</span></address><address>
<span style="font-size: medium;"></span> </address>
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<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858602018-03-01T16:00:00-08:002018-03-01T21:51:15-08:00The Women at The Well<p> The women at the well are thirsty today and drink as they may, their thirst will remain</p>
<p>for the spirit of truth has passed them by and the spirit of death gleams in their eye</p>
<p>and the living water that sprung from a rock couldn’t be heard over their talk</p>
<p>still the women at the well bask in their own glory, worship their own beauty and believe the doublespeak falling freely from their loose lips and forked tongues</p>
<p>get into the word today and see what Jesus has to say</p>
<p>do not gather with the others - sometimes being a loner is being His roll of thunder</p>
<p>and their jeerful claps and self applause bear no truth and cause you no harm</p>
<p>do not drink from their woeful waters</p>
<p>do not seem what they deem to be well for you are my lamb and upon your slaughter</p>
<p>you will come to hear my voice</p>
<p>so make the choice</p>
<p>to drink of me</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858582018-01-27T16:00:00-08:002018-01-28T11:06:42-08:00Spiritual Beings: Episode 3: Choosing Your Religion<p>Guida: And it is time now to choose a religion.</p>
<p>Hopole sighs with reservation.</p>
<p>Hopole: Do I have to?</p>
<p>Guida: You already know the answer to that. Do we need a refresher course on freewill as a birthright?</p>
<p>Hopole: Well, for sure, I don't want to be a Muslim. I was pissed when my 72 virgins were all fat and ugly.</p>
<p>Guida: That was done purposefully. Obviously, you didn't learn the lesson that beauty is only skin deep.</p>
<p>Guida makes a note of this.</p>
<p>Hopole: Yeah, yeah, yeah. Aray has a wicked sense of humor. Remind me why I need to choose a religion...</p>
<p>Guida: Otherwise, you're in danger of worshiping yourself, others, substances or things. Must we review your previous incarnations? It's not like I'm helping Jesus or Gandhi come up with a birth plan. You, my dear, are still on the bunny slopes of existence. </p>
<p>Hopole: Please don't torture me again with my life reviews. Can't I just simply be spiritual this time around?</p>
<p>Guida laughs.</p>
<p>Guida: You already are.</p>
<p>Hopole: You know what I mean!</p>
<p>Guida: We tried that before too. Remember? Things got a little dark with your forays into seances and ouija boards. Someone with your make-up needs a little more guidance and structure.</p>
<p>Hopole: I don't want any restrictions on my freedom.</p>
<p>Guida: Precisely my point.</p>
<p>Hopole: Okay, fine. How about Hindu? I always wanted to do that party with all the paints.</p>
<p>Guida rolls her eyes.</p>
<p>Guida: Well, at least we're moving in the right direction. I'll have you discover Hinduism as a teenager. Since the parents you chose will still be struggling with finding their faith, you will have to find some spiritual direction outside your family of origin. Let's move on to your choice of occupation.</p>
<p>Hopole: That's easy. Rock star!</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858572017-12-16T16:00:00-08:002017-12-17T01:27:14-08:00Spiritual Beings: Episode 2: Choosing Your Fam<p>Guida: Now's the time to choose your parents, Hop. Let's start with your mother.</p>
<p>A pretty blonde, Margarite, with a devilish grin pops up on the floating screen in front of Hopole and Guida.</p>
<p>Hopole is horrified. </p>
<p>Hopole: No! Not Margarite! I still haven't forgiven her for that lifetime at sea. She devoured me!</p>
<p>Guida: Well...she was a shark and you were a seal. It was the natural order of things. </p>
<p>Hopole: Dear God, is there anybody else, please?</p>
<p>Guida: For your mother, sure. But perhaps Margarite can be your sister or brother. Your threads of destiny are still interwoven.</p>
<p>Hopole: I want her thread of destiny to stay the hell away from mine!</p>
<p>Guida: Let's not forget that you devoured her when she was a fly and you were a venus flytrap.</p>
<p>Hopole: She was a fly, for goodness sakes!</p>
<p>Guida sighs with constrained frustration.</p>
<p>Guida: We'll get back to Margarite. Let's continue to choose a mother.</p>
<p>Another image pops up on the screen of a sexy brunette with bedroom eyes. </p>
<p>Hopole: Now, there's hot mama!</p>
<p>Guida: Incest is frowned upon on Earth, Hop.</p>
<p>Hopole: Well, can she be my girlfriend instead, then?</p>
<p>Guida: She's already tied up in that regard.</p>
<p>Hopole: My kind of woman.</p>
<p>Guida rolls her light eyes.</p>
<p>Guida: I'm doing away with that personality kink of yours this time.</p>
<p>Hopole: You wouldn't dare!</p>
<p>Guida: Orders from Aray. We must trust his judgment. He's an old soul after all.</p>
<p>Hopole mutters under his breath.</p>
<p>Hopole: Old soul, my ass. Old soul asshole is more like it.</p>
<p>Aray materializes in front of them.</p>
<p>Aray: How's the pre-birth planning going, gals?</p>
<p>Hopole shrinks in his chair.</p>
<p>Hopole: Aray! I was just talking about how I wish I could choose a father like you.</p>
<p>Aray laughs merrily.</p>
<p>Aray: That can certainly be arranged.</p>
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<p>TO BE CONTINUED</p>
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<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858562017-11-19T16:00:00-08:002017-11-20T04:53:28-08:00What Makes Your Snowflake Unique?<p>In my job as a mental health counselor, I often see people who are feeling depressed because they don't know what their purpose is or they have an idea about what they want to do in life but they feel no support or confidence in moving forward in life by taking steps towards fulfilling that purpose or passion. They often lack self-esteem and don't feel good enough as they compare themselves to others who are doing what they themselves want to be doing. </p>
<p>I have found that one thing that can help people get out of the funk of feeling this lack of purpose in life is to ask them the question: what makes your snowflake unique? People are like snowflakes in that no two people are exactly alike and we are all unique in the way that God made us. For instance, I am a singer/songwriter and this is my passion. But what makes me unique are all the following things: I am also hearing impaired, I am also a licensed therapist, I am also a good creative writer, I also like film and video, I also like to inspire people, I am also a very spiritual person and I also like forms of alternative healing like shamanism and Reiki therapy. </p>
<p>So, what is it that you want to do in life that you are not already doing? What's holding you back from doing it? What do you have to offer that's different or unique? If you can't answer this last question, you may not know who you really are and it may take some reflection or assistance in getting to know yourself better. But most of us know what our hang-up's are and most of us know what are strengths are. If you are not sure what your strengths are, ask at least 3-5 people around you that you trust to give you feedback on what your strengths are. We all have blind spots when it comes to ourselves. </p>
<p>If you know what your hang-up's are and if they are holding you back from finding true happiness and fulfillment in life, don't be too proud to go into therapy, read self-help books, meditate or pray, or find some other way to hang-up these hang-up's so they are not holding you back in life and keeping you from having what it is you seek in life whether it be peace, joy, or success in whatever way you define it. </p>
<p>So, if you are struggling with finding your purpose or living your purpose, ask yourself the following questions: 1) What is your passion? If you are not sure, what is it that you could spend hours doing because the time would just fly by as you are enjoying yourself so much? 2) What it is you want to do in life? 3) How is it going to benefit others? 4) What is keeping you from fulfilling that purpose? or How are you getting in your own way? 5) Where else is your energy going that could be redirected towards your purpose? 6) What makes you special, unique and different from everyone else that is doing the same thing? In other words, what makes your snowflake unique? </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858552017-11-11T16:00:00-08:002017-12-03T11:51:39-08:00Spiritual Beings: Episode I: Choosing a Life<p><em>"We are not human beings having a spiritual experience; we are spiritual beings having a human experience.". - Pierre Teilhard de Chardin. Teilhard de Chardin</em></p>
<p style="text-align: left;"> GUIDA, a spunky spirit guide, floats up to HOPOLE, who sits in the center seat surrounded by circular-shaped screens on all sides.</p>
<p>GUIDA: So you ready to choose your next life, Hops?</p>
<p>Hopole rubs his hands together excitedly and floats his chair to the floating screen right in front of him.</p>
<p>HOPOLE: Which planet should I choose?</p>
<p>He uses his finger to select a solar system on the screen among a choice of galaxies and settles on the Milky Way.</p>
<p>GUIDA: How about the Pleiades? Wise, gentle, spiritually advanced creatures and your telepathic abilities will be kept in tact.</p>
<p>HOPOLE: Nah, I was thinking of somewhere more like... Mars.</p>
<p>A picture of Mars comes up on the screen.</p>
<p>GUIDA: So... you want to be an amoeba?</p>
<p>Guida laughs and Hopole shoots a look of annoyance her way.</p>
<p>GUIDA: Mars is still not ready for intelligent forms of life yet. We're struggling with the blueprints. But you could choose Earth.</p>
<p>Hopole sees visions of earthquakes, wars, tsunamis, hurricanes, forest fires and other man-made violence flash on the screen.</p>
<p>HOPOLE: You can't be serious. This is my respite lifetime we're talking about here. I want to enjoy myself for once. I can't believe you're even suggesting a hellhole like Earth. You're fired! I want a new guide assigned to me.</p>
<p>Guida chuckles.</p>
<p>GUIDA: Don't I wish? You don't listen to me anyway. Unfortunately, my contract with you doesn't end for another millennia. Besides, Earth is a very beautiful and tranquil place... on a good day... in a good era. </p>
<p>HOPOLE: I don't know. Don't really trust your guidance. I'm still reeling from that ant planet you sent me to... and that was eons ago. </p>
<p>GUIDA: Perhaps we should choose forgiveness as one of your spiritual lessons for this lifetime.</p>
<p>HOPOLE: No, no, no. Please, no. That's much too taxing. Since when do respite lifetimes involve forgiveness anyway?</p>
<p>GUIDA: True...</p>
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<p>TO BE CONTINUED</p>
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<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858542017-11-09T16:00:00-08:002017-11-10T14:10:31-08:00God Created Drugs, We Created Judgment<p>There are many drugs found in nature including opium poppy (used in Heroin, Morphine, Codeine), Blue Agave (used in Tequila), Coca leaves (used in Cocaine), Ephedra Sinica(used in Sudafed and Meth), Psilocybin mushroom (used in Shrooms), Sassafras root (used in X), and Marijuana. God clearly saw that we may need some relief from the trials of life. It is man that misuses these substances or creates synthetic versions of them that may not be helpful to us. </p>
<p>This article was written with the intention not to condone or condemn drug use, merely to address the judgments we may have about those who use, abuse or become dependent on drugs. I am someone who actually benefited from those "Say No to Drugs" campaigns from the 80's and I know many who have benefited from programs like DARE, Al-Anon, AA, NA and CodA. I am about as square as they come. I've never smoked a cigarette, never tried marijuana and at most, have drank a full wine cooler in a single setting. The idea for this article came to me as I was under the influence of laughing gas while getting a root canal at my dentist's. The pain was so sharp and so intense that I could feel it despite the laughing gas and a few shots of Novocain. It was one of the few times in my life that I felt great compassion for those who may struggle with drug addiction. </p>
<p>Another time was when I was prescribed Vicodin after surgery to remove a cancerous tumor along with several inches of a rib from my side in 2004. The pain was so great that I preferred the Vicodin to eating. It seemed that it was the most important thing in the world to me at that time. I was in so much pain that I had to sleep sitting up. Only Vicodin made sleep possible. Thank God I had a really good surgeon and recovered well from that surgery and was able to wean off the Vicodin. Not everybody is that lucky. </p>
<p>That short experience was enough for me to develop compassion for those addicted to or dependent on substances. I would say that I am a food addict and may be addicted to Candy Crush but I've never had to experience the judgment and ridicule that substance addicts have to contend with. It is true that being obese or overweight in American society brings it's own brand of judgment. Everyone thinks you are either lazy or lacking information. Everyone becomes your personal trainer or your dietician. </p>
<p>Reading books like <em>In the Realm of Hungry</em> <em>Ghosts</em> by Gabor Mate', <em>The</em> <em>Afterlife of Billy Fingers</em>, books (<em>Journals</em>) or songs (<em>Come As You Are)</em> by or about (<em>Heavier Than</em> <em>Heaven</em>) Kurt Cobain have also helped to educate me on drug abuse, alcoholism, compassion and acceptance. Kurt had a rare and painful stomach condition that he sought medical care for repeatedly to no avail. As a young child, his mother tried to get him help for his hyperactivity and he even saw a counselor as a teen. Thank God his creative genius was left intact because his music and lyrics and presence in the world has made a lasting and positive impact. He obviously dealt with demons too mostly related to his father's rejection, humiliation and bullying of him starting in early childhood. </p>
<p>As a medical social worker and mental health counselor, I've worked with many people in physical, emotional, psychological, relational, spiritual and mental pain and something that I've learned from all that exposure and from my own trials and tribulations is that pain specialists, Western medicine, and the mental health care providers are all ill equipped to deal with and cope with and respond to the needs of all those people in pain. We are trying our best to meet those needs but so much more is needed. </p>
<p>One of the things needed most is more compassion towards those with drug or alcohol addiction. Most of these people have a history of trauma, whether physical or emotional, that has yet to be treated. The drugs or alcohol may be the only thing that keeps them able to live with such pain. Therefore, many of them do not mind the thought of dying of an overdose or of their addiction because this may be preferable to living without the thing that just must numb them out enough to live without being in a state of complete anxiety, agitation or pain. </p>
<p>Sure, they could seek out a psychiatrist or receive psych meds through their primary care providers but those drugs may not be enough, might have too many side effects or those in need may not have access to healthcare or mental healthcare. Even under the care of a psychiatrist, it can take a while to find the right combination of drugs that will work for someone's physiological make-up. Even if it does work, it may not be long before they are triggered by past trauma and/or relapse for whatever reason. According to biographer Charles Cross, Kurt Cobain attended 12 step meetings, spent at least 5 separate stints in rehab centers and private doctor clinics in order to try to come to grips with his Heroin addiction. </p>
<p>Our judgment on drug abusers is a worldwide problem. In his article <em>Why "Crazy Like a Fox" Versus "Crazy Like a Crazy" Really Matters</em>, Michael Tansey writes that President Trump has "congratulated President Rodrigo Duterte of the Philippines for dealing with his country's drug problem in the "right way" with the vigilante slaughter of nearly ten thousand people merely suspected of using or dealing drugs."</p>
<p>Why do we feel the need to judge people? True, it can be frustrating to be the loved one of a user who has lied to you, stolen from you, manipulated you or betrayed you. But we are all learning something from others in our journey in this life whether the lesson be self-love, boundaries, self-care or compassion. What does judging help? Nothing. What we judge in others we are judging about ourselves. And if we cannot overcome our judgment of others, we will be led to do so by circumstance entering our lives in the form of teachers who may be thrust upon us if we insist on holding fast to our judgments. May we open our hands to release the judgment on ourselves and on others. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858522017-08-29T17:00:00-07:002017-08-30T05:48:37-07:00Shame, Shame, Shame<div data-contents="true">
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<div class="_1mf _1mj" data-offset-key="1om0n-0-0"><span data-offset-key="1om0n-0-0">Many people, especially mental health experts like Brene Brown, would have you believe that shame is never a good thing. But for me, shame has its place in the realm of emotions and can be a helpful and useful feeling. Shame lets us know that we are not psychopaths or sociopaths. Shame lets us know that we are human. Shame can let us know that we have done something wrong. Shame can bring us to God and deepen our faith because shame shows us that we are broken and weak on our own, when we rely on our own understanding or strength. For there is no way for us to know it all or to be it all. The moment we do think we have all the answers or have everything in place in our lives, a higher hand will let us know otherwise. While I don't think it is a good think to shame other people, I think it is a good thing when we feel shamed by God. For those that are not Christian, it can be a good thing to feel shame about something you did or didn't do because this leads us hopefully to repent or ask forgiveness or make things right. May I God shame me when I am on the wrong path in life. May I feel shame when I am making bad choices. May shame set me free and reveal to me my real name, the name God gave to me and may I answer when he calls me using that name. May shame lead me back to the path God has chosen for me anytime I veer from that path. May shame bring understanding and light to any darkness that I or others create and that gets in the way of the glory he has for all of us...</span></div>
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</div>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858512017-08-16T17:00:00-07:002021-05-25T15:41:57-07:00Variations on Gender<p>I have heard many Christians respond to the whole “issue” of transgender people with this piece of advice: “we need to teach our children to love their own gender.” I believe that Christians say this to address their own fears, biases and judgements towards anything they simply don’t understand or don't want to understand. What this advice fails to realize is that there are babies born with more than one gender. Do we then teach them to love both of their genders? </p>
<p>The kind of judgment most Christians show towards someone in the LGBT community is based on ignorance. They don’t realize that gender, as the medical community might define it, or one’s sense of gender is based on many factors. In <em>Understanding Human Sexuality</em> by Janet Shibley Hyde and John D. Delamater, there are 8 variables of gender which include:</p>
<p>1) <em>Chromosomal gender</em>: XX in females and XY in males</p>
<p>2) <em>Gonadal gender: </em> Ovaries in females and testes in males</p>
<p>3) a<em>. Prenatal hormonal gender</em>: Testosterone and MIS in the male but not the female before birth</p>
<p>b. <em>Prenatal and neonatal brain differentiation</em>: Testosterone present for masculization, absent for feminization</p>
<p>4) Internal organs: Fallopian tubes, uterus, and upper vagina in females; prostate, vas, and seminal vesicles in males.</p>
<p>5) External genital appearance: Clitoris, inner and outer lips, and vaginal opening in females; penis and scrotum in males.</p>
<p>6) Pubertal hormonal gender: At puberty, estrogen and progesterone in females; testosterone in males.</p>
<p>7) Assigned gender: The announcement at birth, “It’s a girl” or “It’s a boy,” based on the appearance of the external genitals; the gender the parents and the rest of society believe the child to be; the gender in which the child is reared.</p>
<p>8) Gender identity: The person’s private, internal sense of maleness or female.</p>
<p>In most cases, all 8 variables are in agreement, but there are many factors during the course of prenatal sexual development that can cause any of the variables to be misaligned with the others. When there are contradictions among any of the first 6 variables, which are purely biological, a person is said to have an intersex condition. The gender of an intersex person can then be biologically ambiguous. There are a number of syndromes that can lead to an intersex condition or gender ambiguity. Here are just a few:</p>
<p>1) Congenital Adrenal Hyperplasia (CAH): With this condition, a genetic female develops ovaries normally as a fetus, but later in the course of prenatal development, the adrenal gland begin to function abnormally (related to recessive genes) and produces an excess amount of androgens. Therefore, prenatal sexual differentiation does not follow the typical female course and as a result, the external genitals are partly or completely male in appearance. The labia are partly or totally fused so there is no vaginal opening and the clitoris is enlarged to the size of a small penis or even a full-sized one. At birth, these genetic females may be identified as males. (Meyer-Bahlburg et al., 2004, 2006)</p>
<p>2) Androgen-Insensitivity Syndrome (AIS): In this syndrome, a genetic male produces normal levels of testosterone but because the body tissues are insensitive to the testosterone, prenatal development is feminized. Therefore, the individual may be born with more of an external appearance of a female with a small vagina though no uterus and undescended testes. </p>
<p>3) Micropenis: a condition in which a genetic male is born with a very small penis. The medical standard is that an infant’s penis is 2.5 cm or more. This condition, of course, can affect sexual satisfaction in life, more so if the infant’s parents’ chose to raise the infant as a female following surgery, according to one study (Wisniewski et al., 2001). </p>
<p>4) Genetic-endocrine problems that can lead to genetic males appearing female at birth such as <em>5-alpha reductase deficiency syndrome</em>. These infants will have a vaginal pouch instead of scrotum at birth and a clitoris-sized penis. At, puberty, however, the biological process kicks in and these “girls” now have penises. This phenomenon has been studied in the Dominican Republic where these individuals are called Guevodoces (“penis at 12”) by the people in their culture. In this culture, therefore, there are three genders and not just two. This syndrome can also be found among the Sambia of New Guinea who also have a three-gender culture.</p>
<p>5) Any kind of hermaphrodite condition where people are both with both male and female parts. </p>
<p>6) Klinefelter's Syndrome: a genetic condition where a male has an extra X chromosome. Symptoms include low testosterone, breast development, reduced strength and possible confusion about gender identification. Eddie Redmayne does an excellent job of portraying what might have possibly been the first trans woman, born a male with Klinefelter's Syndrome, to ever have sex reassignment surgery in the movie <em>The Danish Girl.</em> </p>
<p>Among the more than 200 Native languages spoken in Native America, at least 2/3 have a term that refers to a third gender beyond male and female. Natives prefer the term "two-spirit" to label this third gender. A two-spirit may be different from a "manly hearted woman" who may be more aggressive and independent than the typical Native woman or a "warrior woman" who may participate in traditional male gender roles in addition to traditional female roles in the Native culture. However, a male could be married to a two-spirit male and, from a Native point of view, the marriage would not be considered homosexual because the two are of different genders. </p>
<p>I’m hoping one day, the Western World and Christians in particular will not be so close-minded when it comes to sex and gender. I recently heard of a local church who decided to accept the LGBT community into their congregation. As a result, they lost most of their original congregation and had to shut down. What a shame! Any house of worship that is exclusive like that, isn’t based on the love Jesus had for everyone, regardless of what issues they are dealing with or struggling with. But Christians continue to turn a judgmental eye to any issues or discussions involving sex or gender. I’ll be praying that this will change one day.</p>
<p>However, I think it's important that we don't become even more divided by our desire or need to increasingly label ourselves as this or that gender or this or that sexuality. I think, as we do so, we focus too much on our differences and not enough on our connectedness. Furthermore, such trends drive us to focus more on the physical and less on the spiritual and in doing so, keep us enslaved energetically and spiritually from ascending and evolving. I'd also like to add that I do believe there is a demonic transgender agenda in motion as Luciferians and Satanists idolize their transgender God, Baphomet. Many of these Luciferians and Satanists hold positions of power and influence in the media, in Hollywood, in the music business, and in politics. A portion of them will transgender their children as a form of worship to Baphomet. We are being tricked and mocked in the process as we believe certain men and women in influential positions in the world are really one gender when they were really born the other gender. </p>
<p>I have worked for a fortune 500 company where I saw this transgender agenda in process. At the time I worked there, I was still brainwashed by the mainstream media and still confused about what I was perceiving. At this company, I was a case manager and a good portion of my clientele were transgender. I don't have anything personally against those that believe they are transgender. This company actively recruited clientele by advertising specifically for top or bottom surgery (this was a healthcare company). The only training that was required by the company was a SOGIE training which stands for Sexual Orientation and Gender Identity Expression where we were trained to state our pronouns and ask our clientele for their pronouns which really angered the clients who were not in the LGBTQ community. When I brought up to my boss that I would like to have other cultural trainings, my request was denied. She also told me that that workplace was not a place where we "emote" yet in this SOGIE training, people were allowed to emote all over the place. </p>
<p>Furthermore, the boss above her was a sociopath and could not keep a team due to the high turnover of her subordinates. For example, she used to do something called "call out's" during our team meetings where she would bring up all the things people were doing wrong. Is that a way to inspire productivity or creativity among your staff? Despite my complaints and others' complaints about her abusive behavior, they would not fire her or hold her accountable because she was in the LGBTQ community. In fact, at that workplace, the people that were promoted to positions of power were typically those in the LGBTQ community. </p>
<p>So, I can see both sides of the issue. Despite the transgender agenda being in full swing, it is important that we not judge people who are confused about their sexual or gender identity or identify as something that we don't fully understand. Jesus loved all people and he healed everyone with the power of unconditional love. That should be our same aim as Christians. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858502017-08-13T17:00:00-07:002017-08-14T08:59:18-07:00I Love You, My Baby<p>I have always been attracted to adoptees. I have dated a couple of them. They have become some of my good friends, clients and co-workers. They have been adopted into my family and adopted out of my family. While I, myself, am not an adoptee, I do relate to the sense of abandonment they must feel at a very visceral level and to that sense of not being wanted and therefore, feeling defective somehow. Nancy Verrier, an adoptive mother and author, calls this condition the "primal wound." </p>
<p>From the time I was a small child, I heard the story told to me about the day of my birth. I was told that I was expected to be a boy and that it was a major disappointment that I was another girl as my parents already had three girls. My little brother was born 11 months later and I was told that my father was so happy that he was passing out cigars to everyone. My earliest memories are of being an infant and being alone in a room, exploring my parents' bedroom. My mother likely suffered from post-partum depression. She started having children at age 15 and only had a 3rd grade education. I remember being neglected. This may explain my avoidant attachment style with women. For someone with this attachment style, there is a sense that you are on your own and cannot trust others to be there for you. My grandmother and aunts helped to take care of us after my parents divorced when I was only 5 years old. But by then, my attachment style was in place.</p>
<p>I felt more loved by my father and I also know that he bullied me and would delight in scaring me when I was little. Though I have no memory of this, I have heard that he did so from my mother and my aunt. It may explain my anxious/ambivalent attachment style with men. I felt more loved, valued and paid attention to by my father when I was in the presence of my brother. I feel that both of my parents came to love me more later in life. I have since come to the conclusion that I must be a very lovable person if they could grow to love me at all. Prior to this epiphany, I had felt unlovable, something that many adoptees feel. </p>
<p>To try to understand myself better, I started reading and researching books and articles about the emotional issues that adoptees might deal with. Before starting this process, my ideas about adoptees were based on the movie<em> Annie</em> where Daddy Warbucks saves Annie from a life of ruin with his money and charm and all ends happily. I believed as most people believe: that adoption is something to be celebrated and a win for everybody involved: the orphaned infant or child, the adoptive couple who may suffer from infertility and the birth mother or birth parents who cannot or will not take care of their own child. </p>
<p>Since reading books like <em>Journey to the Adopted Self</em> by writer, adoptee and adoption-reform advocate Betty Jean Lifton, The Primal Wound by Nancy Verrier and several online articles on the subject, I have since learned that there is a grieving process for all parties involved in adoption. And most importantly, I learned that the adoptee does have a sense of that early abandonment at a feeling level and that this abandonment is the first trauma in a series of traumas that they will likely suffer throughout their lives. </p>
<p>I wasn't too surprised to learn that adoptees often feel a sense of not belonging due to being cut off from their biological roots, especially in the closed adoption system where they aren't allowed to search for their birth parents until they are 18 years old. I too have always felt like I was different from everybody else. This is partly due to how I was not welcomed into the world, partly because my personality type is that of an individualist and partly because I am bi-racial. Nowadays, it is more common for a child to be biracial or multi-racial, but when I was a child, I only knew of me and my siblings being biracial. </p>
<p>From my research, I learned that adoptees are 5x more likely to attempt suicide than their non-adopted peers. This may be an attempt to actualize something which is already felt to have happened on some level. David Winnicott, a Brittish pediatrician and psychoanalyst, believes that a simple acknowledgement that a part of the adoptee "died" in infancy may prevent an actual suicide attempt. Betty Jean Lifton says, "the adoptee does not literally die, but lack of recognition by one's birth mother feels like a death threat - the threat of annihilation - which the adoptee must muster all her psychic forces to survive." </p>
<p>I learned that the fear of abandonment never goes away. I learned that they are asked to see their abandonment as their birth mother loving them enough to give them up. Therefore, they equate love with abandonment. They are typically denied their own reality or sense of self by their adoptive families, therapists, any professional involved in the closed adoption system and the community at large. They typically have identity issues as a result. Though they suffer from fears of abandonment at a very visceral level, they may also fear engulfment by their adoptive parents and family. </p>
<p>In Nancy Verrier's book The Primal Wound, the author states, "It is difficult to change our thinking about adoption from that of a wonderful, altruistic event to that of a traumatic, terrifying experience for the child." It is still generally believed that an infant cannot remember the separation from their birth mother but science now shows that an infant can pick out their birth mother's face without ever having seen her before based on the 40 weeks of gestational bonding that occurs. </p>
<p>Adoptees are over-represented in the mental health care system, especially as children, for a reason. The number of health and mental health issues they suffer from never gets attributed to that unresolved grief and all the identity issues that go hand-in-hand with being abandoned and "rejected" as an infant. Most mental health professionals, including myself, are not knowledgeable about what Betty Jean Lifton calls<em> Accumulative Adoption Trauma, </em>a syndrome most adoptees suffer with that it is not yet recognized in the DSM 5 which is the current way that most mental health professionals diagnose individuals seeking out therapy for emotional, mental and relational issues.</p>
<p>I learned about a phenomenon called Genetic Sexual Attraction (GSA) which is a situation where a sexual attraction develops between the adoptee and any member of their birth family upon reuniting. This can be especially strong for people who confuse sex with love. In the worst situations, the GSA is consummated which of course becomes very problematic for all parties involved in the long run. One of the best online articles I read about adoption is called <em>Adoptees, Why Are You So Angry? </em> You can read the full article at https://adopteeinrecovery.com/2015/01/07/adoptees-why-are-you-so-angry/</p>
<p>Here is one of the excerpts from that article:</p>
<address>I’m angry because I’m in my 50s and still not allowed access to my own birth certificate – even though I found all of my family member’s years ago. I’m angry that there is still a lack of support for family preservation in favor of adoption. I’m angry that having more money allows certain adopters to pull wanted children away from their families. I’m angry that so many childless people that claim to care about children really only want to get themselves a baby and not actually help older children in foster care or even just vulnerable families in their own community. I’m angry that whenever adoptees attempt to speak their truth and call for changes in the system they are silenced, called “ungrateful” and “angry” and told they just had a “bad experience.” I’m angry that the industry is pulling in thousands of dollars at the expense of vulnerable children. I will continue to be “angry” in order to try to affect change for today’s children and those yet unborn.</address>
<p>After obtaining all this knowledge about all the suffering that adoptees go through in life, I came to have more compassion for them and more understanding of myself. After all, some of the issues that adoptees cope with are similar to those of children of divorce, children who grow up in alcoholic families, or children with any sort of developmental trauma. But at least the later have access to their roots. At least, I know who my mother was on some level. </p>
<p>I decided to write a poem to encapsulate everything I felt after gaining all this knowledge. It is what these child-like parts of ourselves maybe needed to hear from our birth mothers. It is called <em>I Love You, My Baby.</em></p>
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<address>Climb into my arms</address><address>wide open with love</address><address>Stay as long as you want</address><address>all nuzzled up</address><address> </address><address>Hear my words wander</address><address>all the way to your heart</address><address>when I say, "I love you, my baby,</address><address>and this is the part of me that never wanted to give you up."</address><address> </address><address>Feel my kiss upon your cheek</address><address>Feel the warmth I have in my body</address><address>Let it pour into all the lost years</address><address>and if you feel safe enough, release your tears</address><address> </address><address>Please know that I'll be here</address><address>as long as you like</address><address>and answer all your questions</address><address>Hard and soft alike</address><address> </address><address>I'll be open and honest</address><address>even if it hurts us both</address><address>and within this embrace</address><address>you can be the first to let go...</address>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858492017-08-02T17:00:00-07:002017-08-03T10:21:23-07:00The Spiritual Significance of Music<p>“The power of true music emanates an energetic purity and essence that is inspired only by Spirit. This music not only uplifts the heart and soul of humanity, but will not lose its luster through passing time and superficial musical trends.” - Aeoliah, author of <em>Awakening Your Inner Light: Healing Self-Abuse and Reclaiming Your True Identity</em></p>
<p>“The most evolved music on the planet that will continue to heal and inspire is one that raises and magnetizes our consciousness and awareness into a more expanded and enlightened state, acting as a tuning fork to higher dimensions.” - Aeoliah</p>
<p>“Music is the language of the soul.” - David Amram, author of <em>Upbeat: Nine Lives of a Musical Cat</em></p>
<p>“Music can offer us an escape from reality providing a safe and secure haven; our very own sacred sanctuary of sound.” - Encore</p>
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<p>The above are excerpts from the book <em>The Spiritual Significance of Music</em> by Justin St. Vincent</p>
<p>I hope one day, popular music will be spiritual and not sexual in nature. Not that there's anything wrong with sex but the music business shuns anything spiritual and overdoes the sexual. Sex may be what sells but spirit is what inspires, what heals and what unites us. </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858482017-07-19T17:00:00-07:002017-07-21T03:55:33-07:00Recovery from Narcissist Abuse<p>If you are in recovery from being with a narcissistic person, you can practice the following on your road to recovery:</p>
<p>1)<strong> Do NOT blame yourself. </strong> You will likely feel foolish and stupid for staying with a narcissistic person for too long (and any amount of time is too long). You might wonder: what did I do wrong? or what could I have done better?</p>
<p>2) <strong>ACCEPT </strong>that there was nothing you could have done to save or love the person into being a healthier person. Most people with Narcissist traits have brain anomalies where the part of the brain that involves empathy is either smaller or deformed. Also, they usually have some sort of trauma around age 2 that involves sudden neglect or lack of nurturance.</p>
<p>3) <strong>RESEARCH</strong> everything you can about Narcissists so that you don't take things personally and can understand yourself better (you are either a empath, HSP, codependent or other Narcissist as these are who narcissists are typically attracted to). Knowledge is power. Recognize your steps in this dance of dysfunction so that you are no longer attracting narcissists into your life.</p>
<p>4) <span style="color: #888888;"><strong><span style="color: #000000;">EXPECT</span> </strong></span>that your friends and family will not understand, take the narcissist's side and may not be there for you. A narcissist is so cunning that they will fool not only you, but your friends and family too. Your support system may not come through for you either because the narcissist has manipulated them into choosing their side, the people in your support system can't admit they were duped and rather would believe that you are just "too sensitive" or "crazy" - beliefs that the narcissist's feed, or are dealing with their own feelings of grief and betrayal with the narcissist. Perhaps, they are also too overwhelmed with their own issues to tend to you in your time of need. Usually HSP (aka empaths or codependents) come from a family of narcissists who make the HSP's (highly sensitive person) suffering all about them. </p>
<p>5) <strong>Do NOT go to the narcissist for answers.</strong> Narcissists are known for being compulsive liars, for thriving on the ability to get away with anything up to murder (i.e. OJ Simpson and Casey Anthony) and enjoy creating suffering in others. You going to them for answers to your confusion is likely to just confuse you more and cause more suffering. Plus, it gives them narcissist supply. Let go of your need to know exactly what happened and just trust your intuition and/or your higher power that whatever you need to know will be revealed to you at the exact time you need it to. I know this has been true for me and it's what inspired the song The Truth is On It's Way. </p>
<p>6) <strong>GET THERAPY</strong> for yourself and any children that were affected by the narcissist's emotional abuse. You may have been physically abused and if so, you'll want to find a domestic violence advocate to support you through the process. You are likely suffering from PTSD as the narcissist thrives on making others believe they are crazy. Therefore, some people around you (neighbors, friends, family) may actually collude with the narcissist and call you crazy or label you unhinged. Therapists who lack experience with NPD and PTSD may also think you are crazy. Therefore, it is important to find a therapist who specializes in trauma and knows a lot about NPD. You may want to look for a therapist who specializes in EMDR and or other trauma-specific therapy. </p>
<p>7) <strong>SET BOUNDARIES</strong> with the narcissist. It would be best to not have any contact at all especially if you are in a vulnerable state when you first make the empowered choice to walk away from the narcissist. They will prey on your fears, whittle away your self-esteem and control/manipulate you until you are dependent on them or independently apathetic. If you are going through a divorce or have kids with a narcissist, try to go through a third party that is hopefully neutral. There are lawyers who specialize or market themselves around having experience with narcissists. Look for a lawyer that works for you if you are going to divorce because otherwise, the narcissist will take you to the cleaners and leave you high and dry. Sometimes, divorces from a narcissist person takes years because they have trouble letting go of the control they have over anyone. You may also have to set boundaries with family members who primed you to be with and stay with a narcissist or are not supportive of you. Notice if you feel more positive or negative after spending time with or talking to a certain person. Make boundaries based on your own feelings instead of trying to please others or make everyone else happy. The narcissist also has some elements of approval addiction and this is why they can't say "no" to other women, opportunities to cheat on you, etc. </p>
<p>8) Accept that <strong>THERE WILL BE NO FORGIVENESS</strong> from the narcissist though they may say they forgive you and say that they hope you can both sit down for a cup of tea someday. Narcissists try to keep people in the loop within their control if at all possible. Emotionally stuck at the age of 2, they throw temper tantrums and really only experience one emotion: some form of anger or rage. They will always be outraged that you abandoned them even though their actions lead to your jumping ship. Don't expect that the terms you chose for the divorce will be uncontested. </p>
<p>9) Understand that <strong>THERE WAS NEVER LOVE</strong> coming from the narcissist. Deep down inside, they hate themselves and therefore, they cannot love another. This is a hard thing to accept, especially if you've been with the narcissist for a long time. It is a hard thing to accept that you may have wasted years of your life believing the narcissist's lies and having hope that things will get better when they never had a chance to get better. The only thing that may be a wake-up call for the narcissist is their partner finally having the courage, bravery and strength to walk away. And then, it will take several years of therapy for them to change because we are talking about a personality defect after all. It is a bitter truth to swallow that the narcissist never loved you but at least this can give you comfort when you realize that they don't love their mistress(es) either. </p>
<p>10) <strong>PRACTICE SELF-CARE AND SELF-LOVE.</strong> Now that your self-esteem has probably been whittled down to nothing, you will have to practice a lot of self-care and self-love to recover from the abuse you suffered. Follow your dreams and passions that were likely discouraged or unsupported by your narcissistic partner. Eat healthy food, try to get good sleep (this will be hard at first), spend time with positive and supportive people and allow pleasure, blessings and all the beautiful things life has to offer to flow into your life. Now is your time. Be careful not to jump too fast into another relationship without doing work on yourself and giving yourself time to grieve your losses (not the narcissist but the loss of years of your life that were taken from you). YOU ARE FINALLY FREE. Always remember this. Practice this affirmation: <em>I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a lack of personal power. </em> </p>
<p>See related articles: </p>
<p>https://www.mindbodygreen.com/0-20180/why-highly-sensitive-people-attract-narcissists-how-to-disengage.html</p>
<p>https://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/sense-and-sensitivity/201305/the-relationship-between-sensitive-people-and-narcissists</p>
<p>https://luckyottershaven.com/2014/10/03/a-match-made-in-hell-narcissists-and-hsps/</p>
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<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858472016-12-04T16:00:00-08:002021-05-25T15:45:15-07:00The Age of Narcissism<p>Much has been written about this age of narcissism in which we live. Most of us have a level of "healthy narcissism" in us, but in today's world of mean tweets, excessive selfies, and strange talk of one's "net worth" in dollar amounts, this level of narcissism has risen to a dangerous level, especially in the United States of America, a nation who historically feels that it knows best for other countries. </p>
<p>I just finished reading an excellent book called The Spontaneous Healing of Belief by Gregg Braden. In the book, says that masters from our past such as Buddha and Jesus were "master programmers of consciousness" through the words they spoke and the lives they led. Buddha was formerly a prince who renounced his material riches to seek spiritual enlightenment and encouraged others to do the same. Jesus befriended fishermen and a woman, Mary Magdalene, and allowed them to join his ranks rather than seeking to please the powers that be - those in positions of power of the day. Both leaders were able to demonstrate humility through their powerful choices, words and actions.</p>
<p>My favorite part of the book is when the author is able to talk about the science of "religion" or spirituality by breaking down The Lord's Prayer to reveal a code that can be applied to our lives in order to change our beliefs and recognize the power within while tapping into a higher power. Most people believe that science and religion are mutually exclusive but I have never believed that they had to be so. Most Americans today worship science, in a sense, and hold it up on an altar, believing anything and everything that can be "proven" through experiments. While science obviously has a valuable place in society, so does spirituality - which is often relegated to the back burner of our lives. </p>
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<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858452016-10-27T17:00:00-07:002016-10-28T05:38:24-07:00Too Christian for Me<p>Anytime you identify as "Christian" on any level, people judge you and reject you. They put you in the same category as fundamentalists who decry homosexuality as a sin or tell you that you will burn in hell for all of eternity if you don't follow Jesus. This is not the kind of Christian I am but this is what is always ascribed to me. I could remove the "Christian" term from my bio but I would never do so because there is nothing more important to me than my spirituality, even if it gets me rejected in a music business that favors sexuality over spirituality. I will never belong to it or be accepted by any part of the music business. I have been rejected by every genre of the music business, in part, because I dabble in every genre and blend genres and therefore, get rejected for some part of the whole of who I am. But I choose to be a whole person and refuse to put myself in a box and label myself as any one thing. I will never be accepted by those in the Christian music community simply because of my "new age" beliefs. </p>
<p>There seems to be an over identification with the sexual in the music and entertainment business at large. There are so many ways to be sexual. You can transsexual, homosexual, bisexual, heterosexual, asexual, pansexual, bisexual, etc. I'm sure more terms will come out whereas you can even further identify yourself sexually. But if you dare bring the word "spiritual" or "Christian" into the mix, you are synonymous with "religious" or "fundamentalist Christian" with a huge negative overtone. You are immediately labelled as "homophobic" or "self-righteous" or any of the negative labels that have gone along with daring to call yourself a Christian. </p>
<p>Just wanted to share with you an example of the kind of rejection that those who identify as Christian on any level face. Here is a recent rejection based from a music organization that I submitted my music to. The rejection was obviously based on my spiritual identification:</p>
<p><strong>Rejector:</strong></p>
<p>Thanks Nicole-Marie<br><br>Whilst I did enjoy what I heard - music of 'religious fundamentalism' is <br>something I never feature - sorry.<br><br>I realise as a Christian evangelist it may surprise you that this is a <br>site which features music by Hindus, Sikhs, Christians, Muslims, Jews, <br>Agnostics and Atheists etc. and absolutely refuses to support musicians <br>of overt religious intent.<br><br>I wish you every success with your career as your production, <br>song-writing and vocals are sublime - but being a 'Christian <br>fundamentalist' is not some mark of relevance I am able to countenance <br>on a site which features music from around the world with those of faith <br>of other religions, or none at all.<br><br>Tim</p>
<p><strong>My Response</strong>: </p>
<div id="yiv4335552434yui_3_16_0_ym19_1_1477678651095_6426">That's fine but I am NOT a Christian fundamentalist. I am a blend of Christian and new age beliefs and I respect all faiths and religions. Just want to make that clear. Thanks for taking the time,</div>
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<div>Thanks for the clarification Nicole-Marie.<br clear="none"><br clear="none">Tim</div>
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<div>Also, I am NOT religious at all. I am spiritual. To me, the two terms have nothing to do with one another. <br clear="none">
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<div>I can only draw from your own bio Nicole-Marie<br clear="none"><br clear="none">It is your own bio which references your Christian reference points - <br clear="none">not a fantasy of mine.<br clear="none"><br clear="none"><a id="yui_3_16_0_ym19_1_1477679435985_29314" href="http://www.nicolemariemusic.com/" shape="rect" target="_blank">http://www.nicolemariemusic.com/</a><br clear="none"><br clear="none">' Christian Contemporary ', 'artist nomination for the genres of "folk" <br clear="none">and "Christian" music'.<br clear="none"><br clear="none">If that is not the case - perhaps a rewrite of your bio without the <br clear="none">'Christian' would help to identify how you wish to portray your music.<br clear="none"><br clear="none">Tim</div>
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<div>I am Christian. But I am not a fundamentalist and have never identified as such. I am not embarrassed to identify as Christian no matter how much disdain and rejection it gets me...<br clear="none">
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<div>I eventually blocked this guy from my e-mail but I felt the need to educate him before doing so. He clearly didn't respect my spiritual beliefs and even had disdain for them. I get this all the time: from agnostics, from atheists, from Christians who don't accept the new age side of me and from New agers who don't accept the Christian side of me. There are many different ways to be a Christian. The way I define it is that I am a follower of Christ. I decided to give up control of my life to Christ after I was diagnosed with a rare and aggressive cancer in 2004. I feel like my life was spared for a reason. I must have a purpose even if I don't know what it is. </div>
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<div>But I have always been a spiritual person. When I was in the 5th grade, I wanted to be a nun. I am always trying to find the spiritual perspective on any situation. But if you bring up the word "spiritual" in any way, people flip out or freak out or both. I remember Oprah talking about this problem when she started to include a "Remembering Your Spirit" segment on her talk show. Sometimes the word "spiritual" is fine by people and it is the word "Christian" that triggers them. I can understand why given all the negative things Christianity has been associated with. But every spiritual faith has been associated with something negative. So, in order to avoid vitriol from others, should we be spiritual-less people all together? </div>
<div></div>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858442016-10-15T17:00:00-07:002021-05-25T15:47:53-07:00The Star Spangled Banner<p>Lately, there has been a lot of talk about changing the national anthem from <em>The Star Spangled Banner</em> to <em>America The Beautiful</em> or some other song. It would be kind of cool to have more appreciation for female singer/songwriters such as Katharine Lee Bates who wrote the lyrics to<em> America the Beautiful</em>. I personally like <em>God Bless America</em> but I'm sure agnostics, atheists and other groups of people who don't call their higher power "God" don't like it as much as I do. </p>
<p>Not surprisingly, the debate about our current national anthem is being fueled by Colin Kaepernick who refuses to stand for the flag and national anthem at NFL games and is an expert at getting attention. Good thing he's using this gift for a good cause, right? Now, our current national anthem is being called a "celebration of slavery" and it apparently celebrates the murder of African-Americans. Supporters of changing the national anthem point to the 3rd verse which was removed from the version of <em>The Star Spangled Banner</em> we are most familiar with. The 3rd verse in question:</p>
<address>No refuge could save the hireling and slave<br>From the terror of flight or the gloom of the grave,<br>And the star-spangled banner in triumph doth wave<br>O’er the land of the free and the home of the brave.</address>
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<p>However, there is another side to this debate, CNN writer Mark Clague, writes:</p>
<address>""The Star-Spangled Banner" in no way glorifies or celebrates slavery. The middle two verses of Key's lyric vilify the British enemy in the War of 1812, what Key refers to in Verse 3 as "hirelings and slaves." This enemy included both whites and blacks, largely British professional soldiers (hirelings) but also the Corps of Colonial Marines (slaves). The Colonial Marines were escaped black American slaves who joined British forces because of the promise of freedom in return for fighting their former masters."</address>
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<p>Clague goes on to says, "As a founder and officer of the American Colonization Society (1816--1964), Key viewed slavery as a moral wrong that required a solution" and "To serve this community, Key helped established the Georgetown Lancaster School for freed people of color and even taught there. Over 1,000 black children were students at the school, and most attended tuition-free." Clague also writes: "Speaking to the US Supreme Court, Key described the treatment of slaves as "extreme cruelty" and slaves as "unhappy victims." Does this sound like a racist to you? To me, it sounds like Black lives did matter to the songwriter of The Star Spangled Banner.</p>
<p>However, the author of the lyrics for <em>The Star Spangled Banner, </em>Francis Scott Key<em>,</em> was supposedly "taking great satisfaction in the death of slaves who’d freed themselves" when he penned the third verse according to <em>The Intercept</em> writer, Jon Schwarz. Never mind the fact that this verse was removed. The fact that it was there in the first place is so offensive to people that the baby should apparently be thrown out with the bathwater if any part of the song was written a "racist." Anybody and anything can be labelled as "racist" these days. </p>
<p>Forget about the fact that Francis Scott Key freed some of his slaves in the 1830's and apparently, hired one back for wages. Key also apparently criticized slavery's cruelties to such as degree that he was apparently called "The Nigger Lawyer" because he dared to defend African Immigrants on a voluntary basis in his job as a lawyer. </p>
<p>I guess we have to find the "perfect person" and songwriter to pen a song that resonates with all Americans. Boy, won't that be hard: Americans all agreeing on something or someone for that matter! This transcendent person cannot be a real person with good and bad parts. They have to be a perfect person who has never said anything or written anything they may come to regret or that is offensive in any way to others. </p>
<p>Apparently, your creative creations mean nothing if you've possibly made any mistakes in life. Apparently, it means nothing if you regret those things and try to atone for your wrongs by your present or future actions. The Star Spangled Banner is one of the most beautiful songs ever written. Some of the things that make it such a great song is that it is very difficult to sing and therefore reserved for only the best singers, it has lots of dynamics and it inspires us somehow on deep level. Maybe Bob Dylan should write the next national anthem since he just won the Nobel Peace Prize. He's not controversial at all, right?</p>
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<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858432016-10-08T17:00:00-07:002021-05-25T15:49:28-07:00The Plus Sides of Call-Out Culture<p>I recently came across an article titled: <em>What Makes Call-Out Culture So Toxic</em>. This attack on call-out culture is very popular right now. There was even an article in <em>Time</em> magazine about it. It's like anyone who calls anyone else out is currently being called out themselves. I'm not hearing much, however, about the plus sides of call-out culture. I do believe there is another side to every thing. Here are some of the plus sides of call-out culture that I see:</p>
<p>- Holds people accountable, especially those holding public offices or in positions of power. There are some people who repeatedly get away with bad behavior because nobody says anything. I would choose to live in the throes of call-out culture than live in a society where you are rendered silent or you are too afraid to say anything. </p>
<p>- Lets people know what behavior, words or actions are inappropriate. Believe it or not, not everyone is socially intelligent. People with personality disorders, especially Narcissists, will continue to behave in appalling ways or say hurtful things unless others set a boundary with them or repeatedly let them know that it's not okay. </p>
<p>- Let's us know who's safe or not safe. It's a good thing that Jerry Sandusky was called out on his sexual abuse of children, for example. It's a good thing that Bill Cosby was called out by comedian Hannibal Buress as it led to many survivors of sexual assault finally feeling heard and also let us know that some people believes that one man's "legacy" is more important than bringing the issue of sexual assault on women out of the shadows. </p>
<p>- Let's us know where other people stand on issues. </p>
<p>- Let's us know that there are other cultures out there other than our own and other viewpoints out there other than our own which may make us less judgmental and provincial. In this way, we can learn about acceptance and unity. To say that a culture that always says the politically correct thing or that keeps most of their feelings/thoughts unexpressed is superior to a culture that just calls you out on the carpet, is close-minded and may even be racist.</p>
<p>- Helps us learn not to take things personally. After all, what's being said says more about the person saying it than who they are saying it about. </p>
<p>- Helps us to not feel alone or feel less shameful/confused/scared l if someone has the courage to call out someone when we either didn't have the words or the strength to do so but felt the same way about the person being called out. </p>
<p>- Helps us find the balance between repressing our feelings and thoughts and speaking out on them. It's not good mental health on a personal level or a societal level if people feel that they must not say anything for fear or repercussion, social death or other feared consequence. Repressed feelings can become physical disease or can build up to an explosion such as a mass shooting. </p>
<p>- Can help us change policies and unequities. Where would we be as a society if there weren't whistle blowers who speak out about sexual harassment on the job? Where would we be if we didn't have people brave enough to advocate and speak out for abused and neglected children, elderly or animals? When we blow the whistle or speak out against abuse, we are in essence calling out the abuser(s).</p>
<p>- Can help bring the truth to light and encourage others to speak their truths when others don't want to see it, accept it or acknowledge it. People usually deny your experience of someone because they have a different experience of that person. But that doesn't make your experience any less true. For example, females tend to bully by exclusion. Well, if you are the person being excluded, no one is going to validate your experience of the ring leader because they don't want to align themselves with the person on the outs and be excluded as well. Scientology thrives on this concept. Another example is when someone denies your experience of sexual abuse because they weren't abused themselves or can't imagine the abuser doing what they did. </p>
<p>- Can, believe it not, help develop compassion in our society. Unless a person is a psychopath, narcissistic, sociopath, or other category of person that lacks empathy and may never develop it, we all have the potential to develop our compassion towards others who are suffering without having to suffer with the same affliction or circumstance as well. When someone is calling someone else out, they are doing it for a reason. Their motivation could come from a good place or could come from a state of suffering. Perhaps, if we listened to the tears underneath the anger and rage rather than dismissed such people as "crazy" or "monsters" or any other negative label, we could learn something about the human experience even if we didn't experience it ourselves. There are many forms of trauma to be had. Most of us have been traumatized at some point in our life. Trauma can manifest as many things such as Bipolar Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, violence, bullying, health issues, and many other negative states and conditions. I've heard people use the word "Bipolar" in a pejorative sense saying such things as "my bipolar boss." But some of the most amazing people in our history have had Bipolar Disorder. There can be a genetic component but there can also be a trauma component. </p>
<p>I do believe that people can take it too far or call-out with a "bad" intention of doing harm, humiliating, controlling, manipulating, or publicly shaming others. But if the intention behind the call-out is to inform, to improve lives, to protect, to make people think of another side of the issue, to express our own experience, to challenge the status quo or bring a level of accountability to the table, then perhaps call-out culture isn't all bad. </p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858422016-09-21T17:00:00-07:002016-09-22T16:35:11-07:00The Symbolism of the Flag<p>The American flag stands for many things including opportunity and freedom of speech. I find it hugely ironic that Colin Kaepernick is getting all this attention and support for disrespecting something that is symbolic of the two very things that he has benefited enormously from. After all, he had the number one selling jersey after all his attention-whoring. I get his need to stand up and speak out on the whole police brutality against Black lives but why do it in this fashion? If he is so against America, why not move to another country? Why not be grateful for all the great things about America and focus on all the positive things that the flag represents about America? I can see how the confederate flag got associated with racism but I don't understand why today's flag is being desecrated? </p>
<p>The American flag is especially important to veterans and none more so than Vietnam veterans who were the only group of veterans that were spat upon and called "baby killer" when they arrived home from war. Vietnam veterans had to sit and watch people burn the American flag on TV as they risked their lives, saw their comrades die and suffered chronic trauma that still haunts many of them today. I am proud to say that I am the daughter of a Vietnam veteran and I spent at least 5 years of my professional life working with Vietnam vets and listening to their stories. Anyone disrespecting the flag in anyway is just continuing to traumatize this under-served and under-appreciated group of people. THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE, PAPA!</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858402016-09-18T17:00:00-07:002016-09-19T03:47:49-07:00The Good Enough Christian<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">I recently saw the headline to an online article that was disturbing: "Why Amy Grant Chose Gays Over God." There is so much judgment in that headline, in that statement. Though I was born and raised as a Christian, I don't like being associated with some of the most judgmental people on earth. Most Christians have their own definition of what being a "good-enough" Christian is. For some, this definition includes going to church regularly. For others, this definition involves not drinking alcohol or using substances of any sort. For most Christians, this includes decrying homosexuality. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">I've spent years trying to find a Christian church that doesn't preach hatred about gays and I've yet to find one. Most Christians will say, "it's a sin like any other" but no church that I have attended has decried a "sin" more passionately and fervently than the "sin of homosexuality." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">To be a good enough Christian, you must also decry anything that is "new age." Because my beliefs are a blend of new age and Christian ideas, I have never fit in. I used to have a Christian friend who would lecture me every time I saw her. What kind of friendship is that? Who wants a friend who does nothing but lecture you? It was clear that she saw herself to be the superior Christian in our circle. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Another Christian lady who sold me some essential oils said to me, "we have to take them back from the new agers." Essential oils don't belong to any group of people. Spirituality doesn't belong to any group of people. But you are quick to be ostracized if you believe anything that falls outside the norm. I once had two Christian women gang up on me in a debate on whether or not demons and evil spirits exist. Their argument was that these things only existed at the time of Jesus. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">I have seen so many Christians interfere with any sense of unity in the world. You either belong or you don't. You're either good enough or you're not. You either follow the bible to a T or you aren't truly a Christian and shouldn't be calling yourself such. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Amy Grant is one of my favorite artists. She got a lot of criticism for daring to venture outside of Christian music and go into pop music in the 1980's and 1990's. I'm sure that many Christians felt like their were losing one of their own to the world the same way that many Country fans are protective of their artists and resent it when any big Country artist dares to cross over into pop music. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">One day, these boundaries won't remain. They will all dissolve into unity when we discover that we are just as gay as the person we don't want sitting next to us. We already see the genres of music blending. Pretty soon, there will be no genres. Though most people won't admit it openly, most people do believe a blend of things when it comes to spirituality. I really don't want to have a sense of fellowship with any group that holds themselves apart as as superior to all the rest. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">I call myself a Christian not because I have fellowship with any group of people, but because I am a follower of Christ. And I can have a direct connection with him. I don't have to go through a priest or have fellowship to feel a sense of belonging with him. Christ loved all people. And as follower of Christ, I aim to do the same.</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858392016-09-12T17:00:00-07:002016-09-12T23:02:15-07:00The Anointing of the Sick<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">With all this talk about who's more healthy among our current presidential candidates, I feel compelled to blog about how I believe health to be overrated. As a cancer survivor and also as someone who lives with a autoimmune illness, I know that being sick can make you stronger on all levels of being: spiritually, physically, emotionally, and mentally. I also believe that being sick can teach you lessons like humility, strengthen your faith in a higher power, make you wiser and enhance your spiritual growth, especially if you are here on this earth school to learn about compassion and unity. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Traditionally, those who are sick are viewed as "weak" or lazy and there is a history in our humanity of the infirmed being isolated and quarantined from the rest of society. We have it in our genes, in our history to be scared of those who are ill. After all, whatever ails them may be contagious and we fear that we may become ill too and possibly die from that illness. For some, the fear of death is the biggest fear there is. For those that fear death, it is inconceivable that one can gain anything from being sick for sickness if viewed mostly as a nuisance that you just want to rid of. The healthy and strong may not ever have the beauty of experiencing the truth: that illness can you assist you in overcoming your fears, even your fear of death. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">From the time I was a little girl, I suffered from Eczema. I was called a "leper" by my peers at times especially since my open skin sores left me vulnerable to even worse-looking conditions like Impetigo. Peers would mock the way I rubbed dead skin off my face and gossip about me behind my back, wondering amongst themselves, "what's wrong with her skin" instead of just asking me. I still have eczema - I never "outgrew" it like a lot of children do. My Eczema has taught me a lot about the need to look for one's inner beauty and spirit and seeing through one's outer charm or seemingly perfect aesthetics. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Some of the wisest people that have graced our earth with their presence are people that are sick. If you look at someone like Mattie Stepanek, the child peace advocate and motivational speaker that sold best-selling books of his poetry and was featured on Oprah, you can see that some of the wisest souls come in the most sickly bodies. He died at age 14 in 2004 from the <span class="_Tgc">rare disorder, dysautonomic mitochondrial myopathy, that his older siblings also died from. But in his short life, he spread his message of hope and peace. Sometimes having a rare condition makes you stand out and you can either choose to look at it as an opportunity to promote spiritual evolution and advancement in our society or you can choose to be as humiliated as you are sometimes treated and then hide in some corner of the world.</span></span></p>
<p><span class="_Tgc" style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">It took me some time to adjust to every infirmity that I have been given but I have chosen to learn what I can from the rare cancer I survived. I learned things like gratitude and faith and I learned about the depths of my own strengths. I am still adjusting to autoimmune hearing loss but I have already learned a lot from this condition as well. I am learning about compassion for those who are hearing impaired and I am learning about self-love as you are often seen as someone is "stuck-up" when you don't hear people and they mistakenly believe that you are ignoring them. You can also be accused of many other things as you display behaviors that aren't deemed socially accepted or confuses others as you struggle to adjust to your new normal and communicate and connect with others in a new way. <br></span></p>
<p><span class="_Tgc" style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">I believe that some of the oldest and wisest souls are those who choose to take on or be born with serious illnesses or conditions. Sometimes they aren't here to learn at all but have agreed to endure the "hardship" or pain in order to teach others lessons with their illness. My brother has Neurofibromatosis (NF) and I believe that he is an old soul. He is one of the most loving people I know. Those with Down's Syndrome are also some of the most loving people on earth. </span></span></p>
<p><span class="_Tgc" style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">Perhaps of our view of sickness needs to change. Perhaps those with illness and developmental disorders aren't sick or disordered at all. From a higher perspective, they really aren't the sick ones. They are the anointed ones here to anoint the rest of us with all the blessings that have been bestowed upon them. Will we listen to their messages? Will we learn from them? Can we learn from our own illnesses? Or will we continue to attack or mock or pity those who are ill in any way as we boast about our own supposed healthiness? </span> </span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858382016-08-21T17:00:00-07:002016-08-22T07:24:15-07:00Let Yourself Fall Apart<p>"... You are not what will fall apart. Who you are can never fall apart. What will collapse is the haunted house of self-flattering and security seeking pictures you had mistakenly identified as a solution to your shaky life. These pictures are not the solution to your shakiness, they are the source of it." - Guy Finley, author of The Secret of Letting Go </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858372016-08-07T17:00:00-07:002016-08-08T05:33:03-07:00Go See Gleason<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Yesterday, I saw an incredible movie called <em>Gleason</em>. It is currently out in theaters in limited release. Though it is a documentary, I hope this movie will have a much wider release soon. It is already getting Oscar buzz and is getting a 96% on rotten tomatoes. I can't imagine what 4% of people didn't like it. The movie follows the life of retired New Orleans Saints' football player, Steve Gleason, who is from Spokane, Washington and played college football at WSU. While playing for the Saints, he met and went on to marry New Orleans native, Michel Varisco. Before the birth of their son, Rivers, he was diagnosed with ALS. The movie follows their journey as a family through the progression of the illness. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">I have seen other movies about ALS including The Theory of Everything and Jason Becker: Not Dead Yet. Both are incredible movies but this movie offers something different. Before losing his voice, Steve starts making video recordings for his son since the life expectancy for ALS is typically 2-5 years following diagnosis. The movie focuses on the father son relationship with Steve and his own father as well. Steve's father, who is highly Christian and religious, goes on his own journey of accepting Steve's way of having faith, accepting Steve's condition, and accepting that there is only so much he can do other than develop compassion to help his son. I cried early on in the movie and didn't stop crying until the end. But the part where I had to keep myself from wailing was when Steve, with slurred speech and as loud as he can, almost yells at his father, "my soul is saved!" At that, his father takes him into his arms and holds him and they both cry together in a deep embrace. The whole thing reminds me of that excellent, powerful, Christian song "He's My Son" by Mark Schultz.</span></p>
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<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">The movie also does a great job of including the caregiver's perspective through Michel's experience of becoming Steve's main caregiver and how exhausting it can be. Being a caregiver is highly stressful, exhausting and undervalued in our society. It is the patient who gets all the attention, sympathy and compassion while very few stop to ask the caregiver how they are doing. I like how the movie doesn't shy away from Michel's journey through anger, frustration, depression and apathy as a caregiver and spouse. In some ways, it is almost harder to be in the position of caregiver or spouse to a person who is diagnosed with a life-threatening condition. You have no control over the situation as you watch your loved one go through incredible pain. Mental health experts say that it can be more traumatizing to witness something traumatic than to actually go through the traumatic experience yourself. </span></p>
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<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Above all, the movie is so inspirational. Steve starts an organization called Team Gleason with the slogan "No White Flags" to bring awareness to ALS and to assist those with ALS and their families in getting equipment and in funding the experiences one might miss out on due to the limited mobility and functioning those with ALS contend with. It brings in ideas about healthcare and Team Gleason's fight to get things like Speech Generating Devices covered under Medicare. These devices are what help those with ALS have a voice. If they aren't covered, you are in effect saying that their voice doesn't matter. The movie makes you think less about and complain less about the things in your life that aren't ideal. Since seeing the movie, I have adopted a new mantra to remind myself of this when I start getting in victim mode or start complaining about things that don't really matter: "No white flags." </span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858362016-07-28T17:00:00-07:002016-07-28T17:39:14-07:00The Grace of God<p>"When we are aware of the divine spark that exists within us, we can go to any church, any synagogue, any temple, any mosque, any drum circle, and always find the grace of God." - Don Miguel Ruiz Jr.</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858352016-07-26T17:00:00-07:002016-07-28T17:40:47-07:00The Goddess Reason<p>"Our present lives are dominated by the goddess Reason, who is our greatest and most tragic illusion. By the aid of reason, so we assure ourselves, we have 'conquered nature.' " - Carl Jung</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858342016-07-25T17:00:00-07:002016-07-26T11:30:25-07:00Anthropology<p>"Anthropologists have often described what happens to a primitive society when its spiritual values are exposed to the impact of modern civilization. Its people lose the meaning of their lives, their social organization disintegrates, and they themselves morally decay. " - Carl Jung, from Man and His Symbols </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858322016-07-05T17:00:00-07:002016-07-06T14:45:06-07:00Master Stillness<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">"Remember that when the waters of a lake are absolutely still, the lake reflects the tress, the sky, and everything around it perfectly. At the slightest breeze, with the smallest ripple in the waters, the lake reflects nothing but itself. To see another with clarity and objectivity, one first must master stillness." - Alberto Villoldo, author of <em>Shaman, Healer, Sage</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858312016-07-03T17:00:00-07:002016-07-04T03:40:13-07:00Updated Information for Upcoming CD Release Party<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/5b952bef3273204daf19d25e8f03fd8d0b857b6e/original/cdreleaseflyer.png/!!/b%3AWyJyZXNpemU6MTc1NHgxMjQwIl0%3D.png" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="1240" width="1754" /></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858302016-06-26T17:00:00-07:002016-06-27T05:38:43-07:00Death is No Enemy<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">"Death is no enemy of man; it is a friend who, when the work of life is done, just cuts the cord that binds the human boat to earth, that it may sail on smoother seas." - Matheno, from The Aquarian Gospel</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858292016-06-23T17:00:00-07:002016-06-24T09:06:25-07:00Spend Time With Nature<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">"When one attunes himself with Nature, he attunes himself to the power of the universe. His strength then becomes limitless. When one attunes himself to the Divine behind all natural, universal phenomena, he makes himself a channel for the Divine to flow in pristine splendor into the dark alleys and buried chambers of this relative world." - Swami Kriyananda</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858282016-06-14T17:00:00-07:002016-06-15T15:40:46-07:00Quote from The Art and Science of Raja Yoga<p>"In even the darkest age [] some souls are fully enlightened. And in even the most enlightened age, some men live in a self-created darkness." - Swami Kriyananda</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858272016-06-13T17:00:00-07:002016-06-14T02:44:21-07:00Moment of Silence<address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">With this moment of silence</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">May you feel the peace</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">May you feel the love</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">and the unity</span></address><address> </address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">With this moment of silence</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">I remember thee</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">I remember your smile</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">and your beauty</span></address><address> </address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">With this moment of silence</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">May we all believe</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">we can live as one</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">as we all live free</span></address><address> </address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">With this moment of silence </span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">May we find the meaning</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">May we celebrate being</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">who we are and could be</span></address><address> </address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">As we work towards compassion</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">and understanding</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">As we find in ourselves</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">acceptance and serenity</span></address><address> </address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">May we remember those</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">who lived their truth fully</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">and have a moment of silence</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">eternally</span></address>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858262016-06-05T17:00:00-07:002016-06-06T16:56:42-07:00Dreamless Sleep<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"If man's sleep be deep and dreamless, for several hours he is able to transfer his consciousness or sense of I-ness, to the causal body; such sleep is revivifying. A dreamer is contacting his astral and not his causal body; his sleep is not full refreshing." - Sri Yukteswar</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858252016-06-02T17:00:00-07:002016-06-03T06:25:35-07:00Indian Music and The Cosmic Song<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Krishna, is the East Indian version of the pied piper. He is always shown in Hindu art with a flute, on which he plays enrapturing song that recalls to their true home the human souls wandering in maya-delusion.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">The Sama Veda of India contains the worlds earliest writings on musical science. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">The foundation stone of Hindu music is the ragas or fixed melodic scales. The six basic ragas branch out into 126 derivative raginis (wives) and putras (sons). Each raga has a minimum of 5 notes: a leading note, a secondary note, helping notes, and a dissonant note (the enemy). </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Each of the 6 basic ragas has a natural correspondence with a certain hour of the day and season of the year. The Hindole Raga is heard only at dawn in the spring to evoke universal love. The Deepaka Raga is played during the evening in summer to arouse compassion. The Megha Raga is a melody for midday in the rainy season, to summon courage. Bhairava Raga is played in the mornings of August, September, and October to achieve tranquility. Sri Raga is reserved for autumn twilights to attain pure love. Malkounsa Raga is heard at midnights in winder, for valor.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">The ancient rishis discovered these laws of sound alliance between nature and man. Because nature is an objectification of Aum, the Primal Sound or Vibratory Word, man can obtain control over all natural manifestations through the use of certain mantras or chants. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Indian music divides the octave into 22 srutis or demi-semitones. These microtonal intervals permit fine shades of musical expression unattainable by the Western chromatic scale of 12 semitones. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">The Hindu musican does not read set notes; he clothes anew at each playing the bare skeleton of the raga, often confining himself to a single melodic sequence. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Ancient Sanskrit literature describes 120 talas or time-measures. The traditional founder of Hindu music, Bharata, is said to have isolated 32 kinds of tala in the song of a lark. The origin of tala or rhythm is rooted in human movements - the double time of walking, and the triple time of respiration in sleep, when inhalation is twice the length of exhalation. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">India has always recognized the human voice as the most perfect instrument of sound. Hindu music therefore largely confines itself to the voice range of three octaves. For the same reason, melody is stressed, rather than harmony.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">The deeper aim of the early rishi-musicians was to blend the singer with the Cosmic Song which can be heard through the awakening of man's occult spinal centers. Indian music is a subjective, spiritual, and individualistic art, aiming not at symphonic brilliance but at personal harmony with the Oversoul. </span></p>
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<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">The above is an excerpt from <em>Autobiography of a Yogi</em> by Paramhansa Yogananda</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858242016-05-31T17:00:00-07:002016-06-01T14:51:06-07:00The Soul Has No Sex<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"In sleep, you do not know whether you are a man or a woman," he said. "Just as a man, impersonating a woman, does not become one, so the soul, impersonating both man and woman, has no sex. The soul is the pure, changeless image of God."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Sri Yukteswar never avoided or blamed women as objects of seduction. Men, he said, were also a temptation to women. I once inquired of my guru why a great ancient saint had called women "the door to hell."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"A girl must have proved very troublesome to his peace of mind in his early life," my guru answered causticly. "Otherwise he would have denounced, not woman, but some imperfection in his own self-control."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">- The above is an excerpt from <em>Autobiography of a Yogi</em> by Paramhansa Yogananda </span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858232016-05-30T17:00:00-07:002016-05-31T07:57:06-07:00The Real Renunciates<p>"I have left a few paltry rupees, a few petty pleasures, for a cosmic empire of endless bliss. How then have I denied myself anything? I know the joy of sharing the treasure. Is that a sacrifice? The shortsighted worldly folk are verily the real Renunciates! They relinquish an unparalleled divine possession for a poor handful of earthly toys."</p>
<p>- Bhaduri Mahasaya (The Levitating Saint) as quoted from Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramhansa Yogananda, reportedly the only book Steve Jobs ever downloaded on his iPad </p>
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<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858222016-05-17T17:00:00-07:002016-05-18T16:49:16-07:00Group Feeling and Belief<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">"As I mentioned in <em>The Divine Matrix</em>, one of the most powerful examples of group feeling and belief affecting a broad geographic area was documented as a daring experiment during the war between Lebanon and Israel that began in 1982. It was during that time that researchers trained a group of people to "feel" peace in their bodies while believing that it was already present within them, rather than simply thinking about it in their minds or praying "for" it to occur. For this particular experiment, those involved used a form of meditation known as TM (Transcendental Meditation) to achieve that feeling.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">At appointed times on specific days of the month, these people were positioned throughout the war-torn areas of the Middle East. During the window of time when they were feeling peace, terrorist activities ceased, the rate of crimes against people went down, the number of emergency-room visits declined, and the incidence of traffic accidents dropped. When the participants' feelings changed, the statistics were reversed. This study confirmed the earlier findings: When a small percentage of the population achieved peace within themselves, it was reflected in the world around them.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">[]...the data was so consistent that the researchers were able to identify how many people are needed to share the experience of peace before it's mirrored in their world. The number is the square root of one percent of the population. This formula produces figures that are smaller than we might expect. For example, in a city of one million people, the number is about 100. In a world of 6 billion, it's just under 8,000. This calculation represents only the minimum needed to begin the process. The more people involved in feeling peace, the faster the effect is created. The study became known as the International Peace Project in the Middle East and the results were eventually published in <em>The Journal of Conflict Resolution</em> in 1988." </span></p>
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<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">- Gregg Braden, author of <em>The Spontaneous Healing of Belief</em></span></p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858212016-05-14T17:00:00-07:002016-05-15T04:30:16-07:00Prince Edition of Rolling Stone<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">You must read the latest Prince edition of Rolling Stone. It contains great tributes to Prince and the best article I ever read about Prince by Brian Hiatt. Here are some excerpts:</span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">"If Michael Jackson was the King of Pop, then Prince should be the Emperor." - Stevie Wonder</span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">"He was singular in his music - he was his own genre - and that same singularity extended to everything in his life." - Questlove</span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">It's nearly 2 a.m., and Prince is done for the night. He walks me through the depths of Paisley Park, his shoes glowing in the dark, to retrieve my jacket and bag. As we walk, I hear doves cry - actual doves that live in a cage somewhere in the rafters. As I put on my coat, Prince invites me to join the band in London. The zipper catches badly on the way up. "F@!#," I say, and my host looks stricken. "So much for not cursing," he says. I apologize. Prince looks me in the eyes, and wraps me in a tight hug. I am, as promised, dismantled by his instant forgiveness. I can still feel that embrace as I walk outside, where moonlight shines on a thick layer of immaculate, freshly fallen snow. - A Final Visit With Prince by Brian Hiatt</span></p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858202016-05-07T17:00:00-07:002016-06-01T14:54:51-07:00Miracles Versus Work of the Devil<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Four days after Pope John XXIII died, his apparition reportedly appeared to Sister Caterina Capitani, a nun of the Sisters of Charity of St. Vincent de Paul who had been suffering from severe gastric hemorrhages, a condition thought to be incurable. She had just had unsuccessful surgery for the condition and was in a hospital in Naples preparing to die when she felt a hand upon the incision which had opened on her abdomen. She turned to see the spirit of the late pope who said to her, "Sister, you have called to me so many times, as have so many of the Sisters of Charity of St. Vincent de Paul, that you have turned torn out of my heart this miracle. But now do not fear. You are healed!" The moment the spirit of the deceased pope diasappeared, Sister Capitani was able to rise from her bed and reported no pain. The open wound on her abdomen was gone. Not even a surgical scar remained. The event was deemed a miracle in May 1966. Among Christians, the act is often deemed a miracle. However, whenever similar phenomena occur among members of other spiritual groups, orthodox clergy are likely to denounce the "miracle" as the work of the devil. Is a reported healing by an intervening ghost or spirit entity any less valid than a miraculous act performed by a religious figure or saint?</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858192016-04-26T17:00:00-07:002016-04-27T12:11:28-07:00The PTSD of Ilness<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">"PTSD tends to pile on top of itself. Once you've been sick for any period of time, and you start believing your body is letting you down, and you're lost in a non-diagnosis or misdiagnosis or a diagnosis that leads to no healing, and the financial strain starts to build, and maybe you feel your hold slipping on your career or relationships - it makes you a likely candidate for a unique composition of posttraumatic stress disorders." - Anthony William, Medical Medium</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858182016-04-20T17:00:00-07:002016-04-21T16:34:52-07:00The Transcendence of Prince<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">I feel fortunate to have been raised on Prince's music and to have been heavily influenced by him as a musician and singer. I have always listed him as an influence and was lucky enough to see him perform at the Gorge in George, Washington. Besides being a musical and creative genius, Prince was transcendent in so many ways. There's no way you can't take for granted someone who transcends gender and race and blends sex and religion, female and male into one. He was so gifted on so many instruments that he could and did create and produce whole songs all by himself. Despite getting recognition and success at a early age, he was so humble that he performed other people's songs at the 2007 Superbowl Halftime show and went under other names like "Christopher" on work he did for other artists - such as the awesome keyboard part he played on Stevie Nicks' "Stand Back." He was so generous with his talent and supportive of other artists, especially women in music, that he championed people like Vanity, collaborated often with other artists such as Madonna, Sheila E and Gwen Stefani, and wrote amazing songs for others like Nothing Compares 2 U for Sinead O'Conner and Manic Monday for The Bangles. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">It seemed that Prince never got old or out of style yet at the same time he was a throwback to the greats like James Brown and Little Richard. His music videos were always entertaining, beautiful and stylish. He had an amazing work ethic and was so respected as a well-rounded and extraordinarily talented artist, that just showing up to any award's show as a presenter garnered standing ovations without him having to say a word. Purple Rain is one of my favorite movies. My favorite Prince music videos include: Cream, 1999, When Doves Cry, and Seven. My favorite Prince songs are:</span></p>
<address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">1) When Doves Cry</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">2) Gold</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">3) Little Red Corvette</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">4) Raspberry Beret</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">5) Seven</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">6) Cream</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">7) 1999</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">8) Diamonds and Pearls</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">9) Let's Go Crazy</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">10) Erotic City</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">11) You Got the Look (duet with Sheena Easton) </span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">12) Purple Rain</span></address><address><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">13) Kiss</span></address><address> </address>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">He wasn't afraid to step outside the box and experiment with different sounds and styles. He was gorgeous and inspiring and unique. He was one of the first artists of mixed race to come to the forefront, was a quiet humanitarian and was willing to speak out on issues such as artists' rights. In a growing climate of diminished creativity and musicianship, reduced diversity as far what genres and artists get promoted on the mainstream radio and on music video television, and an increasing entitlement for free music among the general public, I feel very lucky to have shared earth time with someone like Prince who was beyond genre and so out of this world that he brought the art form of music to a whole new level. When he performed at the Superbowl in 2007, he didn't let the downpour get in his way but took advantage of it by performing an unforgettable rendition of Purple Rain. His music transcends and we should be grateful for all the songs, performances and art (videos, movies, etc.) that he left behind. I'm sure there is more to come from his vault posthumously. Talk about leaving the world a better place!</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858172016-04-07T17:00:00-07:002016-04-07T18:07:02-07:00The Essence of Love<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"... consider radiating your aura with the essence of love. Let any negative energy that comes your way to simply flow through, around and from you and be changed to love and light to feed you and sent to God's light. When you are connected to the Creator, negative thought-forms and psychic attacks will melt as snow in spring to create pure water to wash you clean." - Vianna Stibal, author of <em>ThetaHealing</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858162016-03-22T17:00:00-07:002016-03-23T13:26:44-07:00It is Done!<p><span style="font-size: medium;">My fourth and quite possibly last album, The Music Our Love Makes, is finally done after nearly 2 years of working on it. I'm very proud of the work that I and my producer, Jeremy Cays, put into the project. It turned out to be my best album so far. It will be available for digital sales (i.e. iTunes, etc) sometime next week. It will be available for physical CD sales around 4/13/16 through CDbaby. I will also be doing a CD release party sometime this spring or summer. More to come!</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858152016-03-15T17:00:00-07:002016-03-15T18:48:25-07:00Belief Work<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"></span></span><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">"When you change belief systems in the morphogenetic field, some illnesses and diseases can heal instantly. One of my clients was suffering from cancer of the colon. This was his third bout with this illness. After releasing the belief of 'I hate my father' from his core and genetic levels, he found his cancer disappeared."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">- Vianna Stibal, author of ThetaHealing</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858142016-03-07T16:00:00-08:002016-03-15T18:39:46-07:00Exercise as a Behavioral Prescription for Depression and Anxiety<p> </p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"... Exercise regulates the release of the three Neurotransmitters most commonly associated with the maintenance of mental health: serotonin, dopamine, and norepinephrine. Although exercise cannot substitute for psychiatric treatment, the role of exercise on mood is so pronounced that many psychiatrists have begun adding a regimen of physical activity to the normal course of therapy. But in one experiment with depressed individuals, rigorous exercise was actually substituted for antidepressant medication. Even when compared against medicated controls, the treatment outcomes were astonishingly successful. For both depression and anxiety, exercise is beneficial immediately and over the long term. It is equally effective for men and women, and the longer the program is deployed, the greater the effect becomes. It is especially helpful for severe cases and for older people." - John Medina, author of Brain Rules </span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858132016-03-05T16:00:00-08:002016-03-06T15:17:35-08:00Brain Rules<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"We have created high-stress office environments, even though a stressed brain is significantly less productive." - John Medina, author of <em>Brain Rules</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858122016-02-26T16:00:00-08:002016-03-01T03:20:00-08:00The Voice Produces Only What the Ear Can Hear<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Dr. Alfred Tomatis once said, "the voice produces only what the ear can hear." He had an "electronic" ear and challenged the medical, educational, and musical world with that statement. Don Campbell, author of Creating Inner Harmony, writes about Dr. Tomatis and how he was influenced by the doctor:</span></p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">I realized that I'd never been taught about the ear's ability to listen; I only understood the basic mechanism. When he amplified specific ranges in my left ear, I actually lost track of my vocal control and felt like I was a total non-singer. Then he switched the frequencies to the right ear, and suddenly I was in tune with myself again.</span></p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">While serving as director of the Institute of Music, Health and Education, I formally tested more than 500 students with right- and left-ear stimulation and observed how the texture and tuning of their voices changed. By looking at their audiological listening charts, there was often an obvious way to see if the students' ears were hypersensitive to certain parts of their vocal ranges. It was in those places that the ability to sing in tune was challenged. Often, there'd be a place where tone perception in one of the ears was weak - and it always showed up in the voice.</span></p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Dr. Tomatis told me the story of the melancholy monks at Benedictine abbey in the south of France. He was called there a few years after Vatican II because they were experiencing stress, fatigues, and sleep disorders. The abbot thought that there was some kind of virus slowly killing the monks. After many specialists had examined the men, only Tomatis realized that they'd been slowly weaned off their routine of singing Gregorian chants nine times a day. This had been replaced with only a few services sung in French in a new style.</span></p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">The despondence of the monks wasn't physiological, but audiological! Tomatis put the monks back on a full diet of chant. Within weeks, the elongated tones of devotional praise and prayer had restored the health of the abbey residents. </span></p>
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<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">As a hearing-impaired singer, I can relate to the above. I lost my left ear and some pitches in my right ear in 2009/2010 and I went from a first soprano to an alto. Where music had once been a coping skill for me, I was no longer able to hear in stereo and loathed songs that didn't pan all instruments straight down the middle. I could no longer tone the same as a singer. The assault of auditory abuse in certain work environments led me on a crusade to speak up for myself on behalf of all hearing-impaired individuals and dare to ask for accommodations. This lead to backlash from my superiors, bullying and career execution. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Whereas I was once profoundly afraid of becoming completely deaf and have been legally deaf at times given my illness, I feel more at peace with the idea now that I have started taken sign language, have learned more about the deaf community and culture, and have met amazing people within that community. I will still choose to make as much music as possible while I have hearing because music was always my first love. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">I remember watching a special on TV about Jackie Evancho - the singer who gained worldwide attention at age 10 when she competed in the fifth season of America's Got Talent and finished in second place. On the news special, Jackie's vocal chords were looked at in an attempt to see what makes her sing so well at such an early age. I remember thinking at the time, why aren't they looking at her ears instead?</span></p>
<p style="padding-left: 30px;"> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858112016-02-24T16:00:00-08:002016-02-25T09:52:09-08:00Music is the Answer<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">"Music is the answer to the mystery of life; it is the most profound of all the arts; it expresses the deepest thoughts of life and being in simple language which nonetheless cannot be translated." - Arthur Schopenhauer</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858102016-02-24T16:00:00-08:002016-02-25T06:47:44-08:00Our Inner Voice<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">"Our deep inner voice is often hidden by all the stimulation of daily life, and we also learn to use our thoughts to cover it." - Don Campbell, author of<em> Creating Inner Harmony</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858092016-02-18T16:00:00-08:002016-02-19T02:36:07-08:00Enter the Pen<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif; font-size: medium;">John 10:7-15 Jesus emphasized, "I can guarantee this truth: I am the gate for the sheep. All who came before I did were thieves or robbers. However, the sheep didn't respond to them. I am the gate. Those who enter the sheep pen through me will be saved. They will go in and out of the sheep pen and find food. A thief comes to steal, kill, and destroy. But I came so that my sheep will have life and so that they will have everything they need. I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd gives his life for the sheep. A hired hand isn't a shepherd and doesn't own the sheep. When he sees a wolf coming, he abandons the sheep and quickly runs away. So the wolf drags the sheep away and scatters the flock. The hired hand is concerned about what he is going to get paid and not about the sheep. "I am the good shepherd. I know my sheep as my Father knows me. My sheep know me as I know the Father. So I give my life for my sheep." </span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858082016-02-16T16:00:00-08:002016-02-16T16:58:08-08:00Shaken Babies<address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">Shaken babies, awaken</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">to the sound of My singing</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">For the day has come</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">My glory has risen</span></address><address>
<span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"></span> </address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">May all that you have lost</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">Be returned to you tenfold and more</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">More than you could ever imagine</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">More than you could ever ask for</span></address><address>
<span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"></span> </address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">The quakes will quiet down</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">But for now, they roar</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">Echo in your darkest places</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">Flood into your pores</span></address><address>
<span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"></span> </address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">But for all My children</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">Who suffered at the hands</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">of the wicked, wayward world</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">and who with the demons dance</span></address><address>
<span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"></span> </address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">Remember My promise to you</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">Think of the kingdom that awaits</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">And forgive the demon dancers</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">Let your hearts bloodlet the hate</span></address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">as you leave them to My fate...</span></address><address>
<span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"></span> </address><address><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">-NMJS</span></address>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858072016-01-24T16:00:00-08:002016-01-25T02:51:06-08:00Hidden Resources<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">I believe that fear is compassion in seed form. Heal the fear, and compassion bursts forth. The instinctual self must not become the enemy. Anger, greed, and lust are all hidden resources that can be transformed into love, clarity, wisdom, and courage. Everything in nature is holy, and every chakra holds the seeds of our illumination and of who we are becoming.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Alberto Villoldo, author of <em>Shaman</em>, <em>Healer</em>, <em>Sage</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858062016-01-12T16:00:00-08:002016-01-12T18:43:19-08:00The Lord Looks at the Heart<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">But the Lord said to Samuel, "Do not look at his appearance or at his physical stature, because I have refused him. For the Lord does not see as man sees; for man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">- 1 Samuel 16:7 NKJV</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858052016-01-09T16:00:00-08:002016-01-10T03:55:02-08:00The Unconscious Group<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"A good example of the way the unconscious group operates is the way a group selects a 'troublemaker' who then performs a function on behalf of other members of the group as well as themselves. This is a person who always challenges administration, who constantly argues, who gives off nonverbal signs of frustration in meetings but never does anything positive, who is always tardy, and who bullies other people. Many groups and organizations have a 'difficult', 'disturbed', or 'impossible' member whose behavior is regarded as getting in the way of the others' good work. There may be a widely shared belief that if only that person would leave, then everything would be fine. This view is very attractive, hard to resist and tempting to act upon... As happens very often, no sooner had one troublesome person left, than another one appeared... this unconscious suction of individuals into performing a function on behalf of others as well as themselves happens in all institutions."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">- Sandra Bloom, author of <em>Destroying Sanctuary</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858042015-12-30T16:00:00-08:002015-12-31T04:34:19-08:00The Story of Psyche<p><span style="font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: medium;">People in the transition often have limited amounts of strength, health or energy as they go into the underworld. For example, the </span><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif;">story of Psyche speaks to people living with cancer. They say, "Cancer was a cure for my co-dependency. Cancer was a way in which I could say to people, "I can't do that." The ability to say "No" is one of the challenges for a feeling man or the feminine psyche. When other people expect you to always be there for them, and you break form by saying "No," you create a crisis in a relationship. It may be that you need to not stay in the underworld of your own depression or your own addiction or your own whatever it is, it is there. Addiction, illness, and depression are images of the underworld that you need to get through in order to get out. This liminal period of transition is a very long one. The tasks to be done keep on growing. It's hard. It's scary. If you're going to make it through this transition to the new phase of your life in which you have integrated the new you, with all that you are for the next phase of your life, you've got to often learn to say "No." Otherwise the people who have expectations of you will use your energy. Say "No," and they'll say, "You're selfish." Psyche manages to do all of that. She returns to the upper world. She's no longer in the underworld. She has made it through.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: arial, helvetica, sans-serif;">http://www.peace.ca/mythofpsyche.htm</span></p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858032015-12-30T16:00:00-08:002015-12-31T04:03:27-08:00Happy New Years!<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/f4e90f6d6486d33c502d78688350f9d541971238/original/ap-01-13-2013-44896917-l-1024x683.jpg/!!/b%3AWyJyZXNpemU6MTAyNHg2ODMiXQ%3D%3D.jpg" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="683" width="1024" /></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858022015-12-15T16:00:00-08:002015-12-16T04:33:01-08:00Trauma-Organized Systems<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">"The outcome of a traumatic experience will be in part determined by the pre-traumatic level of organizational health and integrity. We believe that at this point, our social service network is functioning as a trauma-organized system still largely unaware of the multiple ways in which its adaptation to chronic stress has created a state of dysfunction that in some cases virtually prohibits the recovery of the individual clients who are the source of its underlying and original mission, and damages many of the people who work within it." - Sandra Bloom, author of <em>Destroying Sanctuary</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858012015-12-15T16:00:00-08:002015-12-16T00:56:31-08:00The Touch of Trauma<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">"Just the encroachment of trauma into the life of an individual client is an insidious process that turns the past into a nightmare, the present into a repetitive cycle of reenactment, and the future into a terminal illness..." - Sandra Bloom, author of <em>Destroying Sanctuary</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59858002015-12-13T16:00:00-08:002015-12-14T14:31:09-08:00Broken and Beautiful<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/0a121a34fe556488ed932e302f47cc29698b1103/original/10533456-800807283293096-6604592750565235800-n.jpg/!!/b%3AWyJyZXNpemU6NzAweDcwMCJd.jpg" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="700" width="700" /></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857992015-12-07T16:00:00-08:002017-07-20T03:25:32-07:00Trauma Stewardship<p><span style="font-size: medium;"><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">The</span> following are excerpts from the book <em>Trauma Stewardship</em> by Laura Van Dernoot Lipsky with Connie Burk:</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"Ethical work cannot be sustained in an eroding environment that fails to support its workers."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"... when people perceive their organizations to be supportive, they experience lower levels of vicarious trauma." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"Service rationing refers to the process that workers go through to bridge the everyday divide between the ideal of how they would work if they were free to function to the best of their ability and the reality of how they can work, given the numerous obstacles in their way."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"Our responses to trauma exposure can foster a defended, exclusive, and hopeless culture in the organizations we work for. Think about how your workplace feels. What's the energy level? What's the vibe? These qualities have nothing to do with the intensity of the work. Instead, they have to do with the degree to which the organization's structures, policies, and attitudes support or impede the workers' efforts to fulfill the mission." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"An organization's culture can become so steeped in notions of scarcity that it enforces policies radically incongruent with the original mission."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"We frequently see trauma exposure response manifest in our work in two other ways: lack of accountability and unethical behavior."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"One example of systemic oppression is structural violence. This concept was introduced in the 1970s by Johan Galtung, a pioneering Norwegian researcher in peace and conflict, and founder of the International Peace Research Institute. He describes structural violence as: a form of violence which corresponds with the systemic ways in which a given social structure or social institution kills people slowly by preventing them from meeting their basic needs. Institutionalized elitism, ethnocentrism, classism, racism, sexism, adultism, nationalism, heterosexism and ageism are just some examples of structural violence."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"Caregiver stress is directly related to the way our society views the elderly and the people who care for them," elder-care expert Vitaliano says..."Today, caregiving is viewed largely as a burden in this country. If it were viewed as more of a societal expectation and people were willing to offer more support, fewer caregivers would suffer in isolation, [Vitaliano] says. In turn, fewer elders and disabled people would experience abuse or neglect at the hands of caregiving individuals or institutions." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"Many of our fields and places of work seem to function [] from a place of tremendous urgency. This sense of urgency distracts many organizations from addressing how to best retain healthy, happy people who will continue to contribute to the betterment of the world."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"The deeper we sink into a culture of trauma, the less flexible and original our thinking becomes." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"Only the person who is relaxed can create and to that mind, ideas flow like lightning." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"When we contend with trauma exposure [] we often find ourselves craving more structure and less creativity. We may resist change even when existing structures are out of date and detrimental to us personally and professionally."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"Taking sides can surface in workplace dynamics. We may see it in the form of gossip, cliques, divisions among staff, and rigid expectations of workers."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"People who bear witness to a range of human experience may become increasingly inoculated to others' pain. We may start being moved by each person's story, but over time it may take more and more intense or horrific expressions of suffering to deeply move us. We may consider less extreme experiences of trauma as less real and therefore less deserving of our time and support. Minimizing occurs when we trivialize a current situation by comparing it with another situation that we regard as more dire."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"Minimizing is not setting priorities in our work, it is the experience of losing our compassion and ability to empathize because we are comparing others' suffering or putting it into a hierarchy." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"Often when individuals try to deal with their anger honestly, directly, and in a good-faith way, it can be so unnerving for those around them that they may be viewed as a bitch or labeled intimidating."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"The system is perfectly designed to produce the results it does - I keep hearing that quote. The frustrating part for me is that when you have a system that is producing a lot of trauma, people focus on that trauma, and there's very little attention focused on the source. What is this system that is churning out so many people who are suffering? I know there are not infinite resources, but if we could put even 10 percent of our resources into what is generating trauma, then we could make a difference. Otherwise, I think we're all going to just get overwhelmed. I'm learning that it is incredibly hard to manifest all this in your own life. There is a huge burden of responsibility on the individual to shift things, and of course that's true - the individual is the first place it starts. Still, it's very, very hard to take responsibility for my own health when the systems and the culture around me are designed to provide minimal support for health." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"While the rubble of the World Trade Center still smoldered, then-president George Bush implored us to go shopping as a testimony to our nation's resolve. Not to grieve, not to be kind to each other, not to reflect deeply and humbly on the series of wounds and tragedies that preceded the hijackers' confoundingly violent and hopeless attacks, not to pitch in and make a difference in our own communities, but to shop. While this comment has often been remarked upon, it remains a shining example of how distracted and numbed-out our culture and governance can become. It also indicates how alienating it can be to work for social and environmental justice. For many people, it can be crazy-making and lonely to see that there are tangible causes of suffering, but at the same time to be surrounded by people who are committed to obliterating any such awareness from their - and our - consciousness." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">"An important roles of the community we create around us is to refuse to collude with our harmful internal patterns." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;"></span> </p>
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<p><img src="//d10j3mvrs1suex.cloudfront.net/u/393997/f18a2269a51e58d8957adbcbbab66abb535c59ce/original/cartoon-002.jpg/!!/b%3AWyJyZXNpemU6MTM3NHgxMTc2Il0%3D.jpg" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="1176" width="1374" /></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857982015-11-30T16:00:00-08:002015-12-01T07:59:59-08:00Evil Exists<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"... people believe that you're some kind of basic religious nut if you believe in the devil." - Kate Bagby, mother of murdered son and grandson featured in the documentary <em>Dear Zachary</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857972015-11-19T16:00:00-08:002015-11-20T00:38:54-08:00Too Sensitive<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">The other day, a colleague told me I was "too sensitive." I've been told this many times in my life and I used to internalize it and think that something was wrong with me. After all, being "too" anything means that you have too much of that thing, right? Usually, when someone says that you are "too sensitive", they are discounting what you are saying, how you are feeling or what you are thinking. And then, you start to discount yourself as well because they said that. Well, now I've come to honor my empathetic abilities and see them as a strength rather than a weakness. After all, my sensitivity is what allows me to be compassionate towards others and meet them at their pain and walk with them in their pain and through their pain. My sensitivity is what allows me to write songs that reach people on a deeper level and songs that translate pain that not only I feel but what others may be feeling as well. My sensitivity is what drives me to try to understand other people rather than just dismiss them with judgments. My sensitivity is what drives me to advocate for those that are less fortunate or cannot speak for themselves. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">I believe that God doesn't make mistakes. I was born sensitive and I was born this way for a reason. So, if you are also someone who has been labeled as "too sensitive", see it a strength and see it as a good thing no matter what anyone else says. There have been so many great sensitive people throughout history that stand as wonderful examples of how to use your sensitivity for a higher purpose. Some examples of my sensitive heroes include Oprah, Thich Nhat Hanh, Dalai Lama, Ghandi, Kurt Cobain, Mother Teresa, St. Francis of Assisi, Marsha Linehan, Wayne Dyer, Jon Conte, Rumi, Brian Weiss, Langston Hughes, Gary Zukav, Eckhart Tolle, Princess Diana, Arianna Huffington, Maya Angelou, and many more. So, if you too are someone who has been called "too sensitive", know that you stand in good company.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Back in 2003, I wrote a poem called:</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: large; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">One of the Last Great Sensitives</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"></span> </p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">I</span><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"> know that I am </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">one of the last great sensitives</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">for the world is warping us </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">into one of their own</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">telling us we're too sensitive </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">telling us to toughen up</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">touching us in our soft spots</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">sneaking cold into our hearts</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">and thick under our skin</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">and hardness into our souls</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"></span> </p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Don't let it work on you</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">and I won't let it work on me</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">for we're much too loving to lose what we believe</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">They can turn the tide whichever way they want</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">but if I'm to be swallowed, I am to be swallowed whole</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">not broken down piece by piece</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">by that pushy sales lady posing as a concerned caregiver</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">by that sea of angry mobsters posing as day care workers</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">by the exclusive, by the bullies, by the gossipers, by the mindless, by the selfish, by the lazy, by the unethical, by the corrupt, by the materialistic, by the chauvinistic, by the powers that be</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">They may all band together against me but</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">I will not sway, I will remain</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">one of the last great sensitives</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"> </span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857962015-11-07T16:00:00-08:002015-11-08T05:12:15-08:00For the Hearing Impaired and Those Who Love Them<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Hearing impaired individuals such as myself can choose to advocate for themselves, seek assistance from their loved ones and from doctors at times in order to navigate through a world where those with normal hearing often are not sensitive to or compassionate towards them. Like with any disability or impairment, doing something as simple as requesting accommodations at your job, such as asking for a quiet place to work, can bring a lot of resentment and bullying from co-workers who may feel that you are receiving special treatment. If you have an inexperienced or unsupportive boss, supervisor or lead worker, the problem becomes magnified especially if they want to please those who are complaining. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">I was trying to find a quiet restaurant to go to with my husband on a date night yesterday evening. While he wanted to go to The Ram, I declined going there because I find it too loud and then we wouldn't be able to have much conversation. So we decided to check out a new restaurant by our home. The cement floors must have added to the acoustics of the place because it was so loud, I wanted to leave as soon as I walked into the place. I decided to give it a chance and sat down in a booth with my only hearing ear out to the waitress. At one point, it sounded like a lawnmower was coming through the place. After a few minutes of trying to deal with that sound, I decided I had had enough. So we left and went to Duke's Chowder House which has a nice quiet ambience. Though it is a little pricier, I was willing to pay the extra money to be able to dine out and have a conversation with my husband. Sure, we had a really loud woman sitting at the table next to us, but overall, the experience was pleasant. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Though I have some really good hearing aids, most people don't understand that wearing hearing aids isn't like wearing glasses for those with visual impairments. You can't all of a sudden hear well, especially in a loud, noisy environment. I have worked with co-workers who have mocked me by becoming louder after I have asked them to quiet down. They probably feel that they shouldn't have to change who they naturally are. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">My husband gets tired of having to repeat himself and may accuse me of not listening to him but on the whole, he is pretty good at hearing and speaking for me when we are out in public in noisy places. Given my hearing loss, those with high-pitched voices, those with soft voices, those who mumble, and those with accents are extremely difficult to hear. If there is a meeting going on, I am not capable of having a side conversation at the same time. If I am on the phone with someone, I am not capable of hearing anything someone else who is trying to tell me even if they are standing right by me. I've gotten accused of ignoring people, of being stuck up and of many other things because of my hearing impairment. I bump into people more often and get startled more often because I can't always hear people approaching me. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">When I first lost my hearing, it was one of the worst experiences in my life. Being someone who listened to people for a living and whose passion is listening to and making music, losing my hearing was depressing to say the least. While I have decided in my soul to continue to persevere and explore my own resiliency in order to inspire others and get on with living, I have found that the lack of compassion from those with normal hearing has been the biggest stressor in all of this. For this reason, I am recommending that those who wish to have more compassion for the hearing impaired read the excellent article below that explains while those with hearing impairments struggle in noisy environments. I know that for me, it is like swimming against a riptide:</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"><a href="http://www.purdue.edu/newsroom/releases/2012/Q3/study-hearing-impaired-ears-hear-differently-in-noisy-environments.html">http://www.purdue.edu/newsroom/releases/2012/Q3/study-hearing-impaired-ears-hear-differently-in-noisy-environments.html</a></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857952015-11-04T16:00:00-08:002015-11-05T12:44:38-08:00The Dream Keeper<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Bring me all of your dreams,</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">You dreamers,</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Bring me all of your</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Heart melodies</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">That I may wrap them</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">In a blue cloud-cloth</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Away from the too-rough fingers</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Of the world.</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857942015-10-30T17:00:00-07:002015-10-31T05:40:02-07:00The Best Shepherd<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"It is also my opinion that even though we have a free will, God can sovereignly intervene and block some wrong choices. I know that His "messing around with my plans" prevented me from accidents, wrong relationships, and hidden traps. And there are undoubtedly a multitude of things in the unseen world that never occurred because Jesus is the best Shepherd." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">- Mickey Robinson, author of <em>Falling Into Heaven</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857932015-10-27T17:00:00-07:002015-10-28T15:18:40-07:00Counterintuitive Thankfulness<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"I am training you to thank Me not only for obvious blessings but also for situations you would never have chosen - a wayward child or spouse; loss of health, home, or employment. This is counterintuitive thankfulness, and it is possible only to the extent that you trust Me at a deep level. It is also a matter of self-discipline; willing yourself to thank Me even when your circumstances are screaming at you to find a way out. Though it is wise to look for ways to improve your situation, you cannot force My hand - or My timing. Just keep coming into My Presence with thanksgiving. Your persistent thankfulness may actually provide the long-awaited key I will use to unlock major difficulties in your life. Giving thanks to Me can open doors in ways that transcend your understanding."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">- Sarah Young, author of <em>Jesus Today</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857922015-10-16T17:00:00-07:002015-10-16T23:44:05-07:00Stung by Jesus<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Want to share the story of an atheist who encountered Jesus during a near-death experience after he was stung by 5 jellyfish while scuba diving:</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"><a href="http://www.near-death.com/experiences/notable/ian-mccormack.html">http://www.near-death.com/experiences/notable/ian-mccormack.html</a></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857912015-10-09T17:00:00-07:002015-10-10T04:13:14-07:00Hiding in the Light<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Sharing excerpts from an excellent book I just got done reading: Hiding in the Light by Rifqa Bary</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">So much for the "innocent until proven guilty" philosophy. There's something about a prison jumpsuit that equalizes the playing field and passes sentence without saying a word. But like before I was intent on my public face being as bright and unaffected as I could make it. So as I approached the group, I smiled at one of the guards and chirped, "Good morning!" "Humph!" he snorted, mocking me. "You look so happy to be in jail. <em>Bless your heart</em>," he smarted off sarcastically whle attaching heavy chains to my hands, waist, and feet..." ... I kept telling myself, <em>What an honor, Rifqa, to be suffering for Christ, walking in the footsteps of your Lord</em>." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">I actually had two types of cancer. One of them (rhabdomyosarcoma) was commonly found in young children, while the other (adenocarcinoma) was generally seen only in menopausal women. I was neither, of course. And yet I had both. Taken together, they gave me one of the worse and weirdest forms of uterine cancer anybody had ever seen.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">In the basement of this kind woman's house on a rainy night in Ohio, looking for the first time at my brown bald head, I made a deal with God. "You know, Lord, the Bible says a woman's hair is her glory. Well, I am laying down my glory tonight, all my strength and my beauty, for Yours." I paused in my thoughts as the weight of this truth consumed me. "And when it grows back," I said to myself in utter, undeniable faith, "will You let it be more beautiful than it was before?"</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">...my oncologist, of course, who looked me straight in the eye, trying to convince me with his solemn countenance. "Rifqa, dear, do you realize what you're doing? You are going to die if you go through with this." I wouldn't be moved. I'd decided. I was dying anyway. What the cancer wasn't doing, the chemo was. The path I needed to walk had become - I don't know how to describe it exactly - very clear to me. And chemotherapy wasn't part of it. ... I knew in my spirit that God was calling me to do this, and I decided I would rather die in obedience to Him than live in disobedience and possibly survive the treatment. ... my life was not my own anymore...</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Through my own experience, I have gained a passion for justice that has not left me. Ultimately, I know it is God who executes true justice. There is no judicial system that can restore to me everything I have lost; it is God who avenges.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Not everyone's story can be laid over everyone else's and used as a grid or template for determining how a person is supposed to react.</span></p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857902015-10-09T17:00:00-07:002015-10-10T00:40:13-07:00All Songs Considered<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Check out this great podcast I've discovered:</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"><a href="http://www.npr.org/sections/allsongs/2015/10/02/445007469/all-songs-1-mark-ronson-on-making-something-old-new-again">http://www.npr.org/sections/allsongs/2015/10/02/445007469/all-songs-1-mark-ronson-on-making-something-old-new-again</a></span></p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857892015-10-03T17:00:00-07:002015-10-04T13:10:43-07:00The Honor of Being a Scapegoat<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Whenever there is hardship in life, one of the best ways Christians deal with it is by finding honor in the hardship and by taking up our crosses proudly like Jesus did. After all, Christians always try to emulate Jesus as much as they can. For example, when part of my rib was removed after cancer was found in my abdomen, one of the things that got me through the whole cancer experience was wearing my new scar and deformity as a badge of honor. After all, wasn't Jesus speared in the ribs when he was still on the cross? Did he not bear a similar wound? The rib is also mentioned in other parts of the bible such as in Genesis when God takes a rib from Adam to make Eve. Perhaps removing my rib was creating something wonderful and powerful in my life.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">The situation that I am currently trying to transmute is the whole experience of witnessing the scapegoating of others as well as being scapegoated myself. I find great peace in the book of Leviticus where the bible speaks of the scapegoat needing to be innocent in order to atone for the sins of the people that are sacrificing it. I realize that this annual ritual on the day of atonement ended, for Christians, when Jesus was the ultimate sacrifice for our sins. But there were 2 scapegoats in Jewish tradition, one that was sacrificed and perished and one living scapegoat that was shunned from the community and took away the impurities and sins of the people to the wilderness. The high priest would place his hands on the heads of the goats and symbolically transfer the sins of the people onto the goats. Together the goat sacrificed and the living scapegoat showed that the goats were substituted for the people and that they bore the penalty of sin.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">While I do believe that Jesus was both the sacrificed scapegoat and the shunned scapegoat whose spirit lives on, I believe that Christians too and anyone for that matter can be a scapegoat as Jesus was. So if you have been shunned, excommunicated, or scapegoated in anyway, think of it as a honor as you are following the footsteps of Jesus, and performing a great service to your community by expunging its sins. </span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857882015-09-28T17:00:00-07:002015-09-29T15:41:19-07:00In the Midst of Wolves<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"I send you out as sheep in the midst of wolves. Therefore be wise as serpents and harmless as doves."</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">- Matthew 10:16 NKJV</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857872015-08-25T17:00:00-07:002015-08-26T12:21:57-07:00A Friend Who Cares<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not caring, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">- Henri J. M. Nouwen, <em>The Road to Daybreak</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857862015-08-12T17:00:00-07:002015-08-12T21:26:56-07:00On True Stewardship<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much, and whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much. So if you have not been trustworthy in handling worldly wealth, who will trust you with true riches? </span></p>
<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">- From <em>The Parable of the Unrighteous Steward</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857852015-07-22T17:00:00-07:002015-07-23T15:06:25-07:00We are all One<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Soon I began to see and feel Jesus and he was smiling. I felt the most intense love coming from him and at the same time emanating from my heart. That love was just like the love I had felt in the presence of Sai Baba and Anandamayi Ma. But it was now within me in the form of Jesus. I kept trying to quiet the thoughts but suddenly my conscious mind popped out and shouted, "Jesus?" "What are you doing here? I'm Jewish and looking for my Indian guru. How did Jesus get here?"</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Then I heard him gently reply that he was Jewish also, that in fact he was every religion and no religion. He had many amazing teachings for me. One of them was that "God does not want us to be divided in His name. God wants us to be united in His name. We are all One."</span></p>
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<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">The above is an excerpt from <em>Longing For Belonging: Pilgrimage of Transformation</em> by Diane Zimberoff</span></p>
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<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857842015-07-22T17:00:00-07:002015-07-22T23:17:51-07:00Victory of the People<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"... the victory of a single soul over any darkness lights the path for all who follow." - Guy Finley</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857832015-07-13T17:00:00-07:002015-07-14T16:32:23-07:00Growing Into a Love That Lasts<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Here is a simple set of instructions for those who want their love to last:</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"><em>Don't try to please each other, for each of you has constantly changing pleasures. </em> Instead strive to please love... and in this you will please what is capable of being loved in one another. This understanding alone nourishes your love, and in turn love will nourish your life together.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"><em>Teach and help each other to be independent. </em> Wrongful dependency on one another breeds fear and cruelty. Instead, learn to depend on love, for love breeds love ... and real love is always independent and kind.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"><em>Don't try to change each other, either subtly or openly.</em> This creates resentment. Instead, let the other find his or her way. This doesn't mean to condone whatever is seen as being wrong or obviously mistaken. It simply means don't condemn one another for a weakness, as love never lashes out but always strives to lift.</span></p>
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<p><strong><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">The above is an excerpt from: <em>The Secret of Your Immortal Self: Key Lessons for Realizing the Divinity Within</em> by Guy Finley</span></strong></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857822015-07-03T17:00:00-07:002015-07-04T07:02:29-07:00Mental illness<p>When we dismiss those with mental illness as simply "crazy", we miss an opportunity to develop our compassion, understanding of the problem and ability to correct the problem.</p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857812015-06-05T17:00:00-07:002015-06-07T02:51:37-07:00Endorsement of Tolerance<p><span style="font-size: medium;">Just want to put it out there that I support Caitlyn Jenner and feel that she's being an excellent role model not only for her children but for all the children of the world, especially transgender youth who are no doubt hating themselves or living in fear at this time in history. As I am following the online stories about Caitlyn Jenner, I am saddened to read all the hateful comments in response to her willingness to be a trailblazer and brave public figure in order to bring the issues of tolerance and self-acceptance to world's attention. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">I am a Christian but I am not any brand of Christian that spews hate. Jesus loved everyone and I will attempt to do the same. Regardless of my own spiritual beliefs, I am evolved enough to know that you cannot and should not expect everyone else to share your same beliefs and values. Otherwise, there would be no diversity in the world.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">I do hope that part of Caitlyn's journey will be to over come the victim mentality that she has regarding her ex-wife, Kris Jenner. I think Kris, more than anyone, has every right to be angry as she's grieving and questioning everything about their relationship, wondering what was real. Anger is a natural part of grief. Who wouldn't be angry and confused in such a situation? I don't feel people should be attacking Kris for being intolerant, including Caitlyn. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">When you are married to someone who is living a lie, you are married to a miserable person who is likely projecting their anger onto you, especially if you are someone who gets to be the gender they want to be. You also become part of their lie unknowingly which isn't fair. Things obviously weren't completely communicated honestly in their marriage. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">Of course, as you are struggling to accept yourself and know who you truly are inside, you can only communicate to your partner that which you are completely conscious of yourself. We get so good at denying and repressing parts of ourselves out of fear of what our families and society will think or say. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">I can understand the concern that Caitlyn Jennner's children have about how much hate will be heaped upon her from the world. I realize that most of these hateful remarks and comments that I read are due to people being afraid and confused. Hopefully, our society won't see the violence that we saw during the civil rights movement when fear and hate threatened desegregation. Of course, we must admit that we are still working on equal rights for all. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium;">Intolerance can be insidious but it appears to be more directly vicious at this time with Caitlyn Jenner coming out. As I see more and more people follow their hate and justify their judgments upon others, I hope I can be like Caitlyn and dare to be different. I hope I can choose love at every turn on this winding road towards tolerance of others and self-acceptance. </span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857802015-05-30T17:00:00-07:002015-05-31T15:29:38-07:00Compassion<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"Compassion is not a relationship between the healer and the wounded. It's a relationship between equals. Only when we know our own darkness well can we be present with the darkness of others. Compassion becomes real when we recognize our shared humanity." </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">- Pema Chodron</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857792015-05-28T17:00:00-07:002015-05-29T11:19:24-07:00Courage<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">- Mary Anne Radmacher</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857782015-05-11T17:00:00-07:002015-05-12T15:08:09-07:00Letting Go of the Negative<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">I challenge you today to let every NEGATIVE thing go in your life and do not pick it back up! Throw it away! Discard it! Flush it! Bury it! It is DEAD WEIGHT! Throw it overboard and allow it to sink to the pits of hell. It is your time and purpose to be free and delivered from bondage! If things and people are holding you back, release them!</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Remember, you cannot go up higher, if you are hanging on to dead anchor weight! Just LET IT GO!</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">- Dawgelene Sangster, author <em>Behold You: Change From Within</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857772015-05-11T17:00:00-07:002015-05-12T15:04:04-07:00Healing Power<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">When you link, in love, to the light that is everywhere - healing must follow.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">- Jack Angelo, author of <em>Your Healing Power</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857762015-04-27T17:00:00-07:002015-04-28T08:58:44-07:00Two Wolves<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">Ours is a world that two wolves try to devour - the first is the wolf of skeptical science and religious fundamentalism (they are the same one). The second is the wolf of our cosmic connection, synchronicity, astral realms, and manifestation by intention. The wolf that dominates our life is the wolf we feed.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">- Mark Ireland, author of <em>Soul Shift</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857752015-03-12T17:00:00-07:002015-03-14T00:58:07-07:00New Light<p> <span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">"The light does not push out the darkness - the light penetrates the darkness, infusing it with brightness. Growing means bringing your fears inside of you, seeing the beliefs that make them seem so potent, and then infusing them with new light and understanding." - Mira Kelley, author of <em>Beyond Past Lives</em></span></p>
<p> </p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857742015-02-27T16:00:00-08:002015-02-27T23:27:28-08:00I Remember Your Heart<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">I can't remember your name</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Might not recognize your face</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Bits of your story have fallen away</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">as beautifully as snow flakes</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"></span> </p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">The details don't stick</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">in this ancient mind of mine</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">but when I look in your eyes, I feel the spark</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">For it's then that I remember your heart</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"></span> </p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">And a flood of memories enters in</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">to nourish the barren fields I'm left with</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">and suddenly I'm swimming in a sea of love</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">where I can recall what's most precious</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"></span> </p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Your beauty as simple as a Rumi poem</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Your story as timeless as a gemstone</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Your heart as gentle as the fallen snow</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Still pure despite the bitter cold</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"></span> </p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">You will always mean something to me</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Though circumstance pulled us apart</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">And as I remember less and less, dear</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Please know that I'll always remember your heart</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857732015-02-24T16:00:00-08:002015-02-25T13:52:18-08:00The Christian Mystery<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"></span>"The Christian mystery involves knowing that we are saved by grace and yet living as if our entry to heaven depended on our service to others." - Laura Beth Jones, author of <em>Jesus in Blue Jeans</em></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857722015-02-12T16:00:00-08:002015-02-12T21:05:31-08:00Quote of the Day<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">The quote that is inspiring today is: "Follow me now. Let those who are spiritually dead care for their own dead." - Mathew 8:21-22</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Great quote when you are needing to let go and start a covenant with the present.</span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857712014-09-30T17:00:00-07:002014-10-01T11:57:56-07:00Halloween Greetings!<div class="irc_mutc"><a class="irc_mutl" href="http://www.google.com/url?sa=i&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=images&cd=&cad=rja&uact=8&docid=wxJVkjcmK02L6M&tbnid=FCDbMQBHmT5XaM:&ved=0CAcQjRw&url=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.orkutwala.com%2Fhalloween-glitter-scraps-1.html&ei=rrAsVICQJYq6igL3nYAw&bvm=bv.76802529,d.cGE&psig=AFQjCNHwh0o62A9c5Bq-5ytWDzsieTiR9Q&ust=1412300215290712" data-ved="0CAcQjRw"><img src="https://encrypted-tbn3.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQrPJfjJ2yZJXLJQ7KSTL2E4Z9iPI0Ba3GuyIpZpFG1DU7A4qsx" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="255" style="margin-top: 189px;" width="450" /></a></div>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857702014-09-30T17:00:00-07:002014-10-01T11:54:16-07:00Cool Halloween Pic<div class="irc_mutc"><a class="irc_mutl" href="http://www.google.com/url?sa=i&rct=j&q=&esrc=s&source=images&cd=&cad=rja&uact=8&docid=hQConNHWGPflvM&tbnid=2Vkac92A2jfFnM:&ved=0CAcQjRw&url=http%3A%2F%2Fhalloweenbackground.blogspot.com%2F&ei=8q8sVLiPEeq1iwLHtoCICw&bvm=bv.76802529,d.cGE&psig=AFQjCNHwh0o62A9c5Bq-5ytWDzsieTiR9Q&ust=1412300215290712" data-ved="0CAcQjRw"><img src="https://encrypted-tbn2.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcSdNhyqYgJHGSsJT5L49LWqRTVVcI0vqWNgR5L0BRkkYm0Dqd2K" class="size_orig justify_inline border_" alt="" height="495" style="margin-top: 69px;" width="495" /></a></div>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857692014-09-30T17:00:00-07:002014-10-01T11:51:57-07:00Trick or Treat<center>
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<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif; font-size: medium;">- Richard Sigmund, author of <em>My</em> <em>Time</em> <em>in</em> <em>Heaven</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857672014-08-15T17:00:00-07:002014-08-16T07:22:11-07:00For Survivors of Suicide<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">In the Darkest Hour</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: large; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;"></span> </p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">When the skies are blue, but there's darkness all about</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Just think of me as your light,</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Just ask for help and I will be there,</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Because I am the guardian of your light.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Through your eyes you will see me</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">As I am your angel in the darkest night.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">As I watch over you when you sleep,</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">I will protect you as you sleep,</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">I will let no harm come unto you.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">When times are hard and tears will flow,</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">I will wrap my wings around you and let my love flow.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">So don't give up, my beautiful one,</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">As we are not to meet just yet.</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">There will be a time when we will unite,</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">But until then, I will see that only</span></p>
<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">Joy and love will surround you.</span></p>
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<p style="text-align: center;"><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">- Sue Nicholson, author of <em>A Call from the Other Side</em></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857662013-11-06T16:00:00-08:002013-11-07T09:13:57-08:00For All You Aliens<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower', sans-serif;">I have always felt like an alien in this world trying to appear normal while feeling strange inside. I also feel like a hypersensitive person trying to fit in by becoming cold and hard inside. I wrote this song, <em>Cold World</em>, based on a dream I had where I was wandering through a dwelling in a tree's stump in the dark. In one rooms of the dwelling, a couple were having sex. In another room, someone was shooting up and at one point a black cat stood in my path. Anyway, based on this dream, I wrote the lyrics and the music to this song on my piano immediately upon awakening. This song was never mixed properly for reasons stated in my last blog. Even though it is incomplete, I think you can still hear the haunting beauty of the song. Click on this link to listen: <a href="/files/434548/cold-world-w-back-vox.mp3">Cold_World_w_back_vox.mp3</a></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857652013-09-09T17:00:00-07:002013-09-10T16:48:00-07:00Happy Halloween!<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;"> </span></span><a href="http://youtu.be/maUH91X9_bI" target="_blank"><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;">http://youtu.be/maUH91X9_bI</span></span></a></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857642013-05-17T17:00:00-07:002013-05-18T00:49:22-07:00Becoming Love<p><span style="font-size: medium; font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;">Welcome the release of my second book "Becoming Love" about recovery from love addiction. It will be available at the following: Apple iBookstore (for ipad), Amazon (for Kindle), Barnes & Noble (for NOOK), Reader Store (for Sony Reader), Kobo, Copia, Gardners, Baker & Taylor, eBookPie, eSentral, and Scribd. </span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857632013-03-25T17:00:00-07:002013-03-26T12:51:00-07:00New Music Video<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Check out my music video for All the Lights of Heaven at </span></span><a href="http://youtu.be/T-Ebvm_j7xo" target="_blank"><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;">http://youtu.be/T-Ebvm_j7xo</span></span></a><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;"> </span></span></p>nicolemariemusic.comtag:nicolemariemusic.com,2005:Post/59857622013-03-18T17:00:00-07:002013-03-23T07:55:07-07:00Music Video Project<p><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;">Just finished editing my first music video. I know I went crazy on the effects but it's my first attempt so gimme a break already! Here's the youtube link if you'd like to check it out: </span></span><a href="http://youtu.be/bcqPSotorGk" target="_blank"><span style="font-family: 'Indie Flower',sans-serif;"><span style="font-size: medium;">http://youtu.be/bcqPSotorGk</span></span></a></p>
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